WHAT A BEAUTIFUL DAY

Thursday, January 27, 2011

I know the east is getting dumped on but here in Southern Colorado, it was 60 and sunny, it was just a beautiful day, I felt so good.....I got to walk at lunch time today and I love doing that.
Tomorrow is suppose to be even better.. near 70...
I'm going to enjoy each minute that I can outside, because I know by Tuesday winter will return and I'll be a frozen pop syle once again....

I found that if I came home have a hot cup pf tea, that helps me relax and I don't seem to have to poke food in my mouth....
As I drove through the park today I saw a large women sitting in her car eating french fries, it flashed in my mind that I use to that, go to a fast food place get fries and chicken sandwich and stuff myself, for some strange reason it calmed me for a while...I thought OMG I use to do that too..but no more..I felt sorry for the women thinking I know how you feel I was there once too....
My goal now is to find other ways to calm or relax my stress besides food.....
I'm learning, it's not easy but I'm learning...
at times I still can feel myself eating from frustration or anger, some how now the food doesn't taste...

what ways do you calm your stress , frustrations or anger????

have a healthy week end

Kitt

  

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MORRIS1989 1/30/2011 4:44PM

I calm myself now by reading other people's blogs and finding out what is going on with them while drinking a cup of hot chocolate fat-free that is. That helps me. Report Inappropriate Comment

GINILEE4 1/28/2011 7:31PM

Kitt. In answer to your question, I find that I am dealing with stress, boredom, anger etc in the same old ways, cigarettes and food. I have taken resolve by enrolling in a Quit4Life smoking program that takes 28 days to complete. How fortunate am I that the Spark Doet program takes the same 28 days!!! I begin both tomorrow so I am ready to learn and LISTEN!!!! SOmetimes I ignore good common sense. Gini Report Inappropriate Comment

HAPPYSOUL91 1/28/2011 10:06AM

To calm myself I do deep breathing, inhale to the count of 4, hold breath for the count of 4, exhale to the count of 4 until I stabilize. I get up off my desk and go into the hallway and walk to calm down Go into the bathroom and say a mantra until I relax Read "Daily Word" from Unity....can also see it online Comment edited on: 1/28/2011 10:07:08 AM Report Inappropriate Comment

LOLAJO54 1/28/2011 8:44AM

Kitt coming to the pc and seeing what my sparks motivators are doing --one of which is you have a healthy day hugs JO Report Inappropriate Comment

RAINBOWMF 1/28/2011 1:04AM

this has been a changing week for me. I am getting back to the ME I love so the food issue is not bothering me right now, I know it will ,at that time I will think of the healthy lifestyle I want , I will eat for hunger I wrote a blog on how I am feeling. Hugs Mary Report Inappropriate Comment

SOCKITTOME 1/27/2011 10:23PM

I like the hot tea...peppermint...very relaxing. And yes, it was very nice today! I'm hoping for a decent day on Saturday before winter returns -- perhaps I can do a short bike ride! Hope hope hope!! Report Inappropriate Comment

MOV4WARD 1/27/2011 9:32PM

i like your hot tea idea after work Kitt, I do also find hot liquids, including broth veggie soup to be calming. But unless it is mealtime, am working to not use food for things, eh? I'm going to work on non-food coping skills again, I have kind of gotten away from actively thinking about this as a strategy, so time to focus on it again for me :) Report Inappropriate Comment

LAINIESNEWLIFE 1/27/2011 8:52PM

So glad to hear you are finding other ways to de-stress, Kitt. Hope you have a great weekend! We're also going to be having some warmer temps this weekend. I can't wait. Take care! Hugs, Lainie Report Inappropriate Comment

KAROUSELL46 1/27/2011 8:52PM

I'm still learning to find other outlets to deal with my stress/anger. I am aware that when I do feel it coming on, I recognize it, call a friend, get on SP, read a book, but try my hardest to stay away from food. I can remember back that I would stop and buy a candy bar and eat it(not even tasting it) before I got home. What is the weather like in Colorado in August? My GrdD plays softball(16U) and the world series is in Lamar this year. I hope we get to come that way....Karen Report Inappropriate Comment

