Monday, April 22, 2013
Happy spring everyone. It has been a while since I posted.
I got all of my blood work results back - I don't have lyme disease. My iron is at 20 and it should be 40 or above? Also I have low Vit D. I have been taking iron and Vit D for the past 2 weeks. The Dr told me the Vit D would give me more energy in a few weeks. I don't know if I have more energy, but I do feel happier. Even in the mornings when I wake up, it is easier to get out of bed. Now I even smile in the morning instead of being grumpy! I just need to KEEP taking the supplements! That is the toughest part for me!
I still watch what I eat. I try to walk and get in extra exercise when I can. Tax season is over, and I have more free time on the weeknights and weekends. I ran a 5K 2 weeks ago & I have another one this Saturday. I went to a 1 mile benefit walk this past weekend. However... something is missing. I don't have the urge to come on Spark people too often anymore. I do love reading the progress of other people. I miss the challenges - for some reason, I have really been slacking on posting on them - sorry teams. Even though I am not losing weight, I am not gaining weight either.
Even though I can fit into size Large and some Medium shirts now, I still hate my body. Since I lost so much weight, the body I have under my clothes is not attractive to me at all. Everyone says I look great -but they don't see the stretch marks and extra skin. I really should go to the gym and work out differently to maybe try to change my body. But I don't have the extra money to spend for a gym membership. Plus, I don't have the motivation to make myself work out that much. It is frustrating - I have come in so far and changed so much in my life.
I am happy in most of my life now - which is a change from the past years. I wasn't miserable before (except with how much I weighed). But now I feel more like myself. Somehow I have changed so much for the better and I love it. However, somehow I have been stuck. I can't push myself harder right now to lose more weight. I am so close to my goal, but I just can't force myself to get there. Maybe I am happy so I am distracted? I am not eating too bad though. I still make great, healthy choices when I am eating most of the time. I do have french fries sometimes, but I limit how often I have them. I want to start Zumba again next week since I won't be working when they have class! I just don't know how to push myself harder. Part of me doesn't want to push harder because I might give up altogether. I am happy on the path I am on until I look at body in the mirror. I wish I knew what to do!
I could starve myself for a week and get to 155- but how is that worth it to myself? I would just gain the weight back the next week and that wouldn't be right. I don't want to cheat the system just to say I reached my goal weight for a day!
Oh well! I need to sit down and make some time for myself. Maybe sitting down and thinking out some different goals will change my outlook again on my weight loss.
Hopefully everyone has a great week! Keep pushing towards all of your goals. I am still trying to reach my goals, it is just tough for me to reach my weight loss goal right now!
Tuesday, April 02, 2013
Thank you to everyone who has supported me! I really appreciate it. Every compliment and piece of advice and support really helps me going forward! Thank you!
Normally every month I post my goals for the month. I have been very busy with work and my personal life. Instead of posting my normal goals, I just want to post about what I would like to accomplish this month and what I have planned.
I have two 5K races. One is 4/7 and the other is 4/27. Since I have been on the antibiotics, I have not been exercising because I still don't feel 100%. I am doing yoga tonight after work. I definitely don't feel ready for my race on Sunday - I want to ask my Dr if I should do it or not. Maybe I will walk most of it if I don't feel well. I still want to go even if I can't run.
Once tax season is over, I will have time to go to Zumba again. I miss going! The weather is nicer, so I want to be outside. I just have to definitely make sure I check for ticks right away. I am still waiting for my test results.
Instead of having a weight loss deadline this month, I am getting rid of it for now. Instead of feeling disappointed, I want to focus on other things I KNOW I can do. I do want to reach 155, but I know it won't be this month. I need to work up to exercising more often. I will get there, I just know it will not be this month.
This month I want to accomplish:
-Keep tracking my fitness and food
-More craft projects.
-Keep moving forward - happiness is very important!
-Plan more girls-day-out events if I can.
-Pay off more bills
-Be outside and exercise as much as I can
-Not worry about my weight loss goal. I still want to track, but I got rid of my deadline
I did an Easter pot project which turned out pretty cute. When I get more free time, I want to make more things. I miss doing that!
Hopefully everyone has a fantastic April - actually hopefully you have a great week & a great day! Whenever I get sick, I am thankful for every day I have where I don't feel sick. Since I am feeling a bit better, I am trying to be thankful the best I can! There is a lot going on in everyone's lives, and every bit helps! Don't give up on your goals - just modify them. I am not giving up on my weight loss. I am just changing it to help me get through it!
Monday, March 18, 2013
I have been super busy with tax season. It is tough having just one full day off a week. One month left until it is over! The extra money is nice, but I still feel like I don't have enough time to relax sometimes!
The weather was nice last weekend but then it snowed over the weekend a little bit & it is cold again! I haven't been home much to use the treadmill & I don't really want to run outside when it is so chilly! I know - excuses!
Even though I haven't ran too much besides the 5K, I am still trying to fit in exercise. I went ice skating Saturday night. It was fun even though I was scared at first! I haven't been ice skating since I was in 2nd grade? I stuck to the wall at first, but then I did better as I went! I didn't fall down either, woohoo! =)
Yesterday I went rock climbing! My two friends are members in a gym near them, and they asked if I wanted to go. At first I was thinking NO WAY! Then I was thinking.. wait why not? It would be something new to try & great exercise. I was scared at first, but I made it to the top two times. Then I tried some climbing on a different type of wall with no harness. It was scary, but I am glad I did it! Now I am feeling sore in my shoulders, forearms, and fingers! I am feeling muscles I never knew I had before!
Tuesday I have yoga again - yay. I missed last week because my legs were too sore from the 5K. I signed up for another 5K 4/27. So I have one 4/7 and 4/27! I have been wearing my new running shoes around the house, but I need to actually break them in before I run in them!
I hope everyone is doing well - sorry for slacking so much on here. I miss it! Thank you to everyone who has supported me! I still did not reach my weight loss goal yet, but I am trying to track the best I can right now!
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