Friday, September 12, 2014
Not much to say. Been a long time since I've blogged.
The kitchen remodel is still going on, although (I hope) the hard part is done. The new cabinets are in.
Now it is waiting for countertops. And then at a later date, the floor will be done.
The husband took off a week and two days of work and I was concerned it would throw me off. It's a lot with the mess and cooking two extra meals a day and especially with a remodel, there's a lot of "hand me this," "paint that"... I was concerned that I wouldn't get in my regular workouts so I was up at five am every single day getting it in.
Pretty darn proud of myself.
This week has been a slow week. He went back to work on Tuesday so I've been cleaning and dusting. Can't put all the dishes away yet because nothing can go in the lower cabinets until we get countertops so the dining room is still a mess.
I have no dishwasher either so I have to do all the washing of the dishes to out them away by hand so it's taking awhile.
But I broke all the cardboard boxes down and hopefully they will be gone tomorrow and we can put the family room back together.
The foyer is back to normal too so that's good.
How has my eating been?
I would say pretty darn good.
I'm not having any sort of cravings for any foods. I get rocky his weekly donut and I don't even press my snout against the glass in longing.
I have a slice of pie once a week and two or three cookies at night and the rest is just regular food. Nuts, cheeses, veggie burgers, protein drinks... (More on that in a minute)
I feel like a different person from the one that lost 130 pounds eating insane amounts of chocolate every day.
I switched my protein drink to a shake. The shakes have more protein in them. The downside? 500 calories. 500 calories a day on protein.
But I think it's helping with everything. I feel better. I look a lot leaner. If I get shaky from not eating, I have one and I'm fine.
(2 a day at 500 calories, maybe that's not so bad. I just see the 500 calories and am like Dood, that's 500 calories and I'm drinking it.)
Anyway, I am 139 today. Bout freaking time I'm back in the 130s.
That's where I am.
Hope you are well.
Thursday, July 24, 2014
So, I've been struggling these past few months. Obviously. What with the house remodeling and antibiotic and ugh.
We put Walter down. The vet said he would deteriorate pretty quickly. He might recover but once we saw the signs of internal bleeding, we knew. He was vomiting and not himself on that Monday night. I knew it'd be my last night with him. I slept downstairs with him, knowing that I might wake up to find him gone. He wasn't... But we took him in that day. I won't watch someone else suffer so I can have a few more moments.. We took rock in as well so he could be there to say goodbye to his brother.
I will pick his ashes up tomorrow. Some will go in the urn with Duncan but most will be spread in our stream.
Our kitchen is being torn out little by little.
I got the upstairs all painted and now it's just two more walls that I can't do because of the height and then the upstairs will be completely done! Except for our bathroom. :)
I am currently ripping up the tiles on our kitchen floor and have taken most of the dishes out of the cupboards. Surprisingly, I'm taking this all rather well. I hate chaos but this, for the Moment is a controlled chaos. The mess is being kept to a minimum and that's all I ask for.
Our yard has completely fallen to me. That's 6 acres almost of mowing and weeding and etc.. Add in a busted mower and grass that grows faster than anything I've seen... And add that to all the things I have to do inside (finished painting stairway, painted ceiling of doggie dining room, etc) and I'm overwhelmed.
I've been doing two big black husky bags of weeds a day and trying to haul some of the brush..
The truth of it is, I'm effing exhausted. My back and legs constantly hurt and I am just so tired.
Add that with the 90 minutes a day biking I've been doing every day.
I wake up tired.
So I have gotten back into the exercise routine. 90 minutes most days biking. My weight had creeped to 150 and that's just not acceptable.
Today I am 144, almost 143.
I feel better. I look better.
I've even gotten in some strength training although with the hauling of rocks and brush, I probably don't need it. :)
My eating has been exceptional, if I do say so myself. And I do!
I'm mainly eating fruits and vegetables.. Cheese and nuts.
Yeah you read that right. The vegetarian that hates vegetables is eating vegetables.