BUGSMIMI 1/27/2011 8:48PM

Oh, I have yet to beat running to food when I am stressed. I do work on it, but sometimes I don't win. But...I no longer want to reach for a cigarette to calm me down. Some day, the need for the food will follow suit. It will just take time. Big hugs! Report Inappropriate Comment

WARMSPRINGDAY 1/27/2011 8:31PM

The hot tea sounds like a good idea for me to try. Journaling, a walk or exercise, a bubble bath, a chat with a friend, or once in a great while, a nap - all things that help me manage stress. Report Inappropriate Comment

Not sure what it means but wanted to share

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Over the week end we had a few friends over for good conversations and to catch up on things.....
I wanted to share some of the things we talked about after I had time to think about what was said.....lots was said and we talked about the last 30 years of our lives, the good stuff and the sad and not so good stuff....
I of course talked about my weight, one lady said I can't believe you lost 200 + pounds, I did not think you weight that much...I knew you were chunky or chubby but I can't believe I did not really notice it, Gary also said he never thought I was that size, so I brought out my picture. at my heaviest weight, at least I think so....they all looked at it in amazement...saying wow I can't remember you looking like that.....They said we never saw you like that..funny when I think about I think about your loving and giving nature.....
I guess I'm the one who thought that everyone was talking about me and my weight, but find out I had the biggest problem with it...not to say I regret or want to go back there but it hurt my feeling many times when I was bashing myself for being so darn FAT....
I have the feeling I'm not the only one....once we get on that negative track it's hard to get off..
I'm so thankful I found Sparkpeople and al the wonderful people I have meet here.
The encouraging ones, the supportive one and the one that I have ben able to help too.
I get a lot of spark messages from people who tell me I inspire them or give them hope....
I think that's why SparkPeople is so powerful, it's about being positive , not focus on weight loss but starting a healthy lifestyle, in amy way that means to each person....we don't have to fit into a certain mold, just find a way that makes you healthy and happy....

so I'm rambling here, but know I appreciate each person who takes the time to read my blog and give me advice..
Lets all have a huge healthy day......make the best of each minute and it won't be back again...

Have a Healthy Day


Kitt
for those that don't know my before and after picture here I am..
I was big

  

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MORRIS1989 1/30/2011 4:39PM

You are right I have always thought of myself has being ugly and when I sensed that someone was going to say something about my looks i would beat them to it and say something bad about myself first you know like beat them to the punch. When i lost 26pounds people was telling me how nice i looked i started to stop talking about myself. I am still working on it now it's better. You makes me feel good about myself you give me hope too. I can lose these other 25 pounds. Report Inappropriate Comment

HIKERSAN 1/28/2011 5:36AM

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RAINBOWMF 1/28/2011 12:57AM

we all need more friends like those ones you had over. Report Inappropriate Comment

LOLAJO54 1/26/2011 7:54PM

yes Kitt if truth be told you were probably the only one obsessed about your weight... your friends saw you as you truly are giving funny and helpful... now there might have been some naysayers but you know those are the people we do not need in our life.. have a healthy day hugs Jo Report Inappropriate Comment

POSITIVELY_EB 1/26/2011 7:20PM

You are truly AWESOME, Kitt! Thanks for those thoughts! Hugs! Beverly Report Inappropriate Comment

SHANTODD420 1/26/2011 6:21PM

Kitt, You are truely a different person and look so amazing. It is hard to go from the person you used to be to the new and healthy person. But you are doing the transition and doing wonderfully with it. I can not wait to get to where you are. You are so happy, healthy and full of life. I love reading your blogs and take so much from there. Shannon Report Inappropriate Comment

LAINIESNEWLIFE 1/26/2011 5:54PM

I'm so glad that you had that conversation with your friends. Now you know they didn't look at the weight. These are true friends. You are so much more than the weight you were. Hope you have a great evening! Take care! Hugs, Lainie Report Inappropriate Comment

