Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Happy Wednesday Spark!
On certain days, I feel happy knowing I have so many people that care for me. I love them too! Other days, I feel overwhelmed with all of the roles I have. I know everyone has different aspects of their lives also - but I just get so frustrated sometimes! When it gets too bad, I know I need to step away and regroup myself! Breathe and get past the tough times!
I love my Mom - she is my best friend. I am living at home with her & my Dad & the two dogs. I try to help out with cooking, cleaning, etc. My Mom works from home and uses her computer and a work laptop. We email throughout the day when we have the chance. She emails me and calls me occasionally with random computer problems. Sometimes she freaks out, and doesn't think before she emails me or calls me. She gets so stressed & she doesn't think before she acts. She called me before lunch saying her computer has a virus because she couldn't get into her e-mail or any other program on the computer. I told her to calm down, re-start and let me know if it works. She called back & said it was still not working. What she didn't tell me during the first phone call was that she couldn't type at all. I asked if the wireless keyboard battery died. She said "no, it can't be that!" I asked her to open Word and try to type because the internet has nothing to do with that program! She tried it & wow - it didn't type anything! I told her to get new batteries and let me know once she attempted to type again.
She emailed me saying: "YOU ARE A GENIUS - It was the batteries - yesssssssssss you are the best"
I am glad I helped her out, but I know she is still frazzled. Hearing her so stressed out makes me a bit stressed too. I used to be this way all of the time. I used to not think, and would just go nuts in my head! I still try to realize other people think differently. Other people assume & react super fast because that is how they are. As much as they say they will try to change, most people I know can't do it. I am trying to be ok with that & let certain things slide because I can't contol it! Just because I think a certain way, doesn't mean every one else does! Since I have changed so much, I definitely taught myself how to be more relaxed and open with every situation. I wish I could help others with this too, but unfortunatly I can't! All I can do is just be there for my friends and family the best I can!
I keep getting asked by people about how I stay so focused with my weight loss journey. I just do! I wish I could explain it, but I can't. There are days where I do slip and eat "bad food", but I always track! If I know I will feel guilty after eating something, I simply won't eat it at all.
I made spaghetti squash & low sodium turkey the other day - with carrots, celery, beans, hot peppers, ground turkey, diced tomatoes. I boiled the spaghetti squash & then cut it in half and baked for another 20 minutes. I brought some in to work for my lunch today and my co-workers kept commenting on how wonderful it smells. They can't believe how healthy the meal really is. I am glad it came out great!
Edit: Someone asked for the recipe for the squash. All I did was boil the spaghetti squash for 30 minutes in a big pot. Then chop it in half and put it on a big glass pan with an inch of water on the bottom - I baked it on 400 for 20 minutes. That was it! I didn't add anything to it except for the chili on top! For the chili, I fried up some ground turkey. then I added bell peppers, diced canned no salt tomatoes, carrots, celery, one chili pepper, low sodium kidney beans, and a lot of spices (garlic, oregano, crushed red pepper, chili powder). I cooked that for the whole time the squash was cooking! Nothing too crazy! I don't measure out any of the veggies that go in the chili. I didn't use any tomato sauce or packaged seasoning this time.
Anyways, I am feeling a bit better now. I went to the food store & Rite Aid on my lunch hour and did a lot of walking while shopping. I called my Mom to make sure she was alright & to make sure everything was ok with her computer. People need to vent sometimes, and I try to be their go-to person when I can. I just can't become too stressed with other problems when I have my own too!
Hopefully everyone has a great rest of the day! My weekend is approaching fast woohoo! I may walk or jog tonight and ZUMBA tomorrow yippee!!! I get to try out my new zumba shoes & my new running shoes this week. Yes!
Monday, October 15, 2012
First off - Man this weather is crazy! It was so cold Saturday morning & then yesterday it was gorgeous! Today it has been rainy and kind of warm. Crazy fall so far!!!
I had my second 5K on Saturday morning. I got up at 7:15am, and I wasn't tired at all. I was really surprised I was ready to move pretty fast! I was really nervous about it Friday night, but I didn't let myself get too worked up.
My ex left me a present on my car - hand & feet warmers. I didn't want to put the adhesive feet warmers on because I Didn't want to get any weird blisters or anything during the race. My feet actually weren't cold at all. I put the handwarmers in my stretchy gloves & I wore them for more of the race. I threw them out halfway during the race when I saw a trashcan because I wasn't as cold anymore. There were a lot more people at this race compared to my first one. There were a lot of teenagers who were just going to walk & not be timed.
The one thing that really made me feel funky was the cold air. It really hurt my throat during & after the race. I kept having to clear my throat the whole rest of the day! The park was really nice. First we went through the park, then up this very long hill. We went through a residential area for a half of a mile or so, and then this random trail showed up in between two houses. There was more park area back there. I wasn't really near anyone for most of the race. I randomly caught up to someone at the 2 mile marker. I kept trying to jog as much as I could. I would randomly have to stop & walk when it was too much. I kept doing this over and over for the whole race.
I wanted to get under 37 minutes, but as I was racing, my mind changed. All I wanted was to get it over with! I was feeling really emotional because that day was going to be my wedding. My whole life changed, and instead I was running a 5K as a single young woman. I didn't give up & I kept pushing myself. It felt like I was running for an hour. As I approached the finish line, I couldn't see the time too well. I just ran as fast as I could at the end! I saw the time was 36 Something - I was so glad I finished & I was under 37!!!
