Monday, June 17, 2013
My weekend was pretty fun. Friday night there was a double rainbow! I didn't get a very good picture, but it was definitely a nice surprise to see! I went strawberry picking & tart cherry picking on Saturday morning. I froze half of the strawberries & I may try to make some cherry jam! I never did it before, but I am all about trying new things this year! When I woke up Saturday morning, I had a new kind of motivation. It wasn't forced - maybe that is why I feel different now. I WANTED to exercise and be outside so I did! The day was so relaxing, and I got some exercise in. I felt happy & I felt like I have the strength to reach my goals! Somehow I still feel different, and I am enjoying it!
The work day is going by pretty fast for me today. Tomorrow is my second kickboxing class. I am excited & nervous about it even though I did it once already! My calves still aren't 100% from last week's class! My legs felt sore in spots I never knew existed! I went for a walk last night with my Mom & the dogs which was nice. My Dad ALMOST went with us, but then he changed his mind at the last minute. He should get more exercise, but then his emphysema gets worse. Damn smoking. He quit & restarted about 10 times in the past few months. There isn't anything we can do, so we just gave up telling him he needs to stop. Unfortunately it isn't worth the arguments. He knows how we all feel. Oh well. I tell myself that it is his choice, but I still get upset about it because he is my Dad!
I have been doing good with tracking my food. I did well over the weekend & today so far. I wanted to snack so badly last night, but I didn't go overboard! I had some strawberries, bananas, and grapes and that was it. I tracked it all! I need to keep telling myself I am in control of what I eat! I used to be so good at saying no. I just need to keep doing it again & stick with it!
Hopefully everyone has a great week. Keep pushing towards your goals or make new ones! I need to keep reminding myself that every small step counts!
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Hi Sparkers! Happy Mid-June already! I am back from my Williamsburg trip which I took last week. We didn't get to see everything because of the 9 inches of rain we got from the Tropical Storm! I still had a good time though - some pictures are below. We went searching for toads/frogs in the rain. =)
Lately I have been having a hard time with my journey. I don't have the urge to Spark as often as I used to. I still love this awesome community - but I have been focusing on other aspects of my life. I spend a lot of quality time with my boyfriend, my parents, and his parents. I have been working on my plant projects a lot lately too.
In my mind, I want to reach my goal weight. I keep telling myself I NEED to do it. Tuesday was my first cardio kickboxing class. It was AWESOME. It was the hardest workout I have ever done. Doing this class makes me now think that 5K races are as simple as walking 20 minutes at any pace I want! The class was basically everything that I want in a workout. I think I worked out every muscle in my body to the max! We jogged for 5 minutes before the class started. It was strange running on the mats with no shoes on, but it felt good! After the class, the instructor said my cardio was great & it will take me a few classes to pick up all of the moves. My arms and shoulders were really sore yesterday, and my legs got more sore as the day went on. Today I soaked in the tub for 10 minutes to try and help out. My muscles are sore in my legs that I don't think I ever felt before! The feeling is GOOD. It makes me Want to work out more. I have 9 more trial classes. If I want to do any more, I will have to pay between 10 and 15 dollars a class depending on which deal I choose. That is expensive. The BEST deal they have would have me paying $527 for 50 classes. $10.50 isn't too bad for a class, but I don't have an extra 500 laying around!
I have been trying to find a dress for my cousin's wedding - which isn't until September. I hate that I feel insulted every time I need to find clothes no matter what type. Size 12 gowns are too big, size 10 are too small or make me look awkward. I love the look of many gowns, but they don't look right when I try them on. Somehow I did find a dress that I do like. It is an XL Juniors dress with spaghetti straps. I really like it, but it makes the flub stick out around my armpits. The XL fit better everywhere except the chest area - it is loose. The L was tight everywhere else except the chest area haha. My Mom said we can get it altered & I can get a a jacket to wear with it.. but I don't know. Maybe I will find something else that won't make me feel so insecure. I hate how putting on clothes can really change my whole outlook about myself so fast. Everything I try on usually puts me in a negative mood instead of a happy one! Trying on clothes really shows me my flaws. Maybe if I keep working out at the kickboxing class, my arms will look better!
Most of my troubles are mental. I eat "bad" food because I choose to do it. No one is making me snack extra during the day. When I wake up the next day, I keep telling myself "I shouldn't eat too much today because I want to lose weight". Then I snack and then snack again later on. I SHOULD spend more time planning out meals, but then I am not home some nights. If I had my own place, I wouldn't be traveling between places as often. What I am Actually Doing is making excuses for why I am going off track with my goals. I want to reach my goals, but I Need to make the time to do this!
I want to do Cardio Kickboxing & Zumba once a week.
I need to stay focused and actually doing this!
I want to sign up for another 5K, but I need to do more training.
I need to start tracking my food again
I will try to stay positive as much as I can
I need to relax when I start to get stressed
I need to not be so hard on myself if I "slip up"
I will do what I say instead of just hoping I will do it.
Hopefully everyone has a great rest of the week - Keep Sparking! I am going to try and catch up on some SparkFriend blogs. Those always inspire me to keep pushing forward!
