So far so good

Sunday, January 01, 2012

Now that I am back to recording my food intake, I realized that I don't record it all and I was definately eating more than I should have when I did not log it. Seems that I know if I have to write it down that it somehow "counts" more. Exercise routine is going well. I have a workout buddy and now have added another one as well. So if one misses, chances are that the other will be there so I have to show up. I think we also make each other go a bit harder and stay a bit longer than we would if we were on our own. I lost 3 lbs this week and this is the week most everyone gains! So, I am happy about that. Just have to keep on going. My goal is to get to 179 preferably in the next 3 months so the darn BMI chart will list me as Overweight instead of obese. I also want to be able to look in the full length mirror and not criticize myself or cringe at what I look like.

  

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BLUE42DOWN 1/1/2012 10:13PM

That's part of why I've been logging my food consistently. Just knowing I have to keep track of it to write it down makes me more conscious of my food choices - and I end up almost naturally in range. Drop the tracking, and I'd pay less attention to how things added up through the day. Awesome on getting TWO fitness buddies. That will definitely help a lot! Report Inappropriate Comment

SWIMBIKERUN2006 1/1/2012 6:59PM

How TRUE about logging food intake! Just knowing I have to write it down somehow keeps me from eating it :) Nice job today! Report Inappropriate Comment

another start

Monday, December 26, 2011

It has been almost 2 years since I last did a blog. Over this year I have occasionally checked into Spark and recorded here and there. I also dabbled in Weight Watchers and then quit. I am still over 200 lbs and never thought I would weigh this much. I do exercise and generally eat healthy. I intelectually KNOW what I SHOULD do. But, it seems that I am not doing it like I should. I am going to keep up with logging my food now. I am now prediabetic and would like to reverse that. My physical health has been compromised by carrying around all this extra weight. I am physically and emotionally tired of it. I am tired of being embarassed of what I look like. I hate seeing pictures of me and hate looking in the mirror. I am too young to be retired from life. So, it starts, for real, NOW.

  

gotta do it!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I have been off spark for awhile. In fact, I think I could say my spark burned out. I had several bouts of bronchitis and pneumonia last year. I kept working out as soon as I felt well enough. I even had a trainer. However, the trainer just had a one plan fits all mentality. I am rather competitive so if he put it out there, I did it. Well, I ended up with plantar fasciatis which is the tendon from the heel along to the arch of the foot gets inflamed and very painful. I kept trying to go on when possible but the pain has really been stopping me from it. So, I quit working out. COMPLETELY! Not a good thing for me because I have always really enjoyed exercising. 2 weeks ago, I rejoined the Y and started zumba again. I love zumba because it is so much fun and you get a great workout without realizing it. But, it hurts my feet a lot. I did not go at all last week due to the weather and to let my feet relax a bit. I plan on going tonight though. Here is my dilemma. Last year due to the illness, the feet and depression and stress, I managed to pack on 40 lbs on my already overweight body. I am now in the obese category. I never thought I would be there. I am also now over 200 lbs. I weighed 199 on the night I delivered each of my kids! There is no baby this time! I remember thinking I was so huge! Now I really am. My company has started a biggest loser challenge. The winner takes a lot of money. I was very hesitant to sign up. Didn't really examine why until yesterday. I decided enough is enough. I contacted our rep for the program and while I was writing her it really hit me. As I was typing, the tears started to flow. I was afraid to start because I have failed so many times and now I walk around and everyone can see that I failed again. I hate failure! I want to win. So, you can't know where you are going if you don't know where you are. So, I am no longer hiding and I am going to do what needs to be done to get to my goals both physical and personal. I am back in the game and ready to play. This is the last time I am going to fail! There may be setbacks but I can do this!

  

Here we go again!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

EGADS!!! I have been off the wagon far too long! Got on the scale today and almost screamed! I definitely wanted to cry. The number was higher than it was when I went into labor with my kids and at that time I swore I would never be that fat again. Well, here I am and there is no baby or extra water weight to make up the difference. (I lost 40 lbs immediately after giving birth both times due to excess fluid retention and huge babies.) I now have plantar fasciaitis which makes it extremely painful to walk. This would also be helped by losing weight. I simply must get this off. I look awful, feel awful and am miserable. I put on a happy face most of the time but I am not happy with this outer extension of myself. I must make changes! I have rejoined the gym and realized how much I love exercise. I hate looking in the mirrors, though. I cannot wait till I like what I see there.

  

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JLNILSSON 12/29/2009 9:04AM

Oh I so hear you sister, lol! I am 2 pounds HEAVIER than what I was when first joining SP and 60 lbs heavier than when I gave birth to my kids! Even with your foot problem, you can still find ways to lose...be creative and think outside the treadmill ;) I know you can achieve your goals if you set your mind to it and I'll be here for you to talk to at anytime :) HUGS!! Jenn Report Inappropriate Comment

IMAZETA 12/29/2009 8:58AM

Good luck, and I know how you feel. I had the same realization when I stepped on the scale over the weekend. I will be rooting you on!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Starting over AGAIN

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Ok, thought I was able to do this on my own. Started going to a gym and even working with a personal trainer. Quit tracking food. I am now about 20 lbs heavier than when I first started Spark! I have developed plantar fasciaitis which is where the tendon that runs from the heel along the arch gets inflamed and VERY painful. I was actually running and now am having problems walking. SO,the food intake is going to be more important than ever now. I am sick of being fat and having to fight it all the time. I feel frumpy and dumpy. But, I know that tracking on SPARK helped before so I am back and will stay back. Here we go again only this time, I am not jumping off!

  

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ELIZ181 7/23/2009 8:13AM

Ouch, I have calcium deposits in both shoulders which gives me tendonitis, I can't imagine that pain in my foot. Hope you feel better soon and can manage your weight for now with watching your food intake. At least you are paying attention to what you need to do for now. Report Inappropriate Comment

LEANNROCKS 7/23/2009 8:00AM

Good luck and congratulations for not quitting. Speedy healing. Report Inappropriate Comment