Saturday, November 05, 2011
30 weeks? really?
It doesn't seem like it's been 30 weeks since I started my journey. I have had ups and downs in those 30 weeks, mostly downs when it comes to the scale :) I think week 5 was the only week my weight went up and that was only .6 lb. Of course some of those weeks the loss has been fairly minimal, forcing me to look back at what I may have done wrong.
I have become spoiled in a way, I may still lose a small amount of weight, but if I don't lose what I think I should have, I'm not entirely happy with the small loss. Damn it, a loss is a loss, I need to remind myself that even a small loss is like a gift, a small token for the sacrifices I've made during the week.
I have been moving more this week. Mon- Fri I walked 10 minutes on my treadmill (half mile) and swung one of my kettlebells a couple of times also. The tendon in my left arch is still hurting and actually burns like fire towards the end of my walk, but I think I am going to try to go longer or faster this week. I also will try to spend more time with my kettlebells.
As for this week, it's over. I can't go back and do things differently, I have to live with my new weight, whether I like it or not. All I can do is relax today, and eat what I like and get back to the grind tomorrow.
Enough of the fluff, let's break down the numbers:
Weight : 254.3
Lost : 1.0
Total : 62.9
So it's a loss, but not by much. I am ready to be out of the 250's. Hopefully I can be in the 240's after 2 more weigh ins.
"Remember, remember the 5th of November,
the gunpowder treason and plot;
I know of no reason the gunpowder treason
should ever be forgot."
Saturday, October 29, 2011
And now for something completely different.
THis week I have been kind of 'blah'. Not feeling bad, just not feeling good either. Maybe it's the change in weather. Been having milder days and colder nights. A lot of the old injuries kind of get 'creaky' when the cold weather starts to set in. The back, knees, shoulder, foot, etc.
Anyway, I'm going to a costume party tonight, should be fun. Wearing my old semi-pro football gear and going as a ... football player! I bet you never would have figured that out if I hadn't told you. :) Of course I wont be drinking any alcohol (well maybe just one shot), not because of the empty calories but because I'm driving. Also, when I consume alcohol I get red hot and my skin on my face turns red. I think it's a side effect of my psoriasis, but it's not pretty! So I haven't had more than 2-3 alcoholic beverages a year for the past 7-8 years. But it's okay, I don't need to be drunk to have fun (although being drunk does make it seem more fun).
So here's my numbers for this week, nothing great, but still a loss.
Weight : 255.3
Lost : 1.4
Total : 61.9
I always want more, but my left foot hurts and it's painful to walk, let alone jog or do jumping jacks, etc. so I will accept the 1.4lb loss and keep my head held high.
For all you do, this buds for you!
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Losing weight feels awesome. Seriously, it does. I went for years, just gaining a few pounds here and there, vowing to never to let my weight go over a certain number. Those numbers were always slowly eclipsed and a new "magic number" would be set in my head.
The last "magic number" I set was 300 lbs. I floated around 295 for a couple of years and felt that 295 lbs was indeed my "place". Then I went to the Dr.'s office one day and their scale said 305! Blasphemy! That scale was wrong ( I swear the scales at Dr.'s offices are always 10 pounds heavy). When I got home I weighed myself and my scale said 301.
So now my "magic number" had no magic left. Over the next 2 years I climbed to 320 and felt miserable. Of course I had tried many times to change my lifestyle, eat healthier, workout, etc. Seems like the best I could do would be to lose 10-15 lbs before some sort of physical setback would occur and I would sink back into a cycle of self loathing, anger and depression.
Ah, the memories.
But I haven't felt THAT bad in months. Despite several physical problems (old and new) I feel pretty good, both overall and about myself. It's a refreshing change. I'd like to keep feeling this way, I almost like myself now!!
I am currently at a weight that I haven't seen since the summer of 1994. July of '94 to be more precise. Weighed in at 260 at a Dr.'s office in San Francisco, five months after herniating discs in my lower back. When I was injured, I was 222 lbs, body fat under 10% and lifted weights and did stair master 6 days a week. 5 months of barely being able to walk and the depression that came with the injury led to 40lbs of weight gain. And it just kept piling on over the years.
Until April 12 of this year when I joined a local biggest loser contest. Honestly I joined to try and win the cash prize (first place ended up getting $1,600) but after the first week losing weight, I was hooked. I also signed up on SparkPeople that night, best idea ever! At week 6 I started the 4 Hour Body diet and have been very consistent since then. I didn't win the cash prize, but I have won so much more than that. I feel like I have really won some of my life back.
At this point in my journey, I truly hope that a few people have found at least a little inspiration in my story. I don't want nor need a cult following, but hopefully my words have resonated with somebody, somewhere. If I have helped one person stay on track or get back on track I will have done my duty.
Sorry for the long winded nature of this post, sometimes the words just seem to fall out of my head like so much literary vomit. On to the numbers!!
Weight : 256.7
Lost : 2.3
Total : 60.5
So, 2.3 lbs gone and broke the 60lb barrier this week. Yay me!
People should not be afraid of their governments; governments should be afraid of the people.
Saturday, October 15, 2011
This week was better overall than last week. I ate better (not perfectly though) and had a better weigh in.
It's been a long week and I haven't slept well. I really don't feel like doing a lot of writing here today, not feeling inspired. I'll just post my numbers and bid you adieu.
Weight : 259.0
Lost : 2.2
Total : 58.2
There you go, 2.2 lbs this week. Would have liked to have had more, after last week's poor showing, but it's still a good loss.
Thank you and goodnight,
Saturday, October 08, 2011
Not going to write much this week as I have a busy day today and I just don't feel like writing.
I had a bad week, I cheated on multiple days, ate things I know I shouldn't have and snacked too much at night. These things happen. It's not the end of the world, just a bad week for losing weight.
I'm not going to lose any sleep over it, just plan on sticking to my system much better this week and trying to get back on track. The last month or so I have noticed myself slipping, perhaps it is my subconscious giving me permission to cheat a little here and there because I've done so well. Whatever it is, I must be more vigilant if I am to ever reach my goal.
So here's the numbers for the week:
Weight : 261.2
Lost : .1
Total : 56
That's it, .1, one tenth of a pound, 1.6 ounces. I'm glad that I didn't gain, but it's hard to be happy about what I lost.
Oh well, there's always next week.
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