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Another Very Overwhelming Day!

Saturday, January 29, 2011

What a day I had!

Let me start with 8 hours of solid sleep and no medication to make sleep happen. Actually I had forgotten to take the melatonin's and went to sleep immediately and woke up wide awake at 8am in the morning.
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Secondly I had an awesome physio and workout with my upper body. I did 3 set of 15 with 2 lbs weights and felt no pain at all just some heaviness. I did struggle a bit to lift the last five count on my left side but managed to do it.

I did my QFC challenges and split them up in 3 different parts of the day to keep my metabolism going strong and to get up from the computer every hour.

Thirdly I got two emails today from two cousins that I haven't seen since my grandmother (my mom's mother) passes away and that was over 34 years ago I was about 13 years old when she died. She was the one who taught me to knit and to read patterns. We spent every Sunday for two hours knitting it up.

Anyways I found out the one live pretty close to me about an hours drive and the other one lives a lot farther. We are hopping to meet soon and to have a great catch up on things. They both have kids.

Both of my cousins have beautiful red hair and are gorgouse to boot inside an out. We have been chatting a few time already on FB chat lines(very private that way.

I also finish one of the Boston Terriers, 1 of three that I am making for a spark friend here.

So for your perusal here it is. Not 100% finish, I have to find eyes for the dog and get finale approval on the design likeness to Kenny.

Here's Biscuit

Sorry here is Biscuit

As you can see I did get a little confused but I am OK now. I just named the picture wrong when I was saving them to my picture gallery on my computer.

Now tonight I dance again while watching" Dance you ass off" I like the show very much. It is a reality program about heavy/obese people losing weight by dancing and eating healthy. They each had dance partners to dance with and to learn new dance routine and dancing infront of judges and a audience. At the end of the show one person gets sent home for losing the least amount of weight and not having a good dance average.

Now I am going to sit back and knit it up by working on my sweater. for a couple more hours. Then do my stretching routines and go to bed.

Have an awesome week and let see how it all goes shall we.

We are heading into a new month soon. Yikes January is almost over my my how time flies by fast.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 2/3/2011 3:01AM

    Glad you got a full night's sleep and had a wonderful day. Enjoy the rest of your week.

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JEANUT 1/30/2011 7:26PM

    So glad you got some sleep. Your boston is adorable.. both the real one and the crochet one.

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SHERRY666 1/30/2011 2:42PM

    I love the pictures....... they look alike........ what a great job you did on the terrier...... how wonderful to find more family members...... that you can get to know...... It sounds like your days are swinging by much better...... getting better sleep...... and doing your exercises.... emoticon emoticonSandra......

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MSWEEZER 1/30/2011 1:52PM

    Very cute indeed and how fun to reconnect with family.

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LIBBYFITZ 1/30/2011 10:21AM

    Sounds like a great full on day!

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GOANNA2 1/30/2011 9:38AM

    How exciting that you have more family to catch up with.
It will be so much fun getting to know them after all that time!

To top off it off, you had 8 hours of good sleep.
You have come a long way from ages ago when you were always
having trouble sleeping and you should be proud of yourself.

Like everyone else, I am also waiting to see you wearing the sweater.

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CJANSEN40 1/30/2011 9:22AM

    great day, finding family is a good thing. and biscuit looks great!

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TUFFYBIRD 1/30/2011 9:14AM

    How exciting for you to meet, not just one but two, of your family members. Maybe you'll develop a really close friendship!

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NATPLUMMER 1/30/2011 9:14AM

    Sounds like a great day!!

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    Oh, Sandra, your gift of knitting is a TREASURE! I hope that you will find someone special to pass it on to, as well! It's not very often a person learns something like that from a manual; rather, they learn it from a special person who SHOWS them how it's done! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MADKAPKID 1/30/2011 8:25AM

    Sounds like you had a good and busy day! The Crocheted Dog is cute. Do you make up the patterns yourself? Have a joy filled Sunday, Karen emoticon

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CHRYS13 1/30/2011 5:40AM

    Glad to read that you had a great sleep!
Your knitting is incredible!! What a fabulous job you've done on the terrier!

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MALEXANDER4 1/30/2011 3:27AM

    emoticonLove the pics, Glad you had a wonderful day. Now maybe I can post about great days and staying on plan. Now that the new month, new goals is in place. Wishing you the best for sunday, the day of rest.

