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My Dear Friend Annie sent this to me

Sunday, October 26, 2008


Tomorrow is a path I've yet to choose
It's a chance I've yet to take.
A friend I've yet to meet
it's all the talent I have yet to use.

Tomorrow is a dream that leads me onward
Always just a step a head of me.
It's my joy I've yet to show
For it's the person I've yet to become.

Now isn't that just beautiful.....I love it....it speak volumes.
I don't know the Author to give credit so if you do let me know.

Have a healthy Sunday and together lets see what tomorrow will bring to all of us.

Kitt

  
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HIKERSAN 11/30/2008 9:09PM

    This is a really nice poem! Thank you for posting it. Sorry I am so late in finding it!
Keep up the great progress and transformation!
Hugs,
sandy

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KOKO48 11/1/2008 9:01PM

    Thanks for sharing,

Karen

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STAMPINTINA 10/26/2008 11:29PM

    That is awesome Kitt, thanks for sharing with us all. Hugs, Tina

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KITT52 10/26/2008 9:13PM

    Thanks Annie I'm glad you like it as I have you to thank for the poem.

HUGS

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QUILTINGB52 10/26/2008 8:58PM

    Perfect place for our poem!!! Love your background & profile pictures!! But then I love anything to do with fall!!

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DISTAN 10/26/2008 8:35PM

    Kitt,

I love it . It sounds like you and what you are doing.

Diane

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weigh in day

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

It's Wednesday and so it's my weigh in day.
I did not lose any weight this week. I'm stuck right there at 177.
It seems impossible. I weigh 177. I'm very happy with my progress.
I get a bit down about not loosing and I try to think what did I do wrong, where could I have done better.
I ate healthy everyday, had plenty of water. I exercised 6 days and did weight training.... so where did I go wrong.....answer, no where. I did it all right and still no loss....but then I am reminded that I have done so much I have come so far....I mean I weigh 177, now I know for some people this is to heavy, I'm still a fat so... but to me... I am so proud of my self , I'm so happy for what I have been able to do.
I am thankful for all of you who post on my spark page and tell me how I have inspired them or give them the courage to keep going. I hope you know that helps me too. I feel good about being able to help others. I am truly blessed with so many friends and so much support.
I wish I could reach out and hug each one of you for all that you have given me.

So as always do your best, eat healthy, get up and move, have some fun and love yourself. And never ever give up.

LIVE LEARN and IMPROVE.

Kitt

  
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JILLIANWILLIAN 10/26/2008 3:58PM

    Wow Kitt - you've lost 47.47% of yourself - This is VERY motivating. I am glad to see that you (as usual) are not fussed about not losing weight last week and instead focus on your actions - you certainly have a good head on those slim shoulders of yours! I'm glad that you keep sharing and inspiring me along my "weigh"... greatly appreciated!

jillian

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STAMPINTINA 10/22/2008 10:18PM

    You are awesome Kitt. Some weeks we do it all right, and still don't lose. ITS OK! We all have our plateaus, I pray it is a short one. At tops we call a no gain, no loss weigh in a Turtle. We celebrate Turtles just like losses. It means we are still doing what is right and maintaining is still progress.
Hugs, Tina

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QUILTINGB52 10/22/2008 10:15PM

    OMG ~ you are stuck at 177 ~ I would be doing cart-wheels and backward flips if I were at 177!

You have dropped 160# and are stuck at 177??? ....and you continue to amaze me!! Perhaps you body is slowing down cuz you are getting close to the weight that will best suit your frame!!

You have dropped 160#........WOW!!!!!!!!!!!

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HEALTHYGAL01 10/22/2008 9:11PM

    Kitt,
You always inspire me. I remember how long it took for you to finally get to onederland. It just takes time and the losses aren't always when you think you should get them. That is why I choose to not participate in any weight loss contest or challenge and just focus on the process and what I need to do - after all YOU taught me that.
Sara

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MOV4WARD 10/22/2008 9:08PM

    emoticonright back atcha!

sometimes i wish that weight loss was always in a straight line downward, it would be so much more predictable, eh? and it should be tied to all the things we do... it remains the gr8 mystery in all this, how the body can do the opposite of what we expect.

