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Time to start again

Friday, September 12, 2014

I really have to get it together. I know all the things I need to do. I have all the resources. I just have to DO it.
Did well before - then I let it fall apart. I think I need therapy, because I seem to be very good at self sabotage.

As soon as my menstrual cycle is done I will weigh, measure, set my goals & begin the new journey to a better me.
Gonna try to get the positive attitude back that once helped me lose around 40 pounds.
My biggest challenge will be the fact that I live & work in a "3rd shift" world. So my entries in the food tracker may get confusing.

Well that's all for now.


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KEESHA13 9/12/2014 6:49AM


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ARNETTELEE 9/12/2014 4:06AM

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Night Owl?

Friday, March 08, 2013

So, I recently started a new job, which is good since I've been out of work since last July. However, the job is third shift. I'm having an interesting time adjusting to this new time shift. Especially my eating schedule. Has anyone else had an experience like this? How did you finally adjust to the 3rd shift lifestyle?

I just don't want my weight loss goal to suffer because of these changes.


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JUNEBUG160 3/12/2013 1:02PM

    What is third shift? Is that like graveyard? When I worked g/y I would eat small meals and drink alot of water during shift. The first one is always the hardest, during the day, you want to eat normally but can't since you'll be up all night so you kinda have to spread out your calories over 24 hours. Lately when I have had to work overnight shifts they are unexpected so that's a little trickey. I mostly work evening shift so I eat breakfast then a snack around noon then lunch at bout 330 before I go to work at 5. I havemy supper break at 7. I'm not always hungry for supper depending on what i have for lunch. You gotta find what works best for you. Good luck.

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Venting a little.

Friday, September 21, 2012

So, I just need to vent a little. Maybe this is something others besides myself have experienced.
I hate it when someone presumes to tell me what I should or shouldn't think or what I should or shouldn't feel.
Whenever I vent to someone, I get "oh, cheer up, it's not that bad." Or, "you shouldn't get so angry," or (my favorite), "you need to just get over it & move on." Then there are those who see this as an opportunity to not only tell me about their own problems, but try to out-do me with "my problem is so much worse than yours."
I think these people believe they mean well, but it frustrates me. One of the reasons for my emotional binging over the years is that I have been stuffing my real feelings down because they seem to make others uncomfortable.
I can't do that anymore.
I love my family & friends, & the last thing I want to accomplish is to alienating anyone. I know most of them think they're helping, but . . . .

Am I the only one who is tired of being criticized for having feelings about something that someone else thinks you shouldn't, simply because THEY DON'T feel that way?

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KITTEN333 9/21/2012 2:45PM

    In response to AZTLAN777 - Yeah, I hear ya. As a child I was always told by my parents to march to my own beat & I didn't have to follow the "in" crowd & if one of my friends jumped off a bridge, would I do it too? I took that to mean that it was ok to think on my own & have my own opinions. Then they would contradict that. If I was sad then I shouldn't be sad, if I was angry I needed to not be so angry, if I was scared it was ridiculous 'cause there was nothing to be scared of. Look at "so & so" they're not afraid.
I have dealt with this contradiction my whole life. I didn't usually give thought to what I felt about a situation, but rather, what was I supposed to feel or expected to feel.

I mean I really do own my own emotions now, I really do. I just want people to understand that when I need to vent to someone, that it doesn't mean that I want them to fix anything. I just wanted someone to listen.

Thank you for responding so gently to this. I was sure someone would respond negatively to this blog. So, really, thank you.

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AZTLAN777 9/21/2012 1:00PM

    The world is full of "know-it-alls" and people with superiority views. I have been around them my entire life! With time, I learned to just hear it and let it go out the other ear, then say to them, "That is nice you feel that way" and "I gotta go!" I know when it's family or friends it is difficult but there is no one more important than you and your journey to health and well being. I don't know, maybe because I am older, I am not attached to people so, I am very selective who I allow to be that close to me that they affect my well-being. At any rate, you have the right to be tired of it, no one enjoys being criticized for not agreeing with an opposing opinion. Maybe saying something like "Everyone has a differing opinion and don't have to agree!" This difference is what makes us each unique. Good luck and keep your spark bright! Hugs emoticon

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Back in the Game.

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Well, the test results came back. I did in fact miscarry again. Its sad, but I'm not too emotional about it beacause I didn't even know I was pregnant until things were going wrong.
So, Monday morning I'm starting back in with my fitness routine again. I can't wait! I was actually missing my exercise that I couldn't do because my belly was crampy most of the week. Can't wait to get moving again!

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KITTEN333 6/1/2012 6:15PM

    Last week, no. I was bleeding too heavily & had problems with dizziness as hormone levels adjusted. But I started right back in on Monday & have managed to get a full week of fitness in. Although I didn't exercise I still kept up with the healthy eating & managed not to gain anything. I had actually lost another pound when I weighed myself on Wednesday. Well, the one kid I do have just graduated from high school on Thursday. So, yes, I do believe I will have a good weekend, thank you. You do the same!

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NANDA82 5/31/2012 10:44AM

    I'm sorry to hear that, Jen. I hope you're feeling better by now. Were you able to keep up your fitness routine all week? Have a great weekend! emoticon

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Staying sane in stressful situations.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Nobody really knows how we will handle ourselves in stressful or unfortunate situations until they are presented to us. I am currently taking a break from my normal fitness routine due to the fact that I am currently experiencing a "threatened miscarriage." The tests as to whether or not the pregnancy was ending or not were inconclusive at the hospital Sunday night/early Monday morning. So I just had a repeat test done today & am waiting for results. I really thought I was going to lose it - but I am actually surprisingly calm. Thought I would be binging by now but my biggest binge was a pop tart yesterday. I have actually improved my self control since being with SP. I am taking a fitness break as I said, but I am continuing to follow my healthy eating plan & will keep tracking my food daily. Hopefully I will find out soon one way or the other.


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