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DIANE2868 1/30/2011 1:25AM

    I hope your able to have a great meetup and an everlasting friendship with your cousins. Good job on the knitting!

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JHADZHIA 1/29/2011 11:46PM

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That is awesome you got a great sleep!! Nice to contact your cousins!! How neat is that?? LOVE the Boston, just too cute!!
Well done with the exercises. Just make sure you always maintain good form when it gets tough or you are doing too much.
Take care and have another great sleep!!
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JUNEAU2010 1/29/2011 11:36PM

    Love the terriers! What a fabulous day!

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CINDHOLM 1/29/2011 11:29PM

    So happy you had a GOOD productive day!! You really did deserve it.

Have a wonderful rest of you weekend. emoticon

Spark ON

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Out of the Blue!

Saturday, January 29, 2011

I did manage to get some sleep last night after I ripped out 1/4 of the sweater and then I stopped and went to sleep.

In the morning I was feeling better and It hit me then why don't I keep the sweater for myself.

MMM let me think on that for a while.

So after a great healthy breakfast and doing my physio for my shoulder I sat down to spark and the first thing I saw was so many replies to my blog last night. After reading and loving everyone comments I then made up my mind to keep the sweater for myself and I am so glad that I am doing this.

I am going to revamp it to fit me and it will be better than ever. I can't wait to finish it. I got my mojo going now.

I also manage to get all my sparking down despite live mail going down three times on me. All I do now is x out of it, wait five minutes and log back on and it works. Not a problem at all. I have spent almost all day between emails, sparking and knitting it up which left me very little time to do others things on my to do list.

I will finish my list tomorrow. I have all weekend to get it done and I will.

So OUT OF THE BLUE, title of my blog. I got a email letter from my mom's brother- uncle Jim. he live in New Foundland and have been married to a lady named Sandi for over 30 years.

I also found out that my mom gave him my email address without my permission. I have never met this guy and I only know a few fact about him from what mom's tells us when we were going up. How he left his family hi and dry and walked away from his siblings and parent( half true).

After all these years he has decided to reach out and see if any one in the family will be willing to share in his life.

Interesting to say the least. Nice to know that I have one uncle still alive, my other one died a few years back. My mom has two sister who are still alive and doing OK I guess. Haven't seen them in year either.

Needless to say after I said "hi" back he has sent me five more email messages. One of pictures of dogs of all types that are cute, two not so funny jokes and a Christian Video and song. Uncle Jim had a CD out the is full of Christian music and he sent a copy of the cd to mom. I guess I won't be hearing it any time soon unless he send me a copy.

So my day has been full of interesting fact and surprises.

God sure does work in mysterious ways. I just wish he would send me a job soon. I know he had the right one for me and in his own sweet time he will share it with me. I hope and pray that it comes soon.

Or am I asking(begging to much) for this to happen. I got two more rejections today as well.

So when my white sweater is done I will take pictures of it to show you my new badge of honor(my sweater) which I will wear with pride and lots of joyment. As well as keeping warm and cozy all year round.

Have a great night.

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CJANSEN40 1/29/2011 9:29PM

    wow, I'd question what your mother said about your uncle, unless her behavior is a recent development. but I say it can't hurt to e-mail a little back and forth.

I'm glad you decided to keep the sweater, it really was very nice.

my prayers are still with you getting a job. though you are getting quite a few commissions.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 1/29/2011 5:22PM

    Please post another picture of your sweater when it is completed...preferably with you wearing it. You should be very proud of it and all the wonderful work that you do!!!
Blessings and hugs,

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CHRISTURTLE 1/29/2011 4:38PM

    What a surprise, that uncle of yours contacting you that way. Just take your time getting to know each other, and you may eventually not only get to listen to his cd but also hear his side of the story about the reasons he left as he did.
I love that your sweater is to become your badge of honour! Great work on seeing it so positively, and after all, it is absolutely gorgeous and would look great on you.
I too am going through a hard time at the moment, with Dad and finances, but for once I have decided to see it as God wanting me to appreciate all I am blessed with in this life, rather than asking 'why me?' and feeling resentful. Its taken me till 56 to see life this way, but it is easier, and I have learned a lot about myself in the process. Mind you, I would love to be better off than I am at present financially, but keep telling myself when I've learned what I need to, things will improve... hope they improve for you as soon as possible.

