Wednesday, June 08, 2011
It's going to be another busy day. We have a public greenway we're going to today with our home school group that is pretty far away, but the positive thing is the kids get together and so do the moms for some fitness and social activities.
We're packing a lunch and I plan to ride with one of the home schoolers who can get in free since she lives in that county and I don't.
I'm still pretty bummed out right now and really panicked, trying to figure out what I am going to to this year with my learning disabled son. It's a challenge for sure because his memory is one of the issues and sometimes I feel like I'm teaching the same things over and over and he still forgets no matter how much we go over.
My daughter is ahead of him (she's younger) and there is the struggle of him feeling like she does everything with ease and he struggles with all things. I guess I'm just mentally depressed, scared, etc. because sometimes I feel like I'm running out of options and never doing enough.
If it wasn't for my daughter excelling, I know I would feel like a complete failure, but I know I'm obviously doing well with her because she is ahead of the game. Of course some of that is her ability as well so I'm not taking credit for that, but it is hard when I see how my son struggles and I feel like I'm always having to find something that will help, but be disappointed when it doesn't.
I suppose I've come to the conclusion that there will never be a "great" curriculum for him no matter what we choose or change in our schooling, he will struggle regardless. That's depressing to accept and I know it is for him too.
We really don't have any one in our home school group who has the issues my son has and it is sometimes hard to hear how fabulous their child did and how far they are ahead of the game. I'm not knocking them and am so happy that they don't have the struggles we do, but sometimes I feel like everyone expects home schoolers to be several grades ahead and that will never happen with my son. It's just the issues and feelings he and I both are dealing with right now and it's hard for me to avoid the emotional eating I feel like giving in to.
I stay strong and avoid it, but it's there so much in the back of my mind.
The other thing is he has to take a test soon because the state requires it (my daughter finished hers yesterday) and it's always something he dreads (and me too to be honest) because he knows he won't be able to remember things.
Tuesday, June 07, 2011
Yesterday was very stressful for me and I hate when I get that way and feel I can't do anything to the best of my ability and am half-way doing things instead of completing one thing well.
I got home from our home school Mom's Night Out late last night and although I went with trepidation and not really wanting to go, I'm really glad that I did because I feel it helped the moms connect a little more. Most of the families in our home school group are new and they came out of a very abusive former home school group into ours and therefore every one is a little gun-shy and cautious although we've gotten good feedback so far about how much some of them like our group.
I've tried to attend most of the group outings that they have put together (one particular new member is awesome about setting up group events as that is what she did in her last group) to support them and their wonderful attempts to make our group better. It's great because for the first time I have home schoolers who live near me vs. me having to travel long distances to meet with the majority for events.
I've got that feeling in the pit of my stomach right now where I feel the full responsibility of home schooling because it is right before we do our testing for the year and next month I'm responsible for picking our their curriculum for the upcoming school year.
It's exciting but scary at the same time because I'm mostly at a loss for what to do with my learning disabled son. My daughter seems happy with the curriculum we use for her and I've tried to get her to tell me what she likes/dislikes so that we can tweak it to work best for her.
She is a very independent student (which is awesome) and asks for help when she needs it. My son, on the other hand, is very dependent and needs my help continuously and tends to drift away if I don't keep him on task constantly.
I'm thinking that perhaps I should purchase some type of program that he does on the computer that basically is his teacher (and of course he would have me to help him if he's stuck on something) as so much of my day/evenings are taken up just getting him through the basics.
The only issue is I have gone through so many different curriculums with him and feel I've wasted money because they didn't work for him, and the curriculums I am looking into are very expensive. I don't mind spending the money at all if it is something that clicks with him, but it's scary spending that kind of money only to find that he hates it or it doesn't work for him.
I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually, but since he has learning disabilities I feel extra pressure on what to get him to help him learn to the best of his ability.
It was nice last night to get time to spend with other home schooling women and talk about our issues and concerns and to feel like you aren't alone in the sometimes scary thoughts you have at times that you are responsible for your child's education.
I know it's the best thing for my kids and I never doubt that really, I just am worried about my son and trying to constantly find ways to help him. I know he'd never get the one-on-one attention in the public school system, but sometimes it can be very frustrating for me and him.
Everyone brought very tempting snacks with them last night, but I was very good and only ate some strawberries/blueberries while there. My favorite snack of all time was there (tortilla chips & hummus) but I managed to avoid it.
Monday, June 06, 2011
We had a last minute dental appointment this morning (for the kids) and piano lessons so it was a mad dash out the door and me struggling to get to our dental appt. on time. I actually forgot we had one this Wednesday which wouldn't have worked for our schedule and they had an opening earlier this morning so I took advantage of it although it meant we had to stay away from the house all morning and part of the afternoon.
