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Wk 77 Weigh In - Tough Mudder

Sunday, September 30, 2012

WOW, I am so sore and my calves still want to cramp up, but I did it. I did bypass some obstacles because I knew that if I attempted them I would not have enough left in the tank to keep hiking the hills and finish the course. There were a few thousand feet of elevation to climb and a few of the climbs were steep enough that many people were bear crawling up them. Some of the descents were just as bad, having to go down sideways, sliding 2-3 feet after taking a 6 inch step, many people just scooted down on their butts.

To me the most impressive thing I saw was a young gal (about 23) who was doing this with her boyfriend, she did the whole course barefoot! She does barefoot running but this was all rocks and thorns and weeds. My friend and I ran into her and her boyfriend about 2 miles in and the 4 of us stayed together the rest of the course. They are both Navy Corpsmen (medics), so who better to travel with when you feel like you may collapse at anytime!

It was mentally and physically exhausting and I was like a zombie near the end, slightly confused, dragging myself along but I wasn't wanting to eat brains. The 10,000 volts of electricity at the end was quite shocking :) It was like getting hit with a stun gun and several people collapsed when hit. Most people ran through that part, but not I! I couldn't run, so I just walked and got zapped probably 25 times, but I was aiming for spots where several wires were tangled together, I think I have a touch of masochism in me.

I will have a few pictures later when I go get my son from his friend's house, he has the camera. But for now I'll just get to the weigh in numbers for this week.

Weight : 219.2
Lost : 3.4
Total : 98.0

A good week for weight loss, a rough week for the body overall. Like I told my dad last night, "I'm hurt, but I'm not injured".

Quote seen on the t-shirts of all of the Marine recruiters from all over Cali that volunteered at Tough Mudder:

"Pain is weakness leaving the body" I did not know that my body was harboring so much weakness!

Ken Heaston
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BEAUTIFUL8186 10/2/2012 2:24AM

    I think I need to do Tough Mudder on a mountain. it was almost easy where I was. It was really fun though!

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GODSCHILD2_2011 10/1/2012 8:06PM

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Wow Ken! I was so clueless to what Tough Mudder was and I still don't really know fully what it is but from reading this blog, I have a better understanding what it entails. I feel so dumb because when you first said you were going to do it, I just that it was another name for a regular run/ walk race.

As Chris stated, just being a part of this was very courageous of you because no matter how much weight I lose, I don't think I would be able to ever accomplish what you have.


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CLPURNELL 10/1/2012 6:42PM

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Man I cannot begin to express how in awe I am of what you accomplished. I know you are hurting now but you have DONE what many will never attempt!!! You have truly proven what a tough mudder you are!!!!

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JJAQUES41 10/1/2012 2:18PM

    Never heard of the tough mudder, but I'm so intimidated just reading about it here! I can't believe someone ran it barefoot and electrocution was part of the course! Fantastic job not only starting it, but managing to finish it all!

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 10/1/2012 12:19PM

    HOLY COW you had to get ZAPPED???? yikes!!!!
Good for you for getting through..i am so proud of you!!!! You are my hero of the week!! And fantastic loss, too!!

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THEFABMZFIT 10/1/2012 10:26AM

    That is AWESOME! Tough Mudder is FREAKIN HARD!
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MARYDSAN 9/30/2012 9:07PM

    Awesome-all I can say is awesome! Yes, Navy corpsmen are good company (including my sister-in CA- and Dad-with the Lord).

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_BABE_ 9/30/2012 7:25PM

    You are hilarous travelling with medics! I was not familiar with the volts of electricity at the end of one of these things.....is there a reason for it? emoticon Well done!

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DNRAE1 9/30/2012 6:47PM

    Wow! Simply Amazing!!! You are an inspiration! emoticon emoticon

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ALWYS-LKN-UP 9/30/2012 6:44PM

    HUGE accomplishment & a good week for weight loss - KUDOS!!! Now, be nice to yourself, relax & let your body heal!! :)

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ME_FIRST 9/30/2012 5:48PM

    Congratulations on finishing and a great weight loss this week. Does this mean that you are now a tough mudderer? Wonderful.

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    Good gracious! emoticon on being able to emoticon all the way to the end.

