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weigh in day

Thursday, July 01, 2010

I officially count my weigh ins on the first day of the month...
THAT'S today.....
I am 141. down 1 pound from last month, so I'm still loosing ..... emoticon emoticon emoticon

What else can I say...

Last night I watched a show called "Celebrity weight loss" they went over how much weight they lost and WOW if I have not lost more weight than some of them.....so I'm just a bit prouder today....lol
I can now change my ticker and my profile to say I have lost 206 pounds from my heaviest and 196 pounds since I joined Sparkpeople .....
I'm a grinning from ear to ear... emoticon..

So when your wondering "CAN I KEEP DOING THIS" IS IT POSSIBLE TO LOOSE THIS MUCH WEIGHT' THE ANSWER IS YES, YES YES......
I'll stop shouting from the roof top now...lol

Please get real with yourself, stop making excuses as to why you can't , or blaming things or other people ....YOU have to do this on your own....and it's a tough road, but only YOU can do it for YOU...............I remind myself every day that it can be done...it must be done.....being healthy is MY ONLY OPTION.....and I pray to GOD each morning and night for the strength to do it one more day....oh LORD give me the strength to do this one more day, I can't do it without your guidance...you have given me free will ...amen


Have a healthy, Happy and Safe 4th of July week end.....

Kitt

  
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HAPPYSOUL91 7/2/2010 10:09AM

    I am clapping my hands and giving you the biggest emoticon emoticon

Loved what you said about "get real with yourself, stop making excuses as to why you can't ....YOU have to do this on your own...."

Excellent!

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SOCKITTOME 7/2/2010 10:00AM

    Woohoo Kitt!!!!!!!! I'm jumping for joy with you!!!!!!! I greatly appreciate the trail you've blazed for those who will follow. Thank you for being such a mentor and support and friend. People like you make this program totally rock!

Happy 4th to you, too!


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LOLAJO54 7/2/2010 1:19AM

    emoticon proud of you Kitt..

Yes you can..

hugs Jo

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POSITIVELY_EB 7/2/2010 12:04AM

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RAINBOWMF 7/1/2010 10:43PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon you make me feel so good!

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Did U measure when U started your journey to health and happiness?

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WARMSPRINGDAY 7/1/2010 3:27PM

    What a great pep talk for me. Thank you.

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SHANTODD420 7/1/2010 2:17PM

    Woo hoo go Kitt,
Have a healthy and happy weekend.

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PINKNFITCARLA 7/1/2010 1:47PM

    emoticon Kitt! I bet you do feel so proud...you should!

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LAINIESNEWLIFE 7/1/2010 1:45PM

    emoticon Kitt!! You are such an inspiration!!

Hope you have an awesome weekend too!!!

Hugs,

Lainie

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-POOKIE- 7/1/2010 1:15PM

    emoticon You are amazing! Keep that positivity shining!

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Hiking

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

We left at 6am and went hiking I got home at 5.50pm
I am tired and crabby..lol
I still have to get a fruit salad made for the picnic tomorrow...so I'm going to shower up and get to Walmart before I can't walk any more.....and I sure wish it would cool down a bit too.. it's 93 right now and it's all most 6.30 not sure the high today, but I need more water for sure.


off i go


I better sleep like a rock tonight

Kitt

  
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HAPPYSOUL91 7/1/2010 12:25PM

    That is a huge hike, how are your legs this morning...also back, feet, just make it your entire body

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PENNYAN45 7/1/2010 12:03PM

    Wow! That sounds like an exhausting hike.

I wish you a Happy July 4th weekend coming up!

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RAINBOWMF 7/1/2010 9:38AM

    How you feeling today?
That was some hike.
Have a good day at the picnic.

Hugs Mary emoticon

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LOLAJO54 7/1/2010 4:44AM

    hope you had your good sleep...
enjoy your picnic today..
great hike yesterday! woohoo!!
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-POOKIE- 7/1/2010 4:40AM

    Hope you slept well!! What a long day of hiking!

