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Happy Veterans Day & 11/11/11

Friday, November 11, 2011

My Dad is a Vietnam Veteran. I think he served in Germany and Vietnam for a total of 33 months. He tells everyone how he came back a different person. I can understand why, although I will never fully know how since I was not around then. I try to thank him when I can. Not just for serving the country, but also for providing for me and caring for me. Happy Veterans Day to all of the Vets and their supporting families.

It is also 11/11/11. I always say 11:11 make a wish! So I was pretty excited for the day =) I like writing the date on all of my work today!


My job sucks, I need a new one, bla, bla, etc.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

I have been wanting a new job for a long time. I almost quit once about 6 months ago. I barely get paid anything here, but have to do everything. I really need a job because of some kind of income, but mostly because of insurance. It only cost me $40 a month when I first got it. Now it costs $100 a month. I still have not gotten a raise after 2 1/2 years of working here. They "can't afford" to give it to me. When I almost quit a while ago, I told the manager I only work here still because of the insurance. There was no reason to lie and say I would stay because I like it here. After that argument, the owner said he would try to change the company a bit to make things more organized. He said he would hire someone new for the one position where someone quit. Well he had me put up job ads 3 times now, and still never hired anyone... Nothing is fixed and it is actually worse because everyone is so fed up with each other. I really want another job, but I am using the insurance a lot right now because of my arm (they still don't know the problem). I can't get on my fiances insurance until we are married. I don't really want to stick it out here another year before that happens. Sigh. I don't think I could afford insurance on my own unless I get a job that pays a lot more than what I am paying now. Everytime an argument starts up here, it is never my fault. Everyone knows I didn't do anything wrong, but they still like to blame me. When they know they are wrong, they don't even say sorry. If I make a mistake, I admit it and fix it and try not to do it again. Everytime there is an argument now, I can feel my blood pressure go up. I get so flustered because I physically hate it here now. I have almost walked out about 4 times now. I need to really put resumes out there because I can't just quit here although I would love to. I would love to just make more mistakes like the rest of the people do here. I just can't afford to get fired now. Plus, I am not a bad person, so I don't think I could do that anyways.

I just got an argument with the owner today because of a seminar he said he wasn't going to do. He has known about it for 4 months, and said no no no until just now apparently. I am the one who has to put together all of the flyers and brochures and samples for those kinds of things. Since we don't have enough money to pay for extra printer ink or extra paper, I can't just make extras and have them here. So he just tells me now that he is going to do it and the seminar is next week. There is other stuff I have to do (because I do everything here). I told him I wish he gave me more than a week, because now I barely have any time to put things together.

Anyways, I need the motivation to do something about my situation. I guess I could try to cut costs somewhere else and put it towards insurance. I guess I could always ask my parents if they could help me out for a little bit. Damn stress is killing me. I hate feeling physically sick with this crap!

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BBORDEN86 11/10/2011 8:40PM

    Speaking as someone who works TWO jobs, and doesn't have insurance at either; I know all about STRESS!!! I'd advise keeping the job, if nothing else for insurance purposes. At least until you have something else to fall back on, you definitely don't want to burn any bridges. Especially in this economy! Jobs are so hard to come by nowdays. I agree with MOEMOORE, work on your resume and start getting that out to people at different companies. You never know how long the job search is going to take, and you owe it to yourself to look elsewhere if you are not satisfied currently. You just might find something that pays more or equal to now, that also provides insurance and that is a better fit for you personally. Just know that no matter where you go, or what you do for a living there are going to be work situations that are stressful. Just try to take a deep breath, and remember why you are working there. For better health, for extra money, to support yourself and your family, etc.! Whatever your reasons for working, it might be what you need to change your outlook on things a little. If you feel you have too much on your plate when your boss hands you another project, ask if there is anything that can wait. Nothing is so important that it causes your BP to rise! Explain to your boss you have a lot of different things going on, and by holding off on (fill in the blank) that it will help you focus better on the project. Especially since there is a timeline on it. Then, once that is over you can put your focus back on the other things. Sometimes our jobs are stressful because we make them that way. I know I put a lot of stress on myself to get things done at both of my jobs, and I have to tell myself I am only one person. Sometimes I put MORE stress on myself to do things than either of my bosses do. I can't do EVERYTHING in one day, and neither can you. If your boss is human, he or she will understand; just ask. It never hurt! : )

I hope things get better for you soon though. Stress isn't good for progress in the weight loss department.