There were so many baked goods at the refreshment tables - it was so weird to see so many brownies, doughnuts, cookies etc. I ate a banana and then took an apple & protein bar with me. I also took two doughnuts & brought them for my parents. I saw other people with plates full of food, so I figured it would be ok to take 2 goodies for them. I wasn't even tempted to eat them- woohoo!
My official time was 36:36! I had to email the coordinator to find out where the times were posted. She just got back to me with the website!
First 5K 9/30: 37:37
Second 5K 10/13: 36:36
My legs aren't as sore as they were the first time I ran the 5K. They still hurt, but not as much! I am really glad! Hopefully as time goes by, I will recover faster & faster!
Some 5K Challenge updates: As of right now, I am at 169lbs. That is 81 pounds lost. I am still having a tough time with the lower calorie range. I am not really going over, but I am more frustrated. I eat less during the day, and then have to catch up more at night. I need to figure out how to get more veggies & fruits in!
This work day flew by today because of the tax extension deadline. I offered to wait to take lunch until I was done processing returns. I didn't get to take lunch until 2:45! I went to Target and bought a thin rain coat with a hood & also a nicer trench coat to wear. I am going to wear it for my cousins wedding in 2 weeks if it is cold.
Hopefully everyone has a great rest of the week! Keep Sparking!
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Fat! haha I still feel fat. I remember a while ago I posted a blog saying "I lost X lbs and I still feel fat". It is true. The thought of still being chubby is there! However, I don't feel as big. Actually, I haven't felt big in a while except last night when I saw the pictures of me in my undies. I think I felt bigger again because I still have a lot of flub in spots I want it to be gone at! Plus, I normally don't see myself from the side or the back like that! When I have clothes on, I don't see my body overflowing out of my underwear and I like it a lot more. I know I need to learn to be more comfortable in my own skin. I am working on it!
Besides feeling a lit big still, I also feel:
I posted some pictures of thing that are approx 80 pounds at the bottom of this blog. Check them out! I will post pictures of me 80 pounds heavier soon! Ick!
I took progress pictures last night! I DID! However, I don't have them on my home computer yet.
I am going to put them on tonight & post another blog very soon! I don't like how the pictures turned out - just because I didn't reach my goal yet. But I looked back at my OLD pictures.. and yuck. I don't even feel like that person anymore. I shed 80 pounds and a lot of negativity went with it!
I didn't reach my first BIG goal yet - to be at the high end of my healthy weight: 155. but I know I will!!! The only thing that would stop me is Me! and I won't let that happen!
I can't wait for my 5K on Saturday! I still never thought I would be excited about jogging & completing a race! My second one so far!!
Thank you SO much to everyone here at Spark. I love all of the features here. The support is amazing. Just reading comments from one member to another helps inspire me. Everyone is here for their own reasons, but they are all important to me! I hope everyone has a great rest of the week, year, lifetime! and Keep SPARKING!
A lovely member sent me a Sparkmail not too long ago about HOW I lost my weight so far - I wanted to copy and paste some of it on here. Maybe some of my ideas will help someone else out!
here is a random list of what I do & don't do with my diet:
-I track everyday - even if I can't do it on the weekends, on Monday I go back and enter everything. or I pre-track. If I know what I am having for breakfast and lunch, I put it in early and then I have a better idea of what I can have for dinner
- I don't weigh food, so if I think I am over 1 serving, I count it as 1.5 or 2 depending
-I don't eat red meat - ok I occasionally will have ONE meatball. I don't consider myself a vegetarian, but I don't eat sausage, bacon, steak, burgers.. anything like that anymore.
-I eat Turkey burgers, turkey or chicken sausage, tuna, other types of chicken.
- lots of veggies with dinner! The more veggies I have, the less meat/rice/pasta part I have
-I don't eat fried foods like mozz sticks, cheesesteaks, crispy chicken, etc. The only thing I would eat would be french fries - but I started a 5% weight loss challenge for 8 weeks and I told myself NO french fries for 8 weeks!
-I don't eat cookies or cake or candy. Occasionally I will have some icing off of someones cake, but otherwise I just say No. I would rather have more dinner than a brownie.
-I cut back on cheese a lot. Most of the time, I don't even taste cheese on a sandwich. So I cut it out!
-I use egg whites.
-I don't use any butter or margarine at all. I completely cut it out. I use oil sprays or maybe a bit of oil depending on what I am cooking
-If I eat out, I make a lot of changes to what I am getting. If it has cheese, I say no. I order extra veggies, but ask how they are prepared.
-I eat 50 calorie sliced bread, whole grain pasta, brown rice
-I eat 90 calorie granola/fiber snacks.
-I don't eat potato chips. I like pretezels, wheat thins... I don't weigh food, but I try to count out the serving size if it says it on the package. I count it out at home and keep mini-snack plastic bags full so I can just grab one.
-I do like tortilla chips & salsa though.. but I want to cut back on that a lot because of this weight challenge!
-I drink water and diet iced tea and hot tea. Sometimes I have a small glass of fat free milk or use some with cereal. I don't drink soda except diet coke if I have an alcoholic drink - but I try to stay away becauase the calories are crazy in drinks!
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