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NATPLUMMER 1/29/2011 4:23PM

    I'm glad you decided to keep the sweater for yourself. You will appreciate it more than your mother ever would.
I hope this new relationship with your Uncle works out.
I also hope the perfect job comes your way very soon.

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SHERRY666 1/29/2011 2:06PM

    I think it's great you have decided to keep the sweater.... and fix it up to wear yourself....... it will look great on you Sandra......... how neat that you found a long lost member.....of your family...... learning things about them...... will be exciting..... Hope you got some good weather out your way today........ emoticon

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AMYLOVESTZU 1/29/2011 12:57PM

    i am so glad that your keeping it and the next time if there is one with you mom you can show her how Great it looks on you..

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LIBBYFITZ 1/29/2011 12:16PM

    Can't wait to see a photo of you wearing the sweater with PRIDE! emoticon

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JHADZHIA 1/29/2011 11:26AM

    I am so happy you decided to keep the sweater for yourself, white would look good on you!
I hope this uncle treats you a lot better than that witch of a Mom you have.
You have strength, perseverance and courage and you show this over and over again. Things will HAVE to work out for you, you deserve it!!!
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READNKNIT 1/29/2011 10:31AM

    I'm glad you're going to get to know your uncle. And I'm doubly glad that you're keeping your sweater! In a few months, you can wear it over to your mom's and not say a word about it. :)

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TUFFYBIRD 1/29/2011 8:42AM

    Well, this certainly was an interesting day - first the decision to keep the sweater (good for you!) and then the contact with your long lost uncle. I'll be interested to see how that relationship progresses and what you think of him when you get to know him a bit better. Once he gets to know and trust you he may be willing to share his side of the story (why he left and went all the way to the other side of the country). The vast majority of people who make that kind of dramatic change have pretty strong reasons ... not all certainly, but most. Regardless, it should be interesting to get to know him.

Talk soon.


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    Sandra, I'm running out the door to Lowe's, H.I. Store, but I wanted to tell you I read your blog and I am so proud of you! Talk later! emoticon

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MALEXANDER4 1/29/2011 7:04AM

    So proud of you on the sweater.. You know the lord works in his time not ours....though I sure wish he would move some of my prayers up his Be patient, even though I know it is hard, enjoy your "vacation" as soon you will be just like the rest of us and work work work.

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GOANNA2 1/29/2011 6:34AM

    Glad you got some sleep and that you have decided to keep
the sweater for yourself. I know he is your uncle, but I hope
he doesn't keep 'annoying' or something like that.

I am sure that you will get a job soon.
Good luck and have a great weekend. emoticon

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JUNEAU2010 1/29/2011 2:01AM

    I am so glad you're going to have such a gorgeous badge of honor (your sweater!)

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Sweater Fiasco!

Friday, January 28, 2011

After sleeping pretty good last night for a change, I felt good getting up and getting dressed in a nice sweater and black dress pants. Hair and makeup was done and I was looking and feel great.

Ate a good breakfast and did my sparking and physio and used 2 lb weights for my shoulder. I managed to do 2 sets of 12 before my shoulders were screaming at me to stop. I wasn't in pain, the weights were too heavy for my left hand to raise up. So I ended up doing the last set with the one pounder and felt better. I even did 15 side bends on each side and my 10,452 steps today.

Just before lunch John and I headed out to meet mom and to go out for lunch it was her treat this time.

We get to IHOP and I went to take off my jacket and couldn't the tab for the zipper broke, I used the end of my mettle nail file to attempt to unzip the zipper and that didn't work the zipper was stuck. After about 15 minutes of fiddling with it I manage to get it done half way and that was it.

Lunch came and it was two I had the healthy and fit breakfast. two whites, whole wheat toast, fresh fruit and turkey bacon with a coffee.

The bill came and we gave it to mom and she in turned gave it to me saying it was my turn to pay. John told her it was her turn to pay since the last five times he did. Mom wanted to know why I couldn't pay. I had to tell her that I was broke and she told me to get a job. I got up and left and walk to the car and waited.