BUGSMIMI 1/26/2011 5:00PM

This must be the topic of the week for most of us. I had this same conversation on Monday at work about how big I WAS, and everyone says 'no way'. They've known me for almost 10 years. I had said I have to bring my before picture in. I also have come to learn that how I feel about myself, I read those feelings into what others say, no matter what they said. Hugs! Report Inappropriate Comment

SECRETMUSIC 1/26/2011 3:18PM

Kitt, I really needed this thought today. Thanks so much for sharing it. Report Inappropriate Comment

GINILEE4 1/26/2011 2:46PM

Kitt. I have only known you since about pound 180 so I can't speak for before but you were never defined by your weight. Your beauty as a loving, kind person always shone through brightly and your willingness to help anyone and everyone around you has made you many people's inspiration. Don't let yourself be about your weight, now or ever, it is about the wonderful person that you are and please know that I love you because of that. Gini Report Inappropriate Comment

BARBARAROSE54 1/26/2011 12:38PM

I am so happy that you have friends who saw the inner you, you are so very fortunate Kitt. Report Inappropriate Comment

MOV4WARD 1/26/2011 12:20PM

I think the people who love us see us, our love, our personality... I often couldn't tell you the color of someone's eyes or care less how tall or if they wear glasses... of the people I love... they are so much more than their body, which is just their package. the ones that we don't know who make rude remarks... are the ones who really don't matter, but inflict so much hurt.... out of bigotry. I hope in time it will be so unacceptable, it stops. When enough people stand up, speak out and say enough is enough... i guess... Report Inappropriate Comment

SUKIE40 1/26/2011 11:41AM

Kitt you are truly an inspiration. I am over 300lbs and your before and after photos are my motivation that I can do this. Its funny about your blog, even now being at the weight I am people really don't realize how heavy I am. Once when I was weighed at the doctors the nurse said " I would have never realized that you weighed that much"! And over Christmas my sister was buying my mom a nighty (she is heavy too, but she wears a size 16/18 pants) and she made a comment that I wasn't bigger than mom (I wear a 32, sometimes 26/28 pants). It makes you think that most of the negativity is in our own minds! Thanks for sharing your story!! -Sue Report Inappropriate Comment

HAPPYSOUL91 1/26/2011 10:07AM

We are always harder on ourselves than others and many times wonder why we can't get it together. So what I am saying is that I understand your thought process. But....look at you now Report Inappropriate Comment

GLORIAB73 1/26/2011 9:47AM

I've read some of your blogs before Kitt and you are certainly an inspiration to me! I do believe we are hardest on ourselves and if we could just learn to love ourselves, it would go a long way towards our being happy and being able to do things (lose weight) that we really want to do! Thank you for sharing. Report Inappropriate Comment

Thanks

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

I would like to thank everyone for the beautiful women award, I tried to send everyone a thank you but ran out of time..
Then today Coach Jen sent a message that we should not be doing that as it can get out of hand.......

Had a fair day, I got a lot of exercise in today and for some reason I have been cold , and crabby...seems everything rubbed me the wrong way today... I had to bite my tongue a few times and scream at myself to not say what was on my mind.....I'm not sure if I'm getting sick or just tired....I might sleep in tomorrow if I'm still not not 100%. I do tend to push myself hard all the time.....but I'm working on that....
I'm done with the kitchen and going to call my sister, she e-mailed me about coming to visit. for those who don't know my family live 1500 miles from me, so we talk mostly on the phone and by e-mail.....
I shared a blog about me moving because I was sure they were all ashamed of me, being the fat sister that I was......anyway I have lived here since 1977 , and do have thoughts at times about moving back, not sure that would be a great idea but for now I'm staying ere till at least Gary retires and we decide what we want to do...today I want to be some place sunny and warm, I am feed up with winter and being cold....

so that's it from Southern Colorado......


have a healthy Wednesday


Kitt

  

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RAINBOWMF 1/26/2011 12:10AM

Ahhhhhh Kitt hope you are just tired and sick of the cold and not getting sick We can't have our Girl sick. Hugs Mary Report Inappropriate Comment

