I have been unemployed for going on 9 months. Here is what I have learned.
1. It stinks. I thought I was set as a social worker. I worked with children who were diagnosed with a mental illness. Boy, was I wrong! My agency had huge budget cuts and I was one of them. I haven't been able to find a job. I've had 12 interviews with 12 rejections. I keep plugging away and hoping that something comes soon.
2. It can be lonely. I am a very social person and now it seems as if I am all alone. The friends I had at work no longer call me or return my calls. Their loss but it still stings a bit.
3. I really had to learn how to manage my money. I knew how to do it before but now I am super vigilant about it. I was able to make huge cutbacks and I can't say that I miss them.
4. You can work out better deals for yourself when you call your credit cards or other services. I called all of them and explained the situation and they were all helpful. They helped me cut and extra $300 out of my monthly bills.
5. I had to learn the difference between need and want. I might not have everything that I want but I have everything that I need.
6. I can't believe how wasteful I was in the past. In the past, I never thought twice about the food I was throwing away. Now, I try not to throw away anything. If there are leftovers it is now my lunch for the next day. If the fruit I bought starts to get soft it is turned in to a fruit compote for my yogurt. I reuse everything. I am also a crafter so this helps me a lot. I have been able to go stash diving in my yarn room. I haven't needed to buy yarn in 9 months. I am able to use stuff that I forgot I even had. This year I am knitting Christmas gifts and I am almost half way done.
7. I have been able to dedicate a lot of time to my knitting charity. I have been able to knit a ton of items so far this year. I am currently knitting prosthetic breasts and then donating them to the local cancer center.
8. I need to take time and take care of me. I spent so much time taking care of others that I forgot to take time for me. One perk to unemployment is that I do have a lot of time...and I do mean a lot.
This is what I have learned from being unemployed. I am trying to turn a negative life event into something positive. I hope everything is well with all of you. I thank you for your friendship and your support.
Yes, I can deny this to myself but in all actuality I am an emotional eater. I never thought I was until I decided to sit down and actually take stock of my life. I had a couple of "aha" moments while I was thinking. I figured out that I will emotionally eat when I am stressed or anxious. I do not eat when I am happy, sad or angry. I see this as a small victory since I am not emotionally eating for all feelings.
Well, things have changed recently. I have been unemployed for 8 months now. Due to this my stress has increased. I have to be careful that I do not put these feelings into eating. I have tried to get rid of all my trigger foods and this has helped. I have also been relying more on my coping skills. I have been at the YMCA when I have been feeling stressed. This is a good way to use that energy in a positive manner. I have been knitting a ton of items for my knitting charity. (Feel free to check it out www.lubasblanket.org ). I try to make cards and use my creativity to get all of those feelings out so I don't dwell on it. Lately, I have been very anxious and that is something I thought I had a handle on. I was very anxious when I was in my early 20's but learned how to manage it. Now, it seems it has returned and I need to use different skills to manage it. My self esteem has taken a hit due to the amount of interview rejections. I know the economy is not the best but it still hurts that I haven't found a job.
I can either dwell on the negative feelings and be a crabapple or I can make the best of it. There are people out there who have it worse than I do. I need to remember this. I have my friends, family and Church to help me when I need it. I have chosen to take charge of my eating and destiny and not let it get me down. I might not be able to control my feelings but I can control how I react to them. I am going to chose to be productive instead of eating the feelings.
Today is the third anniversary of my being cancer free. I am really happy that I was able to get here. Here is my little story.