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SOCKITTOME 7/1/2010 12:53AM

    Wow...my legs feel for you! Hope you sleep like a rock tonight, too!


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PINKNFITCARLA 6/30/2010 11:04PM

    Great job on your hike! We had been in the upper 90's low 100's for a stretch, but today the high was only 78 with low humidity, same thing expected for tomorrow. That's it though....back to 90's and high humidity starting Saturday. It was nice while it lasted. I hope you get a little break in the heat too!

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LAINIESNEWLIFE 6/30/2010 8:25PM

    Wow, I don't know how you can hike in that heat. Hope you have fun at your picnic tomorrow. Take care.

Hugs,

Lainie

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ABKO2010 6/30/2010 8:22PM

    I hope it does get cooler! I love to hike too! emoticon

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REACHBRENDA_2 6/30/2010 8:16PM

    Good luck on the cooling down. We are all wishing for that. Have a great week-end.

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Tuesday thoughts

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

As I was washing the kitchen cabinets and cleaning the freezers today I had some thoughts about my weight loss journey...

I wonder over and over again why I choice food to be my coping skill for life.....it hit me that it would never be acceptable for me to be a drunk or do drugs...Both those things just would have been a sure path to self destruction..gee does that mean I have always loved myself enough to do what is accepted in society...I now know I want to be accepted I want to be normal , I have a personality that wants to do the right things ....
.I want to be loved ...I liked to hear good girl, eat all your dinner... you good girl, Mommy will love the little girl who cleans her plate..wow that statement still echo's in my brain..my heart heard... that if I don't eat it all then I won't be loved...wow what a jolt, seems like a veil was just lifted off my brain...

The part of this that seems strange all my brothers and sisters heard the same things BUT it did not seem to effect them in the same way..they are all in the normal weight range....when I asked them if they remembered our Mother saying that they all said yes.. but they all said "MOm said all kinds of stupid things like that" it did not mean anything to them.....but it touched my soul, my thoughts were okay MOMMY I'm eating it all , I'm going to be a good girl and you will love me..

I have also let other people in my life love me with food...in fact even now I see delight in Gary's face when he has cooked and I just love it....he makes comment like "your in heaven eating that" 'You look so pleased eating that" once again giving me the feelings and thoughts that food means love.. he loves me so much he cooks my favorite foods, he is not doing this to defeat my journey or side track me...its just what we all do isn't it...are we happy when we make something so yummy that everyone wants seconds or gives us praise.. we feel so good when we make others happy.. wow so many emotions with food that we eat or that we cook.....

I think the bottom line is we have to learn to watch our portions and not equate love or acceptance with food....and don't make others feel bad if they say NO THANKS, I'm not hungry or I have had enough......big lessons to re learn ... a life time of re learning is not easy...
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I know I do it , when I cook I want to see it gone, I want everyone to praise me and tell me what a great cook I am...I do this with the grand kids... they love cookies, cakes and brownies and I load them up when they are here...they love it and hence I feel loved...
so does that mean I feel that if I don't do this they might not love me, well not as much....maybe I am not lovable just for me...I need to give, in order to receive, I heard that most of my life....give and you shall receive...it feels better to give than, to receive, but is that really how I really feel.....

when I start to dig in to my feelings it brings more and more feelings, some that I never really thought about or knew about.....so for now I'm thinking I over ate because I wanted to be LOVED......I think that I want to give things to be loved, but now I get more attention and more love from loosing the weight...now what issues will that bring...

wow time to give this brain a rest......It's almost lunch time and I need to get my lunch ready, Gary's too..
Not sure if any of this makes sense to anyone but me....but I always feel better when I get these things out and can move on to my next thoughts and wonderment's.


Have a Happy and Healthy day


Kitt
Have a healthy day and love yourself no matter what.

  
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SPARTAN40 6/30/2010 11:46AM

    Wow. What a thoughtful blog. You have me a lot to think about.


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HAPPYSOUL91 6/30/2010 10:03AM

    Kitt, this is an excellent blog, you sure have the insight to issues. Food is easy, convenient, it isn't illegal, no one has been mugged over a sandwich (well that could change now that people have lost their unemployment). And...it is instant!