KATI5668 1/25/2011 11:36PM

sounds like seasonal disorder has hit this bunch. I think of the storms that are hitting the midwest & the east coast & mmmmmmm ain't so bad here. we have had a really mild winter so far. I think if we had snow it would honestly make the cold more bareable, we look out, see sunshine & expect warmth, get blasts from the north instead! Hang in there, Spring with its loveliness & warmth will soon be here! Report Inappropriate Comment

SOCKITTOME 1/25/2011 11:31PM

If you're tired of the cold winters you do NOT want to move to Ohio. LOL! I'm tired of the cold this year, too -- Arizona or New Mexico might be nice in the winter. Too hot in the summer for me, however, so I'll stay here. Hope you feel better tomorrow, too -- lots of bugs going around, so take care of yourself! Report Inappropriate Comment

LAINIESNEWLIFE 1/25/2011 9:46PM

Have a great evening, Kitt! Report Inappropriate Comment

BARBARAROSE54 1/25/2011 9:18PM

Your story sounds all too familiar Kitt. Report Inappropriate Comment

LITTLE_QUEEN 1/25/2011 8:58PM

Oh my goodness we have something else in common, I was the fat sister too, you know what though, You are certainly not the fat sister anymore, You are a beautiful person Kitt! Report Inappropriate Comment

WARMSPRINGDAY 1/25/2011 8:52PM

I'm tired of being cold, too! Report Inappropriate Comment

Coach Dean is my hero once again

Monday, January 24, 2011

I re read the Spark article 'IS WEIGHT LOSS STRESSING YOU OUT"
if you're like me and wondering where your going with this program or maybe even your life you might want to read this article.. as always Dean Anderson has hit it right on.....
I am stressing out over my weight loss for many reasons ....mostly it's a place I use to only dream about....I had my life on hold for so many years....I would tell myself if only I was a normal weight person I would do...I had a long list of things I would have done if only.....I blamed every problem I had on my weight, I told myself if only I lost this weight I would not have these problems and issues......
as you all know I was wrong, we all have problems and issues and weight is only part of them....
I have had a bit of a pity party this morning and darn it's only 7.30 am.....I thought about my friends who dumped me because I lost the weight, my sisters who are uncomfortable about me no longer being the fat sister..they are not over joyed by my success, not say they are not happy for me but it now puts some pressure on them to loose weight or at least get healthy, my Dad is so worried that I'm sick and dieing from some dreaded illness and I'm not telling, he says how can you have lost so much weight and not be sick.....well I let the pressure from others get me down.....
I read a quote yesterday that said you can't please everyone so learn to please your self...
I sure need to start doing that....I need to get more confidence in myself, and my judgement.
I went over my food tracker, way back for months and could not find a day I went over my calorie range ...I re read my journal and all the fears I have about eating goodies and not being able to stop... has never happened...yes I had a treat or two but then I stopped.....
I think I'm expecting me to be perfect and I do know that is not possible but then why do I put so much pressure on myself...at work I want to be the best teacher, I spend hours looking for fun things to do and even spend my own money to get things I want to teach.. they are nice to me but others just get by and they still get paid , they are still nice to them...so why do I strive to be perfect...who the heck knows but starting today...I'm going to try and do my best but if it doesn't happen try the next day.....sound simple enough but know it will take a lot of effort...
sort of sad when ya think I can be better to others than to myself when in the end I'm all I have..and our Lord....

Have a great day, I'm off to set new goals that don't have to deal with loosing weight...
part of me knows it's about control, I can control my eating , and weight loss but I can' control other people, and how they feel or what they do.....

