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The defiant one

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Starting a new diet is an interesting and exciting phase for me. I've taken the first step. I have started eating more in moderation. I am exercising again. I feel strong in mind and body (well I'm getting there anyway). I feel I have the power to succeed. My sense of food defiance is at its height.

The leftover Halloween candy waiting for someone to eat it may tempt me, but it does not control me. The same goes for the potato chips stored conveniently for my husband's lunch-making and the candy machine in the lunchroom at work where I make my tea. I walk by, looking at them over my shoulder with a superior glance. I WILL NOT be bowed.

Taking those first positive steps is a euphoric time for me. I feel invincible. I can ignore the fact that i will inevitably stumble along the way. The power is mine.

It is the honeymoon glow of dieting life.

The challenge is to keep it going as long as I can. Then, when it ends, as it has so often in the past, I must acknowledge my food frailty, accept whatever help is available to me and keep move forward on this path to better health.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

JUDY106 11/27/2012 10:07AM

    You have the right out look and in touch with yourself. This is a great start and keep using the Spark tools. I know you will get through the rough time with us by your side. Hugs, Judy

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BJUMPINGFORJOY 11/17/2012 9:34PM

    Very good attitude. I like the positive look on things you have a problem with.

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RG_DFW 11/17/2012 9:16PM

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Hungry for the first time

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

I woke up feeling hungry for the first time in a very long time today. I don't feel that's a bad thing. I have actually been looking forward to the feeling a bit. It is one way to feel in tune with my body, and my body and I have been out of touch for far too long.

I have wrestled with my situation of overeating and lack of strength over food for quite some time now and how it parallels the terrible situation in our nation. We are a nation of excess in which millions are hungry and homeless. It is pretty clear this country has a consumption disorder and I am part of it.

There have been times when I have felt sick at heart that I have unable to see food as only the thing that sustains me and feel compelled to force it down my gullet long after the need is gone. I have come to believe that I, and many others, would gain a greater understanding of the world if we all knew a little want from a first-hand perspective.

How can we be truly thankful and respectful of what we are so fortunate enough to have if we have never known its lack?

So today I am thankful for this small and unfamiliar feeling of hunger. I hope it is one timid step toward discovering a greater understanding and respect for my body and myself.

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KITTY775 11/14/2012 4:58PM

    Thank you, alihikes emoticon

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ALIHIKES 11/14/2012 2:28PM

    Thanks for sharing your insight regarding hunger, and for looking at the broader perspective of hunger and obesity in our nation. emoticon

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