the good things in all this! you've lost so much already, you will lose more too, and you are doing things that are healthymaking for your body! I'm betting there are other gr8 things happening, like a spring in your step, an odd feeling because your thighs and arms, abs, tushie all feel smaller! ever notice that? when we get the sensation that something feels smaller again? sometimes i can feel it when i can't see it in the mirror or on the scale.

well, u hang in! methinks u r doing gr8 :)

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DISTAN 10/22/2008 5:05PM

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Diane

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weigh in day

Wednesday, October 15, 2008


What more can I say...
Today I have lost 160 pounds, I'm so surprised.
My reward is the new James Taylor cd.
The best reward is just feeling so good about myself. Having the confidence to keep going till I reach my goal.
Meeting so many encouraging people here on SP.

Have a Happy and Healthy day.


Kitt

  
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TRECECOOKS 10/22/2008 4:05PM

    Hooray for 160 pounds gone forever!!!

Funny thing about James Taylor.
He's now married to a girl I went to school with, and does fundraising things for our school.
Carly Simon (wife #1) is now married to a guy I went to college with!!

It is such a small world!

Thanks for stopping by my page. I am doing OK, logginf my food and exercise in the Sparktrackers. Have a great day!!

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JESSALOU 10/20/2008 1:50PM

    way to go kitt!!!!!!!!!! thats awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!! your going strong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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MARYK43 10/19/2008 11:05PM

    YOU are such an inspiration! My husband and I went to a conference in Chicago this weekend and I ate way to much and the wrong things. My weight will be something I will always need to monitor. Congratulations to you! I am certain you are feeling fantastic! Mary Kay

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HEALTHYGAL01 10/19/2008 2:11PM

    I am so happy for you Kitt and what a great reminder to reward - well deserved
Sara

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LOGDIVA 10/17/2008 8:07PM

    Kitt! You are SO doing it! You never fail to inspire me....your steadfast journey to goal is so motivating...stand proud, woman, you are a toughy! Thanks for being my Sparkifriend!
~Tika


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STAMPINTINA 10/17/2008 3:27PM

    WOO HOOO KITT.... You are absolutely AMAZING!!!

I am SO PROUD of you!!!

I am down 87 now... I am so glad to be seeing progress.

Hugs, Tina

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QUILTINGB52 10/15/2008 9:01PM

    Oh....I love James Taylor!! WAY TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are AWESOME woman. Once you got started ~ you were unstoppable!!!

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MOV4WARD 10/15/2008 3:33PM

    ...skids in with purple balloons & streamers tied up in bows!!! emoticon

big woo hooo hooooooieeeeessssss!!!!

what a gr8 surprise! WTG! (hugs) jules :)

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VELVETSAPPHIRE 10/15/2008 2:32PM

    Keep up the great work. Hope to post things like this on myself some day and people like you inspire me to keep working and staying positive on this road to better health and self-esteem emoticon

Keep smiling ~ you have good reason to emoticon

Carol

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MADIMOMMY 10/15/2008 1:50PM

    Great Job!!!!! What an inspiration you are!!!
Angie

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I'm learning

Friday, October 10, 2008

This was not my best day. I woke early as always did my work out and had a shower. I was dreading what I had to do. This was the day I had to resign from my new job. For many reasons it was not working out. I felt nervous and stressed. I hate to be a quitter. Still I need to do what is best for me and my well being. So I called and resigned. I then got dressed and left the house. I was feeling frustrated, anxious and stressed. Then I got an over whelming craving for "Fat Food" In my past I would go right to the drive thur at McDonald's. I would never go inside because I felt everyone was thinking, fat girl you have had enough food. The drive up window was my best friend at one point in my life. It keep me in "Fat Food" and time of the day or night and no one had to see me.
My mind was spinning as to what can I do... I DO NOT want to go eat. I need something else to do.....Oh shopping my mind told, you know how you love to shop...I was worried that is my next addiction...over spending. I reminded myself I just quit my job...not extra pocket money....How will i relieve my stress and feel better. Then it hit me....I'll go to the park, we have a beautiful park right in the middle of our city....I got there and all the flowers were beautiful. I got out of my car and walked to the duck pond. It was a warm morning and the ducks were swimming and waiting for someone to feed them..it would not be me, as I did not bring anything for them. I walked around the pond, I could feel some of my stress go and I looked around, took a few deep breathes and felt so much better. The flowers were beautiful the trees starting to turn red and gold...I felt relief, I started to walk some more and see kids playing on the swings and slide. having so much fun...its nice to see kids laughing and playing...I slowly walked back to my car feeling so much better and light again. My stress and frustrations had left me. I was not having any cravings and the thought of a "fat Food" meal made me frown...my thought was I am learning new ways to cope. I have to power to over come my stress with out food.
I have learned so much from sparkpeople. I have a right to be proud of myself. I'm learning.....thank you sparkpeople for giving me the tools I need to learn a new life style... a new healthy me.....it feels wonderful....


