Thursday, December 17, 2009
I was moved to tears this morning........it wasn't a bad thing either. There are some people on Sparkpeople that can make such a difference in your life. I know I have been truly blessed and my life will never be the same. Many of you reading this are counted in that blessing.....
As many of you know, I have been struggling with the surgery question. To have or not to have......that is the question. My husband has been pushing me towards it but has also said that it's my decision. I haven't been sure.
Today I received an email from a beautiful sparker who is very much succeeding at her weight loss journey. She doesn't know I'm writing this so I won't identify her by name, only because I don't want to offend her if she minds. She gave me some wonderful incites and I would like to share a couple of her comments with you......
"....If seeing people dying from smoking every day or being given the death sentence that smokers lungs is, doesn't switch that little switch that needs switching for someone to give up smoking, then I think nothing will.
Same with losing weight. One day, it's there the switch. It's big and bright red and right in front of you and all you have to do when it appears is press it and the rest is easy. But if it doesn't appear then losing weight will be a struggle and a battle that's most likely to end in defeat over and over. "
....."About the moment, the window of opportunity, that you get. If you seize it, that moment is really all it takes. As in, I'm not doing it I did it that moment. What I do now is no different to when I was gaining weight. As in, I wasn't doing that either. It was just a consequence of how I was living. And now, as a consequence of how I am living, I am now losing weight. No scheme, no diet, no effort just a change and decision I made that one time on January 10th 2009.
I make it sound simple and it obviously isn't. And I can't really explain the moment very well either, because it's such an individual experience. But I have heard other people who've made a big change in their life say the same thing that one day it was there the knowledge that today was the day and that henceforth, it would be different.
I know alcoholics and drug addicts often call it rock-bottom, and I suppose that's kinda how I felt as well. Only, I don't think I was as low as I'd ever been. But I definitely felt it was do or die time and rather wisely decided to do. ;) "
She had a lot more to say to me and I will NEVER forget it. I appreciate it so much. You are an amazing person and you are wise beyond your years! The fact that you cared enough to share that with me, leaves me speechless. I really believe now that I can do this on my own.....the healthy way. And I believe in myself and in my strength to do it.
I'm not so foolish to think that is will be easy now, but it will be right and it will be good. Just watch me!.......Just join me! 2010 will be our year to shine!!!! (We may even throw some tinsel around......LOL)
I love Sparkpeople! I love the people of Sparkpeople. You are what makes this tic. Together it's an unstoppable force. We are here for each other through successes and setbacks. We pick each other up like nothing I have ever seen before!
Thank you.....you touch my heart and give me strength!
Monday, December 07, 2009
If you have noticed that I haven't been as active here lately; you are not mistaken. I have been taking some time to reflect and think about my weight loss journey and the steps I want to take to continue the process.
If you read my blog from November 15, you know that my husband has been encouraging me to get a lap band. I have never been a big fan of that type of medical intervention. But in all fairness, I decided to do research on it and make an educated decision on it.
I have been reading on the internet, peeking around spark teams devoted to those subjects, and just last week I went to a seminar about lap bands and gastric bypass.
The only thing I can tell you for certain right now is that personally, I could never have the gastric bypass. It's just not for me.
Now, I'm still not sure about the lap band. I think it could be a good tool. It's not an easy solution. I was surprised when listening to the procedure and requirements after, a lot of the principles that are important to the success of this tool are also Becks principles. I didn't see that coming. But it sure made sense.
I guess when it comes down to it; getting the lap band is the equivalent of willpower. You have no choice but to do it right. Your body won't let you do otherwise.
So, I can honestly tell you, I still haven't decided what I'm going to do. I would rather do it on my own, but if I can't, this would be a viable option. I'm in no hurry to decide.....it's a big decision.
So I will continue to focus on Becks principles and I am doing another challenge to lose 12 pounds this month. (Of course the christmas party for my brother in the service ......yesterday.........did NOT help my cause! But it didn't defeat me either.) So I hope to be back to my spunky self soon.
I hope you are having a great day!!!!
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