Sunday, March 13, 2011
When you see the total weekly fitness minutes showing a bigger and bigger number...
When you see the ticker on the weight bar moving more and more to the right...
When you realise that you committed yourself to something and you're still in it after 4 days (which, for some people - like me - is plenty of time to give up 8 times...per day!...) ...
That's when you feel you could cry from joy! Although it's not a big deal, right? I am aware that it's not a big deal! But the thing is, I'm a dreamer. I see a movie about someone dreaming big or going for it and i see myself on the screen and i live every moment of what the movie is about as if it were happening with me. I wanted to save the world (literally)! I wanted to be strong and ferocious and fierce! But somehow i got lost during the journey...or have i?
Isn't every rough period giving us something new? Something to learn from? Something that has the potential to lead us someplace nicer? THIS is what i truely believe. I'm keeping my head high this time, putting in the work and making progress each day. Every step counts - and the more steps we take the better.
So let's take more steps people! Let's not miss our workout because we're lazy, 'cause we end up losing a step (thousands of steps actually...) that could take us closer to someplace nicer!
Let's take more steps - sooner! Failing to plan meals is a lost step! Planning in time is taking a step! Which one do we choose? I choose takingf the step!
So right now, at 11.20 at night i'm going down to the kitchen to prepare something to myself and my sweetie for tomorrow's road!
Everyone, tonight, you better sleep like a baby, because tomorrow you've got many steps to take! And you're gonna be exhausted because you'll have so much fun and satisfaction along the way!
Saturday, March 12, 2011
I constantly keep on having mood swings but it's not too bad, it doesn't destroy my day or anything like that, it just makes me a little moody but i'm okay with that for now. I'm on track with my nutrition but i'm starting to feel stat working out in my home isn't gonna work for me because giving up after 15-20 minutes is very easy. However, i'm not putting the "Not working" sign on working out at home just yet. It's all a matter of willpower, right? :)
I planned a 650 kcal deficit for yesterday, ended up with 150, but i'm still glad that at least i did a little exercise (contrary to the previous days when i did none) and i did track my food religiously (contrary - again - to the previous days when i didn't).
Today is a lazy saturday and i don't mind that it is lazy...i already did 20 minutes on the mini stepper, i'll do 35 more minutes while watching some movie or serial i enjoy. I already cooked a great soup today, so other than this i'm spending my day reading and chilling.
Happy Saturday all! :)
Friday, March 11, 2011
I decided yesterday that I'm gonna blog each day (at least that's the plan), so here i am, excited actually to write this blog because it's only 8.30 in the morning and 3 great things have already happened.
First of all i gotta start with yesterday: I was tracking some food i ate, i had no plans to check out anyone from the community, i only tracked my food. Then i noticed a cute status message posted by teeny-bikini about Denzel, her...bike! :)) Well anyways, i checked out her sparkpage (i think the last time when i checked it out was when i added her as a friend, which was a long time ago), i read several of her blogs (and by several i mean the first 50 she wrote when she started this journey...) and i was amazed! She's been going through some tough s..t in the past and she didn't even want to talk about, she said onward and upward, no dwelling on the past, no whining just
and looking in the future
And it stuck me.
I am doing none of these.
I am not working hard. My excuse is the lamest ever: i'm lazy. Yes, i actually tell this to myself when i should go in the other room to do an aerobics dvd or work out on my mini stepper while watching a serial i downloaded: "i'm lazy right now". When i go down to the kitchen to eat (or i'm on the road all day and i have to grab something) i hush away thoughts like: i should choose the right stuff, not whatever i crave. It wasn't always like this. I've lost weight several times the right way with sparkpeople's help but i always stopped after 5-10-15 lbs.
I'm constantly looking at the past trying to analyze stuff, understand stuff when the truth is i already know what the deal was, thinking of it just lowers my self-esteem and doesn't seem to help.
And finally, i am not positive. I'm extremely negative. I don't even want to talk about this because it's gonna stop!