Have a healthy day.

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SHADOWPUP 10/21/2008 4:21AM

    My own personal challenge is avoiding the tendency to stick around TOO long. Kudos to you for making what was clearly a tough decision.

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CAROL_HOORAH 10/14/2008 8:48AM

    I recently resigned from my job too, and I had all the same feelings! I hate to be a "quitter" as well, but we have to do what's best for our well-being right! Spark has taught us that much!! :) Congrats!

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DISTAN 10/13/2008 2:55AM

    Kitt What a great way to get rid of stress and wanting to eat. You are not a quitter I know what your job was. Why would you want to go back to that????? You made the right choice. Good for you.

Diane

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HIKERSAN 10/11/2008 7:48AM

    Kitt,
What a wonderful experience. I really enjoyed reading how you used to cope, your reasoning, and the new way you found to relieve the stress!
As for resigning, . . . that is not quitting, it is self nurturing, knowing when a certain course of action is not in your best interest. That is IMPORTANT!
You took a potentially disastrous day, and turned it around to be an awesome day! what a great achievement!
Thank you so much for sharing!
Hugs,
Sandy emoticon emoticon

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SUN_CLAY 10/10/2008 8:19PM

    Huge accomplishment there Kitt!!! Look at what you did, you turned to a healthy beautiful walk.....not the golden arches. WOOOHOOO! it just goes to show you have truly embraced this wonderful new lifestyle! great job!

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QUILTINGB52 10/10/2008 8:01PM

    Congratulations for not staying in a job that isn't a good fit! I don't see that you are a quitter ~ YOU are what's important!!

Your walk through the park sounds very relaxing ~ take advantage of it and go there again!

And congratulations for not giving in to that "fat food devil" ~ you are a much happier person to have overcome that obstacle!!

Take care!
~Ann

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HEALTHYGAL01 10/10/2008 6:04PM

    I'm so proud of you for both giving up on a job that stresses you out even though part of you did not want to and for relieving stress in such a great way.
Thank you !
Sara

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MOV4WARD 10/10/2008 5:54PM

    Kitt, i'm so very tickled for you. my car used to turn into McD's all by itself, swear!!! love that you fought thru the urge & took a walk! woot!

now is a good time to add this to your list so you'll remember & do it again next time, eh? Hopefully we'll lose the urge for fat food and the urge to walk will happen instead :)

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VELVETSAPPHIRE 10/10/2008 5:11PM

    What a wonderful way to relax and enjoy your success. I used to go to the park and since I can't walk much, loved to sit there and watch the kids play, the dogs romp with their owners and I always love to watch the birds. Next time you go, you can take some bread crumbs and feed the ducks rather than yourself :)

Hope you have a wonderful weekend ~ keep up the good work :)

Carol


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weigh in Wednesday

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

I was a bit sad this morning as the scale did not move.
I was a lot frustrated that I have not been getting my Spark mail.
I went out today so I would not be tempted to console myself with food. I went to visit an old work buddy who I had not seen in a long time. It was so sweet to hear him tell me I looked beautiful. I needed a good boost to my ego. I have to admit I enjoy the praise. I get embarrassed easy when people say things but then feel disappointed when they don't. Go figure that one out.

