Sunday, August 29, 2010
We plan to go to the public pool today as a family since my husband is not on call with his job. It should be a lot of fun and the kids are looking forward to it.
I had the most wonderful bargain day yesterday. I went to most of my favorite "bargain" places and found a few new ones too. I got my daughter some pants and me a shirt for 99 cents, a brand new hardback college dictionary (like we used to have in public school for everyone to share in the classroom) for $5 at a new bargain store that opened recently, some heirloom tomatoes that I found at a local farmer's market for the same price as regular tomatoes, Maybelline make-up (blush and eyeshadow) for 99 cents at The Dollar Tree, etc.
The eyeshadow had 3 shade of shadow in it, so it's a great bargain and the blush is loose mineral blush that I've seen for close to $10 each in other stores.
I know 99 cents isn't the cheapest price ever for clothing, but we've not had a lot of yard sales around here for the last two years and if I can get clothing for 99 cents and look for the clothing inside an air-conditioned building vs. being outside in the hot, muggy weather, then it's worth the extra 50 cents I'm paying. At least the clothing is hanging on racks as well so I don't have to bend over like I do at yard sales, so it's a win-win situation for me.
Another new bargain store I found was actually in my own town. A friend of mine asks me almost everytime she sees me if I have gone there and I have to say that I haven't because the outside of the building just didn't appeal to me. I have no problem with thrift stores not looking great on the outside because I know there are bargains and potentially great bargains on the inside, so it's not an issue. With grocery stores, I'm used to a regular looking, mass-marketed grocery store and generally don't go to a lot of mom & pop grocery stores.
As I mentioned above, I thought it was a regular overpriced mom & pop type grocery store and since I have my favorite places to shop for food (Trader Joe's, Sam's Club, Wal-Mart, and sometimes Harris Teeter and Bi-Lo) I just never bothered going inside to see what they had. By tthe way, this place is probably a mile or less from my house.
Well since I wasn't going yard saling, I decided to stop by on a whim and see what was so enticing to my friend. It was sort of like a resale grocery store in a way with lots of frozen foods (name brand) and lots of food items that were dirt cheap and also contained health and beauty items and produce. I was shocked that they had some Trader Joe's items, organic hamburger (which I plan to purchase the next time I go by but couldn't get it yesterday since I was heading out the opposite direction of home), expensive name brand food items that I only purchase when I have a great sale and double/triple coupon events at Harris Teeter or Bi-Lo, etc.
I got some Wilton decorative cake items for 79 cents each (for my son's birthday cake in September), Wolfgang Puck soup (same soup I bought at Harris Teeter but it was around $3 a can and no, I didn't pay that amount, LOL) for 79 cents a can, name-brand hair accessories for 25-75 cents which I have seen in Wal-Mart for around $3-$4, etc.
I guess I know where I'll be adding to my bargain stop routine in the near future. The other new bargain store I discovered is a new store in the next town that opened recently that I bought the new hardback Webster's College Dictionary at for $5. It was wrapped in plastic wrap and was just what we needed for our home school since some of the children's dictionaries we have don't have all the words we need to look up.
This same dictionary is around $25 everywhere else so I was thrilled and so was my husband. He was wanting me to purchase one in a regular store (we were making due with other dictionaries we had as well as the dictionary online site) but I just can't pay full price for things and was happy to find a bargain price.
I keep telling him to have patience because eventually I will find what we need or want at a good price and almost always I do just that. :-)
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Thanks everyone for the comments you made on my Spark Blog yesterday. It meant a lot to me and I appreciate the time you spent commenting on my situation.
I'm going to do what I normally do when I'm in pain (no, not gorge on food, LOL) and that is stay busy and get things done that I need to get done for my family.
We did a test run of some of the home school curriculum that I purchased back in July at the home school curriculum fair and I realized there are a few things I need to purchase to go with the books, particularly the science book I bought.
The children seem to like the history and science books I purchased so far although as usual, they aren't thrilled about math or grammar, LOL.
Despite the stress I'm dealing with right now, I'm still doing great with my calorie intake and I'm not gorging or going overboard with food. I'm proud that despite my emotional state that I'm remaining in control, but boy has it been hard lately.
I've been searching for another church consignment sale to take all our excess kids' clothes, books, etc. to and I think I found my third one. I have one sale coming in the beginning of September and whatever doesn't sell I hope to take to this third one that I found. This consignment sale is closer to my home than the other 2 but you don't get as big a percentage of your sales as the others. I figure by the time I take everything to the first 2 sales, I'll be happy to get anything for what is left over.