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TEACHFIRST268 9/30/2012 2:15PM

    Amazing!
Inspiring!
INSANE!R>Awesome!
Words just don't seem strong enough to describe what you have done and what you have accomplished. Hats off to you for having the guts to participate in such a thing and congratulations for completing it!
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LADISHEFFLADY1 9/30/2012 1:59PM

    Great Job....keep it up!

Donna~

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Wk 76 Weigh In - Here we go

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Another week has come and gone and my nerves are building. Next Saturday the 29th I am participating in the Nor-Cal Tough Mudder and I am not nearly in the shape I had anticipated when I paid my entry fee last January. There has really been no consistency in my strength training since May and the last month there has been a lack of consistency of making it to the gym just to do cardio. Tough Mudder suggests being able to jog 5 miles on a consistent basis before taking on the course. I can't really jog at all :( I can walk and I do that quite a lot so I will just have to walk the 12 miles I suppose. Although I am sure that I will end up jogging, ignoring the pain it causes me due to the adrenaline pumping through the crowd. My only goal for this event is to finish, to survive the 25 obstacles somehow. I'm anxious, excited and scared, should be a good time.

This week I did better with going to the gym, but still slacked off a bit the last couple of days. I did 135 fitness minutes, could have and should have been more, but I can't change that now. Also, my eating was better this week. I definitely had a couple of off plan meals (nachos anyone?) but over all I did a better job.

I had some stress lifted off of me also when I found out that my final paper for Global Economics and Business Applications had passed. That's 4 more units down (84 units in less than 2 years) and a real monster of a class out of the way. I also wrote a paper this week that I had been sort of putting off for a while because I knew it was going to be a bear. It was indeed a bear, with tons of researching to find all of the pertinent information. I got the paper written (10 pages single spaced) in one day, but that was a terrible day! Most papers take me 3-4 hours to write, this one too approximately 11 hours to write with just a few short breaks here and there. Long, miserable day, but it's done.

Anyway, you didn't come here to listen to me complain about school, you came here to laugh and mock me for my failures!! (kidding) But no failures this week, only triumphs! Let's get to the numbers and see how they stack up:

Weight : 222.6
Lost : 3.2
Total : 94.6

It was a good week for weight loss, maybe I'm back to doing the right things? I'm getting close to being back at my all time low of 217.2, just 5.4 lbs away now. It's too late for me to be in better shape for the Tough Mudder this year, but if things go well (I don't suffer catastrophic injuries) I will have enough time to be in better shape for next time.

So for now friends, I bid you adieu. See you on the flip side.

2011 Nor-Cal official Tough Mudder video:
youtu.be/884I4Zgb860 youtu.be/884I4Zgb860

Ken Heaston
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CLPURNELL 9/26/2012 1:52PM

    Good luck on the mudder Ken!!! I know what a BEAST that is. To finish that is an AWESOME accomplishment! take it slow and get through it! Awesome Job on the loss this week!!!!

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GODSCHILD2_2011 9/25/2012 10:34PM

    You have a lot going on so to get this much accomplished in such a short amount of time is fantastic.

Your sparkpage name is Kingslayer, ok king of your domain, slay this Nor-Cal Tough Mudder race. emoticon Keep a positive attitude going into this race and I have no doubt that you will finish it in one piece.

Just know we are here cheering you on. Congrats on the weight lost.

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P.S. How is your mom coming along? Great I hope.

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PENDULA 9/24/2012 4:14PM

    WOW! Those academic challenges are worth mentioning as well. They have a huge impact because they force us to be stationary and the stress sometimes induces bad eating. You are rocking it out man. Just rocking it out!!!!!!!

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KATSKASTLES 9/24/2012 11:41AM

    You are doing great!!! The race is going to be a great challenge for you. :)

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ABETTERME41 9/23/2012 11:52AM

  WONDERFUL! I'm so proud of you. PLEASE give yourself some major props. You will totally kick tushie at your competition. If you think about it, you've already succeeded: Would the "old" Ken have taken on a challenge like this?

You rock!
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ME_FIRST 9/23/2012 8:47AM

    Success all around. Fantastic! You'll be back to 217 very soon.

Good luck next week for the Tough Mudder. You'll do great.

