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Dear Mother Nature,

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Dear Mother Nature,

I am writing you in regards to the recent 6" of the white stuff that you have dumped on my area in Michigan. I would like to take back my wish for snow (wish made 11/28/08) and replace it for my wish for -- Getting my garden ready, walking my dog, playing ball with the family in the yard and just sitting outside sipping ice tea, the smell of the grill fired up and just plan relaxing.

I know that this can be irritating always trying to please but as I am renewed I am ready for winter to break so that I can take time for myself doing the things that I love to do. I suggest you do the same. It is time for this season to melt away and to bring new and wonderous things onto my world..and the rest. New life, blossoms of flowers and leaves to remind us to stop and take it in, to bring out the best in people as they stop to open the door for others entering a store instead of running to beat them to get in from the cold, bring new growth and possibilities to everyone who needs the warmth of the sun so that they know that seasons change, time passes as does times and seasons of our life.

So, Mother Nature, as I close out this plea for help....please see it in your heart to start the change that is needed. Once goodness starts it will spread!


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KOTOGOAL 2/26/2009 6:04PM

    Since you've got an in with Mother Nature... do think you could ask her... Why the globe is warming... Also is the catepiller turning into a butterfly a pay back for the catepiller being so hideous in his first life? Kind of an "Ugly Duckling" thing? Actually, I probably have more questions than these but I don't want to get on her nerves... she can be ruthless. :)

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One day.....turns into 12!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

How does one day turn into twelve? I re-motivated myself (2/13) after finding that my sister in law will be staying longer than we thought. I'm over that! What is... is. I will find a way to deal with it. TODAY IT'S 2/25....where did the days go? I have been so busy helping my sister in law...helping my kids and my husband that I did not even realize how long it's been.

One GOOD thing is that I am still losing, that when I looked back over my non-tracked days I still made good choices. I still prefer to track as things get spin out of control quickly but I am proud of myself. I think that I can see this being a new lifestyle not just a lose weight diet! I am renewed and ready to roll! Back to SPARKING! I miss it I miss it a lot it helps to get me away a little and gives me a sense of what I am doing this for...why I am trying 15 ways with lean ground turkey or spending more on groceries!

I wish me luck and the ability to endure!!!!!!!!!!!!

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KOTOGOAL 2/26/2009 5:59PM

    Great job on continuing your weight loss! Best of Luck (and ability to endure)!

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Will anything ever be "normal"? A NEED TO VENT!

Friday, February 13, 2009

As I have adjusted myself to being able to eat right and trying to find my motivation for exercise I continuously let stress determine the outcome.

I have not been tracking my nutrition and I have not been signing on. I need to get back to this it's working and it's great but it is hard when your life seems to be in an uproar all of the time. I realize that a lot of it is self created but sometimes even though you know that it is going to create stress you do it because you know that it is going to cause less stress on someone else.

In this case, I took on a lot of stress so that my husband could have less stress. I know that he appreciates it because he tells me. His twin sister is recently divorced and has moved in with us. She is a very stressful unhappy person with a short fuse so it is difficult for me to come home from work everynight to listen to what she has had to think about or deal with all day. I love my husband so I love his family. 6 Months she has been with us and I have kept my cool...which is really an accomplishment for me. I just kept telling myself 5 more weeks and she would be moving to California with her daughter. WELL...on this last Tuesday my sister in law jumped from a third floor balcony 13 feet to a 2nd floor in the building she works in (yeah don't ask). She landed on her feet so she shattered her foot, fractured her leg, fractured the L1,2 and 3 vertebrea in her lower back and fractured her arm. Don't get me wrong thank god she is alive and her injuries will heal. But as for now I will be her caregiver for the next 14 weeks before she is able to get up from laying flat on her back. Her surgery on her foot requires 7 pins and a plate her back just needs to heal. I just can't help myself from thinking that this really is going to be hard and that I wish she had somewhere else to go, and then I get stressed because I feel guilty for the feelings. We are her only family in the area that she has not damaged the relationship with and she can not travel anywhere so it appears that God has given me the task to learn to deal with the difficult and have maybe more compassion. I just wish that her arguementative/combative personality would chill so that I could have a chance to be compassionate.