It sure beats having to hang on to fall/winter clothes that the kids can't wear anymore and hold on to them another whole year since the next sales after these will be next year for spring/summer clothes and I can't bring fall/winter clothes to those sales.
I need some extra income anyway to pay for the curriculum I still need to purchase, but was unable to find at the home school curriculum fair, so hopefully the last two sales will help with that.
Friday, August 27, 2010
I hope to stay home for a change today and get some things done. I have to prepare for our new school year starting next week so I'm trying to organize all that plus get the house in shape for the weekend.
I'm still feeling very depressed right now due to family situations. I'm blogging about this because my instinct right now is to go gorge on the tortilla chips and hummus with abandon and I know why I'm wanting to do that but figured it was best for me to write about it, whether anyone reads it or not.
My mother and sister joined Facebook a few months ago (I'd already been a member for awhile before they became members). My mother sent me an invitation but my sister didn't because we are not on talking terms at all. She is exactly like my mother and abuses her daughter in so many ways that I can't bear to be around her. I've tried to stand up for my niece but I keep getting it turned around on me and accused that I hate her. Why would I be standing up for her if I hated her? I'm the only one doing that and the only one brave enough to say something about the situation she's under. I try not to blame my sister or mother in the situation and focus on my niece only when I mention things, but they have turned on me like I am the devil.
As a result, I have had to sadly give up on helping my niece and live with the fact that she will have the same exact childhood as I did and feel unloved and uncared for. She is already showing really bad behavior as a result and I wouldn't be surprised to see her pregnant at an early age in her search for love and acceptance from someone.
My mother and I have never had a good relationship because she has never given me unconditional love or acceptance. I've tried my entire life to please her and do everything I could to make her love me, but to no avail. I realize now that she is incapable of it so I have quit trying to please her and just leave her alone. I realize she is furious that she doesn't have the control over me anymore that she once had. She doesn't really love me, she just wants to be in control of me and to feel like she has the power to hurt me as deeply as she possibly can.
I've seen her do it to other people and laugh about it, so I'm not oblivious to how she works. She is very cunning and will smile at you while she searches to find your weaknesses so she can attack them when you least expect it. As a result, I'm always on my guard where she is concerned because I know how she works.
When she sent me a Facebook invite I waited awhile before I accepted, because I knew it was not because she cared about me, but was more to punish me and see what was going on in my life. Well what I knew would happen has, she posted pics on her FB page and made sure one was sent to me so I would see them.
What do I see? Well, my sister is her FB profile pic with the words "My **insert my sister's name) on it and my sister's name is listed first as her children. I am the oldest and you would think that you would name the oldest first. A silly thing to mention I'm sure, but if you knew my mother, you would know it's done intentionally that way. Everyone I know who has more than one child lists them in order of who is the oldest first including me.
She had 1 pic of me with nothing written under it at all, but tons of comments on all the other pictures.
What other pics does she have? Well tons of pics of my sister and family at last Thanksgiving that I was not invited to so I would be sure to see it. And the hits keep coming.
I truly don't understand why a mother of all people would go out of her way to hurt her child that she gave birth to, but that has always baffled me my entire life and I have always felt that I was unloved and unwanted by her as a result. I felt like nothing good was supposed to be a part of my life because I obviously didn't deserve it because I never felt I was supposed to be happy.
This as well as tons of other little barbs and hurts she goes out of her way to kick me in the teeth with has caused me to be very upset lately. I try avoiding her as much as possible because she only wants me in her life to punish me. She was abused as a child, and as a result abuses me. My sister makes sure it is known that she and my mother are close and best friends so I know (as if I didn't know it anyway) that I am not accepted or loved by any of them.
I can identify with my niece and the way she is treated by my sister because I was treated the same way, but they twist everything around and accuse me of hating her, etc. The sad thing is, it's my sister that hates her own daughter, not me and they hate that I can see the truth. Nice family huh?
So I'm dealing with wanting the hurt to go away and wanting peace and no drama in my life to happen. I stay away but I get blamed for things even though I haven't spoken to my sister in almost a year and haven't seen her in years. Facebook is their way of getting to me since I avoid them at all costs. I knew better to not accept my mother's invite (my sister pretends I don't exist so no invite from her which is fine since I would not have accepted anyway), but part of me knew that if I didn't, the price would have been even worse than accepting.
So I'm da**ed if I do and da**ed if I don't.
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