I had come to the conclusion that I did not want to have children. I like kids, but I just don't want them for myself. Some people were meant to be mothers and I am not one of them. Kids are needy little buggers. I like it if I have extra money in my pay check I can spend it on... you guessed it me! I talked to my doctor and he referred me to a gynecologist. It was time for my annual exam which meant...pap time. I get the test done, and I sit and wait for the results. A couple of days go by and I get the results. Abnormal cells. I go back to the doctor and he sends me to a specialist where I have to get pieces ripped out of my cervix for examination. I get the test done and I sit and wait. Now, this time more time than is usual has passed with out an answer. I figure everything is ok and I don't think anything of it. My mom convinces me to call the office. I call the office and they track down my results. I am in the middle of the store when a nurse calls me and tells me that I have cervical cancer. I am shocked! I don't admit my findings for a couple of days. I then tell my mom that I have cancer. I call and talk to my dad and he makes me feel better. Then I tell hubby and he did not take it well. I go back to the doctor and we start going over my results. He suggested an ultrasound. I get one and find out that I have tumors. Even better. I am back in his office and he suggests a hysterectomy. At the time I was 33. We get it cleared from the insurance company and I make my plans to be off of work. I have the surgery and the doctor comes in the next day to say the surgery went well. He did tell me that he thought one of my ovaries looked odd so he took it out. I now find out that I had ovarian cancer in one of my ovaries. I am very grateful that it was found and removed before it was too late. It certainly helped me get my life in order and change my perspectives. Make sure all of you ladies go out and get your yearly exams. I know they are an embarrassing pain but I would rather deal with a couple minutes of embarrassment than an eternity of death.
I have been gluten free now for going on one year. I have to admit that I feel great. Here is how it happened.
I was watching an episode of the Dr. Oz show. He had on a guest who had a gluten intolerance. She was going to show everyone how to make gluten free scones. So, I sat through the commercial to see what she had to say. She started talking about her stomach problems. Oh my goodness...those are the same problems that I have. I had been diagnosed with IBS about 10 years earlier. I decided that I was going to give it a try. Now I would have gone to my doctor to get tested but my place of employment had horrible health insurance and I had to pay everything until I reached $1200. I took myself off gluten and started to feel better in the next couple of days. I no longer had any of the horrible stomach problems that I experienced.
I went out and bought gluten free cookbooks to help me until I learned how to do it on my own. Those 7 cookbooks are the best cookbooks that I have ever owned. ( Thanks Half.com). I can now cook on my own and can even make my own cookies and cakes. I try to avoid commercial gluten free products since they aren't that healthy and loaded with salt and calories.
I do miss the ease of ordering when I go out to eat or being able to pick up something when I am short on time. Oh, how I miss pizza. Now, I have to read every ingredient to make sure it isn't hiding in there somewhere. I always have to ask for a gluten free menu or ask to talk to a manager to see about what items are gluten free.
I was really worried when I went to Disney World that I wouldn't be able to eat a lot while I was there. Boy, was I wrong! I was able to talk to all of the chefs and they told me what I could eat or gave me a tour if it were a buffet. I loved Tusker House in Animal Kingdom where I was given a tour by the chef and he gave me gluten free bread. I even was able to have Mickey shaped waffles at the Ohana! The chef made them for me and I had my own plate for all of my food. The chef at Hollywood and Vine even made me my own chocolate cake. I could go on forever about the wonders of Disney World but I'll spare you (Feel free to pm me if you really want to know). Just know they will take really good care of you if you go. If anyone is going to visit there I suggest you get a gluten free friend to take with you because you get to cut in front of everyone when you are waiting for counter service.
My DH went gluten free as well for the most part since I do all of the shopping. I do buy him bread so he can take sandwiches to work. We are now in love with Chex and rice cakes.
Going gluten free has helped my health as well. I lost weight and am able to control my blood pressure. It also helps me stay away from buying all of those wonderful cakes and cookies that I love. I know that is not the point but it is just a little added bonus. Well that is my gluten free story.
It was early in the morning and my dog woke me up to tell me that he needed to go outside. So I roll out of bed and I put his leash on. I walk down the stairs and I'm standing in my driveway when all of a sudden my jammy pants fall to the ground. (Since I lost the weight I was laid off from my job and have been unable to afford a new wardrobe.) Luckily for me, it was 6 am. Thank goodness for 6 am and no one was out.