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I lost 20 lbs with Spark and I feel... fat

Friday, October 21, 2011

When I first decided I wanted to track what I ate, I didn't have One Last Day of Indulging. I just started and knew I wanted to stick with it 100% until I hit my first goal. I felt really good the first few weeks. I took long walks a couple times a week with my pup. I was happy to see the pounds come off quick. Then all of a sudden, I was waiting and waiting for my scale to show me some change! In 3 weeks I didn't lose 1 lb, but I didn't give up. I did some searches and found out other people had the same lack of results. I kept working HARDER. I walked the same/more, added more veggies to my diet, and still waited. Then all of a sudden the pounds started to come off slowly. I think I was the happiest so far when I dropped that one pound after 3 weeks of no change.

I lost 21 pounds so far.. and I feel awful about myself. I still look at myself with disgust in the mirror. I bought some new clothes not too long ago, and they don't even make me feel better even though they are a smaller size. I don't want to be content with only losing this little, so I guess this is why I feel this way. I don't want to stop tracking. I don't want to stop working out. I want to continue to feel determined. I look at the other motivational Sparkblogs at least once a week to get myself motivated. Why can't I be the person that lost 100 pounds? I CAN be that person, and I will be that person (one day).

I focus hard on what I eat, what I can't eat, and how much exercise I should be doing. I think I went over calories once or twice so far by 100 at most. I cut out the salt shaker, I drink only water, non-fat milk, hot tea, and occasionally diet iced tea. Maybe three times so far I had zero vitamin water. I think I feel the best about myself when I say no to the sweets or pass on a delicious, fork full of cheesy goodness from my fiance. I am happy I lost the weight so far, but I still have a long way to go. I still want to have 50 pounds gone by May. Why May? I am not sure - I randomly picked that month when I started Spark. I could have picked next October when I am getting married, but then I would slack off more. I want a closer deadline so I keep up with it and actually reach that first big goal. Then, I want to lose almost the same amount again until I get to my healthy max weight.

I guess I am more excited about the way I will look, and still hate the way I look now. So instead of sulking, or feeling awful about myself I am going to keep working. I won't be doing the same as I did today, I will do better tomorrow, and even better the next day.

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KIMPY225 10/22/2011 5:25PM

    Thanks everyone! I do feel happy, but I still want to keep on moving forward!

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MENNOLY 10/21/2011 6:35PM

    You are losing a lot of weight incredibly fast! In 2 months you have lost 21 pound! emoticonYou are absolutely on track to make your goal of May. You only have to lose 5 pounds per month in the remaining months. Yes people have lost 100 pounds, but they take a lot of time to do so. I have been working on losing weight for 3 years to get to my 67 pounds lost so far. That is OK. I know how you feel about looking at yourself. It is hard to see what is really there because you are still in your mind seeing the old you. If you are wearing smaller clothes you HAVE lost weight. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SWEETSOUNDS11 10/21/2011 5:40PM

    Love yourself! It helps with the required patience and determination to make major longterm lifestyle changes. I love your reasons for picking May as your goal. Best of Luck.

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KELLYDRESCHER 10/21/2011 3:33PM

    I know it's hard to wait. I really appreciate your honesty. We live so long with feeling fat and any other socially negative term that it's hard to transition into something different. I hope you take deep pride in the achievements you have already accomplished... and congrats on your upcoming wedding!

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I finally went to the gym again!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Last night after work, I went to the gym with my roomie! I am glad I went, because it has been a while. I spent some time on the bike, and it hurt my bum! haha. I did some legs and also some arms. My legs feel ok today, but my one arm is hurting, ouch. I definitely want to look into more arm exercises. I want them to look somewhat decent in my wedding gown! My roomie made me watch myself in the mirror to make sure I was lifting correctly. I didn't like what I saw, but that is a good thing - it makes me want to work harder to look and feel better. =) I didn't get to look at my workout dvds yet =( but hopefully sometime this week I will!

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WOLFRAML20 10/19/2011 11:34PM

    good going kim. i am glad you got your workout in. i need the dvds too i needed to go for a walk inbetween my work hours and since it was raining i had to go to target craving peanut butter m&m's not being able to buy any of them or anything else. :(

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CHARL1ESMAMA 10/19/2011 6:13PM

    That's cool that you have someone to work out with at the gym... I hate going by myself!! Keep up the good work!

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NAKIOMA 10/19/2011 1:46PM

    enjoy every minute.................take care...............

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Getting closer to 20 lbs lost

Monday, October 17, 2011

One more pound! and then many more to go!
On my personal rewards list, once I hit 20 lbs (and stay that way for more than a day) I am getting myself some curlers yay! I have wanted them for a long time.

I went to the flea market yesterday morning with my roomie. I got a lot of produce then and also on Saturday with my Mom! I also got 3 workout dvds while I was at the flea market. I hope I don't break the apartment floor doing them hahaha.

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WOLFRAML20 10/17/2011 9:46PM

    that is great kim good job on your goal so far. yay for kim emoticon

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MCJULIEO 10/17/2011 3:03PM

    You are doing so great! Keep up the good work!

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CHARL1ESMAMA 10/17/2011 2:15PM

    Awesome!! Success feels so great, doesn't it? Keep up the good work!

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Monday, October 03, 2011

Work is pissing me off so much. Today definitely is MONDAY!

I am glad I had a nice weekend though. Friday we went to the chuch and listened to what music we can choose from for the wedding. I decorated 30 of the candle votive holders! Only 40 more to go next weekend. I would have done all of them, but I left the ribbon at the apartment and didn't get to bring it to my parents house until yesterday. oops!

First Bridesmaids meeting tonight! Hooray!


Craft Weekend!

Friday, September 30, 2011

I am staying at my parents house this weekend to watch their dog because they are going to the Poconos. I am bringing my pup with me. I don't know if I should walk with both dogs, or just mine. Mine is only 20 lbs and their pup is 85 lbs. Maybe I will just go on a shorter walk with them and then just walk by myself after.

We are picking our church music for the wedding tonight yay. Most of the weekend I am going to decorate my votive candle holders. Yay for projects! I am watching their dog next weekend too, so I will have more time to do more crafts woohooo.


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