After a long while they both came out. We took her home. Mom then demanded that John and I go up and help her take down her Christmas decorations. I asked her why her home maker didn't do it. Mom said that if she had to pay for lunch she we at least should do it without asking why.

After we did that she wanted to see the sweater cause it was in my work bag and she could see it. I told her it wasn't finished yet because I had to make sure the length of the sleeves and the length of the sweater was good and that it fitted around the jump in her back. She tried it on and the length of the body and sleeve was perfect, the only thing wrong was the neck line needed to be made up, it was too low in the back and front. Easy to fix.

So I asked her what she thought of it.

Well she ripped the sweater off and said was a mess it was and that this was not what she wanted and she threw it in my face. She then turn around and threw the purple sweater at me and said "This is what I wanted and this is what you are going to make me but you are going to make it longer." Then she threw that sweater at me and walked into her bedroom at slammed the door.

John looked at me and saw my tears and said lets go. He said a few harsh words to mom and we left.

I got in the car and I was trying my hardest not to feel hurtful and to cry. I had spent so much time and love making up that sweater and she threw it in my face.

So after stopping at Micheals cause I needed some yarn for those Boston Terriers that I was doing we came straight home where I made myself a coffee and sparked for a bit and laid down for 20.

Got up and started to rip out the sweater and then stopped part way. I am going to finish that sweater for myself. I have decided right now that I am not going to make her one.

I might change my mind in a few days or week and make her one like the purple one.

If you all think that mom will call at some point tonight well she hasn't and she won't. I am not going to hold my breath on that one.

My mom is a WITCH and I have learnt my lesson now for the last time. I won't be there for her any more.

Well now that you all know the story and now that I have it off my chest I am crying and I am cleansing myself of all these hurtful feelings.

When I am done I will start to work on something that will make me happy and put a smile back on my face again.

I will finish one of the Boston Terriers tonight. I won't be going to bed any time soon.

I am so thankful that I have a brother who stood up for me and told mom off. He also gave me enough money to pay the rent this month since I was expecting 200.00 from mom for making her sweater and for doing all the house cleaning for her these last few weeks.

I didn't get one dime from her.

On a good note I did another set of exercises tonight and worked off some of that anger that I had.

Now I know tomorrow has to be better than today's fiasco.

This is the sweater, All I needed to do was to make the front band longer, make the neck line smaller and add the collar to it and finish tying off all the ends. I liked it and I really thought that she would like it too.

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LORILORRAINE 2/1/2011 2:51AM

    Are you selling any of the clothing that you make? If not you should really think about this as I would by that sweater. It is beautiful. emoticon

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THIAGRAM 1/29/2011 8:41PM

  Your sweater is very beautiful! So sad that you mom doesn't appreciate it and was so rude to you. That is a hard one to deal with.... If I could I would wave my magic wand and fix it all! Anyway, You do lots of exercises and you are doing so well in so many ways. I also like the background of the sweater! Looks great! Take care! '

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 1/29/2011 5:12PM

    Sandra, Your sweater is absolutely beautiful!!! You should be very proud of the wonderful work that you do. God gave you exceptional talent!!!
So sorry for the way you were treated by your mom.
May God continue to bless you.
Hugs and many more hugs,

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FRAN0426 1/29/2011 4:43PM

    The sweater is beautiful, and I kmow how intence it can be with all the cableingknitted into it. So sorry your mothewr can't appreciate the beautiful work you do, and she certainly doesn't deserve it either.

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CHRISTURTLE 1/29/2011 4:28PM

    Oh Sandra, I Spark in the mornings now cos Dad needs me of an afternoon and evening, so I missed reading your blog. I am so sorry your mother treated you so badly, but now you've cried about it, let it go. Don't hold on to that hurt or it will be like her continuallly sniping at you. Put it behind you and finish that beautiful sweater for yourself. We all know how hard you've worked on it, how much love you put into it, and now that sweater will wrap you in that love, not your mother.
I am so glad John had words with your mother about her attitude. She obviously has something going on in that mind of hers that you need no part of. Why there are such negative people in this world trying to drag others down to their way of thinking and reacting to everything someone cares enough to do for them is beyond my understanding, but you don't need such people in your life.
I hope those boston terriers work their magic and help dry the tears, replacing them with a smile that reaches deep into your heart.
Sending lots of love and hugs your way, my wonderful friend.

