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Tuesday, September 05, 2006

well this weekend came to a crashing halt on sunday night. My best friend from school called me to tell me her father had died sunday night. very suddenly. No warning nothing. and she is a wreck. understandably so. I have been worrying about her alot. For obvious reasons and also because of all the people i know, none of them were as close to their father and so reliant on them as she was. Right now she seems to be handling it ok. I mean i don't by any means expect her to be handling it well but she is functioning. But i fear that once she is forced to go back to normal life, to work (she's a teacher), and back to her apartment she is going to break down. And i won't be near her. She lives about 2 hours north of me and if she needs me it will take me sooo long to get to her. She has other family and friends to call on but i feel as though i am failing her. She is my best friend. We lived together for 4 years and i would do anything for her. And i feel as though i am not doing enough to help her right now. I am heading up there tomorrow for the funeral and viewing. and hopefully staying all weekend to help out. But right now i feel so useless. But i really don't kow what else to do but to listen to her. and let her know i am here.
ahhhh life can be very unfair and cruel.
well i better jet i have stuff to do.


ahh here we go again!

Monday, August 21, 2006

So clearly the last time i did an entry was back in march.....and it is now august. I'm not doing very well at all. And i am starting over also! Erin (best friend from college) just called me last night to tell me her bf FINALLY proposed :) So that means wedding bells will be ringing next year about this time...and that I will also need to be squeezed into a dress! So as opposed to just waiting a year to feel depressed and sorry for myself i am going setting out to change my life. I figure what better reason to motivate me than a wedding! :) So starting today (although i have already not done all that great) i am changing!
Ready, set, and start your changing!
wish me luck!


March 21, 2006

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

So its pretty much the first day of my new "diet" and I am already having doubts. probably not a good sign. But i am trying to stay positive. I really need to focus and start to live a healthier life. I did have eggs for breakfast but i figure you know i can just be good the rest of the day. I don't think i will have a lunch. WEll maybe a small one but nothing much. then a nice little dinner. I need to focus and not get distracted. If i can do this for 2 weeks then i know i can stick with it. I am going to try and use this journal as apart of my daily pep talk. I need to help myself do this. And i can do it. I just need to focus.....