Have a healthy Monday

Kitt

  

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CANDLECAKES 1/25/2011 8:03PM

wow...i read your blog & it was like spending a moment in my own head when i have those moments, and you know what? reading the article was a great way to leave the pity party...you have come a long way, and if your sisters are probably just a teensy bit jealous of your accomplishments...I hate to admit it, but I was when my sister lost 57 lbs...I thought, why not me? why can't i do that? but now i've decided its my turn, so thanks for the inspiration to continue the course, and the reminder to visit the articles for inspiration! Report Inappropriate Comment

OTTAWABOUND 1/25/2011 7:41PM

Wow--I never thought that friends and family would react that way. But I guess none of us really welcome change and your attention to your health may feel like a bit of a slap that they have no real excuse not to deal with whatever health issues that they may have. Anyway, know you are a continuing inspiration to me and no doubt many others out here who, if we don't lose a serious amount of weight, could end up dying prematurely. So, thank you. Report Inappropriate Comment

YAFENELRA 1/25/2011 3:30AM

You aren't trying to be perfect. You are simply trying to be the great person that you are and you are succeeding!! Way to go!! Report Inappropriate Comment

LOLAJO54 1/24/2011 9:52PM

Kitt that was in a song from the 60's Ricky Neslson you can't please everyone gotta please yourself... so true..live for you.. this is why sparks tells us to journal ..so you can see what is true what isn't cool time to stop relax and enjoy ... hugs Jo Report Inappropriate Comment

PUGRAD1995 1/24/2011 9:52PM

And i thought I was bad worrying about everything. You are doing great and you kinda know it. You just need to learn how to live it now. And once you figure that out-tell all of us how to do it too! Have a wonderful week! Report Inappropriate Comment

DKELLEY35 1/24/2011 8:09PM

We are always hardest on ourselves. It shouldn't be that way but it is. I think it has something to do with the fact that we are really the only things in our lives that we can actually control. It shouldn't matter what other people think but it does. It hurts when the people you expect to be happiest for you let you down and aren't. You have done such a great job and should be proud of your accomplishments. Look in the mirror and give yourself a pep talk. Nothing but positive statements. Keep up the awesome job. Report Inappropriate Comment

WARMSPRINGDAY 1/24/2011 6:23PM

You are a great analyst of your own thoughts and feelings. I'm proud of you. Report Inappropriate Comment

BETHDISCOUNT 1/24/2011 5:20PM

i think i understand how you feel i obsees over my weight and feel i am a faluire when i don't lose weight or worst gain it Report Inappropriate Comment

MOV4WARD 1/24/2011 4:27PM

good 4 u 4 identifying your thoughts and feelings, and next steps to take... think you are spot on! You have controlled your food & exercise, so it's time to find more balance with that as you explore more life... methinks u r doing gr8 :) Comment edited on: 1/24/2011 9:34:39 PM Report Inappropriate Comment

DRB13_1 1/24/2011 3:40PM

So smart to focus on none weight goals, and I hope your Dad sees you are healthier, and not sick! Report Inappropriate Comment

SHANTODD420 1/24/2011 1:42PM

Way to go kitt and way to go on not obessing about food anymore. Have a great day. Report Inappropriate Comment

LAINIESNEWLIFE 1/24/2011 1:21PM

You're doing great, Kitt!!! You're such an inspiration to everyone here. I wish you wouldn't beat yourself up so much. I am so happy that you're getting back to your beading and finding more enjoyable things to do with your time. You can do it!!! Hope you have a wonderful day! Hugs, Lainie Report Inappropriate Comment

-POOKIE- 1/24/2011 1:16PM

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RAINBOWMF 1/24/2011 12:27PM

You have had a successful journey, you have to learn to rejoice in it. By moving on and making new goals for your skinny self you will be living in your new body. Do it Kitt, do it. Love Mary Report Inappropriate Comment

HAPPYSOUL91 1/24/2011 12:00PM

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POSITIVELY_EB 1/24/2011 10:27AM

OK - a couple of thoughts this you've triggered this morning! First of all, there is a difference between doing our best and being perfect! Thank about that for a bit! LOL! Second of all, I know how you feel about wanting to do the VERY best you can do! I have the same problem! I feel like I need to excel at things so that I can be "as good as every one else" (read "who is skinny" here). I keep thinking that people will like me if I give 150%. There have been times that's almost killed me. This will be on ongoing process for the rest of your life! Slow down and enjoy the success you've had! You are an inspiration to so many of us! Thank you! Report Inappropriate Comment

DMATT35 1/24/2011 9:59AM

This is an Awesome Post from an Awesome Person!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

Planning a Healthy Week

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Another week begins...I'm planning my meals, especially my snacks..
Trying to get more variety in my menus..thinking that will help to stop some of my cravings for junk food.