I realize that this is a personal matter I feel strange to place it in my blog. But I also felt that I needed to vent and right now I can not do that with anyone as I do not want to appear uncaring. I would normally talk to my husband but I know that his stress is very high right now because he is worried about me and keeping things as normal as possible for the kids.

Well thanks for listening.....its always good to have someone to talk to!

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SHEROO 2/15/2009 7:02PM

    Oh wow-this was be very hard. As far as her talking drama-maybe if you feed it back to her-she'll see what it sounds like. I have a brother like that and I just join in and pretty soon he doesn't want to talk about it anymore.

I am having issues with my eating and exercise. How do you get and stay motivated-I just don't seem to be able to do it.

If most people don't admit to having problems with relatives their liars.

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KOTOGOAL 2/14/2009 9:31PM

    Its really easy to put everyone else first and think of yourself last... but in the long run when you do this it usually ends up blowing up. You have to think about what's best for everyone and not overcommit to things that are going to create chaos in your life. (Take it from someone who knows) You, your husband and kids have to come first...

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How to steal with pride! (part 3)

Friday, January 23, 2009

OK...So the first thing I am stealing from my oldest son, Jake, is the ability to push himself to the top of his limits and do it with pride of his accomplishments. The second thing was taken from my second son, Jarid, from him I am taking imagination and the ability to make things what I want them to be.

Now to steal from my daughter, Keersten. I am stealing her laughter. The ability to laugh and love most people that she meets. Keersten is the type of kid that loves to be loved. She finds the good in most things. (except maybe her brother emoticon) She is always positive and happy to be part of whatever is going on. Her smile and fun loving way can be quite catchy. She really is a sweet girl who tries to not hurt anyone's feelings. The kids in her class seem to want to be her friend and she accepts everyone without question.

Don't get me wrong she has her days, but I am proud of her! She is a good sweet kid who loves to make jokes and is willing to laugh at herself too!

So, from Keersten I will be stealing the ability to laugh at situations even if they involve me and accept people for who they are. I will try to focus on making myself better so that the people around me are better!



How to steal with pride! (part 2)

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Part 2 Stealing with pride...I have stolen from my first son Jacob the Energy and Endurance to do what I need to do and accomplish my goals with pride and support from others....Now I will steal from my middle son Jarid......

My son, as I call him, Jarhead, is a wonderful inventor his ideas for his age is innovative. He has a strong mind and soul. Sometimes Jarid's slow process to complete things can bring me to a boil real quick...but when he appears with the results of his slowness I am never short of amazed.

Last year my husband was plowing the drive with a 4-wheeler...the 4-wheeler was leaving little trails of snow behind and he asked Jarhead to "clean" up the trails with a shovel. Jarhead went into the garage...I'm thinking for a shovel...10 minutes later, just as I start towards the garage to get him moving...the door opens and there he is, on his bike. Strapped to the handlebars was the shovel, hooked on with bungie cords. I'm thinking "ok, what the heck this is not going to work". I know your thinking a lot of 12 year olds would think of that. BUT the thing that amazed me was that he had not only hooked the shovel to the front but also ran cords from each handle so the shovel was more stable and turned with the bike. To my amazement it worked and he had a lot of fun doing it. I took pictures and shared them with co-workers and family. The surprising thing to me was that he understood the concept of directional pull. He could not tell you in big fancy words what he was thinking he just looks at things and puts it together.

Jarid, while he can get under my skin, is a wonderful good hearted boy. He loves to help out and do things for other people. He is inventive and his mind is always turning of how he can take something and not necessarily make it easier but make it fun. Jarid is a son to be proud of, his soul is open and ready for whatever comes next....

This is the thing that as I continue with SparkPeople that I need to take from him. I need to take the things that I don't really want to do and put that twist on it that makes it fun or makes it my own.

1 more thing that I have stolen that is going to help me make this time different! emoticon

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KOTOGOAL 1/18/2009 1:52PM

    I agree watching kids and the way that they respond to different situations makes us remember what is in all of us. "Maturing" is not all its cracked up to be... especially when it means that we leave behind our sense of excitement in the world. We forget that pushing ourselves can be fun or that ingenuity gives us a sense of accomplishment and pride. Hmmm... something to think about.

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