Yvonne

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MARYDSAN 9/23/2012 4:39AM

    Wow! What accomplishments this week-educationally and weight-wise. Congratulations on both! emoticon

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_BABE_ 9/22/2012 9:35PM

    emoticon Wow!! You wrote a 10 page single spaced paper in 3 to 4 hours? Get out of town. Oh yeah and congrats on getting back to the business of weight loss.

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GRANDEFILLE 9/22/2012 8:49PM

    You go! you can do this!

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TEACHFIRST268 9/22/2012 8:04PM

    Oh my gosh!!! I just watched the youtube video. THAT IS A W E S O M E !!!!! I've heard of the Spartan races around here, but those, I believe, are completed individually. I really like the idea of folks working together and helping each other get through this one that you're participating in. Gee...rather symbolic of this weight loss journey and this site, don't 'cha think? ;o)

Congrats on your success this week! Look at you go!!!
(Nachos...yummmmm)


And GOOD LUCK next week! Can't wait to hear about it!

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 9/22/2012 7:53PM

    WOO HOO good for you!!!

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CASTIRONLADY 9/22/2012 6:59PM

    Great job with the 3.2 lbs - that is more than 12 sticks of butter. Just think if you had added 12 sticks of butter - what a bummer!

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Wk 75 Weigh In

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Long and dreary, each day seemingly endless; time almost standing still yet still no time for rest. The pain of life endures through the fog of internal war, the din of battle always ringing in my ears painfully bringing tears to my eyes.

That first paragraph means nothing, I just started to type and that's what came out. Sometimes when I need to write a paper I just can't get started so I just type a word or two and then let my fingers roll with with whatever comes out. I usually continue on to writing what I need to write and go back and erase that initial paragraph. This time I decided to let it stay.

Okay, so this week I was at home with my mom each day, I had all of my workout equipment available to me here, lots of things I could do to get my minutes in. So how many fitness minutes did I get this week?? 20 Yep, 20. I walked on the treadmill one day for 20 minutes. It was so boring! At the gym I throw on my ear buds and watch a tv show but out on my patio I had no tv to watch and I don't have a working mp3 player (or much music on my computer to transfer anyway) So I just walked looking at my back fence. Boring.

So no working out but I could combat that with proper diet. So I had steak and rice pilaf twice, corn dogs, and other various crap. Not everyday mind you, but over all I'd give my diet a grade of D for the week.

So let's see how that translates into numbers:

Weight: 225.8
Lost : .8
Total : 91.4

Holy cow, all of that inappropriate eating and lack of exercise equaled a loss of .8! Perhaps if I eat a little better next week and actually get some exercise I could lose a little more and feel more like my old self. I think I may give that a try.

My mom is doing much better and getting around pretty good with her walker. I think I'll hit the gym after taking my son to school in the mornings just to be sure that I get some gym time in. And I'll make more food for myself instead of looking for whatever is going to be easy and fast.

That's it for this week. Be well people :)

Ken Heaston
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PENDULA 9/18/2012 7:21PM

    Making a plan is half the battle and when one is doing caretaking duties it re routes us. You have a plan for the coming week. And you still lost, despite the deviation. You'll be back on track in no time. I only have hope and enthusiasm about where you are going.!!!! :)

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TEACHFIRST268 9/17/2012 6:05PM

    Even though you've been a little out of your routine, you still have an awareness of your eating and exercise. Could you say that a few years ago? This is still progress! Congrats on the loss and sounds like you've got a good plan for the week ahead! Glad to hear that your mom is doing better!
Have a great week!

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CLPURNELL 9/17/2012 12:19PM

    Glad your mother is feeling better. We should know by now weight loss doesn't always make sense lol. You WILL get back into the grove and start lowing those #s away before you know it!!!

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MARYDSAN 9/15/2012 9:13PM

    Glad to hear that your mom is doing better. What I need to know is how you lose with those foods and only 20 minutes of exercise? Were they extremely small portions, or maybe you got in more exercise minutes than you logged by the movement in helping your mom? Congrats on the lose in any case. I'm sure next week will have an increased loss if you do it according to your plan.

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_BABE_ 9/15/2012 8:35PM

    Well Edgar Allan Poe...er I mean Ken...this too shall pass.....the sun will come out tomorrow tomorrow...wait that's my blog.... lol

I don't mean to tease but I think you are getting a sense of my humour.

