Tuesday, September 05, 2006
well this weekend came to a crashing halt on sunday night. My best friend from school called me to tell me her father had died sunday night. very suddenly. No warning nothing. and she is a wreck. understandably so. I have been worrying about her alot. For obvious reasons and also because of all the people i know, none of them were as close to their father and so reliant on them as she was. Right now she seems to be handling it ok. I mean i don't by any means expect her to be handling it well but she is functioning. But i fear that once she is forced to go back to normal life, to work (she's a teacher), and back to her apartment she is going to break down. And i won't be near her. She lives about 2 hours north of me and if she needs me it will take me sooo long to get to her. She has other family and friends to call on but i feel as though i am failing her. She is my best friend. We lived together for 4 years and i would do anything for her. And i feel as though i am not doing enough to help her right now. I am heading up there tomorrow for the funeral and viewing. and hopefully staying all weekend to help out. But right now i feel so useless. But i really don't kow what else to do but to listen to her. and let her know i am here.
ahhhh life can be very unfair and cruel.
well i better jet i have stuff to do.