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Rough Go

Thursday, February 17, 2011

No doubt about it, I've been having a really rough go of it lately. I can't seem to put my finger on what exactly is wrong, since it seems like everything is wrong, and yet, nothing is wrong. I don't know if I've reached a point of such deep introspection that I've gone too far and can't seem to pull myself out, or if it's more that I'm not looking deep enough and I'm hovering over myself to avoid having to feel anything too deeply.

Anyone who just got through the above paragraph should then understand me when I say I'm just feeling confused by it all. I can't make up my mind about anything. I feel like I'm living day to day in a haze. Nothing about me seems driven or focused anymore and I just want it all to be over with. But what exactly are we getting over here? Life?

I thought it was the Vitamin D, but after a week on a high dose of D vitamins and increased calcium, things haven't changed as much as I initially thought. The scale is up, which I actually admitted to today and moved my ticker back a pound and a bit. That's the result of almost 2 weeks of eating WELL above my calorie limits and surprisingly enough, getting away with it until now. Training so hard with my running both burned me out for exercise in general and made me way too hungry during a particularly rough time anyway so I've been binging again. And I miss having a man in my life. Maybe not just a man, but someone close enough to me to talk to and bounce opinions and ideas and arguments off of (preferably while lying in bed together). Valentine's is a particularly lonely time for newly single people and I've been pining for the past for far too long these past couple of weeks. The Scientist is still in love with me - which he basically told me, but not in so many words. Knowing that makes it really hard for me, since I do miss him too but ultimately just want to be over the relationship so that I can move on. I am NOT getting involved in a long-distance nightmare again, and even if I could tolerate the thought of living apart from someone for 2 years, him and I are just never going to be on the same page. I can't knowingly continue down this path of making up and breaking up with him in my head.

I'm living the absolute opposite of everything I'm trying to attain for myself. I'm impatient and stressed out to the max - and when you are impatient you cannot be happy. It's impossible. You also cannot sustain, or nurture, or develop proper skills and habits because you're in too darn much of a hurry to make things happen now, now, now. Shedding my impatience for life in general has been a huge issue for me to overcome. I've done pretty well at calming myself down in the past, but lately I have forgotten how to breathe and I need that ability back again.

I fear this is all because I'm getting really close to that 100 pound mile marker. For some reason I believe that magical things are going to happen the morning I wake up and the scale says 212lbs. And then for every pound I lose between 212 and 199, more magical things are going to occur. I'll wake up with a bevvy of best girl friends that I've had since pre-school and we'll finish each others' sentences and plan each others' bridal showers, I'll find a perfect boyfriend who will sweep me off my feet and become my perfect husband and we'll make perfect babies while he buys me perfect flowers every Friday, my problems at work will disappear, my staff will cease to be annoying and I'll be offered a huge raise for my troubles, my mother will figure out that all of my life struggles mysteriously lead back to her and she'll call me and offer me the apology that I so desperately want from her for being so clueless about everything, and oh, I don't know, maybe I'll win the lottery on top of all of that, even though I never play. Yes, that's it - I'll FIND the golden ticket in the street. If Charlie did, why can't I?

I know if I want any of these things, I can have them - except maybe the lottery. But they're not going to happen "magically" because the world owes me a favour. They will happen if I make them happen by standing up for myself and asking for what I want out of life. BUT IT'S JUST SO DARN HARD!!!! (*Whiny Face)

The whiny face makes me eat. Being mad at life because it doesn't just serve me up the dish I'm craving is juvenile and ridiculous, but it's the truth. Somewhere along the way, the communication lines broke down for me. Instead of having the feeling that I deserve something great and then going out and achieving that something great I have inserted a couple of steps in between. I go from feeling that I deserve something great, to questioning why it is that I feel that I deserve something great, to then feeling guilty about feeling like I deserve something great, to denying myself the fact that I deserve something great, to eating a pint of Ben & Jerry's because that's the closest thing I can have to something great, to berating myself for using the only method I have ever known to make myself feel better about not getting the original something great. And in all this muddling around, somewhere along the line I forget what I really wanted in the first place. I am the Queen of taking something great and making it into one big mess. And then here comes the kicker - all of this leaves me saying to myself "but if the world would just give me what I wanted in the first place, I could avoid all of this crap!" Unfortunately, therapy isn't that easy. You have to unpack all the crap before you can put it back in the box. And hopefully you decide to ditch some of the junk along the way. I've always loved a good rummage sale!

