Saturday, April 19, 2014
Okay, I tried telling myself that the numbers don't matter. Usually, this is true. BUT, today and yesterday I found that the numbers mattered a lot! I got on the scale yesterday to weigh in but I did not like the number. SO, I waited til today and I still did not like the number so I wrote it down. Oh, I should add that since I did not like yesterday's number, I decided "to hell with being "good" and eating right! I am having a cheeseburger and tots." The cheeseburger was good but the tots were not. And wouldn't you know it?, I felt guilty for eating them. When I tracked them, they weren't terrible but I know that they were not the best choices if I want to see those numbers go down. I am working out 3 times a week and trying to get a walk in everyday. I am having a fibro flare the last couple of days and just ache everywhere so I skipped them. I am exhausted and discouraged that I am not dropping weight faster. I guess I should be thankful that I would be the last survivor in case of a famine! I know it should not matter. I think the last time it did not matter because the numbers on the measuring tape were going down, too. I don't even want to measure today. I will wait till next week and hopefully I will see some real results.
Monday, April 14, 2014
Today was a bit tough for me. I have arthritis and fibromyalgia. These two little demons like to make my body hurt a lot. Today they were working together overtime. We had a huge change in temperatures! Yesterday it was beautiful and today it is freezing. A few months ago, I would have given into the pain and just been slow and only done the most necessary things. Today, I decided to fight back. I know I feel better when I exercise so I went to the gym. I rode the bike for 35 minutes. I did not go as fast or at as much of an incline as usual but I still did it. Then, I did the weight machines for upper body and came home and did my PT exercises. I felt much better. I still hurt but it was not as bad and my energy level was much better. A few months ago, I had no hope of really getting better. I was afraid I would be in constant pain and end up in a wheel chair. Once the hip bursitis started to go away, I was able to walk without limping. This was a huge thing for me! Limping is so hard and it brings on the nerve pain quickly. Walking normal is so much easier and less painful. I still have times when I am limping and when the nerve pain gets intense. I had that happen yesterday. However, I have times where I can do normal things like walking. I am walking much longer than I used to be able to. I am feeling much stronger both mentally and physically. That is huge for me! I was so down and depressed because I couldn't do what I used to be able to do and I hurt all the time. I think there is hope for me now. I may continue to have pain and tingling extremities but I can do more than before. When the weight is all gone, I bet the pain will be drastically reduced, if not gone entirely. I am finally starting to come back to life.
Wednesday, April 09, 2014
Today was one of those days that the fibro fatigue really had a hold on me. But, I got up early and took my friend to get her hair done and came home and did some chores. My pain level was pretty high so I listened to my body and took a nap. Sometimes I try to power through and just keep going but there are times when my body needs to sleep and today was one of those. The dogs were ready to go walk as soon as I got up. So we did our walk. They have been great companions and are helping motivate me to walk more. Walking is a big issue for me because my legs and feet get strong tingling, burning, numbness sensations if I walk or stand for too long. I have avoided walking due to the pain. But, I am challenging it a bit now. It seems I can go a bit longer now than I used to. I think that losing weight will help lessen the pain a lot. I am going to keep on going and do what I can do.
Thursday, April 03, 2014
Hello! I weighed today and I gained a pound. Dang it. I used to get really upset about the numbers on the scale. BUT... I measured and I have lost several inches! Whooo HOOOO!! I am learning not to let that scale define me or drag me down. It is just a number that tells me where I am at. Now that I am tracking better, I realize that I did not eat all that great this last week so a pound up is probably a blessing because it could have been more. The measurements tell me that the exercise is doing its job and slowly but surely I will move that little turtle tracker to the end. :)
I have worked in the past as an exercise instructor. I taught aerobics, step classes, yoga and water aerobics. I have had college courses in nutrition, anatomy and physiology. Over the years, I have read SOOOOO many books, articles, and magazines about health and fitness. I have attended Weight Watcher and LA Weight Loss meetings and analyzed what I was eating. I KNOW in my head all the things that I am supposed to do to lose weight and keep it off. However, my mind over rides this knowledge and my behavior sabotages this knowledge. I have gained so much weight now that it is compromising my health. It compromises my relationships. It compromises my self esteem. It compromises my entire life. So, this is really the time to start realizing that I am at the bottom and I have to crawl out of the mess that I have become. I am doing much better in just the last few months but I still have a long way to go. I can't walk a lot due to physical limitations but there are still things that I can do. I am now choosing to follow the head knowledge and I will do my damndest to get this silly mind of mine to follow through and help me out. I just have to move that ticker! It really is about ME this time!
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