Since we must eat daily to stay healthy, it is an upward climb. Having said all of this, you are to be congratulated on the thought process.

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LOLAJO54 6/30/2010 8:09AM

    lol Kitt I did this just yesterday to my son's homestay student ..well in a way ..
I said have seconds you need to eat more.... then I said all mothers say this it is what mothers do....encourage you to eat all...yikes I heard it from my mom so repeating it...I will watch myself from now on ---thanks..
love today's blog thanks for sharing..

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have a healthy day
Jo

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POSITIVELY_EB 6/30/2010 1:13AM

    WOW! Couldn't have said it better myself!

Hugs! Beverly

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SOCKITTOME 6/29/2010 11:17PM

    Good post, Kitt! I think some people are brought up to equate food with love; others get the guilt trip ("starving children in China"); others have other issues. Food has long been associated with celebrations and family, especially in some cultures, making it hard to separate the "food is fuel" from the other food issues. Seems like it's a little different for everyone, depending on their upbringing.

As for me, I used food for comfort and as a substitute for the love I apparently thought I wasn't getting. Not interested in revisiting all those issues; suffice it to say what worked then does not work now, i.e. I cannot continue to use food for comfort because it does anything but!

Good job looking at your issues; don't get too hung up on it, however. If it's helpful, learn from it. If it drags you down, close the door on it and keep moving. Do what's best for Kitt now!

Hugs!


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WARMSPRINGDAY 6/29/2010 9:17PM

    Absolutely makes sense. What a great blog, reaching deep inside yourself and finding the root cause, maybe helping some of us reach deep inside ourselves to find the root cause as well.

Good stuff - thanks.

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RONIE11 6/29/2010 6:39PM

    what a revelation!! isn't it wonderful when these thoughts come to light???

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RAINBOWMF 6/29/2010 6:27PM

    I'll be back, I want to read all the comments.
Hugs

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NOW2DAY 6/29/2010 5:20PM

    Loved your blog Kitt and enjoyed all the comments on your blog. Wow , food when did it become so out of control. Maybe when we had more free time and money. (Money is getting tighter now) When people want to celebrate a holiday it is always about food and lots of food. Finish one meal and then what are we going to have for the next meal.

For me it was never waste any food, you know only a little bit left so eat it.

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SECRETMUSIC 6/29/2010 4:01PM

    I believe most societies use food as part of celebrations...who knows why it moves to obsession for so many of us! Thanks for giving me a thinking-point for today.

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CANBDONE 6/29/2010 3:27PM

    When you're not stuffed and gorged with food, you can actually FEEL your feelings! Because you have lost the weight, you're not afraid to shine the light in there and "clean" it out. You gave it a good scrubbing and can move onto the next task. You give me hope, Girl. It seems like an impossibile journey sometimes with the amount of weight I have to lose...but you lost even more, so I know it's possible. Keep shining your light!
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ANNANN63 6/29/2010 3:01PM

    I completely understand. My mother was different in that there were only two things I ever remember her praising us for doing. One was being a "good eater"; the other the don't remember just now. As pre-school age children she bragged to others that when we went out to eat, we would order a regular full dinner (not the children's dinner), eat it all and then eat dessert too. Also she would allow us to put food on our plates (even when she knew it was too much) and then she would make us sit and eat every bite. Her mantra was "you can take as much food as you want but you have to eat all that you take." So we grew up learning to overeat hugely and be praised for doing it.

I am not a food pusher and I do not need people to eat what I cook. Children should not be offered sweets frequently. My sister raised her son without a lot of sweets. His first cookies were Ritz crackers. He learned to love healthy, natural foods. As he got older she would bake occasionally making healthy cookies and muffins. He is now in his 40s, has never had problems with his weight, rarely eats sweets, cares nothing for candy and soda, and although he loves really good food, he isn't a big eater. He doesn't want 2nd helpings no matter how good it is. I think my sister give him the best of her love by teaching him how to live his life without a weight problem.