OK - so I'm cutting out the crap. Trying to get back to just "achieving something great" for myself without all the extra steps. If Bootcamp taught me one thing it's that 10 minutes a day works. So I'm stripping back my heavy exercise routine just for a little while until I feel more balanced again and less like I want to kill someone every time I think about working out. 30 minutes a day instead of an hour or more. The only exception to this rule is Zumba since it's an hour class. I already know I can run 8K. For now I don't need to keep training hard for the 10K unless I feel particularly energetic on a Sunday afternoon. Get the eating under control. I've been severely lacking in fruits and veggies at home because I haven't gone grocery shopping in a while. But I have my groceries ordered and they'll be here Friday morning so I'll have lots of new selection to choose from. I'm going to try some new Spark recipes this weekend - looking forward to making some kale chips to see if they're any good. I've made a couple of big steps on the annoying staff front by asking for what I want at work. I knew my co-worker with the new boyfriend was going to come in today and GUSH about her Valentine's date and frankly, I knew I couldn't bear to hear about it and, umm, I just don't care, so when she did exactly what I knew she was going to do, I stopped her and asked if we could please not talk about Valentine's Day. I am just happy that it's over for another 364 days. I feigned happiness for her, and told her I was glad that she had a wonderful time, but that I really didn't want to talk about it. And what do you know -she was cool with that. Wow. Asking for what I really wanted worked! I might have to try that again.

I have it in me to get to where I want to be. And I wouldn't be human if I didn't have all these feelings and emotions about it along the way. I know nothing magical is going to happen at 100 pounds lost (besides maybe getting to post a really fun blog about it). And really, 100 pounds is only half way there for me. I still have a long, slow way to go. There is life after losing 100 pounds. What kind of life that is, is totally up to me.

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ON2VICTORY 2/20/2011 8:50PM

    one thing REALLY stood out to me in this, the idea that 100 is the magic number where everything is somehow going to be perfect and so on. I hit that mark and I have to say, the confetti did not fall, I wasnt recruited to be a trainer on the Biggest Loser, I didnt get interviewed and life did not become perfect. it came and went without much fanfare except for the AWESOME feeling i had in what I had done. It was my victory. No one gave it to me therefore no one can take it away! It also seemed like I was prone to alot of self sabotage in the days prior for some unknown reason that i have yet to figure out.

Great job on your 8k run BTW... Woo Hoo for you!!

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PELESJEWEL 2/20/2011 11:59AM

    You captured everything I've been going through for the past couple of months so well! Especially the part about being so close to the 100 lb mark. I felt like I was looking in the mirror as I read your blog. Like you, I know I can create what I desire, but it's gotten harder. I like what LOTUSFLOWER said, about the emotions surfacing as the pounds melt off. That's powerful stuff. I like your plan to dial back and not stress so much about the workouts -- I actually am doing that this weekend. I was supposed to run a 9-miler with my run group and my body just was not feeling it...I was beating myself up, and out of that I realized, that I really don't like running with a group, that I love the solitary this week, I'm going to run on my own and see where that takes me. Thanks for sharing!

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ELAPOINTE 2/18/2011 8:09AM

    oh man, this hits home for me right now more than any blog comment can explain...i've been pending my blog of this nature for days because i simply do not have the energy to write it. i'm eating more because i'm trying to fill a void...i've also resorted to wearing sunglasses as "invisibility goggles" pretending that when i wear them, no one can see me (oh geeze!).
my only advice is to keep on asking for what you want and taking it one day at a time...and remember to breathe...
hang in there and hopefully you can find solace that you are not alone...and maybe i should take some of my own advice...........

