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Been A Long Time Coming

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Hey Guys!
So its been a while...and alot has been going on and of course...I'm fat again. :( but as always it was due to illness and asthma. But I have a whole new approach that I am going to take and I am pretty excited about it. I have found a book called Asthma Free naturally and I have read it and I'm going to take it seriously.... it basically suggests that I should become a vegan...and i have nothing left to lose. I'm taking my time in that direction though. I'm already allergic to dairy so that's I'm taking out red meat and chicken, because I feel like that will be the hardest meat to take out. and last will be fish...if at all. I love fish.
To go with it, I started this bootcamp with my roommate and the leader of it gave us a diet that is very healthy and fitting to my health patterns anyways so i am going to follow that as well. Of course mine is more strict given everything I cant eat...but you know, I already moved to a new state for my health what's changing everything I eat for my health haha!!! Wait...that totally makes sense. Whatever...
I also have dance classes I'm going to be taking and other things. I signed up for these dance classes on and i have to use them this month so yea...wait to start it off! :) Then I plan on doing the couch25k, then a bootcamp, then 30 day shred...., then pilates and whatever else comes next... I just know I cant keep doing thing monotously... i get too that is where I'm at right now...and I'm pretty excited about it. :)
Nicki C.

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    Good luck!

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weekly update

Saturday, January 15, 2011

So this past week has been....interesting. I got a lot done which I am super excited about because it means I am feeling better....

Tuesday night I went and got wings with a couple of girlfriends from work and it was a lot of fun. They are super funny and remind me alot of my childhood best friend and I... I had fun.

Also on Tuesday I started my Couch 25k again, and I am super excited. My butt is already looking better and I can button the jeans that I couldnt button when I got out of the hospital so...go me!

Wednesday I hung out with Erin and Brittany, and got a lot done... got my change of address in, and other things but I cant remember. Then we got a little bit drunk off of some wine. I love wine! We used the wine glasses my mom got me for Chirstmas...they are so cute.. i will try to post a picture to show just how cute they really are.

Thursday, i volunteered, went to my new doctors, and hung out with Adam, then did my c25k and found dairy free pizza, lasagna....and they are way less calories than real. *Dairy free is important because I'm allergic to it. I was so excited to find yummy food like pizza that I can eat! I took pictures of it haha. And I'm pretty sure the chef at whole foods was hitting on me, because I told him how it drives me nuts that whenever I want things like that they always end up being vegan, so on Sunday he offered to make me a dairy free pizza with meat! meat! Real meat! haha I'm so excited.. I kinda hope he asks me

Last night I went to a movie and to Dennys with Phillip, Dani, Lewis and Lewis's brother. I really need to learn his name. haha.

So overall the week was good. It had some negative undertones. For example: This stupid guy that I dont actually like, but have talked to out of boredom, stupid ex girlfriend accused me of e-mailing her. I dont even know what she claims I said, but it was so stupid. And what is even more stupid is that it has been driving me insane. I blocked him... i would have blocked her but I have no idea who she is. I dont even know her name. But what I dont understand is why I care...why do I care. I know I didnt do it, and and the truth always comes out, even though I wont be there to experience it. I know it will. And its not like he was all that important to me. Quite frankly, I can do better, better looking, more intelligent, more fun, less crazy controlling asshole...just better. So why do I care? I dont understand.
I also am going to be going to a neurologist here shortly....I dont (cant: too emotional) to get into details at this time. Im hoping its nothing, so until I know otherwise I'm treating this as precautionary and not worrying tooo much. All in all, I need some prayer.
And because of this incident and the last four months and some poor decisons on my part (mostly involving men) I have decided to go back to therapy. Will fill you in as thins progress.

Ok, well I'm gonna go, but I'm gonna leave on a quote and positive quote.

"I believe the greater the handicap, the greater the triumph." -John H. Johnson
(wow....this is exactly what I needed)

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RWALTON730 1/17/2011 10:35AM

    I hope your trip to the neurologist brings good news for you. You have a wonderful, positive attitude. Thanks for sharing.

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GWENAEL 1/16/2011 2:53AM

  Loved the quote! So true!

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GRAMMAFROMMT 1/15/2011 4:14PM

    Hope everything went ok with the neurologist. The next week will be better for you.

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The New Improved, Awesome Me!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

So I kept thinking I needed to update on everything that happened over the last four months but to be honest... that would take forever!!! So much has happened...some good, some bad...but all with positive results.. So instead of trying to update I figure I would just start anew.

Since I moved to Arizona, I lost twenty five pounds, gained it all back and have currently lost I am back to where I was last time I weighed in on here haha. Which is good...its a good starting point I think. I dated, and then stopped dating, dated some more and now I'm just focusing on me. If I date, great, but i'm not going out of my way for it. All of the men I have dated out here have turned out to be huge buttheads, no worries. I am stronger than that, and am excited about the things I have been learning because of it.
For example for the first time ever I told a man to leave me alone the other day. i have never ever told anyone to leave me alone. It was liberating. Of course with growth comes some bad decisions, but at least i have been learning from them...or at the least in the process of learning from them.
And moving on...
I found a full time job with Wells Fargo and although it is challenging I find i enjoy it. I really think I can go far in the company and would like to even though it is not my final career choice...but that will come later. August.
I finally quit express after they screwed me over several times. I just couldnt take it wasnt fun anymore and what is the purpose of having a job like that if it isnt fun?
i also volunteer for an organization called Arizonans for Children that work with Foster kids which i am really enjoying and will be volunteering for New Hope which works with kids and loss here shortly.
I have my own apartment and my own furniture, and my roommate and I get along great... I've made some awesome friends. I wish I could just get into detail after detail about it all, but it would take so long. Hopefully over time though, through my blogs everyone will see how much I have matured in the last four months, how much my life has changed. My priorities, my concerns...they are so different. And I am so proud of myself... for all i have completed and become.
For now though, I have to go to bed. I have to work in the morning and I have so much to do, with church in the evening. So for now goodnight.