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DESIGNSBYM 11/10/2011 8:37PM

    I don't have insurance at my job, I am on my husbands. but my job is also the same way, the more you do the more they expect from you and others get to sit around and slack. I even tried the slacking thing and no one said a word to me about it. but that is not me, I am a get in and get it done person most of the time unless I don't feel well or am very tired. But I keep my job cause the hours work for me with raising a granddaughter. keep your chin up and do what you need too.

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MOEMOORE 11/10/2011 8:12PM

    For me, insurance is enough of a reason to keep a job. Insurance can be expensive, and for me, I have a pre-existing condition, which makes getting/keeping insurance a must!

You should sit down and get working on your resume. With the job market the way it is right now, it may take some time to get another job, so you'll have to keep at it.

One thing you can do when your boss hands you another project (like the one due next week), is to ask him "What do you want me to drop so that this project is done in the time requested?" Put the onus on him to prioritize what needs to be done - make him realize that you are only one person, and that you just can't do it all.

I do know exactly what you mean about feeling you *want* to do a worse job because everyone else is slacking, but *can't* do it - its a work ethic thing. I experience it all the time!

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I need to go to the gym and/or walk.. Now!!! =)

Wednesday, November 09, 2011

The title says it ALL. Now that I am feeling a bit better, I need to start doing this again. I know the pup would love more walks. I brought out my winter jacket so I can stay warm while I walk. I just want to get more socks. Most of the pairs I have are too thin, or they have holes in them!


Stupid sickness! Finally back online

Monday, November 07, 2011

I was sick for a while.. I actually still am a little bit =( Sinus infection & 2 ear infections. My head still feels stuffy & my ears feel stuffy too. I was using the phone app to calculate my food & water, but I didn't feel like doing anything else here on spark.

I am ready to go home already although it is only 10am, ugh! I had a dream I got a new job and the whole dream was me putting away clothing items haha. I dream a lot more when I am on medication.

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WOLFRAML20 11/8/2011 10:29PM

    i am glad you are feeling alittle better. I hope you are dreaming about me lol. feel better all the way and we can try on dresses. :)

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I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia ... do I have it?

Friday, October 28, 2011

My RA Dr just gave me this diagnosis of fibro on Wednesday. I have been to my regular Dr who had me get blood work, xrays, nerve tests, and then he sent me to an orthopedic. He saw me for 5 minutes and told me he couldn't help me & referred me to an RA Dr. The ortho Dr thought I may of had RA. The RA Doctor gave me antiflammatory meds and gave me more blood tests. I just got the blood test results yesterday and he told me he thinks I have fibromyalgia because everything else came out negative. I am 26 and have been having bad headaches since I was 14. I went to different neurologists and Drs and no one could figure out why. The only trigger I could find was strong smells, but I also get headaches randomly with no smell associated with it.

My main reason for even seeing the Drs was because I have hand pain and shoulder pain on my right side only. It is really tingly even if it isn't hurting. I didn't do anything to it, so I am not sure how it happened. It has gotten worse over the past 2 years and my neck has been bothering me too. My Dr thinks I may have fibro because of other symptoms not related to the pain: fatigue, very sensitive to pain if I bump into something, headaches, anxiety, tummy problems, low vit D, and some depression. I have been doing some reading and everything I see says it is pain in all 4 quadrants. I haven't really noticed pain in those areas like I do on my right arm. He gave me a prescription of Tamarol, but I didn't try it yet because I want someone with me the first time I try it. I have pain during the day, and he said to take it at night. I don't wake up at night because of pain, so I don't know what to think...

I want to see my regular Dr. again to see what he thinks. Any advice or help would be greatly appreciated!

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LILLI56 11/10/2011 9:06PM

    Sometimes you are dx with fibro. . . because they have ruled everything out. That doesn't mean that it is fibro, just they don't know what it is yet. I think tramadol (ultram) is good for pain. I do take it, but there are side effects.

Hope you can get some answers soon. If you can maybe get another opinion.

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CHARL1ESMAMA 11/4/2011 12:35AM

    I'm sorry! It sucks to have crazy issues with your health. My BFF went through a bout a couple of years ago with random pain in various areas of her body and hair loss. Then it just went away. They were never able to diagnose her! It can be so stressful to be confused and not know what's going on... I will remember to pray for you!

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KIMPY225 10/28/2011 3:29PM

    I left a message, but his office is closed today. I guess I will wait until next week. It is just frustrating, because I don't want to not treat my arm if it actually is something just on that side of my body! I am trying not to stress too much about it though because the weekend is coming up. I want to try the pain meds tonight to hopefully at least help for a little while.

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MCJULIEO 10/28/2011 1:14PM

    Difficult diagnosis to make... is your regular primary care physician available?

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