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DIASTER 2/17/2011 7:47PM

  You were so happy and excited when you cane back from your vacation and on task. Whatever happened to the Wednesday swimming? It is really great for stress. Maybe you need to plan another vacation as a goal reward? Can tell you are getting ready to re=evaluate and start a new chapter. Continued good luck.

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KT-NICHOLS-13 2/17/2011 6:29PM

    You've had an awakening. A moment. Maybe not clarity but yes, clarity that you need a change. Embrace your changes, your challenges and your needs & magic does happen ... because you made it happen.

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LAURIETAIT 2/17/2011 12:39PM

    I think you have the right idea. Cutting back on your exercise and focusing on eating well are a good start. You've had such fantastic success up till now that it is hard not to be impatient with your progress. You have done a lot more than lose weight. You have unpacked a lot of crap. It's frustrating to know that there is much more to be resolved and hard to patiently wait for it to happen. You are right things don't change unless you make the effort. The world doesn't just hand you the things you want(unfortunately). But,it has been my experience that some crap just won't be unpacked until it's ready. It took a lifetime to acquire the crap. It won't all be dealt with expeditiously. You have grown so much. You understand your motivations, you are in touch with your body and it's needs and you have learned to love and care for yourself in spite of the crap. You've been on a fantastic, productive and exhausting journey. You just need a little time to catch your breath and regroup before you continue the adventure. You are the bomb! You are a font of of hope and inspiration for many just like you. Don't put so much pressure on yourself. All the things you seek will be yours in time. ( I sound like an oracle. But I do believe it's true.) I can't wait to read the fun 100 pounds lost blog.

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JENJESS48 2/17/2011 11:11AM

    Working through the crap is a big part of what this journey is all about, and you're doing a great job! I think cutting back on your exercise and focusing on the basics is a good idea for now. It sounds like you're just burned out, so I think that backing off will help you a lot. Sometimes when I'm stuck focusing on the basics helps refocus me. Then I can pick up the pace after I'm back on track and feeling good. Hopefully this works for you! emoticon In the meantime, remember that your sparkfriends are always here for you!

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LOTUSFLOWER 2/17/2011 11:06AM

    I find that the more weight we lose, the more emotions are involved, come up to the surface and I think you are processing it all very well. Sharing here helps others going through the same thing that they can't quite place their finger on. I love your plan to scale down a bit, I think That will really help with the transformation you're going through in becoming the woman you are - it's like we are caterpillars in the cocoon and when we fight to break free there is a struggle involved - both mentally and physically. That's where you're at now. But while nothing magical will happen at that 100 lb. mark, other than feeling amazing, you will have accomplished a huge goal, and will have broken free of the cocoon and began your flight. Wow, that sounded really dorky! I don't know what I'm trying to say exactly here except that I feel you. I get to that place too. And I am so thankful that we are on this journey together. Never feel you're alone in this because you're not. You are doing amazing things and you will continue to amaze yourself, me, and inspire those around you.

Also I'm going through the act of expressing what I need vs. just saying "yes" to everything, the people pleaser in me, and I find that yes, being honest and saying what you need = you get what you want! It's difficult to do, though. Brava!!!

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MEADSBAY 2/17/2011 10:14AM

    Who ever said therapy was easy?
It's not.
But it may be a key to finding that magical place.
Plus, like a good workout (or hitting yourself in the head with a hammer)- it feels so good when it's over!
I highly recommend it.
It's like having a best friend who only wants to talk about YOU and is brutally honest.
I wouldn't be the happy person I am today without the patience and understanding of a few good therapist at different times of my life.


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KRAZYKATT 2/17/2011 9:05AM

    Wow - you are so honest, I love that part, but sorry you're struggling right now. I've heard it said that "life is like the weather". And every once in a while you'll get the "snowpocalypse". But you WILL get through this! You'll feel so much better getting your food in. And getting back to basics - just focusing on a few good things, will have to help.

