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What a difference a month makes

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Okay people - persistence and a never say die attitude pays off. Thanks to all who commented on my blog post from a month ago. I was in an ugly place that day and your support helped me hang in there.

In the past month, since the last entry, I have finally lost approximately 3.5 lbs and have moved away from that dreaded number 160. I would love to lose another 3 over the next few weeks to be closer to my goal for my daughter's Marching Band Senior Night when I need to walk her across the field. But, even if I don't, I know that I can and will take the rest of this weight off (approximately 26 lbs to go) and that no matter what that scale says I am healthier, stronger, and more fit than I have ever been in my entire life. I know - no matter what the scale says- that I am walking across that football field in much better shape than I ever imagined I would when she started band in seventh grade.

I'm feeling great in the classroom, I'm back in the ballroom again, and am still running - though not as often as I would like. I also added strength training ala the SparkPeople recommendations on my fitness page and strongly encourage everyone to do so. Who knew I had ribs and abs under all that fat???? I'll never wear a bikini (far too old and modest for that) but am totally comfortable wearing a leotard to dance class. Go figure!

So, for all of you who may be struggling. Cry, rage, get angry, get frustrated, but don't EVER quit. Be persistent, reach out to others for support and encouragement, and continue this double marathon of getting fit and healthy!

  
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ONECATSHORT97 9/29/2011 3:40PM

    emoticon So glad you stuck it out! Enjoy all of your accomplishments.

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Every Thursday I Want To Give UP

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Well, it's Thursday again! Yep the morning I step on the scale and the mood of my whole day can be ruined if I don't fight it with everything I have in me. It is the morning of the week when my usual bubbly personality goes down the toilet. Or, at least, that is the way it has been since March 2011.

You see, though I have diligently counted points (until the beginning of July 2011) and tracked my food and fitness practically every day on SparkPeople since July (I tend to miss Saturdays - careful about what I eat most of the time but don't log in due to being away from home), I have not lost ANY weight. I have fluctuated between 157 and 161 lbs every single, stinking, irritating week. It does NOT matter what I do. Eat more workout more? Eat less work out more? Eat less work out less? NOPE - NOTHING!! Cut carbs eat more protein? Up the carb intake after workouts and balance my sodium? NOPE Doesn't help. I am STILL not taking the pounds off.

Now here is the TRULY irritating thing. I am getting smaller. I look fantastic. I feel fantastic. I KNOW without a doubt I am healthier. I have more energy. I have the beginnings of abs that actually show. I have super great legs. At 20 years of marriage, how many women can say they can't wear their wedding dress because it is too big? I can - it is way too big!!

So, I'm sure there are some of you reading this wondering what my problem is - why am I so frustrated. Well, because according to all the "healthy" weight indicators such as the BMI and other charts, I need to be at 129lbs to no longer be overweight. I need to be at 155 lbs. to not be obese. I hate the word obese. I have worked and worked and worked to get away from that word and, yet again, I am still there.

Week after week it gets harder to look at all the positives - I can finish a 5K is 40 minutes or less, I no longer need to shop at Lane Bryant and can borrow some of my daughter's clothes, I wore a spaghetti strap dress to a party this past weekend and looked fabulous in it, I can out dance girls ten years younger than myself in a jive class. The number is what my brain says is the indicator and it isn't moving.

I tell myself it doesn't matter. But I never started this with external looks in mind. I want to avoid diabetes, heart disease, joint issues and other health risks that come from being overweight and obese. And yet, I can't get below those numbers.

So for today, I will fight the urge to go get a donut (or 3) because it just doesn't matter anyway. I will find time to work out even though I'm incredibly busy at work. By tomorrow, I'll be back in the game striving once again to achieve every single day with the hope that the scale will give me a gold star next week. But, I'm losing hope that it is ever going to happen again.

  
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READERSB 8/26/2011 11:52AM

    Hi Christa--of course you should do what you're comfortable with. But a clarification--Momentum is also free, since it's not the current WW plan. My understanding is that the tools people are posting are either free websites for tracking Momentum on your computer, or they're apps for your smartphone that you buy for a modest price (I don't have a smart phone, so that whole "app" thing is a bit of a mystery to me).

In any event--Good luck! Passing the "obese" line on the way down was probably the single best moment of this whole thing for me.




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KMMISSCHRISTA 8/25/2011 1:56PM

    Nancypat - thanks - lots of people say that to me, but I remember WW saying over and over again that a pound is a pound. I don't know what to think. I do know that I am way slimmer and way fitter than I was before. That is going to be my motivation to maintain what I'm doing and keep it up. emoticon

ReaderSB - thanks. I think I'm going to stick with SparkPeople because it IS free and I can track everything here. Momentum is possibly a choice though we'll see where this journey takes me.

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REMODELINGPAT 8/25/2011 1:18PM

    emoticonRemember, muscles weigh more than fat. This is the fallacy in the standardized charts. If you're walking around in a nicely toned and FIT body, emoticonuse the tape measure and the smaller sizes as your marker and ignore the scale. It IS frustrating, but facts are facts and muscles are heavier than flab.
Blessings!
Pat

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READERSB 8/25/2011 10:48AM

    Hi Christa--I looked at your photos and see the wonderful change you have made since Nov. 2009. Congratulations! You look great!

But that's probably not much consolation right now.

The one thing you didn't mention is going back to Momentum. You had all that success on it. On the Classic WW page, there are threads that talk about where to find tools for tracking Momentum points.

I totally relate to your situation. Losing Momentum was a terrible blow to my weight loss efforts. I have lost using the Sparks calorie tracker, but it tracking Momentum points online was very easy and liveable, and I miss it.
Sue

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