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Quit Banging on the Door!

Tuesday, January 07, 2014

So things get crazier and crazier sometimes.

I read a great quote the other day.

‘If God shuts a door quit banging on it. Trust that whatever is behind it is not meant for you.’

What a great quote! I really took it to heart. Twice now I have attempted weight loss surgery. Twice something stopped the process.

I finally settled on that answer and said okay. Things are going okay at WW so let’s just continue on that track.

Until yesterday…..I received a call from the surgeons office and they want to have the ruling looked at. They think I will be approved for surgery if I go to the doctor once a month for six months. I was shocked!

I had already come to terms that I wasn’t going to have the surgery. So what does this mean now?

What is God telling me now? Pray, Pray, Pray!

So this is what I decided to do…..I’m going to make the six months of doctors appointments….I’ve got nothing to lose. That will give me six months of soul searching to see what exactly it is that I want to do. It won’t hurt…I will continue to lose weight…at a very slow pace but that’s okay. Maybe then I will have a clear idea of what I think is the best course for me.

Crazy, huh!



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ALECIA0823 1/12/2014 9:26PM

    Keeping all the appointments is a great idea - and I would take it a step further. Set yourself some realistic, but challenging goals for weight loss and fitness for those 6 months and use every resource that SparkPeople and WW can offer - if you can do it without medical intervention - just you and God making it happen - that's great! It's always better to do it as naturally as possible. However, if after 6 months, the surgery still seems the best way for you to get healthy, then go for it!

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LUCKYDUCK2 1/12/2014 3:51AM

    I feel out of the loop but...I will say a Prayer for you too that whatever you decide...it is the right choice for you, made by you and GOD. Hugs

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FLEMIDG 1/9/2014 12:31AM

    Making the appointments for the next six months sounds like a good plan. Take your time and think it over carefully. It's a big decision. Good luck to you in whatever you choose to do.

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MSLZZY 1/8/2014 11:23PM

    What a turnaround! Think on it carefully and do what they tell you to do. This would be awesome!

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TRAVELGRRL 1/7/2014 8:25PM

    The the quote! I surely don't envy your position. It's a very difficult decision to make. I wish you all the best in the 6 months. I hope you are planning to continue WW during the 6 months; it will help you with portion control and recipes, etc., and you'll need that good info either way. ((hugs))

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ALEXSGIRL1 1/7/2014 6:47PM

    you have a great plan and so does God and the universe

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NANCY- 1/7/2014 1:55PM

    Talk about toying with you. Yikes!
Perhaps it is slow at the surgeons?
I know you will figure it all out.
(One more time around on that roller coaster please.)
You have a great attitude.

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JANET552 1/7/2014 1:28PM

    Good luck!! I think your plan makes a lot of sense. I love the quote!! I copied it to my computer because I need to think about it more.

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    Hmm, God does work in wondrous ways. Keep up the slow steady weight loss pace everyday while seeing your doctor. You may be amazed at what your body does without surgical intervention.

Your post is so timely. I have a friend who has been trying to qualify for weight loss surgery but has been stopped. He found out he has sleep apnea and they won't perform the surgery until he gets that under control. (Which would be kept under control if he lost weight). Then, he had trouble getting a c-pap machine. Now he's got it and he's getting better quality sleep, which gives him more energy, which helps him to move more! I think he is still aiming for the surgery, but ya never know, maybe the roadblock was just what he needed to get the weight off without surgery.

I will pray for God's words and will to be sent your way.

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DEEGIRL50 1/7/2014 12:49PM

    God works in mysterious ways! emoticon
I love your idea of going for the appointments and seeing what's in store for you from there. Gathering information. Professional Support. Effort on your part. Patience.
Keep us updated. I want to know the next chapter! emoticon

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A twist on an old Standard

Monday, December 30, 2013

Twas the day after Christmas, and all through the house
Nothing would fit me, not even a blouse.
The cookies I'd eaten, the eggnog I'd taste
The holiday parties had gone to my waist.

When I got on the scale there arose such a number!
The scale must be broken, I said with a thunder.
I'd remember the wonderful meals I'd prepared;
The gravies and sauces and beef nicely rare,

The wine and the pastries, the bread and the cheese
And the way I'd never said, "No thank you, please."
Nothing would fit me, I felt so depressed.
I knew it was time to start a new quest.

I picked up the phone, to call a dietitian,
Knowing this path was just the right mission.
I won’t feel guilty, I’ll try moderation,
Fad diets have failed and even starvation.

