Thursday, July 11, 2013
My number one go to method is the time out game. I make myself wait it out in15 min intetvals. Then if needed I go another 15 mins. Usually I end up forgetting about what it is I wanted to eat. Life has a way of distracting me!
I also have a very hard time with late evening snacking. The only successful answer I have found for this is to go to bed. Personally I can't eat in my bed. There is just something really wrong consuming food where I sleep. It feels like I'm hiding, or sneaking. So when the cravings hit me at nights, I head to bed. On the plus side I get a good night's sleep every time!
Friday, September 17, 2010
On Sunday I completed my first 5k run. I started training for a race nearly 8 months ago & discovered that running is HARD! Especially when you are well over 200lbs and soooooo outta shape.
Every time a race was coming up, I would convince myself that this one was it, the one I would finally get out there and run. And every time I chickened out!
I trained for this particular race 2 months out and I was doing great, for about a month. Then reality and my wedding fast approaching derailed me. I stopped training the last few weeks prior to the race. I still got my exercise in and I was running once a week.
The day of the race I woke up and decided what the heck, I think I can run this, so I am going to run it. I know a few things about me and running. None of which I incorporated into that day. I didn¡¦t warm up at all, didn¡¦t wear a running bra, didn¡¦t have tissue for my constantly runny nose. I just checked in, got my free goodies, strapped on my 1st ever timing chip and when it was time lined up at the start.
Gun goes off and I start running. What a JOKE! I quickly realize that I am not going to like this one bit. Determined, I make a deal with myself: go to the one mile marker and you can walk. I get to the mile and they tell me 15 minutes. Really? I am in this much aching shin pain and I got 15 minutes? I decide I can push it a bit further, ONLY because at this point on the course it is down hill. At the bottom of the hill I give into the shin splints and walk around the turn and back up the hill. I keep about the same pace walking as I did running. At the top of the hill there is .8 miles left to go to the finish. I start running again. Now I am all warmed up and I feel GREAT. I feel fast and I feel like I can run for another 2 miles no problem.
As I cross the finish line I was proud of me. Yes, I could and should have done better, but I didn¡¦t quit and I now have a base from which to improve on. My finishing time was 50 minutes, and I placed 49 in my age division¡K..there were only 50 of us ƒº
Either way I¡¦ve experienced a 5k run, and have learned I can do anything I set my mind to. I also acknowledge I have A LOT of room left for improvement. 11 months ago I could not walk a mile under 40 minutes and that mile would send me home for a hot soak and Tylenol. My back would ache with every step and I wanted to cry in embarrassment over how out of shape I was.
Lastly, I want to thank my beautiful, brave 10 year old daughter. She ran her 1st 1k that morning. Then she ran alongside me during the, 5k chatting me up the whole time. She kept telling me over and over again how proud she was of me. Near the end she wanted to stop and told me to ¡§keep running mommy I will meet you at the finish¡¨. I love her to pieces and can¡¦t wait to show her in November just how much better mom will be.
Here¡¦s to November 25th the Turkey Trot. I will run the whole thing and I have a goal of completing it under 40 minutes. Now excuse me. I have a training run scheduled and I am not missing it for any reason.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Just a quick observation I had last night while filling my dinner plate.
We BBQ'd, it was a BEAUTIFUL night!!! My hunny grilled burgers, hot dogs, (chicken breasts and steak for meals later in the week). There were 2 different bags of chips, corn on the cob and pasta salad.
I was proactive, I had a veggie burger (no bun) instead of beef and since I love hot dogs I was going to allow myself just one, on a bun with sauerkraut! Nom Nom.
As I started to put the food on my plate, my veggie patty, hot dog on a bun and an ear of corn, the things I know I wanted to eat.......I realized there was no room for anything else. I thought to myself "hmmmmmm is this going to be enough? I'll come back for the salad and chips after I finish this first"
As I sat eating, it dawned on me that what was on my plate was enough. Portion wise it was right, nutritionally I admit it could have been better. However, it wasn't a plate of crap.
After my meal I was full. I did not get up and refill my plate. I did not obsess about what I was missing out on eating. I relaxed and enjoyed the time with my family and decided to be proud that I exercised portion control with success.
Oh I should add that I have to pat myself on the back for buying the 8.5 inch paper plates instead of the monster ones. Who knows how my meal choices may have turned out then?
Thursday, June 17, 2010
I have nothing done. OK, one thing is done, a place to have the wedding and reception. Other than that, NO decisions have been made. We can’t decide on food, host or no host bar, a DJ vs. I-Pod the music, or even where we are getting our cupcakes from (this is because I am AFRAID to start taste testing all that butter sugary goodness), the list goes on and on.
I haven’t even found a dress for me, let alone bridesmaids or flower girl dresses. This whole year I’ve been telling myself that this is going to be a causal affair and it doesn’t require the obsessive, crazy bridezilla attention! What was I thinking? You actually have to make decisions? I am so indecisive with many areas of my life. The wedding is turning into one of those “areas”.
I’ve let myself slack in this weight loss journey too. After being so dedicated and loosing nearly 40lbs I am stuck. While I haven’t gained anything…which really is a huge blessing, I’ve also lost NOTHING….which is a major let down. I am allowing this to become on of those “areas” too. I need to get on the ball and un-stall myself.
I didn’t want to try on dresses while being a size 18, and now I am going to have to. I am not going with a traditional dress, just something nice and off the rack. This is a second wedding for the both of us. This is supposed to be a fun event, no stress, no worries. Am I even going to be able to find a nice dress in a size 18???????????
Am I just obsessing? Am I being hard on myself because I am disappointed in the lack of progress I am making with my body goals? Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I think it is all of that and more.
What I need to do is start tackling every thing one step at a time. Make a decision and stick with it. There one decision made. Now off to start a check list and start making some tick marks on it.
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