Hang in there chica - we'll have some sunny days real soon! emoticon

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-POOKIE- 2/17/2011 5:35AM

    *hugs tight*

Sometimes being online is hard work when you want to support people... again this is a moment I think I would love to sit down over some good coffee and talk away the afternoon with you over things.

In the end everything is about how we help ourselves progress, we can get mad at ourselves, we can do stupid things that sabotage ourselves...sometimes we treat ourselves worse than we would ever treat a friend!

Stripping things back and getting yourself together sounds a good idea to me.

(and btw, spread the kale chips in one layer only else it doesnt work!)


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It's Not All In My Head!

Sunday, February 13, 2011

A very welcome email from my doctor this morning - my Vitamin D is definitely LOW and she has prescribed an additional 1000 IU a day for me with more calcium.

On Friday after my appointment, I had already decided myself to start taking 400 IU a day, vowing that I would stop if she told me to. I swear that even with 2 days of the added supplement, I was feeling a BIT cheerier than I have been, but thought I had to be crazy to think so. Since she is now recommending I take MORE - I'm thinking I'm not so crazy after all.

Osteoporosis runs in my family, so I'm not going to take any risks with this. Not only is it mood degeneration, but it's also bone degeneration (thus my need for more calcium as well), so I may as well take the supplements I need now and be able to continue my healthy lifestyle long into my future with healthy bones and teeth to match.

This is good news indeed. With a little mood lift from the added Vitamin D, a warm-up in the February Freeze we've been having lately outside, and a bright and sunny Sunday, I feel like Spring is just around the corner!

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    Glad you are feeling better and this is helping!

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JENJESS48 2/14/2011 3:21PM

    Simple solutions are the best- and you're getting a twofer! I'm glad you're already feeling better.

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LAURIETAIT 2/14/2011 1:11PM

    Vitamin D supplements helped to relieve my chronic back and joint pain and allowed me to start Sparking in earnest. I'd never realized that anxiety attacks and heart palpitations were symptoms of low vitamin D. I think maybe my daughter is deficient too. I'll have to get her to check. Thanks.

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WYND10 2/14/2011 10:16AM

    I am glad you're feeling better!

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NANASAMM 2/14/2011 7:58AM

    Our bodies talk to us...we just have to listen. Glad you listened and are feeling cheery! Enjoy the day.
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KRAWRS 2/14/2011 12:05AM

    Just curious.... how did you know you needed more Vitamin D?
I wondered only because it turned out I needed more (LOTS more!), but I didn't find out until I had been dealing with a lot of things at once. Back pain issues, anxiety/panic attacks (when I'd NEVER had them before), heart flutters in my chest...
I thought it was just me, because it started happening when an extremely emotional event triggered it... luckily hubby made me go to the dr eventually, and even as stubborn as i am, i couldn't argue against it.
its amazing what a vitamin D deficiency can do... feeling worlds better now!
So glad you figured out your problem and can take steps to fix it... and of course its not in your head! We know our (minds and bodies) better than anyone else! We just forget to listen to them sometimes. :p

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JRZG8R 2/13/2011 11:51PM

    Interesting. Glad you found this improvement.

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JMEPAYNE 2/13/2011 6:10PM

    vitamin makes such a huge difference!

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-POOKIE- 2/13/2011 3:33PM

    emoticon Good to get things diagnosed and sorted!

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JO*ANNE*IE 2/13/2011 1:39PM

    Great reminder, Sweetie! vit D plays a vital role in our physical and therefore, our emotional well-being! Thanks for sharing this emoticon

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AUTUMNPOTTER 2/13/2011 1:12PM

    Walking home from church this morning I saw a bunch of red breasted robins in the tree near the hardware store. Maybe the groundhog was right predicting an early spring. It is more than welcome.

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KRAZYKATT 2/13/2011 1:12PM

    Our bodies know what they need, don't they? I'm trying to develop the relationship between mind and body. It's always nice to get that validation from the doc!

