Sunday, July 11, 2010
I had my heart set on the most amazing dress and have been telling myself for months that I will get this dress when I reach the size I want to be, british 10.
Yesterday I went shopping with my hubby and my dress was HALF PRICE!! I went in and a woman stood next to me was holding a british size 12- she looked at me and said ' size 12, this is yours!' OMG at that moment I thought I would just burst with excitement!!
A tall slim woman had just told me I LOOKED a size 12, I am a size 12 but part of me still feels a lot larger, my hubby tells me I am a size 12, the labels tell me but now A SLIM WOMAN has told me so it must be true!! As a former british size 32 with 60 inch hips it was a dream come true to be told by a SLIM WOMAN that I LOOK a size 12! I couldn't wait to get out the shop so I could repeat it over and over to my hubby who heard her anyway!
When I was at my biggest I was desp to be a size 12 but now I am I want to be a 10, this is my goal size, I'm only 5ft 2in tall and every pound shows when you're so small. I used to joke I was 62in tall and 60 in wide, not quite a box more a rectangle!
My size problem now is that a lot of the smaller dresses do not accomodate a generous top half so as my dream dress had built in bra and room to move I knew it was the dress for me. I'd previously found the perfect dress however it would need a few extra inches up top so that sort of defeated the purpose!
So as the dress was half price in a top end boutique I just had to get it, so my wonderful ever accomodating hubby brought it for me- in a size 10, a couple more inches and I can wear it, I've hung it where I can see it every day and I am so so excited.
The dress itself is one that is def not for workwear and probably for the sake of decency not for family gatherings but it is so perfect I couldn't not get it, just means I have to socialise more with adults now!
My former boss (still my friend!) is visiting me this week and she has not seen me since I was a size 26 so I'm looking forward to her reaction!
Thursday, July 08, 2010
Just thought I would share today how good I'm feeling
I got through yesterday with minimal tears (the anniversary of my fathers passing)
I'm also eating well, exercising well and sleeping better
I can't believe I have so much energy now that I am firmly back on track
I am working towards my goal with the same passion that I did the 170 lbs with! I also have the added incentive that my husband will give me £70 when I meet target, which is absolutely fantastic and a good motivator! I have seen a dress that I really want and he has agreed to buy this for me.
A very special thank you to my wonderful and supportive husband, he has helped me get this far and has not once doubted that I can do it, even when I cry he doesn't offer me the 'there there' talk, he offers constructive advice and doesn't let me put myself down at all
He reads my blog and all the comments people put, he looks at all the awards, he offers advice but most of all he believes in me. He is my saviour, my rock, my very best friend. We drive each other mad at times but without him this would've been a much tougher journey
He has never had a weight problem yet he tries hard to empathise, he doesn't cope well without food! This makes his help and advice even more special to me
I couldn't of got this far without you Tom- so thank you for being you x
Sunday, July 04, 2010
Today is my birthday (big secret!) & this is also my target date.
I'm disappointed in myself for not reaching my target by the date I set.
I know what I have to do & am firmly back on track, but not in time to reach my goal!
I still have 11kgs to go so I've set another target date, which I will most def meet as I feel so disappointed with myself that I never want to feel this way again.
I don't celebrate my birthday as my dad died 3 days after it 7 years ago, he was the most amazing man but suffered throughout his life. I'll never get over the loss of my dad & time hasn't healed much yet. I'm hoping that one day I can think about him without feeling the pain that follows.
So today I will have a quiet reflective day, then let go of my disappointment.
I have a goal to meet & I won't let this stop me, I've come too far to let go now. I know I'll reach my goal, just need to ensure that I work hard enough so that it's when I want to!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Today I got up to go on a bike ride with a friend as she doesn't belong to a gym. This is the same friend who we began as exercise buddies only to forego the exercise for the pub shortly after we began!
We decided we both have the potential to be feeders & instead of using excuses such as work/stress needing us to support each other in the pub we decided to exercise early am with death being the only excuse for not turning up!
We went on a fairly short bike ride, few miles, followed by a couple of miles of brisk walking when, in theory, it was cooler & less people about.
I must confess I had a fabulous time & felt amazing afterwards.
The reward we gave ourselves for all this hard work? ..........
The knowledge that we'd stuck to our healthy plan, didn't use food or alcohol & embraced our new CHOSEN lifestyle! We chose this for us, that made the difference cos we didn't feel forced into it.
We both turned an important corner today, putting us firmly back on track
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Well this morning I stayed true to my word & restarted the C25K programme.
I got up at 5.30am & set off for my run (if you can call it that!).
After the 1st min of running I felt a euphoria that no other form of exercise gives me, the feeling is amazing & I've realised this is what I've missed!
When I finished I felt like I'd achieved something worthy of shouting from the rooftops to anyone who'd listen, it's a high that I'll never tire of.
Following my 'run' I went to my gym for a swim, swimming to me still feels a luxury after years of feeling too fat to put on a costume.
All in all today's been pretty good & I feel so proud of myself!
A big thank you to Karvy09 for her inspiration & motivation
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