Tuesday, November 20, 2012
I went to the Dollar Store during my lunch break today. I got a few Thanksgiving Day cards to give to my family on Thursday. I also stocked up on "Thinking of you" and "Miss you" and "Get Well Soon" cards since I ran out of those the other day. When I can, I like to buy little gifts for my parents and friends. They joke around saying I am trying to buy their love. But I just like making people happy! Even if I just buy their favorite pack of gum... if I can put a smile on someone's face, it makes me smile inside & out!
A few days ago I went through my Facebook contacts and messaged some old friends I barely get to chat with anymore. A few responded.. and I wonder if the rest will even read what I had to say! I know everyone is busy with their own lives. I am thankful for the time I do get to spend with my busy friends!
Life is so crazy - most of my communication is through Facebook or text now. But I am still thankful for the pictures & other times people contact me. Just knowing they are thinking of me makes me happy!
Even though I live at home, I still e-mail my Mom throughout the day if I get the chance. I know she enjoys it & I do too! I am so thankful for my caring parents! They understand I am trying to find myself, and they are so supportive of me no matter what.
I am very thankful for what I already have - My health has been improving overall which is great! I love my family and the couple of close friends I do have. I am even thankful for those I don't speak with anymore. Although we may not be friends anymore, I wouldn't be where I am now without the life experiences I already had.
Although I didn't start my promotion yet, I still love my job. I enjoy my co-workers & I don't dread coming to work! This is the first job I actually feel like I am Friends with some of the people I work with. We have real conversations, and I really appreciate it more than they know.
I am thankful for Spark - every day! This community is amazing. Every comment on my page & blog really help to inspire me to keep moving forward! I am thankful for the Spark Friends I do have! I am grateful for the awesome tools this website offers also! I wouldn't be where I am today without them!
On another note, a few friends and family members keep asking me what I want for Christmas. This happens every year - I never know! I mostly enjoy buying presents for people without them being against it! I thought of a few things: Animal donations, leave in conditioner, mascara, new muffin tins & a food processor. The baking items are really the only things I can tell people! I don't have a tv in the area I stay at, but I don't really want my parents to spend $500 on a TV for me. I would rather get dog training for my dog since he will be 3 and has never been trained! I don't think they like that idea though because they are the ones that would have to follow through with the training the most (they are both home all day with him while I am working).
Hopefully everyone has an amazing Holiday if you celebrate it! I try to be grateful & thankful every day! Even during stressful times, I try to sit back, breathe, and count my blessings! Keep Sparking!
Monday, November 19, 2012
Good morning Sparkers! I am feeling mostly happy - which is nice. I have a bit of stress floating around in my mind, but I am trying to keep smiling.
I had a pretty lovely weekend. Hopefully everyone else did too! I got some walking & exercising in. I didn't do any 5K training though. I definitely want to get to the park this week sometime - either on Turkey day or on Friday. It will probably be cold, but I won't let that discourage me. I am off both Thursday & Friday woohoo! 4 day weekend yippee! It is pretty slow at work right now, so I am trying to plan out the rest of the Christmas gifts I want to get!
I made 5 kinds of chili yesterday - it took about 4 hours to do all of it. I made beef chili with no onions, regular beef chili, and spicy beef chili. The chili was nice because it got pretty cold last night. It warmed me up! I used tomato sauce & the pre-mix spice packet for the beef chili. I don't eat red meat anymore, but I heard it was good! I also made mild turkey chili & spicy turkey chili. I made some for dinner & also some for my sick Grandmother. She is 92, but LOVES spicy food! Yum! I also made chocolate muffins by using the pumpkin puree. They didn't come out as well as I wanted them too. I had half of one, and it was really chewy. At least they smelled amazing! =)
I had trouble keeping up with my calories this weekend. I went shopping with my Mom Saturday morning, and I didn't get anything to eat before we left. Then, I only had a teeny sandwich for lunch. My whole day was funky. Then yesterday I had yogurt for breakfast but skipped lunch because I was cooking so much! Hopefully I get back on track this week. Sometimes I really hate fitting in time to eat hahaha. I should of had a protein bar yesterday while cooking, but I was too focused!
I am feeling a little stressed today. My Dad has to get another procedure done at the hospital today. They have to alter his pacemaker/defibrillator to make it less sensitive. They have to stop his heart and have it shock it back to working again... crazy. He just got out of the hospital because he was really sick, so I don't know why they want to do this right away. Oh well =( Hopefully it all works out. I wrote him a greeting card letting him know I am thinking about him today!
Hopefully everyone keeps Sparking today! I know I definitely need to get back on my regular eating habits again!
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
****Thank you to everyone who has supported me along the way! I am now a Spark Motivator! Thank you!!!!!!!!! This website helps me so much. Hopefully I can help some of you too. Let me know if you need any support or help. A little goes a long way, and I am willing to help!****
When I woke up this morning, I felt a bit different. I realize I definitely need a self-push today. What is a self-push? I have no idea! I just feel like I need one to continue my life journey in the right direction. Life is crazy. Even when my day seems to be going smoothly - I try to remind myself to be prepared for anything!