I'm glad you're enjoying your sunny day! emoticon

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KT-NICHOLS-13 2/13/2011 12:59PM

    Good news from Doc, Awesome!

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Now THAT'S Impressive!

Sunday, February 06, 2011

I was a lazy bum yesterday. Opening Night of my show on Friday night meant we partied until 6AM! Needless to say, I did not make it to my 9:30am Zumba class on Saturday morning. I didn't move off the couch all day. I didn't shower. I didn't even stretch. I was Disgusting with a Capital D. Ugh.

Today started out very similarly. But I was determined NOT to make it Day 2 of couch lethargy considering I'm about to sit for 3 hours or so and watch the Superbowl. I had to get out and go for a run.

The weather in Chicago sucks. It's dark, it's snowing AGAIN, and though it warmed up a bit, that has only contributed to lots and lots of water from the melted snow in the streets. Massive, cold, slush-puddles at every corner.

Not 2 minutes into my warm-up walk, my feet were SOAKED. This was not going to be a fun run. I still can't run the sidewalks because half of the people in my neighbourhood don't believe in shoveling. Most of the sidewalks are still partially covered and are "single lane traffic" only making it difficult to get past Sunday walkers coming home from brunch. So I ran down the middle of the streets, dodging cars the whole way. Every time a car passed me, I got slushed. Yey fun! The best was the fire truck at mile 4.02. I could see the end of the street that would end my run. The only thing between me and the finish line was that big red truck. As he came towards me, I quickly realized that he wasn't stopping to let me by and he was very clearly larger than any of the cars I'd gone head to head with so far, so I jumped into the snow bank, resulting in a full leg soaker to let him by. Lord have mercy. But I finished my run!

One of the best things about today though - despite the snow lashing my face as it came down, the sopping wet feet, the slush, the cold damp weather, one of my shoelaces coming untied mid-run - was a young family with a baby who watched me run past. As the mother was strapping her little one into the car seat, she looked up at me, smiled and said loudly enough for me to hear over the music in my headphones: "Now THAT's impressive!" I took out one ear phone, grinned back at her, gave a breathy "Thank You!" and kept right on running. Determined more than ever to get through this run.

Sometimes the voice inside you is strong enough to carry you through. Most of the time, my voice is pretty powerful at talking down the negativity that makes me want to quit early, or not even get out there in the first place. But on days like today, when the external forces are screaming at you to stop, it's equally as important to listen to those outside voices to draw the strength to keep going. I am very grateful for that woman today. She gave me energy and a renewed spirit and that was exactly what I needed at that point in time. I finished what I set out to do - a 4 mile run in under an hour - and I'm better off for it. And she's right, that is DAMN impressive!

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HEARTANDMUSIC 2/12/2011 11:31PM

    That is impressive! Way to go!

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TEENY_BIKINI 2/11/2011 6:49PM

    Let me get this straight...

You ran in freezing weather, soaked, slush and water everywhere, and you dodged a truck to finish!

Um... impressive. Yes, definitely IMPRESSIVE!


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ON2VICTORY 2/9/2011 5:47PM

    nice job making it happen!! way to go...

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WYND10 2/8/2011 1:22PM

    DAMN impressive for sure!

You're amazing :).

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KSGROTHE 2/7/2011 5:36PM

    emoticon on overcoming the obstacles (cold, slush, lack of sidewalk space, traffic) to get your run done! That woman was so right - That *is* impressive!

Keep up the good work!

- Karen

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LAURIETAIT 2/7/2011 3:01PM

    Impressed the heck out of me! But please avoid anymore head to head confrontations with fire trucks!

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MUSTANGMISSY 2/7/2011 2:55PM

    Truly not an exaggeration! Definitely impressive. Thanks for the motivation to get off my butt once again and back onto the wagon.