Friday, May 31, 2013
Happy Friday & Happy last day of May! This was another short week at work which is nice - but I can't believe it is Friday already!
For about 4 years now, I carry a planner with me. Every day I write down what I did that day, when I worked, and what I have planned for the future. It is fun to look back and see everything I have done over the past year. For a while, I had a lot of exercise written down. Then I had tax season which didn't allow me a lot of extra time. After that ended - I had a lot of social plans & planning! Basically I just had a lot of reasons AND excuses as to why I didn't exercise as much. Now it is almost summer time - tomorrow is June 1st! Yikes!
I am going through and scheduling my exercise in my planner for June! I think having the times and places down in pencil will help me stay focused. If I see it - it will remind me to DO IT! Zumba is M & Th and Kickboxing I could do any night M-F but I need to register for that. The Zumba shoes I ordered online don't fit =( So I have to send them back again. I should go to another shoe store, but I feel like putting on shoes for 2 minutes doesn't give me enough time! I like ordering them online because I can jump around on the carpet for 2 hours and see how they feel without having them get messed up.
There was an online deal for 10 cardio kickboxing classes I just purchased. I really wanted to sign up for a 20-class deal at a closer location, but they only have morning classes. With my work schedule - I need evening classes 6:30pm or later! I am nervous about the class, but I feel like I need to do it. I lost so much weight, but my stomach is still so flubby! The extra flub didn't bother me this much before - but now that I know I won't lose much more weight with diet alone.. I feel so yucky! I hate the stretch marks and the extra skin/fat. The workout clothes make me bulge like crazy!
Maybe this kickboxing class will help get me motivated & will help with the extra weight I want to lose. The first one I am going to is 6/11! I would do it earlier, but I don't have time before I go away with my family! I am excited about our trip to Williamsburg next week!
Over the past year I have become positive. I try to be positive when I can, but I can't do it 100% of the time even if I try. Negativity is creeping everywhere. Even when people say "You look great, you don't need to lose weight" - it makes me feel worse. I know what I look like under my clothes. I know what I am feeling inside. They don't! My comparison pictures help motivate me to keep pushing forward, but I still get sad, frustrated, upset, and mad at life sometimes. I just need to keep reminding myself that I am a good person - I am in control of some of my life - I can't control Everything, but I do have the chance to be the better person! Every minute counts!
Over the past year, I have noticed that I go out of my way to try and make plans with my friends. Maybe I miss them more than they miss me? I just realize that if I don't call or text them, I won't see them. Everyone is busy with their own lives, but I feel like people never go out of their way to invite Me to do things. If I don't plan, I won't hear from people for months. Sometimes I try and see how long it will be before someone asks me to do something - but then I get lonely! So when I feel down, I just look back in my planner and see all of the fun stuff I did and what I have planned.
I am on this weight loss journey for me. If I eat french fries, oh well. It doesn't cause me to fail at life as long as I keep pushing forward! We all have good times and bad times. I love Spark, because I know everyone has some kind of idea of how hard it is to reach our goals! It takes a lot of time, effort, and support. Even if we just support our own ideas, it still counts!
Hopefully everyone has an awesome weekend no matter what you are doing - working, fun, fitness. Do the best you can & keep your head up!
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Happy Wednesday! I had a super busy Memorial Day weekend! My boyfriend turned 30 so we did a lot of celebrating. We went to the aquarium with friends, played games, went to the Melting Pot, had a bbq, saw the new Star Trek, etc etc! Somehow I even had a lazy day - which was nice! I did gain 5 pounds in 5 days though! I ate A LOT of snacks and a lot at the Melting Pot- chocolate and dessert and cheese! Yikes! I am working my butt off this week to get back to 156 and hopefully I keep going and lose more! I put some pictures from the weekend below! Blue Lobster!!!! =)
I haven't had any specific goals in a while. My belly has really been bothering me lately with how it looks and feels. I hate having so much flab! I don't know if it is just skin or if it fat too? I can't really tell. I just know I hate it! Someone told me about those skin wraps, but I haven't looked into it. I can't afford a gym right now and I definitely can't afford a personal trainer! I really need to do more at-home exercises for my arms, legs, abs - well basically everything! I need to start scheduling my exercise again! I am going to the park tonight - which was scheduled! So hopefully I keep doing it. I am going to Williamsburg in June, so I will get a lot of walking done then! I just need to focus on keeping a stricter diet! It is SO easy to gain weight by over-snacking!
I keep hearing people talk about "beach bodies". I can't even imagine myself in a bikini! I don't have the midsection for it! I try not to let it discourage me though. Over the past year and a half, I have changed so much! August will be my 2 year Spark-versary! I can't believe it! HOPEFULLY I hit my healthy weight goal of 155 by 8/17!!!
-Zumba - at least twice this month
-Pick a 5K race to do in June or do one around my neighborhood
-Get my fishing license so I can go out with my Dad for Father's Day
-At home yoga at least twice this month
-Keep up with my garden
-Try not to stay grumpy
-Use the food tracker more
-Show my appreciation to my family and friends where I can
Hopefully I will have better goals in July!
Have a great rest of the day! Keep Sparking!
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