Wednesday, August 08, 2012
It feels like such a long time since I have seen "my better self." show her face! I think that she faded away slowly, caught up in the daily grind life.
My life is full in the sense that it is quite busy, but empty of many of the "better things" that at one time fed my soul. Ideally the better things in life have been given up for the Best, but at times I feel like the Best really need the lesser goods to show their true worth.
My commitments do not allow me to participate in some of the activities that at one time brought such joy to my life, but I chose this path freely and with full knowledge of the changes that it would bring to my life. And "my better self," who made this commitment, was better at keeping life in perspective. Gratitude for the gifts I do have goes a long way toward bringing the happiness I crave in life, and gives the perspective necessary to differentiate between my wants and my needs. Grasping for what I may want but is beyond my reach only serves to make me miserable.
Right now I am feeling very homesick. I am far from most of my family and the place where I grew up, this leaves me with a great longing for "home" and all of the lovely things that I associate with my youth. And I don't make it home very often, the last time was more than a year ago, and I am not yet sure when I will make it home again. The distance does nothing to diminish the love I have for my family and friends, or the love they have for me.
I am hereby inviting "my better self" back into my life. Let me live today seeing all that is truly good and beautiful in my life!