I've added in a protein shake thing ....no, not a shake. I can't stand snakes. A little thing of fruit punch that has 84% of protein in it.
It's 180 calories and I hate giving that up, those 200 calories, but I can't do shakes.
So, those of you that are friends with me on Facebook, I ask you not to mention this there until a time when I have divulged this info..
We are currently trying to conceive.
Which is why I'm on protein..
I went to a midwife center here to check them out and see if this is the way I would like to go when there is a child, and yes, I will be going with them.. And after reviewing my history and eating habits etc, she said I should get some protein shakes so that's the reasoning for that.
I think that's it.
Life, death, weight, calories, remodel. Check. :)
Thursday, June 12, 2014
You get a fat ass.
It's been rough here. So rough.
To begin with, I went to the dermatologist about face and demanded to come off of the antibiotic that was seriously causing me to be so fatigued that I could barely move. He said no.
I am now on half the dose and feeling much much like my old self. A little fatigued but nothing like I was.
The house is in a constant state of chaos.
Got bedroom painted. Got dining room painted. Got family room painted--finished that today. The floors are being refinished on Monday or Tuesday so all the furniture from living room,dining room, foyer and family room has to be removed.
Once that's all done, the rooms need to be wiped down and put back in order and then the hallways get painted as well as the kitchen being ripped out.
Due to the painting, I just haven't had time or energy to workout. A few days this week I did get short workouts in but then the husband scheduled the floor refinishing and since we needed to paint before that, I've been hauling ass to get that room done.
The scale has not been overly kind nor overly terrible. Today I'm 145.
This next week with the floor refinishing means that I'm going to be cooped up with the dogs upstairs for four days at least all day. I'm going to bring the bike into the bedroom and get in some much needed miles.
I don't muchly care about the scale right now.. But I see a huge difference in my butt. Literally. Lots of squats are in the agenda this next week.
We've been going to eat a lot lately... There's been a lot going on where we are out for hours and it's more out of necessity.
So that's where I'm at.
That medicine really kicked my butt. I thought perhaps that it was me messing up but as soon as I switched doses, it was like night and day on how I felt. Whereas before I would just paint and be content with that, now I'm a little pissy if I can't get in a short workout and I'm doing crunches every now and then.
So, that's where I am.
Wednesday, May 07, 2014
so, everyone knows about the face wash debacle that has scarred my face, im thinking for life since its now been 2 months... and the antibiotics that i have to be on..
it is still sucking majorly with them. so fatigued.
i begin each morning waking up more tired than before i went to bed. but i plan to make it a great day. and then i end up sitting on the couch saying that i cant do it.
having serious heartburn related issues as well. swallowing is extremely painful. i mean, i swallow once and have to clutch my chest for a good minute and then take a minute more to gather up my courage to take another swallow.
so, things arent good here.
add in the renovations to the house of preparing to have kitchen ripped out, laundry room has been torn apart since april... just got that painted and back together as it is going to be until we get cabinets.
bedroom is all taken apart for painting...
its been crazy amounts of stress.
so i was moping around yesterday. i was incredibly sore and yesterday was the first day since sunday i havent spent all day painting. and i mean ALL DAY.
i had grand plans for a workout and a migraine side tracked me.
when i woke up, i was feeling so down on myself.
like i cant do this.
like im going to gain all the weight back.
like im failing.
and then i got to thinking.
first, the doctor DID tell me to put on 10-15 pounds.
second, i am holding in at 140-143... today im 143 but last friday i was 140. and we ate out twice this weekend so 143 is respectable. [oh and i forgot about the pizza incident so make that 3 times and at a later date, i will recount the pizza incident of 2014...]
third, 143 is freaking respectable.
most importantly, how do i feel?
well, aside from feeling like snot from the antibiotics..
am i feeling porky?
the answer is slightly.
i do feel a little porky from not doing strength training. but other than that, no, i feel just as good as i did at 138, which is where im striving to get back to.
and then i got to thinking that it is so stupid to be so down about a stupid number when i feel okay.
so thats where im at.
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