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SARAWALKS 2/7/2011 1:33PM

    Wow! emoticon and how nice that someone noticed! (even if the blipping truck didn't cooperate)
I so remember that slush.
You're inspiring me to get out and run some intervals today! It's slushy here too but nothing like what you have.
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KT-NICHOLS-13 2/7/2011 1:02PM

    Awesome job.

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KATH02 2/7/2011 5:58AM

    That's amazing! no more whining for me!

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MEADSBAY 2/6/2011 10:43PM

    I love when a perfect stranger gives me a gift like that!

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MELTEAGUE 2/6/2011 8:20PM

    now that IS impressive! good for you for getting off that couch! emoticon

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    That's great! I'm glad you listening to yourself and got out and ran! I remember this past summer when I got out and walked when it was 100 degrees, I got a sunburn and blisters, but I got out and did it anyway! :)

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JESSALYNN2006 2/6/2011 6:44PM

    that's awesome... good for you in sticking to your plan and getting it done. If you can do it after the onslaught of snowocalypse no one should have a weather excuse for not exercising.

congrats on finishing in under an hour

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Shoveling the "Chicago Snowpocalypse 2011"

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

You can ask my brothers (who were usually the ones responsible) but I don't think I've ever shoveled a day in my life. What can I say - I got bored sitting at home and I needed to get some exercise today :) Also - I LOVE SNOW! It's the Canadian in me. I especially love the silence of snow - after it snows it gets all quiet outside. And today the sun came out after the crazy storm. Just beautiful!

I'm disappointed that I didn't take before pictures. It was pretty epic! Also that I didn't turn the camera around to get a shot of me after shoveling for an hour and a half - haha!

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NANASAMM 2/13/2011 4:27PM

    I'm impressed. The only time I pick up a snow shovel is when I have to fling some dog poo! You definitely deserve a break!

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ON2VICTORY 2/9/2011 5:44PM

    you should see what we get in the UP of Michigan lol..... you did get in a great workout though and certainly the right to take a loooooooooong break! PS... what a great neighbor you are!!

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ROBINTRACKS 2/3/2011 2:17PM

    Jenn -- Just watched your snow shoveling video, and phew, I'm exhausted! We too have gotten our share of snow here in Washington State this year, so I KNOW the shoveling workout! Thusly (is that a word?), I am impressed! That was ALOT of snow! Hope you went inside and took a nap after that....I know I would have been laying on a heating pad, curled up with the dogs, and snoozing for a couple of hours!

You did good!

Stay warm,
-- Robin
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LOTUSFLOWER 2/3/2011 12:21PM

    You are too cute!

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LMLOPEZ 2/3/2011 12:09PM

    Here in the suburbs we like "Snowtorius BLZ". Gotta laugh or you'll cry when you gotta rely on the car to get you to work (no rest for the nurses!!!).
Great job on the shoveling!!

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SARAWALKS 2/3/2011 9:50AM

    I love the quiet too! I lived in an apartment building in Chicago so never had to shovel my snow. But we do plenty of it here in PA! You definitely deserve your rest today! emoticon

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RIGBY31 2/2/2011 11:46PM

    You didn't just shovel the snow, you got it the hell out of there! Girl, mighty impressive (and what a kind neighbor).

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DIASTER 2/2/2011 11:00PM

  It is so pretty, and what a good job you did. Surprised how much there is, didn't see a snowman though.

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KT-NICHOLS-13 2/2/2011 10:35PM

    Awesome job! You earned that rest. I secretly miss the snow...
Hope you tracked all you hard work.

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BEADLADY37 2/2/2011 7:41PM

    WoW! you go girl!

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MORRIS1989 2/2/2011 7:25PM

    Great video and you burn calories too! Hopefully we won't get anymore snow.

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TEENY_BIKINI 2/2/2011 7:17PM

    Holy smokes! I think you got your cardio and mine as well.

And you are the nicest neighbor like ever.

It is pretty though...

Great work!


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MRS.PRINCIPAL 2/2/2011 6:44PM

    I am in the suburbs! Tracked 40 min of shoveling- wow the calorie burn! Stay warm, supposed to get really cold! At least you weren't stuck on Lakeshore Drive!