I do not agree that FOOD = LOVE. Food is fuel and it is certainly OK to enjoy it but our entire society is eating way too much of unhealthy, high calorie, high fat, high sugar, processed foods. We as loving parents, grandparents, and concerned adults need to stop this madness. Make treats for the kids that are not food. Make food tasty but stop making it all about treats. Little kids in particular don't have the capacity for all the nutritious foods they need and the sweet junk.

Sorry if I offend anyone but I have seen such madness. Once worked with a girl who was concerned because her 14 month old daughter wasn't eating and was taking her to a doctor to see "what was wrong." Then in the next minute she tells me that she has dishes of chocolate out for Christmas and daughter is eating it all day long. No little kid can eat chocolate all day and have room for food. This was an educated woman who just didn't get the fact that chocolate may taste better to a small child but it will not make them healthy. JMHO and I am now getting off my soapbox.

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SHANTODD420 6/29/2010 2:39PM

    That is so true Kitt. I am feeling more healthy now that I am weighing and measuring every thing that goes into my mouth. I am starting to recognize more when I overeat now.


Shannon

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LAINIESNEWLIFE 6/29/2010 1:50PM

    I definitely can relate, Kitt.

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BARBARAROSE54 6/29/2010 1:41PM

    food = love, yep it was done to me and I did it to those I love emoticon

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SUNSHINEGB 6/29/2010 1:33PM

    It made perfect sense to me Kitt! I'm a 'thinker' too and the things that pop into my mind, oh my!

I think it's great to think and re-think and figure things out that way. No one ever told me I was a good girl if I finished my plate, etc., but I do believe a lot of people cook/bake/give to please others, especially our spouses and the grandkids, and they love it and give us praise and therefore we feel loved more! See, made perfect sense to me!

I love your blogs, they make me think!
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OTTAWABOUND 6/29/2010 1:28PM

    This makes a lot of sense!

My husband used to load me up with pasta, my favourite breads, etc. Now he brings home flowers, local strawberries, and brags about cooking a tasty meal using less than one tablespoon of olive oil!

It would be very hard with grandchildren not to load them up with you baked goods. Food IS love, for many of us! But, as you have done and I am learning how to do, we can learn different ways of feeling and expressing love.

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Monday

Monday, June 28, 2010

My Monday turned out to be a really good day
Work went really good, we did all kinds of 4th of July things, so that was fun.
I are good today not a lot of picking while I made dinner and I really am starting to get my bounciness back....I got 103 minutes on the treadmill and 45 minutes on the bike, so a really good exercise day....I took a sort walk at lunch too...guess the supplements are kicking in....so that is really a good thing...and so far no cramps ..so lets see tonight , they seem to happen when I go to bed.
I'm off the rest of the week till next Monday, so planning on getting 3 sessions of walking or exercise bike....I need to step it up a notch and see what happens....

It continues to be hot here and I know it will just keep getting hotter as the summer goes on, making sure I drink my water drank 15 glasses today or more I sort of stop counting after 12.

Well I hear the hot tub calling me, it's set on 96 for the summer so it feel refreshing when the days are almost 100 or more...

Have a healthy week and be safe...
remember food is not the answer you are looking for...... emoticon


kitt

  
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HAPPYSOUL91 6/29/2010 10:56AM

    Kitt,

Glad you are off of work for the week, I am on vacation next week and can't wait.

Amazed that you can drink that much water, for me getting in 8 glasses/day is tough but after reading what you do, I am encouraged to work at this issue.

Make it a good one (know you will)

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LOLAJO54 6/29/2010 9:02AM

    yep so true food is not the answer!
enjoy your days off...
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BEBRENDA 6/29/2010 5:54AM

    Kitt, You are doing great! It is true, if food is not the problem, then food is not the answer. Take care! :) Bren emoticon emoticon

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BARBARAROSE54 6/29/2010 4:11AM

    glad to hear you are feeling better and stepping it up !

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SOCKITTOME 6/28/2010 11:39PM

    Glad to hear you're feeling better and that the supplements seem to be kicking in already. That's wonderful!!!! I hope the improvement continues at night as well!!!

