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Trying to find a way back

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Wow, it's hard to believe that I haven't written anything here since August. I have allowed myself to use the "I'm so busy with school" excuse to not exercise, but the truth is that I have just been lazy and using excuses. I am so unahppy doing that and I want to come back. I know I can do it. I know I have it in me to give my all for thirty minutes a day. I may not be able to afford to eat organic, but I can eat healthy: beans are cheap. I am going to do my best, not because I'm here saying I will, but because I know how happy I will be to do so and I know that I am worth it. It is long past time for excuses. I know that an excuse is just a reason wrapped up in a lie and there is no sense in trying to lie to myself. So, here I go. I'm getting up from this chair and away from this keyboard, and I am heading outside with great music in my ears, and a RunDouble app on my phone. I mean, really, I paid enough for that dang phone so I could have all the bells and whistles, and I might as well put them to use. I will be back later to post about how it felt to get back out there. Until then, I wish you the best, as I know you do me. God bless you all, and thank you for your friendship and support. It means the world to me.

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ILUVTTV 12/14/2013 7:04AM

    Kim, life is unbelievably busy…I, too, need to find my way back! But, as I tell myself, every little piece of healthy lifestyle is a help! Always in my prayers! ~ Anne

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BOMBCHELL23 12/12/2013 10:08PM


School is not an excuse it is very real and extremely important. How often did I not get to exercise enough b/c I had another damn paper to write, edit, revise? Five years worth and grateful my Master's is completed. I know you can do this and I will be right here with you b/c I am struggling with food. You keep me accountable for food and I will keep you accountable for exercising. By the way I walked 4 miles at work but ate horrible at work today. There are no excuses and we need to try harder. You got this girl!

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LADYOLIVER 12/12/2013 10:00PM

    emoticon emoticon and you will do this because you are worth the benefits that YOU WILL reap from the deliberate acts of changes.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/12/2013 6:42PM

    I'm so happy to see you back!! I am trying to get back onto plan too. I have good days and bad days but I am doing a lot better than I was. I'm looking forward to the new year and to getting back to basics.

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TANYA602 12/12/2013 5:56PM

    I hope you had a great run and that you are feeling rejuvenated. Sometimes that endorphin high is enough to get us back on track. Other times it takes a bit more. WE're all here to support you any way we can. I know that thru the holidays we are all going to need it!

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HOPEFULHIPPO 12/12/2013 3:01PM

    I remember those moments in school. In as much as we think it's an excuse school while being an adult is NO JOKE. It's hard!!

But having said that, I know you can do it. Even if it means maybe squatting during commercials, getting up a half hour early (or in my case, doing a dvd at night) in any case, I know you can do it :o)

welcome back!!


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MRS.DOYLE 12/12/2013 1:51PM

    emoticon glad to hear that you are still Sparkling. I bet you will feel amazing after your run.

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BLC22 Reflection

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

During both rounds of the BLC 20 & 21 I gained consistently during practically the entire 12 weeks. I took a break and came back for round 22 in a different team. The team was a perfect fit for me and I have lost weight during more weigh-in's than gained, and have so far lost all but 2.8 lbs of my goal weight for this round.


I can't say in all honesty that I have given 100% of myself during this round. I am in school and I get stressed out, and I have been tires ALL THE TIME as well. I also haven't eaten as good as I know I should. I know that I would be exactly where I want to be if I did what I need to do ... but I am always looking ahead to "when I graduate" or when I'm "working and making more money" or "when I have my own home and can workout at any time without disturbing the neighbors" and any number of excuses I tend to make. I think that the issue is not that I am making excuses, but that I KNOW that I am making excuses! I have the best team captain in the whole of the BLC and I know that working with her is going to help me to push myself to my full potential ... before I graduate, and make a lot of money, and have my own house, and those myriad other excuses in my repertoire.

I am hoping to be able to be a Golden Phoenix again for the next round ... ad infinitum ... and I see myself getting more in touch with where I can be instead of sitting back and making excuses for why I can't be there right now.

