Saturday, September 04, 2010
Good evening sparkers.
Finding the answers is the title of my blog tonight. I have so many questions that I need answers for and I need them know and not tomorrow or the next day or the next month.
Questions you ask, yes we all have them don't we and sometimes the answers are right there in front of us and so easy to see, hear or speak them out. Some times it takes up minutes, hours, days weeks or years to find the answers and sometimes we don't get the answers until it is too late.
I went to bed last night at 1pm even though I wasn't tired at all I knew I needed my rest for a busy day ahead of me. I layed there until 3am staring at the ceiling breathing and medetating and trying to relax enough to go to sleep. After laying there and getting more angry and frustrated with myself I got up and watched TV until 8am finally felt tired enough and went back to bed and fell asleep. AT 2:45pm I woke up and jump out of bed feeling guilty for sleeping in for so long and wasting the day. Only to realize that I had less than five hours of sleep.
I didn't beat myself up after that. I got up, got dressed, had a much needed cup of coffee and sat on the couch with the TV on trying to figure out what to do now that the day was wasted and how to get back on track. I decided not to do the housework but to go onto the computer first on do my job searching and filling out applications and sent them off. I even applied to some job that I didn't want to do but I can't ignore them just incase an offer come up. Not stupid.
I also search on the internet information on insomnia and cures for it. There were some good suggestions and I have been doing all of these.
going to bed at the same time.
haveing everthing done 1/2 hour before bed so that you can relax and get ready for sleep.
not having the TV on in the bedroom while going to sleep.
making sure your room is cool and completly dark.
getting up at the same time everyday and on the weekends.
not drinking coffee at night .
not eating before bed.
list goes on.
I have done all of these but still finding difficulties in falling and staying asleep for 7 or 8 hours.
So my plans are to track my sleeping habits. Write when I go to bed and how I feel, what times I get up. What I eat before bed, and what meds I take. I want to see if there is a pattern to my insomnia.
I am hopeful that by Tuesday my medical will finally come in and I can go to the doctors to get the proper help that I need to deal with this problem and with the stress of it all.
I am trying to stay positive and and not get so depress. I will fight, fight, fight for my life.
Good news is that I did get my 10,085 steps in today and I walked nonstop at home for one hour and 21 minutes to get it done. I did one set of my QFC and a 7 minute bootcamp video.
My calories today fell very short only 970 cals. My body was not hungry and I listened to it. I did drink all my water 8 glasses and I only had one cup of coffee today.
All in all not to bad of a day I did manage to save part of the day and for that I am thankful that I did not give in. I struggled but I made it through. I am Ok with it.
Now it is time for me to shut down the computer and say good night to all my wonder sparkers.
Tomorrow is a new and bright day and I finally get to see my Babe, it has been almost a month now since I had seen my boyfriend and I can't wait to put my arms around him and hug him tight.
If any one has suggestion on how I can fight this insomnia please tell me.
Hugs and many thanks.
Friday, September 03, 2010
Good evening Sparkers, I hope everyone is doing great tonight and those of you who have colds or suffering from allergies I hope that you will feel better by tomorrow and that you get enough rest and fluids in.
I woke up at 5am this morning after only 3 hours of sleep. I expected not to sleep last night because I had slept for a total of 25 hours in the last 2 days. Even after exercising and having a nice hot bath didn't put me to sleep, I was tired yes but couldn't sleep. I also didn't take my benedryl last night forgot all about it. Probably why I woke up at 5 am.
Oh well I made sure I took one just now just to get rid of the last remaining signs of my cold/flu.
I went out for an hours walk this morning and got in 2 miles dropped off my resume at London Drugs and walked back home made a coffee and spent time sparking and knitting, then it was lunch time. A nice bowl of chicken noodle soup and water, then a nap for 30 minutes.
Rest of the afternoon/evening was more sparking, knitting and watching tv. Left over Mac n Cheese, water and some Ginger Ale.
I also did another 4 miles of walking tonight while watching TV. I had put on Britain's Next top Model and walked while the show was on and during commercials I would do two minutes of lifting weight with my weighted gloves. Keeping my form and posture nice, breathing with control and really concentrating on my core and my balance. Felt so good to exercise a bit more today. Tomorrow I will work out on my legs, maybe riding my stationery bike instead of walking. Switch it up a little bit.
So here are my Septembers Goals:
Lose one pound and get to 124.5
Lose one more inch on my thighs and hips.
Continue with Bootcamp videos and kick it up another notch.
Stay within my calories of 1600 - 1900 a day
10,000 steps or more everyday or more
Sunday is my rest day but will get my steps in
continue to look for a job
continue to knit and try to get more orders for my business
continue to spark and earn as many points as I can per day
last but not least get more sleep at least 6.5 to 8 hours a day.
None of this 3 or 4 hour crap
So let all make a conscience effort to really stick to our goals and never give up, if we fail, stop regroup and move forward.
We are all very strong Ladies and gentlemen.
So let get it done and have a great sparkling Month.
Congrats to everyone on the awards and trophy's that you have received for July. You all have work very hard and deserve this recognition. I for one am truly blessed and grateful for these trophy's and awards, they make my want to try hard and do better.
Have a great night and a super day tomorrow.
Thursday, September 02, 2010
I just looked at the clock and it read 11:35 pm. geez where did the time go. Last time I had looked it was 8;30pm and John and I just got home from a late dinner out.
I took him to Boston Pizza for a belated birthday dinner and a treat out for us. We decided to split a large pizza between us with lots of veggies, ham and peperoni on it. When it got to our table it was raw in the middle and we had to send it back and get them to make a new one. THey did but when we got the new one back it was burnt around the edges but still raw in the middle. I ate cooked part of the one slice and asked them to box it up. Made a comment. paid the bill - no tip, waiter was rude to us the second time we complained and left.
20 minues later John felt sick and I had heartburn but had some ginerale and we both felt better.
I then emailed the company with my complaint and the copy of the reciept as proof of payment and what resteruant we went too. Am now waiting for a reply if any will come. THis is the first time in all the years we have been going there that we have had such bad service and food. That being said we will go back again. I think this was just a fluke with them and it was busy with a birhtday party of roudy young boys.
Got home and started to spark right away I had lots of catching up todo with emails, sparkmail, postings and replies. It felt good to be back to sparking and being able to focus on what I am writing and reading.
Yes, I am feeling so much better today and more energetic. I am still taking things slow and easy so that I won't get ill again.
My weight through all this is still great at 125.5 and this is where I will stay hopefully. I still want to do more toning on my arms and legs but the rest of my body I am very happy with. I like this new person and I am so glad I did bootcamp last month.
As for my knitting, I haven't done any tonight been to busy being out of the apartment, first time in a week that I have been out and it was the most perfect weather day for it. Not to hot, not to cool and not overly sunny. Tomorrow will be the same as today.
Well I can't think of anything else to write about so I will say good night, sleep tight and don't let the bed bugs bit.
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