I’ll follow the plan, set up solely for me,
More Fruits and Veggies are part of the key.
I’ll eat more fiber and exercise I’ll start,
And limit the fat that is bad for my heart.

Yes, I’ll call a dietitian to provide inspiration and
Learn new ways to avoid temptation.

A Happy and Healthy New Year to you.
Remember to eat right and exercise too.



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TRAVELGRRL 1/2/2014 2:36PM

    Well said! Hace a wonderful New Year! Great things are coming our way -- the best is yet to come...

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NANCY- 12/31/2013 7:49AM

    Thanks for the laugh, I busted out laughing just reading the first two lines. And thank you for sharing.
Wishing you a Happy and Healthy New Year.

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BECKYBRN 12/31/2013 12:59AM

    Very cool emoticon

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DEEGIRL50 12/30/2013 4:48PM

    emoticon Oh, how true! Thanks for sharing.
Happy Healthy 2014 To You Too!!

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ALEXSGIRL1 12/30/2013 3:01PM

    that was awesome thank you

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RHOOK20047 12/30/2013 1:04PM

    that was good, and I greatly resemble that fact. I gained 1 1/2 lbs this week to my dismay, but I am back in the saddle for a losing way!


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Sometimes you don't have to say anything.

Friday, December 20, 2013



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ELSCO55 12/21/2013 10:29PM

    thanks for the inspiration

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NANCY- 12/21/2013 4:36PM

    Having the courage to honor your path even when it seems like you are not getting anywhere, takes strength.
"Are we there yet?" Hang in there, changes take place over time just like the miles on a trip. We just have to keep going.


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ALEXSGIRL1 12/21/2013 2:48PM

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DEEGIRL50 12/21/2013 11:18AM

    I've trying to travel backwards. It doesn't work well. Looking forward to a happy healthy new year! Take time to enjoy the holidays!
emoticon Dee

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GAYLLYNNE 12/21/2013 7:36AM

    Love these, thanks!

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MSLZZY 12/21/2013 7:05AM

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Merry Christmas!

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LISA_FRAME 12/20/2013 5:33PM

  Love this!

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Focus for the Holidays

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Changing your mindset is not an easy thing. Discovering I couldn’t have the surgery was a setback. But….it was not a deal breaker. I am determined to make the weight loss happen. Heaven knows I’m not perfect at the process…and the truth is I probably won’t ever be….. but I am making progress.

So what is helping?

• I’m not keeping any junk in the house. It helps. (But is quite annoying when you really have that desire to be bad!!)
• DH is doing well on his weight loss journey; however not as well as he has done in the past. I think his age has caught up with him!
• We don’t eat out until we have calculated what we are going to have and where. That way there are no surprises. If we want to splurge, we account for it in our daily goal….very calculated.
• Most of the people in my life are dieting right now…so it really helps for our holiday gatherings!

What hasn’t been helpful?

• It’s the holidays!!!! ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS….CANDY, COOKIES, PIE, PIZZA!! (I know….pizza isn’t a holiday thing but…I always want that…the good Chicago style kind!!!!)
• I’ve been so busy and it has been run….run…run. Fast food is so appealing during those times…but I have been resisting.
• I have a little bit of stress lately. That is my worst problem….when I’m stressed and left alone in the house….I go searching for food. Thank goodness there haven’t been much naughty items to get into at home!

What do I need to improve?

• Tracking what I eat…it has been spotty at times.
• Making time for exercise…seems like I’m always tired.
• Excuses…excuses…I need to eliminate them.

So what has been working for you this holiday season? What has been causing you grief??

Hang in there! We are going to win this war!



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DEEGIRL50 12/20/2013 5:19AM

    Great strategies. Perfect... doesn't exist. Better and better and a little better is the way to go! You've got your focus; your partner; your goals; your inner strength... you've got what it takes!!

Decided I needed a whole blog of my own to answer "what am I dealing with?" Let's just say... I'm ready for a New Year.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!! emoticon emoticon

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CHERIJ16 12/19/2013 11:12AM

    I have been tempted by the Christmas goodies all around and I have given in to them. I guess I need to settle down and get back to business.
Thanks for the reminder. emoticon

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NANCY- 12/19/2013 11:05AM

    Keri I know you have been disappointed, but what I have been able to do was find some new favorites. Most of our Christmas Eve dinner was packaged and processed, not we splurge and have grilled shrimp. For candy, none of that supermarket stuff, fine organic Belgian chocolate from this small shop will only do.
Yes I still splurge, but I have gotten snobbish in my splurges and even though there is less in quantity, it makes up as savor the quality.
Can you find yourself some new healthier treasures?

