Wednesday, May 05, 2010
So even with the new weigh-in Wednesdays, I'm still up. It's cool though. I'm blaming TOM. And the fact that 12.6 pounds in 2 weeks really is A LOT to lose, so my body is just getting used to this whole 'healthy lifestyle' thing anyway. I'm still under 300 - so I'm still in Two Town and making progress.
But where I am down is ever so much cooler than the number on the scale! I have lost some serious inches baby, and I'm not even to my official monthly measure date yet, so I couldn't be happier. In the past 2 weeks I have dropped 3 inches off my waist, another 3 off my hips, 1 off my thighs and calves and a whole inch off my neck. Hallelujah! (So even though I'm still wearing them, albeit loosely, I'm marking today as my "DONE with size 26 jeans" day).
And you know - when you really think about it, it's INCHES not pounds that people notice. Besides those creepy guys at carnival midways who can guess your weight within 2 pounds (how do they do that??), my boyfriend still has no idea that I weight almost DOUBLE what he does. He knows I weigh more than him (duh), but if anyone should garner a guess to look at me, my assumption is that they would shoot way low. I'm built like a linebacker - what can I say? At 5'2" I'm a wee bit of a thing, with a lot of power in my punch and a few extra lumps on my rump!
Sometimes it's the small things that make the biggest difference, and already I know that THIS time around feels different than it ever has before. I'm still sad that the scale went in the opposite direction of what I wanted this week, but I'm not getting all defeatist about it. There are still so many things to be happy about this week: inches gone, new pool tonight, record time on my walk home on Monday, and the beginning of BBQ season for me since I finally dusted off my grill. It's a beautiful day, and I'm on my way to a smaller me - inch by fabulous inch!
Monday, May 03, 2010
I'm changing my weigh-in day to Wednesday...cause I don't like what the scale said this morning.
WHAT??? How is that even possible? I ate in my calorie range EVERY day this week, when last week I was above a few days. I exercised my butt off this week and increased my laps at the pool. I blogged, I supported, I measured, I read what I was supposed to. I OWNED being done with the 300s!
So then what the heck is 300.2 all about?
Well...when I think about it, and settle myself down a bit, here's what I'm coming up with -
First and foremost, I had a HUGE dinner last night. I was still within my calorie range because I only ate twice yesterday, but likely a 10oz steak and 2 mojitos is not what I should have consumed the night before a weigh-in. I woke up tasting the salt in my mouth, so I KNOW it was high in sodium and it's highly likely that I'm hanging on to just a WEE bit of water this morning because of it.
And, to add to what I did yesterday, I did the same thing on Saturday - a big "brunch" meal in the mid-morning followed by a big dinner. I realize now that there's a reason that the nutrition tracker doesn't have a "Brunch" meal option. And that on both days it asked me "Are you really done tracking?" because I had only filled in food for 2 meals out of the day. Maybe my body is trying to tell me that I need 3 solids at least. Spread out the intake and then maybe I won't carry the food weight over to the next day. There's something to be said about doing everything in balance.
But I LOVE Brunch. I look forward to weekend brunching like I look forward to Christmas.
So here's the plan. Next weekend I can still do Brunch on EITHER Saturday OR Sunday - not both. Try to eat a little bit less at Brunch so that I can still fit in a mid-day meal of some sort and not go hog wild at dinner. And then we'll see if that works a little better on the scale.
So I'm feeling a little sheepish today...all my grandiose "I'm DONE with the 300s" shouted from the mountain-tops. But I'm coming away from this with lessons learned - and isn't that what we're all here for anyway?
The scale is just a tool. Today it didn't say what I wanted it to, BUT this weekend was also the first time since I started a few weeks ago that I felt smaller. My pants are looser, I'm not wheezing when I walk a couple of blocks, my boobs are definitely shrinking (always the first thing to go darn it), and I feel GOOD.
But I'm still changing my official weigh-in day to Wednesday...so stay tuned
Friday, April 30, 2010
I have had a love for water since I was in the womb. One of my favorite pictures of me as a baby was taken when I was about 3 months old with my mom and dad in my grandparent's hot tub (never mind the "you aren't supposed to take your baby in the hot tub" rule - I was loving it!) I'm wearing just a diaper and a plastic diaper cover with the words "Tax Exemption" written across my cute baby bottom. I was born in December - so naturally my parents were thankful that they got the 'Baby Bonus' for the entire year.
