Thursday, July 12, 2012
Usually I don't type TOO much about my life, but I just feel like I should. Sometimes I just have to express myself in different ways to clear my mind and get back to my normal self.
On my way home from work yesterday, my Mom's car got rear ended. I am alright & it wasn't my fault. I just got really nervous and shaken up about it. The car seems to be ok, but I still was all worried & weirded out this morning. At least I didn't have to drive. I got a ride to work. I am getting picked up after work & get my car back. Over $400 worth of parts had to be put into it. Fun fun!
If you asked me a month ago what I would be doing for my 27th birthday, I would have had an exact answer - I was going to go camping with my fiance, and 4 other people. We didn't get to go camping last year & also didn't get to go in May when I wanted to. Even though I knew July was going to be hot, I decided I wanted to camp in NY for my birthday.
We aren't going camping this weekend & I also don't have a fiance anymore.
Well, life is full of crazy twists & turns. All of us requested off Friday & Sat/Sun if they needed it. I don't really want to get into details because everything is a mess right now - but now my birthday plans are a mess. No camping. No wedding. I also lost a friend in all of this. I am trying to keep my head up because there is nothing else I can do - I can't get sucked into the sadness because that is where I kept ending up in the past. I need to keep moving Forward.
I have been trying to walk everyday this week. It is a mini-goal, but if I can do it I will definitely be a bit proud of myself. Working out/exercising has always been tough for me. It is extra hard for me when I just feel like curling up and sleeping all day. I know I need to keep moving! For my physical & mental health!
A few friends came out of the blue & asked if I wanted to get together this weekend. Some just asked because they know I am feeling down. Others actually want to celebrate my birthday. I am trying to be happy when I can. I am normally a pretty upbeat person, but I have felt guilty lately when I have happy moments. Hopefully in time I will be able to feel happy without being down at the same time.
I need to watch what I eat this weekend since most of my meals will be out with friends & family. I have some walking/exercise already planned out too. Hopefully I don't get too bummed out this weekend. If I do, I just need to tell myself I will get through it! Damn time... damn complications. But such is life, right? If I didn't have the tough times, I wouldn't appreciate the good times as much.
Thank you to everyone who leaves comments on my page & blog. I really appreciate every one! I hope everyone has a lovely weekend.