Friday, January 28, 2011
After sleeping pretty good last night for a change, I felt good getting up and getting dressed in a nice sweater and black dress pants. Hair and makeup was done and I was looking and feel great.
Ate a good breakfast and did my sparking and physio and used 2 lb weights for my shoulder. I managed to do 2 sets of 12 before my shoulders were screaming at me to stop. I wasn't in pain, the weights were too heavy for my left hand to raise up. So I ended up doing the last set with the one pounder and felt better. I even did 15 side bends on each side and my 10,452 steps today.
Just before lunch John and I headed out to meet mom and to go out for lunch it was her treat this time.
We get to IHOP and I went to take off my jacket and couldn't the tab for the zipper broke, I used the end of my mettle nail file to attempt to unzip the zipper and that didn't work the zipper was stuck. After about 15 minutes of fiddling with it I manage to get it done half way and that was it.
Lunch came and it was two I had the healthy and fit breakfast. two whites, whole wheat toast, fresh fruit and turkey bacon with a coffee.
The bill came and we gave it to mom and she in turned gave it to me saying it was my turn to pay. John told her it was her turn to pay since the last five times he did. Mom wanted to know why I couldn't pay. I had to tell her that I was broke and she told me to get a job. I got up and left and walk to the car and waited.
After a long while they both came out. We took her home. Mom then demanded that John and I go up and help her take down her Christmas decorations. I asked her why her home maker didn't do it. Mom said that if she had to pay for lunch she we at least should do it without asking why.
After we did that she wanted to see the sweater cause it was in my work bag and she could see it. I told her it wasn't finished yet because I had to make sure the length of the sleeves and the length of the sweater was good and that it fitted around the jump in her back. She tried it on and the length of the body and sleeve was perfect, the only thing wrong was the neck line needed to be made up, it was too low in the back and front. Easy to fix.
So I asked her what she thought of it.
Well she ripped the sweater off and said was a mess it was and that this was not what she wanted and she threw it in my face. She then turn around and threw the purple sweater at me and said "This is what I wanted and this is what you are going to make me but you are going to make it longer." Then she threw that sweater at me and walked into her bedroom at slammed the door.
John looked at me and saw my tears and said lets go. He said a few harsh words to mom and we left.
I got in the car and I was trying my hardest not to feel hurtful and to cry. I had spent so much time and love making up that sweater and she threw it in my face.
So after stopping at Micheals cause I needed some yarn for those Boston Terriers that I was doing we came straight home where I made myself a coffee and sparked for a bit and laid down for 20.
Got up and started to rip out the sweater and then stopped part way. I am going to finish that sweater for myself. I have decided right now that I am not going to make her one.
I might change my mind in a few days or week and make her one like the purple one.
If you all think that mom will call at some point tonight well she hasn't and she won't. I am not going to hold my breath on that one.
My mom is a WITCH and I have learnt my lesson now for the last time. I won't be there for her any more.
Well now that you all know the story and now that I have it off my chest I am crying and I am cleansing myself of all these hurtful feelings.
When I am done I will start to work on something that will make me happy and put a smile back on my face again.
I will finish one of the Boston Terriers tonight. I won't be going to bed any time soon.
I am so thankful that I have a brother who stood up for me and told mom off. He also gave me enough money to pay the rent this month since I was expecting 200.00 from mom for making her sweater and for doing all the house cleaning for her these last few weeks.
I didn't get one dime from her.
On a good note I did another set of exercises tonight and worked off some of that anger that I had.
Now I know tomorrow has to be better than today's fiasco.
This is the sweater, All I needed to do was to make the front band longer, make the neck line smaller and add the collar to it and finish tying off all the ends. I liked it and I really thought that she would like it too.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I had a bad night and I had a bad morning and I don't care anymore. I got to work searching every job site I could find, I sparked, I did my St training on my shoulder and I had a healthy low carb breakfast , high protein and so good.
I put Village on the Diet on and watched it. Looking at all those people struggling and those that gave up made me realize that I have my health and I am fit and getting fitter as the weeks goes by. I am emotionally stronger than I was 10 months ago and I should dig and find that strength again.
So I dug down as deep as I could go and found the strength. Once John got up and ate we left and did what little recycling we had and we made $17.28 between us. That was great. We took the money and went to Safeway's and bought milk, bread and cream for my coffee.
So we came home I had put the kettle on I had to have a cup of coffee. I haven't had one in two days and I am suffering from withdrawals . So when the coffee was made I sat down and took a 15 minute brake and thoroughly enjoyed it.
So good and hot to the last drop.
I then spark so more and did 15 minutes of physio and strength training on my shoulder and it felt good. I did 2 set of 15 upper curls and I did 15 modified Jumping Jack without the jumping. The movement felt good and no pain at all, Just a little stiffness.
I then did my steps on the steppers and leg cross overs. and I was done for the day. I was sweating so hard.
Took a shower and got dress again, hair done and make up on and I felt so much calmer and more in control of my thoughts and feelings.
Now I am just finishing up on here so that I can sit and watch the Biggest Loser in full attention, NO knitting, no sparking, no talking and no exercising.
Bye for now.
Thanks for reading this and thanks inadvance for you kindness and support.
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