Let me put on my psycho analyzer hat and say that it's been a tough haul, you have triumphed and now you are in a limbo.....where does one go next...ok it was a stab in the dark.

Tell me Ken why do YOU think you took a week off from the routine? I am glad you realize you got a free pass with the .8 loss and are getting right back it.

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GRANDEFILLE 9/15/2012 7:39PM

    That is a plan! Glad your mother is doing good. keep going Ken you can do this!

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 9/15/2012 7:22PM

    Glad that mom is doing better..and YAY on the loss!! I'm betting you will be down lots if you stick with it this week!!
GOOOO KEN!!

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Wk 74 Still not on the right path

Saturday, September 08, 2012

This was a very long week. It started out alright, getting some gym time in on Monday and Tuesday and eating not too badly (but not too clean either). But on Wednesday things got a little hectic. My mom went into the hospital that morning for a total hip replacement. So I've been driving back and forth (about 40 minutes each way) to visit with her for a few hours each day in the hospital. Then on Friday it was my son's 16th birthday and in my family we have a tradition that the birthday person gets to have whatever they want for their birthday dinner. My son wanted me to make a paleo pizza that I'd made a few months ago. So I took an hour to shop and about 2 hours making the no-carb pizza crusts. Hunched over the counter whisking and kneading ingredients just killed my back, but hey, the kid only has one birthday a year!

Now that this week is over, I am hoping that I can get closer to being back on track. Although I will be the main person taking care of my mom here at home because my dad has a long term substitute teaching job for the next month so I'll be the only one home to help her out. Not complaining mind you, she's my mom and it's the least I can do. I just don't think I'll be getting to the gym much this week. I know what you're thinking, I can go to the gym in the evening while my dad looks after my mom... not gonna happen. The gym is always crowded in the evenings and I have loathed crowded gyms since I first joined one at age 15. But I do have a treadmill, stationary bike some dumbbells and my kettlebell here at home so I SHOULD be able to get some exercise time in. Of course I still need to write papers for school too. sigh.

I need to officially write my numbers down here so I feel more accountable. I have just been so "off" since my vacation but it's time that I owned up to it instead of just being vague.

Weight : 226.6
Gain : 2.8
Total : 90.6

I was down to 223.8 last week and I ballooned up a bit this week. But on the plus side, I am not feeling depressed now, just concerned that I am not ready for Tough Mudder on the 29th. I guess I'll just have to see what happens.

Thanks for reading and thanks for all of the support. It's good to have friends that understand what you're going through.

Ken Heaston
Since 1970

  
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GODSCHILD2_2011 9/13/2012 8:13PM

    I think you're doing ok considering all the things that going on in your life right now. I know it sucks that you gain a little weight, good news is , this too shall pass and I have all confidence in you that you will get back on track and do it with a vengeance. emoticon

You may not be able to get to the gym right know, so, get some exercising were or when you can. Almost anything can be counted as some form of exercising; just as long as you keep moving.


I'm sending prayers that your mom will recoup speedily. How did your sons BD dinner turn out? I know he probable had a blast.

Try to stay positive and know that we are here for you.

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RIBKNIT 9/12/2012 6:24PM

    Hi Ken. You say you are still not on the right path, but perhaps you are. Perhaps you are right where you need to be. With such a lot happening, I salute you for doing and being all that you are. Hang in there, it will pass and you'll get the ship righted!

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CLPURNELL 9/10/2012 2:36PM

    Man I know it's been a rough run lately. Really sorry about your mom being in the hospital. Maybe this is the trifecta of bad news and things get brighter form here. Get the exercise in where you can and just try to focus on the intake. I know it is hard to do with so much going on. Sometimes we just have to put our head down and get through times like this. Hopefully the light at the end of the tunnel is close and you can get back on track. You are not doing awful considering everything. Like I said remember where you were a year ago. You are still doing awesome!!!

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TEACHFIRST268 9/9/2012 4:20PM

    Sounds like life is going to be a little crazy for a bit. I hope your mom recovers quickly! You're a great son to be there for her, and a great dad for making his birthday dinner!

This is the challenge, isn't it? How to do this weight loss thing while managing life, with all of its ups and downs. DO NOT beat yourself up over a couple pounds. I think most everyone on this site has likely done enough of that. Do the best you can, take it a day at a time, a choice at a time. You're aware and are working on a plan. Now follow through the best you can! I have no double you'll succeed!