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TRACIE52 1/28/2011 9:59PM

    That sweater is gorgeous. Absolutely gorgeous. I wish that I could make something like that. I am so sorry that your mother was that ungrateful that she would take something you made and throw it in your face. Definately keep the sweater for yourself.

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JUNEAU2010 1/28/2011 9:34PM

    I would love a sweater like that! It is gorgeous! You are so talented.
I know what it is to have a mom like that and I am so sorry......

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HEYRED221 1/28/2011 9:18PM

    The sweater looks great - so sorry your mom did not appreciate your hard work. Unfortunately, we sometimes allow family to treat us worse than we would ever let anyone else. You know how your mom is and she is not going to change - just keep her at arms length and give your brother a big hug for being there for you! Take care and have a good weekend. emoticon

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FITJEANS 1/28/2011 7:49PM

    Nice desing,love the look!

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JUDI;LYNN 1/28/2011 5:54PM

    Nice sweater. Good job on all your work outs. Have a nice evening. May I suggest a bubble bath for all your hard work?

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KRYS210 1/28/2011 5:25PM

    ALL your work is beautiful, remember that you have MANY opinions that say that. I think you are amazingly talented!

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CINDHOLM 1/28/2011 4:26PM

    I love the sweater, you did a beautiful job.. I hope you wear it in good health. emoticon

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KNITNYAK 1/28/2011 3:52PM

    Oh Sandra! I am so sorry that your own mother treats you this way! The sweater is absolutely exquisite, and it is her loss! Please do not tolerate this behavior...a stranger would not treat you so badly, so a mother definitely should not! Practice tough love and walk away every time she acts like this.

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IFDEEVARUNS2 1/28/2011 2:38PM

    Beautiful sweater. Wear it in health and happiness!

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PRAIRIECROCUS 1/28/2011 2:31PM

    Sandra - The sweater that you posted with your blog, looks lovely !
I'm sorry to hear of the unpleasantness that occurred. Thank Goodness
for your brother ! Do you have any yellow yarn ? Perhaps knitting
a yellow sweater for yourself, might cheer you up, and get rid of some of
the frustration. I hope that the warm, soothing color, which could represent
the Spark, could start to sooth the pain in your heart, that your Mom caused !
I hope that your terrier project will bring you back, too ! After all, dogs ARE
supposed to be man's best friend..! Your terrier will help you, as you lovingly create
him (or her) !
I hope that you and your brother, and your boyfriend, will all have a pleasant weekend !

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SHERRY666 1/28/2011 2:06PM

    Sandra I love the sweater......... I'm glad you didn't rip it apart....... it will look lovely on you......... I don't know about your mother......... she certainly has hurt your feelings many times....... Take some time to just leave her alone.... that may help...... but then again it may not....... your stuck in a hard place and rock........ Cheer up my friend........ better days are coming....... emoticon

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REJ7777 1/28/2011 1:22PM

    It sounds like your mother is a very bitter, unhappy person. I can't imagine anyone acting like that, even if the sweater wasn't beautiful (which it is). You'll need to establish boundaries so that you don't keep getting hurt by this demanding woman.

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WORKTHEGOAL 1/28/2011 12:44PM

    Are you kidding me, that sweather is beautiful, keep it for yourself and wear it as an advertisement to your skills, everytime someone gives you a compliment on it!

I'm e-mailing you privately.

Chin up..........

M x

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LIBBYFITZ 1/28/2011 12:42PM

    emoticonYou were set up to fail! No matter how hard you try your mother is not happy. she is a very angry person and you need to not get caught up with her manipulative ways.

My mother used to try and involve me in all the family politics and gossip about her children, my siblings. There have been times that I have hung up on her on the phone as she did not know how to take NO for an answer.

Having conflict is not pleasant , but please stick up for yourself and give "I" messages. ie How her behaviour affects you.

Next time money up front, if you decide to do the purple sweater.

Have a lovely weekend and don't forget, you do not deserve to be treated in a disrespectful way

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CJANSEN40 1/28/2011 12:07PM

    OMG you mother is something else!!! The sweater is beautiful! I'd wear it in a heartbeat. and I can't believe she wanted it done in a week! She did buy the yarn right? so you are not out that. She needs you to be done with her, at least for a while. relax, smile and say what mother? I don't have no steenkin' mother! (ok I can't write it that funny accent but anyways!)