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SKYSTHELIMIT87 1/20/2011 3:54PM

    Sounds like you are off to the start of a wonderfully awesome year!

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RWALTON730 1/15/2011 10:13AM

    It sounds as though you are on a positive track with you life and that things are going great! I wish you continues success!

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KARLYNCANDOIT 1/14/2011 12:42PM

    Great!! You are doing fabulous! I can't wait to hear more!~~

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BUBBLES1987 1/12/2011 6:33AM

    Wow, what inspired you to move to Arizona - that sounds like a really brave decision! Arizona looks like a beautiful place to live, im jealous!


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The Last Four Months

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

So I finally made it to Arizona and it has been the most rewarding thing I have ever done for myself. So much has happened in the last four months that I feel like it has been 6 or 7 months. It kinda freaks me out to think of what I was doing and who I was 4 months ago. I am a completely different person now.

So when I first moved out here I was graciously taken in by my sister's best friend Erin. We were both very nervous about how it was going to turn out but it has been absolutly wonderful. Possibly the best roommate I've ever had. I was staying on her couch bed for a while, and then that broke so I was staying on either her couch or the floor, depending on my need to stretch out. Last night (thanks to a thoughtful chirstmas present from Lori and Jerry) I got to sleep on my new airmattress. All temporary till I get a new bed. As fun as all that was Erin and I decided we needed more space ( It was always the plan to get my own place but even better to move out with a roommate) So Erin and I have just moved into our new apartment which is awesome! Its really big, I have my own room, and bathroom, and walk in closet....we have washer and dryer in the apartment plus a dish washer, and huge kitchen!!! On top of that, we havea pool that is open year round and a gym that is 24hours. The best part of all this.. .I had my own place just in time for my mom to see it when she came to see me for Chirstmas. I couldnt have asked for abetter christmas present then that.

Okay I have to go back to work but I will continue this blog soon...its gonna bea a long one. :)

Check out where I'm volunteering:

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DEESJOURNEY2FIT 12/29/2010 10:30PM

    Welcome back! Glad to hear you took the leap and moved to Arizona!

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GWENAEL 12/29/2010 1:57PM

  Glad you're back!

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RWALTON730 12/29/2010 10:07AM

    Your move seems to have been a great one. It's nice that you had a new place of your own for your mom to visit for the holidays.

Happy New Year,

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Self Revelations/Shady guys/Work mishaps

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Okay... So the last few days have been crazy...but I've been doing well with staying in my ranges and making healthy choices. So that's good.

I'm really upset with a friend of mine. We slept together, which I feel fine about. I know he cares about me and we will be friends for a very long time if not ever. I also know he's liked me alot for a long time and I have feelings for him too but with everything...and he's moving to Boston and I'm moving to Arizona..its bad timing. Well anyways... so Saturday night/Sunday morning we are laying together and he is going on and on about how he really likes me and could see himself with me if we werent moving to separate states. Then Monday he posts this status on facebook that says. "Nothing like sexual enuendos with a nurse to make you feel better" then his friend says something and he says "I got digits too". Now okay...were friends...its not going anywhere because we are both moving. I get that. I'm not upset about that...but why did he say all those things to me and then get another girl's number the next day. Its sleazey... I think. I was just like REALLY? I mean I'm not gonna say anything but I'm sure as H3ll not going to pursue this any farther. I'm just hurt. I mean it wasnt like I just met this guy. We have a solid friendship, but...whatever.He is the one that kept going on and on about wanting to be with me. I shouldnt have gone there with him. Its not like me to do that and I dont know why I did. But now I know that all those times my friends were sleeping around and giving it all away I was isnt worth it.

Now yesterday I went into work with a friend of mine (not to work) and saw that I was written in the schedule. Which I wasnt informed of. Awesome right so I had to work last night at the last minute. Which made the entire day seemed super rushed and busy. So much for an easy day.

You know I almost deleted this. I live so much of my life in fear of upsetting other people. I just thought what if he read this some how? Who cares if he reads it...he is the one that did something shady. And then I thought what if my ex sees it...again who cares...he broke up with me. What did he honestly think was going to happen? None of this even matters anymore because I'm moving. I'm not going to be living here anymore. My life is about to change drastically and I am worried about what a couple of guys think. Wow I really need to move. I need to learn to care what I think before anyone else. I really need to spend time alone and on me...which I am going to....alot of time here in a little bit. Awesome. Wow I'm stressed.

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SHYTUGA23 7/21/2010 1:54PM

    There are boys (stupid ones) in AZ too, just an FYI! You have to respect yourself and they will respect you. I have found that following my program on Spark has really helped me to see myself differently. I have more respect for myself and that shows itself to others. The rest of the little things will fall into place after that. I really hope that moving here to AZ helps you find yourself :)

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AIMEEM77 7/21/2010 1:39PM

    Did I mention boys are stupid? And have cooties? LOL

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