I started swimming lessons early and advanced quickly. Being in the water just felt so second nature to me. I grew up close to a lake and we boated and went waterskiing almost every weekend in the summer. Even though I am a self-confessed city girl now, I still can't be far from water and so venture down to the lake shore whenever I get a chance. Something about Mother Nature's bathtub just makes me feel...right. And there is NOTHING like the smell of lake water to arouse my senses and happy memories.
When my nutritionist started pushing the "exercise" concept, a few months before I joined SparkPeople, I was stuck. I HATE exercise. But I knew that I was going to have to cave on my exercise strike eventually if I was ever going to make any movement in the weight department. So we started talking about some of these precious memories from my childhood. She pointed out that my stories about water and water sports but a smile on my face and pushed me to investigate that a little further. OF COURSE! Why hadn't I thought of it on my own? If I was going to be comfortable exercising, then I had to find something that I was comfortable doing and that made me feel good even before I did it.
So I started researching pools in my area. I wasn't coming up with much until I rediscovered the beauty of city parks and rec programs - you can do a TON of things for really cheap or even free in a lot of cases and it doesn't pack the punch to the gut of joining a gym. Double bonus! I found a pool really close to a neighbourhood I used to live in and loved, AND discovered that I could hop on a bus from work and it would drop me at the door of the rec center and then hop another bus which would take me directly home when I was done. The plan was in motion. I dragged my old, ratty swim suit and beach towel out of the closet and made plans to swim that week!
Fast-forward a few months and I swim on a weekly basis now. I have upped my laps consistently so I am swimming with almost no breaks for 45 minutes at a time. I bought myself a sweet new suit, cap and goggles so I look, and feel, like a pro. Rockstar! This weekly ritual has grown on me so much that I start getting excited about Wednesday nights on Tuesday. My doc says that this happens a lot with runners and other ritualistic exercisers. The endorphins that you get from the exercise start to kick in earlier and earlier as you continue to do it. The high you feel AFTER exercising creeps forward to when your toes hit the water, then to when you suit up, then to when you walk in the door and smell the chlorine, etc. etc. so by this point I'm really looking forward to that day every week. Not to mention the other benefits of swimming - it really helps for people who have low mobility (I can swim like a fish, but walking can still be painful for me), the chlorine content and the warm water temps help reduce swelling and joint pain, and for the lovely time of the month aches, the chlorine actually draws water away from the body through reverse osmosis (ah, highschool science class) and takes down that dreaded water-weight gain.
So TOTAL BUMMER when I walked in this past Wednesday and there's a big sign on the door "POOL WILL BE CLOSED FOR MAINTENANCE MAY 3-7." Boo Hiss. Now what? My immediate thought was - I'm going to have to skip swimming for the week. Maybe I can use the off-night to see a show or something. But then when I thought about how crappy that made me feel and how disappointed I was at the thought of missing a week, I thought WWSPD (What Would SparkPeople Do?) and it became clear. I can't let myself down like that. If swimming is what I like - swimming is what I have to do! So, I'll just have to find another pool for next week and, as Tim Gunn says - make it work. Scheduling be damned - swimming will happen.
Eventually I hope to find other exercises that "work" like this for me. Though I walk, walking is still a chore and I don't look forward to it every week like swimming. Since running seems to have a high-endorphin kick back, maybe I'll try that some day soon. It would be nice to try the C25K group that everyone raves about. But for now, I've got my thing - and my thing involves a really cute swim cap!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
How many clubs are you a member of?
If I think back through my life I can recall a few different clubs - Brownies/Girl Guides as a kid, 4H for a little while, then as a teenager I was in all kinds of clubs at school, Drama, Cheerleading, Arts Council, Student Council, Dance Committee. Then once you leave school, club memberships tend to dwindle - maybe the occasional book club, church group, new parents meet-up and the ever popular gym club membership that may or may not just be for "safe keeping" in case you ever need it someday.
