Tuesday, July 31, 2012
I am still eating healthy. I still track, read articles & blogs, and try to stay away from "bad" foods. My main drink is still water! But... something is missing. I just feel like I can't push myself to do any more. I want to lose more weight, but I just don't know how to push myself to do it.
Basically, I am maintaining my weight now instead of losing more. I should workout more - I will be more fit, healthier, and then I will lose more weight. For some reason, I just can't make myself do it. In 2 weeks, it will be my one year anniversary here at Spark! I am not gaining weight, but I just feel like I am not letting myself be better. I don't know what to do to fix it.
I have so much stress going on with my life, and I think it is bringing my down. I am not depressed too often, but I get really sad moments. I randomly think to myself: " I should just eat three cheeseburgers". Then I ask myself - why would I do that? I barely eat red meat now. I know I WON'T eat that bad food, but my mind keeps telling me I should. Or my mind keeps telling me to eat more snacks.
I am trying to stay busy so I don't just sit and snack - but something keeps telling me I should. It is almost like I am fighting with myself. I am so happy I made it this far with my weight loss. 72 pounds lost in a year - that is so awesome. But why am I struggling? I wish I could figure out what my problem is so I could fix it!
I think I need to change up my meals more. Maybe if I change what I am eating on a daily basis, it will help me get back into a better mindset. I still need to figure out how to make myself workout more!