SO. What i'm trying to say is that teeny-bikini game me a big amount of positivity and motivation. Which led to eating a healthy breakfast, good mood and something i have never done: i woke up earlier this morning to work out. This is a revelation! It's true that i snoozed for 15 minutes, so i had to work out 15 minutes less, but i still did 15 minutes on my mini stepper (planned to do 25 minutes now and 25 after i get home from work, but with snoozing i only did 15 now but will do 35 after i get home, that's a total of 50 minutes). These 50 minutes will equal 500 calories gone, according to my Polar FT4 watch, which i trust!
I always said i'm not a morning person. But being a morning person ROCKS! I'm full of energy right now. I watched 15 minutes of a serial i like so that's good too, i know i already worked out, i'm proud of myself. Oh and after the 15 minutes i stripped out of my clothes, stepped on the scale and guess what? It showed weight loss! I weighed 76.9 kgs on february 15th, climbed up to 77.7 and then, this morning i weighed 76.8 kgs. Yes, i know, it's 0.1 kg (0.22 lbs) but if you compare it with 77.7 it's 0.9 kgs (2 lbs)!
76.8 kgs (169.3 lbs) is my lowest weight since i started on December the 9th with 79.7 kgs (175.7 lbs). That's 6.4 pounds lost which is not as much as it should be considering that i lost it in 3 months but it's something i'm happy for anyway.
I'm glad for this great morning, i'm glad for blogging, i'm glad for teeny-bikini, i'm glad for the positivity i feel!
Everybody, be positive, i start to get what teeny-bikini said: "I have to protect my mental state like my life depends on it - because it does!"
And the other thing she said: "Slower is better!" Because you learn more. Like i did.
Have a beautiful day everyone! Smile at the sun! :)
Thursday, March 10, 2011
It's been almost a year and a half since a very hard period in my life ended - and i'm still not fully recovered. Will i ever be? I'd like to think that i will. I know i will. But it's probably not happening by itself, i gotta work for it. And lately i didn't work for it - on the contrary: i worked against it.
I used to be focused on "how much" and "by when". Now all i care about is to stay on track when it comes to weight loss. Stay on track day after day: consume 1600 kcal, burn 450, thus have a deficit of 640 kcal daily. I just want to be on the road, no matter how far my destination is. Progress, not perfection.
I am now deciding to blog every day. Just to say what's on my mind. To tell how my day was. Not because i want others to see it (they can of course), but because i want to get it out of my sistem. Like a diary.
I'm tired. Not because i don't have enough sleep. It comes from my mind. i'm not always tired, but much more often than a healthy person. I know what things can make me get out of this hole: good relationship with my love, with my father and sister, my mother, my best friends, and staying in touch often with them (except for my love, we live together so that doesn't refer to him). Reading 'soulwarming' books/magazines helps. Staying on track with food and exercise helps a lot. Having fun, doing things i love in my free time. Earning more money wouldn't hurt either. :) But i don't want to start enlisting all the material things (money, a house, a new car, clothes, etc) that would make me happy because deep inside i feel that these aren't the things i need to be wanting in order to be happy. I want real relationships and friendships and family bonds, a healthy body and mind - and that's about all i want now. I can start seeking more wealth once i 'll be spiritually and mentally wealthy.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
BMR + Calories Burned = 1890 + =
Calories Consumed =
Calorie Deficit =
February 19, Saturday
BMR + Calories Burned = 1890 + 615 = 2505 (burned 615 kcal with 1 hour of aerobics at home, tracked with my awesome new Polar watch)
Calories Consumed = 1840
Calorie Deficit = - 655 kcal
I've been away for weeks because I felt that I'm too weak to do this. Well, I'm not! In fact I'm strong, determined and I'm willing to put in long hours for this. I'm willing to cut back on eating, I'm already doing it and I WILL do this!
Get An Email Alert Each Time KNLILLA Posts