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AMYLOVESTZU 1/28/2011 11:30AM

    Sandra, I think that sweater is gorgeous PLEASE KEEP IT FOR YOUR SELF IT IS SO PRETTY I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE SOMETHING THAT NICE.. YOU DESERVE TO HAVE IT SHE DO NOT !!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I AM WITH YOU ON THIS YOU DO GREAT WORK !!!!

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NATPLUMMER 1/28/2011 10:22AM

    I'm sorry what was such a great morning turned into such a crappy rest of the day. I can't believe your Mom treated you that way.
The sweater is beautiful. Keep it for yourself. Don't make one for her. She doesn't deserve something as beautiful and heartfelt as that.
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TUFFYBIRD 1/28/2011 9:39AM

    Sandra: You know my feelings about people like your mother; we've discussed this before. One question you might want to ask yourself ... "if I wasn't biologically linked to this woman what would I think about her and would I have anything to do with her at all?" In my opinion sharing DNA does not give anyone the right to abuse another person.

I think the sweater is just beautiful. If your mother was foolish enough not to appreciate it then wear it with pride yourself ... or sell it to someone who will.

You don't deserve to be abused - no one does - and you DON'T have to put up with it.

Hugs, hugs, hugs ... SM

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    Sandra, of course you got my private note. But, do you see, from these other comments, as well, that there is SOMETHING WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE??? Your mother has played on the guilt of her children for so long now, SHE doesn't even realize it any more... it's part of who she IS. I don't want to trash your mother publicly, but it really is abuse as if she had hit you with a baseball bat. REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE, Sandra. You are a daughter of the KING.... and you are PRICELESS, no matter what any troubled human being has to say about it! Love you, Sister! Lori
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JHADZHIA 1/28/2011 7:27AM

    Your sweater looks great! For sure don't make that old hag anything ever again. I agree with the rest, don't do anything for this woman ever again. You don't deserve to be treated this way. Her being your mother gives her no right to treat you that way. Break the abuse cycle. Should she call down the road asking for something a firm no and hang up is in order. She keep bothering you, tell her to get a therapist!!
So sorry you have such a mean mother :(( Don't let her hurt you ever again..
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GOANNA2 1/28/2011 6:38AM

    I agree, don't you dare make anothe sweater for her.
It is a beautiful cable knit and I know what work went
into it. Just don't rush into anything and try not to stress out.
You are the one getting sick over this, your mum isn't.

I would wear it with pride if I were you. Don't let her get to you.
She doesn't appreciate the work you do and that you are
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MALEXANDER4 1/28/2011 6:25AM

    Sandra, I think that sweater is gorgeous. Your mom is not going to change. You will have to. I know the feeling of failure with family. I have a dad up the road and I work in walmart....I still never see them. So honey, I know it sucks, hurts, and makes you wonder what you did. You did nothing, some people can never be happy with themselves and in turn they are not happy with us. Enough allowing her to drag you under. You are wonderful, your looking for a job, your doing all you can do. Wear that sweater with pride. emoticon you have so much talent. As for the purple one......I could tell her what to do with it and if you so much as dare to knit it for her.....well you know the rest. Take care of you.

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LEXIE63 1/28/2011 6:16AM

    Hi Honey,
*big hugs* from a mother who would NEVER treat her girls like that! I had a toxic mother who disowned me so many times I lost count, and the last time it was because I sent her birthday card a week late. The fact that my husband had just walked out, which was the cause of the delay meant nothing to her. I won't go into all the details cos it still hurts, but I want you to know that I understand what you are going through and you need to be strong and cut her out of your life. Certainly never ever waste time, money and effort on making her anything, as you know she won't like it, no matter what you do.

Personally, I wouldn't keep it for yourself as it would be a constant reminder of her cruelty, which would be a downer. Instead, how about giving it to someone who'd appreciate it, or sell it if you need the money. Someone will love it I'm sure. The amount of work that has gone into it is huge! :-)

Take care,
Lex xxx
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DIANE2868 1/28/2011 1:25AM

    I wouldn't tolerate behaviour like that from anyone no matter who they are. You shouldn't be treated like that ever. I have had toxic people in my life and I have gotten rid of them and yes 1 was my mother that abandoned me 2 times. The Third time it was me that had enough of her. Just because it is a parent it does not mean you have to put up with such dissrespect.