But how about the clubs that you become a member of without even thinking about it or wanting to?
I had been a member of the "300 Pound Club" for almost 3 years. I also prescribed to "Non-Exercisers-R-Us," "The Size 26 Group," and the "Yo-Yo Dieting Divas." And I had been a member of the "Clean Plate Club" since I could hold a knife and fork. In fact, the list of my unhealthy clubs took up not only most of my time, but also most of my willpower and brain space.
I finally realized that it was time to clean house and relinquish my subscriptions to some of these groups - regardless of how much I truly enjoyed my weekly "Couch Potato Club" meetings.
I found that once I started getting rid of my memberships to the unhealthy clubs, I had more room in my life for new club memberships - and there was a gamut to choose from! Do I become a member of the "C25K" group? How about the "Swim Team" or the "Healthy Eating Forum"?
So far, I'm happy with the membership choices I've made. My new clubs give me self esteem, motivation and good, old-fashioned camaraderie. After all - it's no fun being in a club if you feel like you're in it by yourself! I'm looking very forward to gaining admission to a bunch of new clubs in the future (I hear ONEderland is a great place!), and the "100 Pounds Gone" group is truly a goal for me.
Every so often, my old clubs send me a "Please won't you consider re-joining us?" letter in the mail. But I sort them to the junk pile and move on. My new clubs are far more fun and fulfilling!
Monday, April 26, 2010
I hit a goal today! Yey!! I am officially in the 200s.
But in my mind, it was an "easy" goal since I didn't really have that far to go to get to the 200s when I started SP two weeks ago - and so enters the voice in my head that immediately wants to give me grief about it and nay say. I hate that Voice.
Here's the conversation I've been having with myself ALL morning:
ME: Monday morning. Time to hit the scale for a weigh-in.
VOICE: Ugh, you feel heavy and bloated this morning. You shouldn't have gone out last night. It's not going to be down - it's going to be up. You know it's going to be up.
ME: It doesn't matter what the scale says. It's just a TOOL to measure one aspect of this journey and there are plenty of other things that have happened this week that make me feel successful. And would you look at that! I'm down, AND I'm under 300!!!
VOICE: Well that wasn't exactly hard. You only started this program two weeks ago, so losing 10 pounds is just losing water weight. It's going to get SO much harder from here on out. In fact, I bet next week you GAIN weight. Don't hang on to that "under 300" goal too tightly.
ME: NO! I'm DONE with the 300s. REALLY. I am. I worked for that loss this week, and I'm going to take it. A goal is a goal - no matter how easily it may have come. Maybe I have finally found something that works for me - have you ever thought about it that way?
VOICE: Maybe. But I doubt it. You can't stick to anything. I bet this lasts another couple of weeks and then you'll give up and be back in the 300s.
ME: Voice, I'm gonna cut you. Yes, maybe the goal was easy this time around. Yes, maybe I feel a little guilty because I still enjoyed a few beers with my friends this weekend, and I ate out more than I had planned - but I tracked my food every single day, even those high calorie meals out. I walked everywhere I could. I stretched every morning. I was in the pool Wednesday night. I worked dammit! I worked.
VOICE: Well you better keep working cause next week you're going to be disappointed.
ME: Well - I have a new goal to work towards now, so I won't be disappointed because even if I have a low numbers week next Monday, my clothes might still be loose.
VOICE: I can't believe you're calling 10 pounds easy! Do you know how long it takes some people to lose 10 pounds? All those people are going to be mad at you and hate you for calling ten pounds an easy goal.
ME: This is what I'm saying. I'm taking that goal and I'm running with it. I need to be happy and OWN what I have accomplished. It was NOT easy. I'm just scared about what happens from here on out. I will be much happier to see the 280s.
VOICE: It's still water weight.
ME: GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!! I'm moving on and thinking positive thoughts now. Enough of you. I'm DONE with you Voice. I'm DONE WITH YOU for today. Now - I'm going to prep myself a healthy lunch, and look forward to my walk home after work. It's a beautiful sunny day. And I'm UNDER 300. For good. Things are bright and happy in Two Town baby. I'll be here for a while, but I'm still just "passing through."
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