disappointing

Monday, December 15, 2008

Today has not been good in the world of I Can Make You Thin techniques. Basically, I've eaten a lot today (still less than I would have other days!), without paying attention when I was doing it. It's so frustrating for me. I WANT to follow the rules. But when it comes time to do them, for some reason, I don't.

However, that said, I think the best thing about McKenna's plan is that even if you mess up... you can start up again the next time you are hungry. You get a brand new chance to do it right. Your entire day is NOT ruined because you messed up in the morning. How wonderful!

I was also disappointed today because I weighed myself and I weigh more than what I thought. When I made this account a few days ago, I just guessed. And it turns out I am about 8 lbs over my initial estimate. I guess it could be worse. It just wasn't a good realization. Ugh. No more scales, for at least two weeks. (Eh, let's just make it January, shall we?)

Tonight is combined dinner with the other house and our office staff, so there are going to be like... 17 people at dinner. Which will be way fun. And, I'm looking forward to dinner, so that I can get BACK on track with eating when I am hungry, eating consciously, and stopping when I'm full.

Then, after dinner, is our White Elephant Exchange. I'm way more excited to see who gets my gift than to get one myself. My gift is my other ticket to see Neil Diamond on Wednesday, and I am totally cool going with anyone in either house, so I'm pumped for a night of fun!!!

  

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DEMURALIST 12/16/2008 8:53AM

Starting with all four rules can be a bit daunting. Maybe you should try the 21 day challenge and just pick one habit to change, then in 21 days you can pick another and so on. Try to figure out what is the thing that most throws you off. It takes 21 days to create a good habit (and about 2 minutes to create a bad one!). For me right now, I need to eat all meals and snacks sitting at a table (no tv or reading). This forces me into awareness. I also put my watch in front of me to remind me to slow down. Now to the weight, focus on the program, avoid the scales. There is a tapping technique (I don't use these much, but I like this one) in the links. it is the portsmouth coach, on youtube and she is tapping away your "need to lose weight". Even if you just use it for positive mental images, it can be very powerful. There is also a tapping script to help stop self-sabotage, I can find if you are interested. Stay positive, and only use your "failures" as learning experiences. We are with ya! Chris Comment edited on: 12/16/2008 8:54:46 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

sleeping

Sunday, December 14, 2008

I slept a LOT last night. I went to bed around 2 AM, after picking my housemates up at a party that I had left earlier in the evening. (I like parties, I do, but after an hour or so, I'm totally drained. I guess it's part of my being more of an introvert than an extrovert.) So anyway, I didn't go to sleep until after 2 AM. Before going to sleep, I turned my phone on silent. Bad plan, Batman, I didn't wake up until 12:45 this afternoon. Yes, I slept almost 11 hours. Insanity.

I feel bad because I was supposed to go to church with a friend this morning, and I hate not keeping my commitments. But I can only imagine that I really needed the sleep. I haven't been getting enough lately, and community life has just been really hectic this week. Not to mention that it is almost Christmas, and I feel a lot of pressure to find gifts for my family, and yet have to remember that I am living on such a strict budget that I can't really afford much.

Stress. Gotta love it.

There is a 5K coming up next week that I am doing with a friend, and I have not trained at all. Luckily, I can fake my way through 5K pretty easily by now. It will be fun, I think. Next year, starting in January, I think we are going to start training for a 5M, and then for a Half Marathon in May. I do love a good half marathon, especially if my friend Kate from Michigan will be able to come out for it.

I just feel like I'm rambling now. Which I guess means it is time to get out of bed and do something...

  

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DEMURALIST 12/15/2008 7:53AM

I am in total agreement. Sleep (well lack of it) is probably the number one factor in weight loss and it is seriously underrated! Wish that I could go to sleep when I am tired and wake up when I am done sleeping. Listen to my body. Hey, this sounds suspiciously like the Paul McKenna program. Holy coincidence, Batman! Hope all is going well! Chris p.s. take up knitting, dd is knitting (for about 5 bucks each and spare time) a scarf for each of her friends. She got chuncky soft yarn, big needles, fun colors and does 12 stitches to a row, all knitting no pearl or fancy stuff. She can whip them out and they look great. Or give time. give cards that will offer to make them dinner or clean their house or shine their shoes, whatever you have a talent for and they need or would pay someone for. It is only stress if you allow it to be, it could just be motivation. Report Inappropriate Comment

SHEVICE 12/14/2008 4:18PM

Never apologize for taking care of yourself...even if it feels like 'laziness' which it probably does compared to your routine of run-her-run there all day long. Enjoy your down-time! Report Inappropriate Comment