I am so sorry.

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SWEETSARA124 1/28/2011 12:55AM

    It looks like a really well made, nice sweater. Don't let her negativity get you down. I know its hard, especially when it comes from a parent, but stay positive and work out the stress with exercise. :)

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Day Out!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

At noon time my brother and I hit the road and went for a long drive and ended up in a town called Langley, an hours drive from out place and it was great. The sun was out for a change and I even had to wear my sporty sunglasses.

As he drove I took out my knitting and started to work on a little Royal Blue sweater
that will go on an Alligator that I am making. After that I will make up the Fucia for the other Alligator that are part of the pair. These are easy to do while I am in the car and I don't need a pattern for them.

We did stop at two malls and walk around for two hours and John bought some stuff while I just browsed wishing I had money to spend on a thing or two.

After that John was really hungry and we stopped at a Diner for Hamburgers, fries and coffee. It was good, but I realized that I had lost the taste for these. I can do without eating this junk so I gave up after eating only half and managed to stay within my calories today. For that I am glad.

Came home and had a nap for about 20 minutes and felt more rested.

Now I am watching American Idol while Sparking.

So all in all not so bad of a day. Didn't want to go out but I promised a Sparker that I would and I always always keep my promises. I am glad that I went out and did something.

That is all for today.

Here are the Alligators that I am working on. These ones in the Picture I did up last year for a customer and didn't get a chance to make a pair for myself.

Showing them to you now and then later I will show you the new ones with the new colours.

Well that's it for the pictures I will take more when they are done and I will do close up to.

Have a great night.

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JUNEAU2010 1/27/2011 10:07PM

    Everytime I see you make something, it's the cutest thing. Then you make something that is even cuter!

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 1/27/2011 6:31PM

    So glad you were able to get out and enjoy the sunshine...and got in two hours of walking. Sounds like a great day with your brother!! I love those alligators!!! You are so very talented...AWESOME!!! I hope you always enjoy doing your knittables!

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CJANSEN40 1/27/2011 6:28PM

    It's also kinda cool, I have a friend who lives in Coquitlam. if I'm spelling it right! Is that close to you?

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CJANSEN40 1/27/2011 6:25PM

    glad you got out, and the aligators are so cute!

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LIBBYFITZ 1/27/2011 4:45PM

    Glad you went out and had a great day!

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PRAIRIECROCUS 1/27/2011 4:32PM

    Your alligators are really well - dressed, Sandra !
Well-done !

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FRAN0426 1/27/2011 4:18PM

    It can be so relaxing to get out for a drive on a sunny day, enjoy that myself once in awhile----stopping to see something along the way, have a bit ti eat. Sandra, the alligators are soooooooooooooooo cute, you are so talented.

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SHERRY666 1/27/2011 2:36PM

    Ooh I think the alligators are my favorite right now........ they really look awesome and the little sweaters are so cool looking on them........ Good for you getting out..... our weather has been so beautiful lately..... I got out yesterday....... what a great feeling to feel the sun after such a long time......... I watched idol also...... Some good singers and some bad for sure....... hope your today is just as great Sandra.. emoticon

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BOVEY63 1/27/2011 1:18PM

    Sure sounds like a nice day!
The alligators (like all your knittables) made me smile! They are so darn cute!

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MADKAPKID 1/27/2011 11:24AM

    Its nice you got to get out and enjoy a ride. Those alligators are so cute! LOL Have a joy filled day, Karen emoticon

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NATPLUMMER 1/27/2011 11:22AM

    It's good to get out every once in a while. Sounds like a great day!
The alligators are very cute...everything you make is cute.

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THIAGRAM 1/27/2011 11:20AM

  Those are so cute! It's wonderful that you were able to get out for the day! Hope you are doing well!

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JHADZHIA 1/27/2011 9:33AM

    Glad you got out! Shame this eatery had nothing else on the menu except burger and fries...
Lovely alligators!!!
Enjoy your day today!

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KENDRACARROLL 1/27/2011 9:30AM

    Glad you got out of the house.
I get really gloomy on days when I'm staying home all day.
Where are you going today?

