Wednesday, December 11, 2013
my body just seems to want to stay at 140. well 139, 138, 137... 140.
i am working out 2-4 hours a day... mixture of biking and walking.
getting in 16 cups of water if not more per day.
getting in strength training usually 2-3 times a week--all 3 zones. usually 500 to 1500 reps worth of exercises. never less than 500.
tracking my food--trying to stay around 1600-1700 calories. sometimes it works. sometimes it doesnt.
i think that maybe this next week im going to cut down carbs as much as i can. bread as always is a mortal enemy and ive allowed it back into my life more than it should be.
hate vegetables as always.
so thats where i am.
it just sometimes seems like this is harder to lose. like id rather go back and lose all 140-some pounds again because that was easier than this.
i of course do not want that.
i never thought id be in the 130s ever so i am thankful that this is my "problem" and i understand all the eye rolls and exasperated cries of "but you're in the 130s!" i know, i know.. i never thought id be bitching about it either.
but it comes down to one simple fact: once i saw what i was, what i really truly was... a 5'3 284 pound girl.... all i see now are the flaws.
of course, i see some good...when my legs are exposed, you can see my inner thigh muscle. my butt is perkier than it used to be. i have neck bones that can be seen now. in fact, you can see my ribs. i have indentations on my back that eventually will form a V once i lose some of this chub.
but in the grand scheme, i feel probably a little worse about myself since i just cant seem to do this.
im willing to put the work in.... im willing to change my routines and whatnot. but to just constantly hit a wall is discouraging.
not that id quit, mind... i mean, what is quitting?
but it does suck to see little results.
edit: some good: less than 1000 squats to reach my 10k squat goal.
finished up my 10k push up goal.
i surpassed my goal this year of 25k fitness minutes. looks like im gonna get in 30k!! i hope!!