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RUSUNA 9/9/2012 1:59PM

    wow, rough week! i'll cross my paws for your moms quick recovery. and chin up, it happens to all of us.

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ME_FIRST 9/9/2012 8:42AM

    A kid who wants paleo pizza for his 16th birthday? You're doing somthing right there!

I've been on both sides of theTHR. I had mine 5 years ago when I was 52 and my Dr. said I couldn't walk on that leg for 6 weeks. That was horrible both physically and mentally. On the other hand, my mother had a THR when she was 81 and was walking the next day.

Your mom will do great at home and she will surely take a few cat naps during the day when you can get some school work done. She'll be doing some light leg strengthing exercises too. Maybe you can kettle bell while she's doing leg slides.

Good luck this week. Keep a smile.... they're really good for mothers on the mend. I'll be thinking about you. Yvonne

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GRANDEFILLE 9/9/2012 7:35AM

    all things considered you are doing great! you are still one of my heroes! Take care of your mom and I know you'll find a way to take care of yourself.

You CAN do this!

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MARYDSAN 9/9/2012 7:08AM

    Glad to hear that the depression has cleared up and that you are such a blessing to your mom. Good sons are great to have around! With your success rate, those extra pounds will be gone in no time!

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NADJAZZ 9/8/2012 10:21PM

    Of all things, your son wanted a paleo pizza! That's a plus, despite the time you put into making it. On top of being a great dad, you're also a wonderful son to help your mom and dad out like that. I hear ya on staying out of the crowded gyms! I much prefer working out in my garage. Your TM is coming soon, but you've still got time to get ready for it! You'll do great, no matter what. I can't wait to hear about it!

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 9/8/2012 8:42PM

    Ken first off...Bless you for doing this for your Mom. She and your dad are very very lucky to have a caring nurturing son like you!!! A big hug just for that.
Second. your mom will need therapy, correct? at a facility? ask if you can use the equipment. I dont know if they will let you, but they might!!! OR,,,take Mom in, and go to the gym. My therapy for my knee was an hour. that would give you some time, which is preferable to none!!

How about this..you check in with me mornings let me know what your workout plans for the day are. i can do the same...then check in evenings or the next morning and say if it got done.

I'm here for you!!
Holly

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Wk 73 Trying to right the ship

Sunday, September 02, 2012

(Begin Rant.)

I have some admissions to make. I was not good this past week. I ate pretty terribly and I only got to the gym a couple of times. I have also been derelict in keeping up with you all, reading your blogs, checking my friend feed, etc.

Yesterday was my grandmother's memorial service, it was nice. The only tears I saw were shed by my over dramatic cousin who enjoys having attention paid to her. It was a nice service, but still it was sad.

Another admission, I've been depressed. Not from the passing of my grandmother, not from putting a few pounds back on, not from feeling like I'm not prepared for Tough Mudder at the end of the month. Not from any one thing. Possibly from a lot of little things all bound up together; all that I've mentioned already plus bummed about writing papers for school, not having a job, my back and hip hurting and always feeling lonely.

I kind of feel like I'm in quicksand. I attempt to break free of how I feel but the harder I've tried to shake the feelings, the more I'm pulled in. I just came home from a vacation, but maybe I need some time off from stressing about what I'm eating and how much time I spend in the gym. I need to get back to enjoying preparing my food and going to the gym. Lately it's all been drudgery and that's a problem. I haven't enjoyed going to the gym for several weeks now, it's begun to feel more like I HAVE to go and spend so many minutes each week there. I want to enjoy going to the gym again.

I'm not enjoying life right now and having just a little depression makes things so much worse. I need to relax, breath and find some enjoyment and try to break this cycle and get back to being myself.

(End Rant)

I did drop 1.2 lbs this week but still have 6.6 lbs to get back to my low of 217.2.

Also, I didn't write any of this to try and get some sympathy or pity. I just wanted to in some small way put down on (virtual) paper a little of how I'm feeling. Thank you.