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TRIANGLE-WOMAN 8/30/2013 11:12PM


Goodluck with BLC23

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    Congratulations! You lost weight and are making better choices even if not all of the time.

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FLORIDAFLUTIST 8/28/2013 12:56AM

    I think you have done wonderfully this round! It's hard to be "perfect" all the time, and just to be able to keep pushing forward, amidst various trials, is a big deal! I do hope you'll be placed as a GP for 23, also!

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Calling all runners ... help needeed

Thursday, July 25, 2013

I have been running daily for 11 days straight and while my time is getting better, my breathing is not. I have been looking online at for help videos on technique and breathing. I found some really great videos about technique - like kickbacks, and pacing, etc. - and the only video I found that had any decent information on breathing said to make sure I belly-breathe and don't slouch because that will decrease my ability to get a good intake of air.

I am open to any and all informative advice regarding running, whether it is about breathing or about some other aspect of running - I am open to all of it. Thank you in advance! Below are my stats . . . it seems right now like I am not able to break under 11 minutes / mile.

My Run Stats:

1 MILE with w/u and c/d

7/25: pace 11:03 ... overall 14:50
7/24: pace 11:47 ... overall 14:12 ... brisk walk (had to potty LOL!)
7/23: pace 11:08 ... overall 14:39
7/22: pace 11:04 ... overall 14:31
7/21: pace 14:20 ... overall 15:47 ... moist beach air
7/20 ... on a trip & unable to run
7/19 ... Friday- walk day
7/18: pace 11:06 ... overall 14:56
7/17: pace 11:23 ... overall 14:21
7/16: pace 11:29 ... overall 15:07
7/15: pace 12:24 ... overall 14:58
7/14: pace 12:46 ... overall 15:59

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    You could try some pilates which specifically focuses on strengthening your diaphragm.
Try this article it gives you three specific exercises.
It will come in time I am sure!

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GPHOENIX 7/26/2013 7:20PM

I saw this article that gives some suggestions on speed workouts where it basically suggests adding short sprints throughout your workout.

Best of luck.

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1STATEOFDENIAL 7/25/2013 3:36PM

    It has been a long time since I was physically capable of running, but when I was a pre-teen I ran long distance track. When I was running I would basically put my body into auto-pilot and didn't focus on what I was doing. How I breathed was two short but deep breaths followed by a longer exhale. Then after a minute or two I'd lean back slightly and take a big inhale and a long exhale (this helped calm my nerves). I don't know if this will work for you or if it's technically right, but it worked well for me back then.

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RUNGRL2013 7/25/2013 1:09PM

    I used to have the same problem until I found out that I was anemic and started taking iron supplements. After taking the supplements for about 3 weeks, I noticed one day that I could breathe. If you've been running a while and see no improvement in your breathing, maybe you could get a blood test to see if you're iron deficient...sorry, wish I could offer better wisdom.

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    I wish I could help. I am not allowed to run any more and was always a sprinter instead of a long distance runner anyway.

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My Progress in the First Half of BLC22

Monday, July 22, 2013

It's hard to believe that we are already in the second half of this round of the BLC, but we certainly are. Looking back on the first six weeks seeing my progress and my efforts during that time, I am torn in how I feel. I feel good about some things and bad about others. Therefore, I am going to share with you what makes me feel each way.

I feel good about ...

Increased stamina; the increase in weight size: I went from using 5lb dumbbells to 25lb dumbbells; I am starting to be hopeful for the first time in two years that I can do this; I think the most important and impressive for me is that I am running again and it feels amazing.

I feel bad about ...

While I am doing the exercises and other things that are required of me, I don't always give my all to what I'm doing. I don't always make certain that my form is good and I am just speeding through some of the weight lifting or other cardio. I haven't been as diligent in logging my food before or even when I eat it - I wait until that night or even the next day and I go from memory, which is never a good idea.

