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Baby steps!!

Thursday, August 09, 2012

Technically, I have been a member of SparkPeople since Jan.2009. At that time I used the site, but had everything set to private and pretty much abhorred the idea of sharing this journey with anyone else, much less sharing it on-line for anyone to see! Using this site as a private motivator for a healthy lifestyle worked for a time, but for every step forward that I was able to make in 2009-2010, I have taken 2 back... I lost 25 pounds, and gained back 50... I gave up on exercise and portion control and every other tool as well!

Now I still abhor the thought of sharing this journey on-line, but I think that I need to learn to hold myself accountable for the long-haul and I am not sure how to do this on my own.
So here I am... I have made myself "visible" to the community, but still lack the courage to participate on the team pages or message boards... It is kind of pathetic, isn't it?


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HELEN_BRU 8/9/2012 8:49PM

    Love those lilacs!

Why don't you sign in and join the Spark Coach team for 2 free weeks. It will get you started on the right foot. I'm finding it a great help and I feel someone out there is really listening!

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My Better Self

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

It feels like such a long time since I have seen "my better self." show her face! I think that she faded away slowly, caught up in the daily grind life.

My life is full in the sense that it is quite busy, but empty of many of the "better things" that at one time fed my soul. Ideally the better things in life have been given up for the Best, but at times I feel like the Best really need the lesser goods to show their true worth.

My commitments do not allow me to participate in some of the activities that at one time brought such joy to my life, but I chose this path freely and with full knowledge of the changes that it would bring to my life. And "my better self," who made this commitment, was better at keeping life in perspective. Gratitude for the gifts I do have goes a long way toward bringing the happiness I crave in life, and gives the perspective necessary to differentiate between my wants and my needs. Grasping for what I may want but is beyond my reach only serves to make me miserable.

Right now I am feeling very homesick. I am far from most of my family and the place where I grew up, this leaves me with a great longing for "home" and all of the lovely things that I associate with my youth. And I don't make it home very often, the last time was more than a year ago, and I am not yet sure when I will make it home again. The distance does nothing to diminish the love I have for my family and friends, or the love they have for me.

I am hereby inviting "my better self" back into my life. Let me live today seeing all that is truly good and beautiful in my life!


Looks like fall...

Tuesday, August 07, 2012

with all of the dried leaves falling from the trees and covering the backyard. In the fall I love the sound of the fallen leaves crunching under my feet, especially when there is a nice cool breeze too! Just walked across the back yard - it looks like fall, but it is so warm! Crunching the dead leaves in August is just not as enjoyable as October!!



Friday, July 27, 2012

S-haring my journey, each step of the way
P-atience with myself, getting up when I fall
A-chieving success, to stand proud and tall
R-edeeming lost time, with heart and soul I pray
K-eeping faithful for life, starting fresh each day


Today. . .

Thursday, July 26, 2012

is a new beginning, again!

I have been a member of SparkPeople since 2009, but have not really made the lifestyle changes that I intended from the beginning. It has been a long time since I have been truly happy with myself or my life. Only I can change my attitude. Only I can change my behavior.

But I know that I can not do this on my own, so maybe I will dare to share my journey with the Spark community??


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