My daily life is so different now. I barely get food cravings anymore (which is helpful). Unfortunately, I also don't have the urge to decide what to eat most of the time. When I go out to a restaurant, I can basically go anywhere and find something to eat. I may not be satisfied with what I order if I just get a plain house salad with no croutons & no cheese... but at least I will be happy I didn't go over calories by giving in to the craving of a cheeseburger or pizza. Sometimes I still wish my stomach would tolerate very fatty foods - I wouldn't mind going over calories if it filled my belly! Instead of worrying about going over on the tracker, I worry about going under. If I just have a salad as a meal, I usually am under my calories for the day. Even though my low end of my tracker range is at 1350 calories, sometimes after I enter my dinner I may only be at 1,000 or 1,100 for the day! I do like snacking, but I hate eating JUST to make sure I ate enough for the day. We all have our own challenges. We need to face them in our own way no matter how big or small they may be!
I need a self-push to figure out how to change my eating habits. I bring my own snacks with me everywhere I go. I can't keep putting off how to make eating easier for me!
Besides eating better, I also need a self-push in my personal life today. For as long as I can remember, I have been a nice person. Throughout my life, I have randomly gotten compliments on how patient, understanding, and thoughtful I can be. Knowing I am caring has been good & bad. Instead of making myself happy, I would always give 150% to other people to try and make their life easier. Sadly, I was upset with how my life was going. Instead of focusing on the blessings of my life, I would only see the downside of everything.
After re-discovering myself with Spark's help, I realize I need to do more for me. I broke up with my ex- fiancÚ in June for many reasons. He still wants to try and fix the relationship. I have tried explaining to him that I can't get back together with him right now. He mentioned being friends until I figured out what I wanted to do. Every time I see his negativity in a text or hear it in his voice, my whole mood changes drastically. I feel weak, awful, alone, and so upset. I feel bad because I know he is upset. I hate hurting him. However, I need to stop being pulled back into the dark funk.
I need a self-push today to tell him how it really is & how it is has to be. I can't keep letting him feel upset because of me. He has told me he wants me to be happy, and if I will be happier without him, he will understand. He needs to live his own life and move on. (If he reads this before I get to talk to him today - sorry!)
There are many situations people I don't want to be in. At times, I get anxious, nervous, and scared to face reality! But I know I *Need* to take this leap and figure out my life! Sometimes our lives fall off the path we thought we were destined to be on. I know I need to always be ready to set new goals for myself. I want to help others, but I also need to keep myself in mind. I need to keep smiling with the greatness in my life! Negativity changes my whole mood too much.
I need a self-push to keep moving forward!!!!!
I hope everyone has a great rest of the week. If there is something you are putting off, hopefully you can give yourself a self-push soon too and keep moving forward! Keep Sparking & keep reaching for your goals!
Friday, November 09, 2012
I weighed in for my 5% Fall Challenge today - 164.4! 85.6 pounds gone so far!!!!!! I am getting closer and closer to my 5% goal of 162.5. I am also close to my healthy weight goal of 155! At 155, I will have lost 95 lbs total. If I am lucky, I will get down to 150 and have 100 pounds gone. When the time comes, I will make new goals!
I don't talk about my life changes with people in my real life situation unless they bring it up. I don't want to be that obsessed person who criticizes everything everyone else does/doesn't do. Also, I don't want to be the person who won't shut up about my achievements! Only on Spark do I talk about my weight-loss all of the time!
There are a few friends I text that ask for random updates. I texted one today saying I was at 164.4. He said that is too thin & I should stop losing weight. I am 5'6 and the healthy range for my weight is 126-155. I definitely don't think 164 is too thin? I don't understand people sometimes. I didn't want to argue with the person, so I just said my goal is 155 to be at the high end of my healthy weight range... *Shrug* Then I changed the subject! I am not an expert - so I don't have any fancy schmancy facts... but does anyone think I am being unhealthy? I am not starving myself. I try to get in a bunch of veggies & fruits in a day!
I guess I have to remember.... YOU CAN'T PLEASE EVERYONE!!!
I really want to be at a healthy weight to be a healthier, happier, more fit person! I am not trying to look good in a bikini. I am not trying to look "hot" to pick up random guys. What I would like is to be a healthy young woman!
The weather is nice out today, and the 2nd half of the weekend is supposed to be nice too! I got offered a promotion at my job. I don't have a college degree (just 2 years of college). I am excited & nervous about it. They will get someone to replace me, and I will be getting new training while training them. I don't know when this will be - but I can't wait!
Although Life is stressful - we can make our own happiness. Good things do come every once in a while. We need to acknowledge the good and the bad!!! Hopefully everyone has a wonderful weekend! Keep Sparking!!!!
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