Saturday, October 18, 2014
It's been 21 weeks since my last blog post, 21 weeks, damn. What I intended to be a relatively short break away from Spark turned into all of Summer and parts of Spring and Fall.
Of course I wasn't completely away. I actually only had one day of not logging in to spin the wheel, last Friday, because I was out of town at a wedding. So I was never really away from Spark after all.
I needed to "clear my head" and figure out why my weight loss had stalled and wouldn't get back under my control. 21 weeks later and I still don't know why! But I did manage to gain some more weight!
Current numbers as of today:
Weight : 238.4
Gain (from previous blog) : 9.0
As I now sit and look at the numbers, gaining 9 lbs while flailing away for 21 weeks really isn't all that bad.
Anyway, I'm back and hopefully I'll be able to start getting this extra weight off of me again and get back to where I was before breaking my hand last year, around 210.
For all of you that sent me goodies and encouraging notes, I appreciated them all, thank you for keeping my in your thoughts :)
Saturday, May 24, 2014
They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over but expecting a different result.
Hello, my name is Ken and I'm insane.
This was the week to turn things around, to put an end to the gaining and post a solid loss. The week to get my head on straight, block out all of the internal noise and get down to business.
Of course that's not at all what happened. Up until Thursday everything was going great, I was set to deliver a loss for this morning. Then from Thursday to this morning I somehow gained 3 lbs (no sodium involved!). This is crazy because by standard thinking I would have needed to take in around 14,000 calories to make that happen (@3,500 cals per pound (3 lbs=10,500) plus approx 3,500 cals to make up for what my body should normally burn over 2 days). I only took in approx 1800 calories both Thursday and Friday, far less than what it SHOULD have taken for me to actually gain weight!
Confusion and frustration, thy name is Ken.
Here's the numbers
Weight : 229.4
Gain : 2.2
Total : 90.6
I am continually sliding backwards and I'm not too happy about it. My head is constantly filled with spinning thoughts and stresses and it's driving me crazy. Lately I've been feeling like getting on Spark every day to get my points, comment and like postings and blogs has become a job. I feel guilty if I don't do enough encouraging or reach out to enough people. But it's driving me a tad bit insane!
I think I'm going to take a break for a while. End my current log in streak at 183 days and just step away for a bit. I'll still be around bcause I'm a creature of habit, but I need to step away at lest a little. Besides, with all of this gaining, I feel like I'm doing a disservice to all of my friends, I'm letting everyone down and not being a good role model.
I won't be gone forever, I'll probably only be gone for a short period of time, hell, most people won't even notice I'm gone (it'll be just like my real life!). But I need to remove some of the pressure that I've created for myself so hopefully I can get back to making good choices and working hard on myself instead of just making excuses every week.
So to all of you, have a great Memorial Day Weekend and remember, it's not about bbq's and beers, it's about those men and women and have laid down their lives so that you can have your bbq and beers. God bless the men and women who answer the call to serve in the armed forces.
Saturday, May 17, 2014
I decided to skip a week... instead of losing weight this week so I could just gain it back next week, I Just gained this week and got rid of the middle man.
Not a great week for me. My back didn't really act up which was nice, but my knee has been hurting like hell and I can't figure out what the hell I did to make it angry! If it's not one thing, it's another, story of my life.
I had a big breakfast and dinner on Monday (celebrating Mother's Day on Monday because on Monday, the world is your oyster for these things). But those meals stuck with me all week. Hell, I had days this week where my calorie intake was right at 1200 and I gained weight (super low sodium on those days too!!)
Sometimes I just can't wrap my head around what my body is doing and that is frustrating.
Back to Mother's Day for a sec. All of these Hallmark holidays I show up with a card, gift, etc. on the day of, but anything else (meals, shopping) will take place the next day. I do things my own way. On Facebook people have taken to posting old pictures on Thursdays and calling it Throw Back Thursday (TBT). I will post an old picture with the tag TBT, but I'll post it on Wednesday, or Friday or any day other than Thursday. Why, you ask? Because I don't play by your rules, that's why.
Anyway, let's look at this week's apocalyptically horrendous weigh in.
Weight : 227.2
Gain : 1.8
Total : 92.8
Yep, just short of a 2 lb gain for the week. The week is over and I'm not going to let this eat at me. I'm going to try and enjoy my weekend and get back to work for the next week.
Saturday, May 10, 2014
Not much to say today. My back has been feeling better (knock on wood) but it has had lots of days of feeling better right before it went out, so I'm not going to celebrate any time soon.
I had a gain this week, of course I pretty much knew would since I posted a loss last week and that's how things have been going for quite some time now. Oh well.
So here's the numbers for the week.
Weight : 225.4
Gain : 0.8
Total : 94.6
It's less than a pound so that's good, but it's still another gain. I suppose I'll lose it this coming week just so I can gain it back the week after... arrgh.
Anyway, I hope you all have a great weekend, however much of it is left.
Saturday, May 03, 2014
This week was a little better than last week. I have had a few nights of good sleep, but it seems like I can't put 2 good nights back to back! But I'm going to continue going to bed each night, keep working on that sleep. Unlike going to the gym, working on sleep is pretty easy to do. I just have to lie there and close my eyes... I'm pretty good at that.
Anyway, so my back has been having it's ups and downs but it was less twitchy overall this week. Still, anytime I have to bend over a little it lets me know that it doesn't appreciate it with a quick electrical jolt! I just have to always remember to be careful and to move smoothly, keeping my shoulders and hips aligned; avoid the twisting!
So let's get to this weeks' numbers:
Weight : 224.6
Lost : 1.4
Total : 95.4
One week up, one week down. The roller coaster is getting to be just about as old as I feel. On to another week, another opportunity to see if I can lose a little more or if I'm just going to gain like I seem to do every other week.
Happy May and have a great weekend.
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