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LAURIETAIT 2/2/2011 6:14PM

    I just shovelled a big snowfall here in Manitoba on Friday but I had my son's assistance. We just did the driveway. You totally have me beat. You definitely deserve a night off with a movie.

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MEADSBAY 2/2/2011 6:07PM

    That's a lot of snow and shoveling.
I had 7 brothers growing up and then 2 sons, along with a DH, and then a daughter who loved to shovel with her dad, so I must also admit to rarely touching a snow shovel in my life (or a stick of firewood, either).
I was always in charge of the post shoveling cocoa.


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MANLEYSANDY 2/2/2011 5:00PM

    Great video! And great exercise!


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WYND10 2/2/2011 4:58PM

    Wow. That's a lot of snow. ;)

You did a magnificent job my friend. Your badassness is secure :).

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AMANDAMORGAN7 2/2/2011 3:15PM

    Way to think outside the box for exercise! Shoveling is a lot of work! We didn't get nearly as much snow here in iowa as you guys did but we still have about a foot to shovel! We are calling it snOMG!

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AJOHNSON27261 2/2/2011 3:14PM

    I am a travel agent I have been reaccomodating travelers in Chicago for the past couple of days. It has been crazy! I live in North Dakota and I feel like every winter is like that storm emoticon

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My Bad Ass Just Got Whooped

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

I didn't run this morning. Last night on Facebook I was all like "I don't care how much snow we get tomorrow, I'm going to run anyway." Well, the bed beat me again this morning and I stayed tucked in late enough that I should have just taken a day off instead of attempting to make it to work on time-ish. However, I did finally manage to rise, shower and get my butt out the door.

We got a BIT of snow overnight, certainly nothing to write home about, but the major dump was scheduled to show up this afternoon.

I should have gone running this morning. I should have stuck to my word and all my Facebook crowing. Because now the snow HAS come, and it's coming down hard, and I might just get out a quill and parchment and write home because it looks pretty bad out there. Doh!

I could suck it up and be a bad-ass and strap on my shoes and my YakTrax when I get home and go anyway. I could. But chances are PRETTY GOOD that's NOT going to happen. It's dark. It's REALLY snowing. Cars are sliding all over the street. I really don't want to put my cute hiney in the middle of all that mess and go face to face with a plow.

But I feel guilty so I'm writing this blog. Today will officially be the first day that I COULD have gotten out there and done something this morning and because I didn't, now have forfeited my chance to get my cardio in today. It's not going to kill me. But I actually feel bad about it. Today I let the weather, and the dreariness, and the winter get to me. And I thought I was above that.

Sigh. I might try and find a Spark video and do something at home, but it's just not the same. My bad-ass just got whooped. By a bunch of fluffy white stuff. How sad is that?

What does everyone else do when they're snowed in?

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TEENY_BIKINI 2/2/2011 7:21PM

    Hm... I am stumped - so I am ordering a rowing machine to get a full body workout. I have hand weights and all that jazz - but the lack of sun is starting to get to me so I am gonna have to be extra creative.

Looks like you are getting all the cardio you need with shoveling.

You rock!!

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LAURIETAIT 2/2/2011 1:01PM

    Does your apartment building have a few flights of stairs? That is a pretty good workout. Lots of cardio and kind of the equivalent of doing hills. I have a friend that makes this his winter workout during inclement weather. Lots of that here in Manitoba!

I also like Women's Health Total Workout in TEN with Amy Dixon. It has 4 segments, cardio, upper body, lower body and core. It's pretty intense.

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SLFRISBEY 2/2/2011 9:39AM

    Yesterday was suppoed to be yoga day but getting home was quite the challenge! I left the office at 2:30 and didn't get home until 4:00 and it's usually a 30 minute commute! I have a cardio/st day today. Good news, thanks to you, I have a cardio plan, but not sure how to do the ST part yet as I have almost nothing at home! We will see, at least I am safe at home and watching the snow keep coming down!