I then went to my office to start on that project again and found my old journeys, it was really a blast from the past. It was interesting to see how I felt from the start of my journey. I have come a long way.
When it figured it out from my highest weight till today I have lost 167.6 pound.... emoticon That seems so impossible, but I have the pictures to prove it..... emoticon. I also took out my old jeans from 3 years ago that were tight and a shirt that I could not button. I can fit in half of them....
This is a strange journey I'm on. My minds eye doesn't see it or feel it. I still have to remind myself almost every time I leave my home that I'm not that nearly 350 pound women. I wonder when it will happen, or will it happen? Will I have to be reassured and praised for the rest of my life that I have lost weight? How do we retrain our brain to accept our new self?
How do we get over feeling self conscious about our bodies?
I wonder when will people get tired of telling me how good I look. maybe they already are?
Poor Gary has to hear everyday about my progress or lack of progress, he might be ready to choke me....lol I give him the blow by blow of sparkpeople everyday......I need to get more activities in my life.

As always thank you my dear friends and family for your support, encouragement and love. I could never do it with out all of you.

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Kitt

  
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HEALTHYGAL01 10/10/2008 9:09AM

    Kitt, I am so glad you are here. It is sometimes tough getting used to a new body - it does take time to remove the "fat" between the ears. You have done and are doing a phenomenal job and I will be happy to repeat that daily!
Sara

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MOV4WARD 10/9/2008 7:38PM

    Kitt ~ that's pretty darn amazing, huh!!! and i bet that when you started it felt totally impossible!

one time i got to 199 and told the doc i was feeling anxious/scared about my new wait. he kind of passed it off like it was a silly concern, patted my arm and said 'you'll be fine'

well, i didn't stay that low long enough to adjust to the new me, but i think it takes awhile for our image to adjust in our mind's eye.

i wonder if it will be similar to adjusting as we age. i remember being really upset a few years b4 30 and after... like age 26 - 34 ~ lol ~ and then 40 was kind of an odd thing, and now i'm pushing 50, i swear i'm looking at my mumsie's hands...

in my minds eye, i feel 22 - 26 or so, young, vibrant, able to do anything! even though i was struggling with weight those years... i wasn't limited by it yet... could still get up/down easily etc...

i see a change in the way people treat me... i'm older & heavier... is it my weight or both... but i suspect things will change as i lose... i am looking forward to not being invisible again but i'm not looking forward to unsolicited attention. of course that may not be as much of a problem, now that i'm older.

:::sigh::: keep poking around with your thoughts, methinks it is how u will reconcile your deep down inside with reality :)

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SUN_CLAY 10/9/2008 2:22PM

    Kitt,

you are doing great, don't ever forget that. You have managed to consistently lose weight, while many of us plateau for weeks or months.

(((hugs)))

~melissa

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VELVETSAPPHIRE 10/9/2008 12:57PM

    You are doing such a wonderful job so don't get too discouraged, just remember all that you have accomplished and take pride in that.

I lost 80 lbs about 15 years ago and like you, loved hearing others tell me how good I looked but I can say in all honesty that most of the time, I didn't think about whether someone did or didn't say something about my weight loss until I saw someone who hadn't seen me in a while and they would make a comment. To me, it just felt so good to be able to put on my nice clothes and go to work feeling good about myself since I didn't have to lug all that extra weight around all the time.

So keep your chin up and keep those old clothes handy to remind you of all that you have accomplished. After my husband's surgery in Nov, I hope to have my knee replacement early next year and maybe then I will be able to concentrate more on what I need to do to get rid of this "other person" I am carrying around right now. You are quite an inspiration sweet lady :)

God bless you and Gary
Carol

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QUILTINGB52 10/9/2008 6:17AM

    I finally got the scale to move ~ but I certainly wouldn't recommend getting a bronchial cold to do it!! This huge drop in pounds has given my new energy to keep off that big drop in weight ~ the ease I had in moving today, really made me smile.

Am looking forward to getting comments like you receive!! Sounds like you need to surround yourself with people you haven't seen for awhile & smile from all those comments! Certainly does change a gloomy day to a bright and cheerful one!!

I have the opposite problem ~ in my mind, I never got fat! Then one day I looked in the mirrow & wondered who was that fat slob staring back at me? The real clincher was seeing a picture of me, seated from behind! OMG ~ what a reality check!

So, I'm looking forward to seeing the image in my mirror reflect what my mind thinks I look like!!!

Hugs!
~Ann

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