Have a wonderful week off. Sounds like you have a good plan in place already. You're always so prepared and that's half the battle. Keep on trucking, Kitt!


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LAINIESNEWLIFE 6/28/2010 10:45PM

    Have fun on your days off, Kitt!!!

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BETHDISCOUNT 6/28/2010 10:40PM

    glad the cramps are getting better

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LDAWSON61 6/28/2010 10:26PM

  Sounds like the great plan - especially the hot tub - have a great 4th

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Sunday

Sunday, June 27, 2010

It was a good Sunday
Got my meal plan done
Got house work done, laundry done. lunches ready for tomorrow.

Had a good walk early this AM and then walked on the treadmill for 65 minutes as it rained a bit and the ground is too wet for my late afternoon walk...

I'm ready for the new week. I only have to work Monday then off to the next Monday...going to the mountain wednesday with Gary and a work picnic Thursday and I have decided on a fruit platter...I'll also bring me 3 large romaine leaves for my burger ...a burger and fresh fruit will be my lunch...I'm good with that..

I have been taking the supplements ...so far no problems...
I hear there are some side effects to to much Vit. D but I shall see....today I seem to have a bit of my spark back, so maybe it won't take as long as I was told....

Has anyone had or know of anyone having side effects to Vit D, I'm taking 2000 IU's plus what I get from my yogurt ??? I am a bit worried about taking so much, but have heard people take 5000 IU's

well nothing earth shaking tonight

I want to say thanks to all the people who send me private spark mail with there support and encouragement..I really do appreciate ...

Lets all Have a healthy week....next Sunday is the 4th and so lets eat health this week so we might have a special treat on the 4th. like home made ice cream...ohhhhh boooy


Kitt...

  
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LOLAJO54 6/28/2010 11:18PM

    Kitt
did some research today about Vit D..interesting

found this in a medical site oops forgot which on -sorry

"The current tolerable upper limit of vitamin D intake is 50 mcg (2,000 IU) per day. Taking too much vitamin D can cause nausea, vomiting, decreased appetite, constipation, weakness, and can raise blood levels of calcium, which can lead to irregular heart rhythms"

just thought this was interesting to know

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CANBDONE 6/28/2010 4:33PM

    My mother always talks about the homemade icecream her daddy made on the 4th. My dad made delicious hand cranked vanilla icecream in the summer. I got to lick the paddles!

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LOLAJO54 6/28/2010 2:12PM

    I only take 400 U of vitamin D which is in my calcium...so not sure ...
I have not heard of anyone with side effects --think I will go search this up and let you know..
GL!

love your little kitty..in hammock..

hugs JO

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HAPPYSOUL91 6/28/2010 12:06PM

    2000 IU is what probably 99% of the Drs. state that we need. I wouldn't worry about it, I have never had any reaction.

Glad you are feeling better and I always like to read how you incorporate exercise and healthy food into daily living and not make it separate.

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BUFFYSMOM2 6/28/2010 10:17AM

    Sounds like you're still doing great, Kitt. My doctor has me taking 2,000 units of Vit D too. Don't know what the toxic levels are...... emoticon Have a great week! emoticon

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RAINBOWMF 6/28/2010 8:06AM

    I have no answer to your question, don't know.
You have a good week, I am off both Thursday and Friday
this week.

Hugs Mary

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SUNSHINEGB 6/28/2010 6:46AM

    I haven't heard of side effects of too much Vitamin D Kitt but my doc told me to take 1000 IU so that's what I take, plus whatever I get with my food.

You sure have done and are still doing, GREAT! Awesome really!
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Gloria

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LAINIESNEWLIFE 6/28/2010 12:28AM

    Sounds like you're doing awesome, Kitt. Hope you enjoy your time off.

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SOCKITTOME 6/27/2010 10:21PM

    Glad it's going well for you, Kitt. You'll get the supplement issue figured out. Changes like that are hard. I'm still having problems figuring out a good workout routine to do all the things I want to do for tri training and bike training. But we'll both get it because it's important to us!


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