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    Good for you for getting out, Sandra! Your brother sounds like a good one, too! I love the alligators! You are so creative, it's amazing! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TUFFYBIRD 1/27/2011 8:12AM

    I'm glad you got out of the apartment. That always improves my outlook on life too.

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MALEXANDER4 1/27/2011 8:02AM

    I'm so glad you had a day out. I enjoy riding alot. myself.

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GOANNA2 1/27/2011 5:49AM

    The alligators are so cute.
I love Langley. My best friend lives there and that was the
place I used as my home base when I lived in Canada.

Waht a great way to spend the day.

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DIANE2868 1/27/2011 1:00AM

    Glad you had such a good day. I like to go for nice long drives myself as long as I am the driver! Your alligators are really cute. Great job on staying on track today.

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So I had a bad morning whippee!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

I had a bad night and I had a bad morning and I don't care anymore. I got to work searching every job site I could find, I sparked, I did my St training on my shoulder and I had a healthy low carb breakfast , high protein and so good.

I put Village on the Diet on and watched it. Looking at all those people struggling and those that gave up made me realize that I have my health and I am fit and getting fitter as the weeks goes by. I am emotionally stronger than I was 10 months ago and I should dig and find that strength again.

So I dug down as deep as I could go and found the strength. Once John got up and ate we left and did what little recycling we had and we made $17.28 between us. That was great. We took the money and went to Safeway's and bought milk, bread and cream for my coffee.

emoticonSo we came home I had put the kettle on I had to have a cup of coffee. I haven't had one in two days and I am suffering from withdrawals . So when the coffee was made I sat down and took a 15 minute brake and thoroughly enjoyed it.

So good and hot to the last drop.

I then spark so more and did 15 minutes of physio and strength training on my shoulder and it felt good. I did 2 set of 15 upper curls and I did 15 modified Jumping Jack without the jumping. The movement felt good and no pain at all, Just a little stiffness.

I then did my steps on the steppers and leg cross overs. and I was done for the day. I was sweating so hard.

Took a shower and got dress again, hair done and make up on and I felt so much calmer and more in control of my thoughts and feelings.

Now I am just finishing up on here so that I can sit and watch the Biggest Loser in full attention, NO knitting, no sparking, no talking and no exercising.

Bye for now.

Thanks for reading this and thanks inadvance for you kindness and support.

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THIAGRAM 1/27/2011 11:26AM

  For me, when I get tired I also get discouraged, so I do so much better when I get my sleep. I admire your ability to dig down deep and find that strength to make things better for yourself! Hooray for you!

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CJANSEN40 1/26/2011 10:51PM

    glad your day turned around

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JUNEAU2010 1/26/2011 8:01PM

    Sounds as if this was an excellent day! I still believe that right door will open and I hope that happens very, very soon!

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LASARRE 1/26/2011 5:25PM

    Great attitude. Just take it one day at a time.

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SHERRY666 1/26/2011 1:40PM

    emoticonSandra......... That's the way to turn things around........ you did lots........ Keep your chin up..... a good job will come along just for you..... emoticon

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BOVEY63 1/26/2011 12:39PM

    Way to turn your attitude around!
Hope you have a Wonderful Wednesday!

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MADKAPKID 1/26/2011 9:37AM

    You managed to turn it around! GOOD for you! emoticon

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NATPLUMMER 1/26/2011 9:21AM

    Yay for some coffee!!! emoticon
Great workout!!

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DREMARGRL 1/26/2011 9:11AM

    Wishing you a peaceful, healthy day, sweetie. My thoughts are with you today, Keep trying, Sandra......You are healthy and here. We all could use some money, but remember.....You can't hug it, cuz it doesn't ever hug you back.
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TUFFYBIRD 1/26/2011 7:34AM

    You turned negatives into positives. Congratulations - not many people learn that skill.

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 1/26/2011 2:24AM

    emoticon You are doing a super job!!! WAY TO GO!!

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FRAN0426 1/26/2011 12:43AM

    You turned a bad night and bad morning into a day with positives, grest job Sandra. It isn't easy to decide to turn what started out bad into making the best of the day---proud of and for you Spark friend.

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BUTEAFULL 1/25/2011 11:37PM

    I'm worn out just reading about it all emoticon

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    Sandra, It looks like you turned it around! You are a strong woman! emoticon emoticon

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