I am certain that the latter reasons are why I am not losing as much as I would like to have lost by now. I am also certain that I am the only one who has control over that. It is completely up to me to decide whether I am going to give in to my whiny voice that "don't want to ... " and I am the only one who is responsible for the outcome. I wonder if I am possibly trying to sabotage my efforts in order to keep myself in a position to feel like a failure and a victim of my own life's circumstances? That is totally and completely unacceptable.

I have six (well, I think it's more like five and a half) weeks left to turn it around and get the results I want. It is all up to me.

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ITSYBITSYMAMA 7/24/2013 10:47AM

    I know what you mean about zipping through...I can also be guilty of that!

You have done great so far!

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KBRADFORD88 7/24/2013 10:03AM

    25 pounds...WOW! girl. That's amazing. I too have been struggling with consistent tracking. But saw a big change this week when I did. We have time to see some changes before this over.

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HOPEFULHIPPO 7/23/2013 2:49PM

    I am totally guilty of that. when the work gets too hard, I zone right out and "get through" it. I'm sure it doesn't hurt us too much though as we are still moving and pushing through right?

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    That weight size increase is amazing!!! Fantastic on the running too!! It sounds like you are aware of what you need to work on and can focus on it now that you have a great start. emoticon

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LOVINGAFRICA 7/23/2013 6:33AM

    Wow! You made awesome progress. Congratulations.
Now just tweak the plan a bit, and you are home!
Bless you!

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1STATEOFDENIAL 7/22/2013 10:17PM

    How can you change your inner dialogue and change the things you feel bad about? How can you remind yourself that having proper form is far more important than the weight you're lifting, as improper form can cause injuries. How can you convince yourself to track your food before eating it and to exercise even if you don't feel like it? When you have ways to change what's not working for you, then you'll know how to proceed. And if those changes don't work, come up with some new ideas. No one changes everything overnight - it's a long process and it usually includes soul searching.

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ANATASHIKI 7/22/2013 1:12PM

    tracking food is the most important , I lost 12 kilos the last 2 months with almost no exercise , only walking, try to do that too. exercise is good but not if it makes you eat bad . I'm sure you'll find a solution emoticon emoticon

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LYNNANN43 7/22/2013 9:35AM

    Time to break that Defeatist Cycle NOW!

I just know that emoticon


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LMK206 7/22/2013 9:09AM

    we can do it!

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Saturday, June 08, 2013

Now that the BLC22 has gotten underway and we are in our first weekend challenge I will re-post my goals in their specificity, and all their attainable glory :)

My goals:
* To lose 10 lbs by the end of 12- weeks (my long-term goal is 50 lbs by 12/25/13)
* To aim for a 1 lb per week weight loss
* To fit into a size 12 pants
. . . ** from a size 14
* To get in at least 20- minutes of intentional fitness daily
. . . ** cardio 5 x's / week
. . . ** ST 3 x's / week
. . . ** Yoga every Saturday
* To eat healthier
. . . ** no unhealthy snacking
. . . ** I will record every BLT (bite, lick, taste)!
. . . ** I will drink at least 64 oz of water daily - but aim for 80 oz

So, here it is in a nutshell - because nuts are a healthy snack LOL!

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TRICIALICI 6/10/2013 10:57PM

    Nice goals! You can do it. We'll be here to help you SOAR!

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JENSHAINES 6/9/2013 8:01PM

    Yes, they are! GREAT goals - very doable. You've really thought this out!

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FRANCO1230 6/9/2013 12:30PM

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BOMBCHELL23 6/8/2013 10:01PM

    I love this set of goals, it is inspiring Kim. I was laughing at the BLT b/c I struggle with that on so many levels. I hope that you can stay on track and I will be right here cheering you on! emoticon emoticon I know you cheer me on in several ways. You can do this Kim and I will hold you accountable b/c we all need that.

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    Those are all very realistic and attainable goals! I know you will succeed and we will be alongside you every step of the way!

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    Really good goals!! I need to steel some of these for myself. Especially the BLT. LOL.

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