Ken Heaston
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NIGHTSKYSTAR 9/7/2012 7:01PM

    Hi Ken. I'm with you. Feeling the same way....and no clue why. Wish you were closer...we could devise some great on plan recipes and have fun cooking them..and be workout buds!!
I have been awol from here. work work work. i have this week coming up thats really bad then i'm good to go and back on plan starting this monday to the extent i can be with the work schedule.
if you need to talk you know where i am. you have been there for me let me help you!!!
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CLPURNELL 9/5/2012 12:54PM

    Ken,

I am sorry. I know it is hard at times like this but man you have changed your life and you have inspired and helped others (ME) do the same. It is hard wrapping your mind around having a great year in some aspects (weight loss, what you have accomplished in school etc) and also having a terrible year as far as losing loved ones, being unemployed etc. You have dealt with it all with a grace and strength that you should be proud of. I remember right before I started this journey my sister said something that really clicked with me. She told me that I wasn't Jesus lol. I was trying to be perfect. I was trying to be everything to everybody and in that I was totally neglecting my own happiness. We aren't perfect bro. We fall down. We get dirty. The miracle is we have the ability to get back up through it all. You are living proof of that You have lost over 90 pounds. You did that with pure will and work ethic. You should be proud of that. You are raising a son. You should be proud of that. You are a great man Ken even if you don't feel like it right now. I am lucky to have a friend like you and I appreciate it a ton. I go through a mini vacation depression every time I come back. What I have learned from that is what is really important to me. What is important is living the day I am in to the fullest. Not climbing a corporate ladder not owning a bigger house. But to look back at memories I make with friends and family and relieve the good feelings from those moments. Above all else I seek peace within myself and within my home. Sometimes vacations give you a peek at that peace and that care free lifestyle and when you get back to all the drudgery of daily life it is easy to get depressed. Know if you need anything bro I am here.

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KAREN951 9/4/2012 9:01PM

    I'm sorry to hear you've been depressed and that you've had such a run of rotten things happening to you. Just know that you're not alone in that -it happens to all of us. I'm sort of in the same boat, struggling to get back on track after a number of setbacks, and it's not easy. At all. Sounds like you're on the right track though - analyzing the problem and thinking about ways to change up your routine so you can enjoy it more.
Hope things get better for you real soon!

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_BABE_ 9/3/2012 2:05PM

    Sometimes the "blows" we get from life can be relentless. One thing after another with no reprieve....you call it quicksand and I call it a downward spiral....or to put a Canadian spin on it....the snowball effect eh. You need to stop it in it's tracks or it will gain more ground and keep you down. Sit down and think about what you do have and be thankful...gratitude definitely will give you that springboard to start climbing back out of the hole of depression. I am not the only one here who thinks you are a terrific human being....if not only based on your kindness demonstrated on this site. emoticon

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MARYDSAN 9/3/2012 1:35AM

    It's good to share what you are feeling. Then others who feel that know that they are not alone. If we lived closer, we could try to cheer you up. Just remember no matter what is going on in your life, you are precious in His sight (Isa. 43:4).
Congratulations on beginning to right your ship!

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RIBKNIT 9/2/2012 8:59PM

    Thank you for sharing about being depressed. You are not alone; I've been pretty darn depressed for the last two or three weeks. I don't know about you, but I've been through this before and have always come out the other side.
Each of us deals differently with this stuff. I have no doubt you'll get through it in whatever ways work for you. I hope that putting it down in words has helped you a bit.
P.S. - I am not posting this out of sympathy or pity. I am posting it out of appreciation for the words you have written. They have offered me a chance to share too :)
Hang in there. You're strong.



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ME_FIRST 9/2/2012 3:42PM

    Sometimes writing down a rant and dissatisfaction is good for us. It's the cumulation of this and that can wear us down. You'll get through it. Sometimes I think of Carlie Simon's song "these are the good old days". Yikes!!! That's a hard one to believe, but OK. In hindsight, my younger years were the good old days. Too bad I didn't know it then. I'm sure in 20 years, I'll be thinking the same thing about 2012.

Anyway, you're looking great in your new cruise picture. I would be hard pressed to pick that picture as the same man in some of your others.

Hang in there and just do the best you can. Hope you have a good Labor Day. My plan is to do absolutely Nothing. Yvonne

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RORYLYONS 9/2/2012 2:19PM

    Sorry to hear that your Grandmother passed... emoticonon your weight loss...Don't be too hard on yoursel, we are here for you. Tomorrow is another day to start fresh.. emoticonHave a wonderful holiday!

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