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CALLIKIA 2/2/2011 5:42AM

    Okay, so bonus to you for feeling that "all or nothing" and then moving past it in order to get your cardio in! Plus, it sounds like you found something that will keep that excuse monster at bay when the snow buries you in! ;)

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ELAPOINTE 2/1/2011 10:09PM

    um, you couldn't have PAID me to go out in this snow this morning to work out - or this afternoon when i got sent home early from work due to the snow (paid, btw!!). knowing what my car was doing meant i knew danger enough to stay in. good thing you did too! its nasty here in boston...the sidewalks aren't cleared so i'd have been in the road - nope! and the last time i drove to the gym and there was a storm two idiots boxed my car in and i was stuck in the parking lot for an hour! good job finding a video! i'm planning on boot camp tomorrow if its still nasty out there...and i'm seeing in the forecast that it will be - they're calling it "the one-two punch". its the worst winter since 1997 here...and 1978 before that...dear groundhog - please say spring is a'coming! (he never does though...stupid groundhog). ps, you're a rockstar!

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KITHKINCAID 2/1/2011 10:00PM

    Holy Moses - I ended up doing this video:

I did all five of the 10-minute segments in a row and by the end I was POURING sweat. I may try some of the other 10 Minute Solutions videos if I can't get out for runs this week. They seem to have quite a few on Netflix instant play that look interesting!

This snow is threatening. It sounds like it's going to come through my doors and windows any second and the lights just flickered. Glad I skipped running tonight. Still busting my butt that I skipped running this morning when I could have though!

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LMLOPEZ 2/1/2011 9:47PM

    Um, Jenn, you don't need to run in this stuff to get your cardio in. Just stand outside in this 60 MPH wind and try to stay upright!! LOL!!
Tomorrow evening when the plows go through think about it then. I am heading to the indoor treadmill! :)

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AUTUMNPOTTER 2/1/2011 9:10PM

    I hear you I don't know who ordered all this snow but it was not me. I set a goal in January to make it to the gym three times a week and aside from the first week the snow has prevented it every week since. And that is including the two snowy days I went anyway and was alone in class with the teacher. We are supposed to have 20-24 inches tomorrow morning so yet another week when I will fail at making it to the gym for my Wed. routine. I'm so done with the snow till like December.

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LOTUSFLOWER 2/1/2011 8:06PM

    First of all, that snow is SCARY out there. I'm glad your cute hiney is NOT out in that stuff, what did you call it, fluff? I'm sorry, but from my window the snow looks like little missiles propelled by the wind :) Be safe. First and foremost. You are NOT beat. I say go to the free Spark videos, do the 10 minute kickboxing one with Coach Nicole. You will feel better. Trust :) I love Leslie Sansone too, and on her website she has three free example videos - beginner, intermediate and advanced. In the advanced there is even running involved - yes, in your living room, but it is a good workout. Her website is and go to "try it" or something like that. I did that today, I wanted to run on the treadmill at work, but because of the snow the building closed early, and my gym was closed too, so I did 2 miles with Leslie and the Spark bootcamp video. Not as great as a run, but it will do :)

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JENJESS48 2/1/2011 7:55PM

    I put the bike in the stand and use it as a stationary bike or do videos on Netflix. But today I wussed out, too. I just wasn't feeling good. And it's okay to let it slide once in a while - it just can't become a habit. You really shouldn't run tonight; it's just not safe. Try a SP video or a Netflix video instead.

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THEAPPLESASS 2/1/2011 7:15PM

  i've been walking my dog a few times...trying out workout videos on netflix... i usually do a few sessions a day because im starting to get so BORED!!

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SARAWALKS 2/1/2011 7:03PM

    I do Leslie Sansone Walk At Home videos!
They are quite challenging - best to pick the intermediate ones - look on Amazon!
Or at your local Target or Walmart.
I did 5 miles of these today, calorie burn 350 or so...

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