Also trying to find a way to get more exercise in , I'm getting board with my exercise bike, treadmill and the walk away the pounds and my other DVD....
I'm also tired of the winter weather and we don't really have it so bad here. It was 53 today but it started out at 10.....

Funny thing today I have had a craving for apples, not a bad thing but just different....lets me know I spend to much time thinking about food....I'm trying to work on this, making a new list of things I can do instead of eat.
I got some new beads to start a new bracelet project, downloaded a new book to my NOOK.

taking it one day at a time, doing my best today , and try not to worry about tomorrow till it gets here.

Have a healthy week, do the best you can ...keep the positive self talk going, that seems to help.

Off to pound my chicken breast...lol they are more tender if you pound them thin....

Kitt

  

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RAINBOWMF 1/24/2011 12:30PM

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LOLAJO54 1/24/2011 9:43AM

Kitt did I tell you about the Jane Fonda dvd's her new ones for older people --lol I know but I love them.. she has a walking one and low impact cardio one... they are great --we have Zellers here -that is were I found them for only $6.99 each..then there is the BL Bob Harper walking dvd now that is a good one .. more workout 4 - 1 mile s .. just a thought and not expensive.. same movements as WATP but different -you know what I mean... just a thought to help boost your adrenaline hugs Jo Report Inappropriate Comment

LOZINJST4ME 1/24/2011 7:13AM

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-POOKIE- 1/24/2011 6:15AM

I look at the website for where I shop for special offers, to plan in cheap different foods every week... maybe you could try that? Report Inappropriate Comment

DRB13_1 1/23/2011 9:29PM

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SHANTODD420 1/23/2011 9:14PM

I always pound our chicken breast thin they cook much faster that way. Been eating apples with peanut butter lately. Feeling good and noticing I needed a little more food. Have a healthy and happy week kitt. Shannon Report Inappropriate Comment

SOCKITTOME 1/23/2011 9:08PM

Excellent plan, Kitt, and it sounds like you're doing the right things! Keep busy with hobbies and doing other things -- that definitely helps keep your mind focused elsewhere. You're doing great!! Report Inappropriate Comment

DKELLEY35 1/23/2011 8:26PM

I can commiserate with you on the cravings, they are my weakness. I fight them everyday. You have done such a great job and reached your goal. I know it is hard to maintain and it is something that we have to commit to for life. Keep up the good work Kitt. Have an apple. Report Inappropriate Comment

PINKNFITCARLA 1/23/2011 7:52PM

Good job. I can get bored with the same exercise things each day too. I try to do different things when I can. Good healthy snacks are important. What do you like to snack on the most? I try to eat 6 smaller meals a day and 3 of them are basically healthy snacks. Report Inappropriate Comment

HAPPYSOUL91 1/23/2011 7:32PM

Just think, as you pound those breasts you are burning calories Have an outstanding week Report Inappropriate Comment

LAINIESNEWLIFE 1/23/2011 7:06PM

You're doing great, Kitt!!! Have a great week!!! Hugs, Lainie Report Inappropriate Comment

SHERRYJVP 1/23/2011 7:04PM

great encouraging blog...encouraging for many of us, including you!! Thanks. Have a good week. Report Inappropriate Comment

LITTLE_QUEEN 1/23/2011 6:20PM

You are doing great, I am a apple snacker myself, love them sliced. Report Inappropriate Comment

MORRIS1989 1/23/2011 6:10PM

You are doing great you will be fine. Please don't worry have some fun enjoy yourself you have completed a very big goal you have lost the weight and you are living a healthy lifestyle that is a good accomplishment. I am so proud of you I can't wait to reach my goal weight. Enjoy life have some fun. Report Inappropriate Comment