I've got a home school curriculum Mom's Night Out tonight that I really wish I didn't agree to go to as I am exhausted from our pool visit yesterday and all the running around we had to do today. Being out in the heat was exhausting today and yesterday so I'm feeling pretty lazy and only feel like relaxing.
We ate lunch in the car (didn't have time to pack it since the dental appt. was a last minute thing, and since we home school they know we are more flexible with our times/dates.
We got a lot of exercise in yesterday, but it was a madhouse because public school is not over yet and that meant that the public pool is only open on the weekends right now. Since it was super hot, everyone thought the same thing we did, go to the pool and get cooled off! LOL
We stayed there about 2 1/2 hours but left before they closed because although I religiously lathered sunscreen all over us, I didn't want to stay out there too long and with the crowds, it was hard to move around. It's a good thing too because almost time as we got home, got our showers and I started the clothes in the washer, a gun slinging thunderstorm erupted and it rained cats and dogs!
Sunday, June 05, 2011
The kids and I plan to go swimming in our local public pool today with some friends as long as the weather holds up. It's been so humid and hot lately that I know it will be a welcome relief to get cooled off.
Of course that means that I have to break out my bathing suits and wear one in public! I know I've lost weight and look much better in a bathing suit than I did last summer, but I still have those reservations that most women have. There is the super white skin that is blinding without sunglasses (LOL), spider veins and cellulite, etc. but I am going to put it out of my mind and enjoy the day with everyone.
I took my Kohl's cash, coupons and JC Penney's coupon with me shopping yesterday and as I expected, I didn't really find any clothes other than a pair of black jeans at JC Penney's. The rest of the items I bought were jewelry including several necklaces and one bracelet. I'm sure my daughter will swipe some of them and we'll have to share with each other, but I'm doing pretty good with my jewelry collection and don't really have much more that I need to get other than some earrings in styles I don't have and maybe a bracelet or two since we don't have many of those.
I bought jewelry that I probably would have never bought in a million years a few years ago so I know I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and experimenting more thanks to losing weight. So many changes happen it seems when you change one thing in our life.
As I usually do on Saturday, I stopped by Harris Teeter for the first time yesterday and one of the sale offers was a free detergent which of course I picked up! I also got some different brand detergent for $2 a bottle and would have picked up some free KC Masterpiece bbq sauce (it was on sale for $1 a bottle and I have $1 coupons) but they were completely out of stock, so I got a rain check for that and will pick them up the next time they are stocked and I'm at the store.
I got my husband some Raisin Bran cereal for around 69 cents a box (buy one get one free deal and I had a 70 cents coupon that was doubled) among other great deals.
Saturday, June 04, 2011
Today I am going shopping for jewelry and clothing although that doesn't mean I will be successful in finding anything or buying anything. I've having a slow start to getting out the door due to my kids and husband staying up super late last night and laughing and making all kinds of ruckus that woke me up. I'm happy they were having fun together, but not too happy to be woken up several times.
I have such a hard time staying asleep at night and since I'm a light sleeper, when there are loud noises and I get woken up, I'm up for hours. I hate being a light sleeper, but have been that way my entire life. It's made worse that the living room is directly below my bedroom and we have a sort of hallway area outside my door that you can look down and see the living room.
Our house is very small too so any noise is easily heard, especially when it's right outside the bedroom. My husband is able to just lie down on the couch and go take a nap anytime during the day, but I haven't ever been able to do that so I am grouchy and irritable all day if I don't get enough sleep.
I slept until 9:00 today and that's something I never do but I suppose the lack of sleep caught up with me and my body needed the rest.
I took my daughter yesterday to get her hair cut after she settled on a style she liked and it looks really good. She's been asking for a haircut for a while and I finally gave in although we didn't have a coupon and took her after our schooling was done. She's pretty happy with it, which makes me happy that she's happy with her appearance. She picked out the hairstyle that Terri Hatcher has which has several layers (she currently had all her hair one length) but shorter than Terri's is since I think (and she agrees) she looks better with shoulder length or slightly longer hair.
We stopped by this mom and pop grocery store on the way home that is near my home that I haven't been to in quite a while. They have lots of groceries and toiletries there that are usually marked down majorly due to some of the boxes or cans being dented or dinged, short-dated (although they have items that don't expire until next year), but are dirt cheap as well.
I've found out through the grapevine that lots of the home schooling friends I have go there and buy from them so I gave it a whirl last year. Anyway, we got some protein bars there that were $1 for 6 of them (name brands) that my husband likes to take to work, some Propel Zero bottles for 39 cents each (which I love), Starbucks single coffee packs for 49 cents (has 3 coffee singles in it), etc.
I'm hoping that the budget-friendly things I do will rub off on them and they will have a good idea of what to do with their budgets when they are old enough to get their own jobs and pay their bills. I'll at least feel like I've done all I can to teach them how to stretch their money and be able to afford a few "wants" they have a desire for when they have to purchase those items themselves.
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