Wishing you all the best.

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PATTYR81 12/19/2013 9:50AM

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NELLJONES 12/19/2013 8:12AM

    Keeping the junk out of the house is the best buffer to let reason have a chance to work. I want it, but not really. It takes about 10 minutes to be able to talk myself out of it, but only if I have to get in the car to get it. If it's an arm's length away, I don't think I'd be able to maintain the "No".

We CAN get to January happy and healthy!!

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MSLZZY 12/19/2013 7:15AM

    Right now we have cookies setting around. Thankfully, at least one kind is NOT my favorite so I can let them be. What is causing me grief? I am not done shopping yet and the healthcare website is a train wreck but I am dealing with it as best I can. Sadly, too many other things are being ignored and that is never good.

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ALEXSGIRL1 12/18/2013 2:53PM

    I love that you got rid of the junk . the more you start to make food from scratch the more you will enjoy and the healthier you will be . hugs

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MARYDURHAM1959 12/18/2013 2:50PM

    emoticon emoticon I need to keep the junk out of the house too. I have no resistance when it is sitting here calling my name. Fortunately I live alone, so I don't have anyone else tempting me on a daily basis. I have been getting frustrated with all the sparkrecipes for cookies that have been showing up in my email - who needs all those pictures of luscious junk food.

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It's in Gods hands...

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

It’s been such a rough couple of weeks. I wrap my head around this surgery idea and now it’s been taken away from me. All that work for nothing! And you will never guess why……..I’m not fat enough. Trust me….my doctor says I am double my ideal weight but not according to insurance standards.

Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought that would happen…
Don’t you just love insurance companies? So in order to have surgery, I have to gain 25 lbs. and hold it for a year…and have monthly doctor’s appt. for a year.

Call me crazy but I’m not willing to go backward. All sorts of swear words come to mind and anger, frustration, tears….

But my stepdaughter said it best…..

“Let’s put it in God’s hands and see what his plan is…. I think he has a plan for you and it’s a good one cause you deserve it!”

I just love that girl! She is right….

I am not giving up….I just have to regroup and move forward.


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ITSASUNNYDAY 12/5/2013 10:03AM

    I know this is a struggle for you but you were an encouragement to me. Don't give up.

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DEEGIRL50 11/27/2013 5:01PM

    emoticon Sorry for your disappointment and frustration. Love your stepdaughter's advice. Good things are coming your way (and we're not talking pies and cookies).

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NANCY- 11/27/2013 7:30AM

    I know you are disappointed, but sometimes things are a blessing in disguise, we just cannot see them at the time.
You did fabulous in prepping for the surgery, now you can prep for your lifestyle. We are here for you.

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MSLZZY 11/27/2013 6:50AM

    How disappointing but this may be for the best. HUGS!

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DJ4HEALTH 11/26/2013 11:25PM

    That is great because you don't know what happens to the body when they mess with what God has given you and they wanted to take it away.. God put those intestines there for a reason and not for man to come in and take out what He put there for our good.

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GODZDESIGN95 11/26/2013 9:49PM

    atta girl! you show these drs and insurance folks. most insurance company are for the bottom line profit and stockholders. And the nerve of that dr.

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TUPPERWARE1 11/26/2013 9:23PM

    Stick with w8w and you will be glad you did not have the surgery.Everything happens for a reason.God has a different path for you now.Happy blessed Thanksgiving! emoticon

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TRAVELGRRL 11/26/2013 5:28PM

    Good for you for not going for the quick fix. Many, many people have lost amazing amounts of weight through the hard work of diet and exercise. Now that the door has closed on the surgery, I believe a window will be opened on a a new opportunity.

You have, as we all do, much to be grateful for~! Wishing you a wonderful Thanksgiving as you continue to move forward on this journey (albeit on a different path). emoticon

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PICKIE98 11/26/2013 4:25PM

    Everything happens for a reason, but who knows what that reason is for this situation??? Perhaps if you did have the surgery, you would get blood clots, infection, stroke,etc. We never know what thing dashes our dream thing.

You just need to continue to stay healthy first,,
maybe the whole thing came to be just to hear your very wise stepdaughter saying what she did. WOW!! THAT is on e big blessing you got there!! Let HE who is in control, do HIS work....

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SLIMMERJESSE 11/26/2013 4:08PM

    I know I expressed my opinion in the past, but I do hope it turns out the way you want to do it. Have a wonderful Thanksgiving.

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