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Stressful Week

Friday, January 31, 2014

Well, life has a way of throwing a curve ball. This past week there was a parole hearing for one of the men responsible for my little brother's death. This man was paroled after serving 7 years of his sentence. I forgive him, but still struggle with the loss of my brother. Unfortunately, I return to old ways of coping under stress. This next week will be better!

  
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KIMBERLYS2012 2/6/2014 11:39PM

    Thanks for the support. It was a better week! Go team!!

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 2/2/2014 10:54AM

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RENIESSPARKIN 1/31/2014 1:02AM

    Dear Kimberly:

This had to be one tough experience for you to deal with -- again. May God bless you during your ordeal. You have a huge heart to be able to forgive his killer.

Continue to call on the Lord for His love and support.

Hugs,
Renie

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Starting a new streak!!

Thursday, January 09, 2014

Finally! The scale is moving in the right direction. . .down! I believe I've had weight loss for 2 weeks in a row. A new streak, one that I want to continue! I'm still have many challenges, but I have not given up. I will keep trying. I really love Sparkpeople! There have been days that I have wanted to give up and have found support and encouragement to keep going. Thanks Spark friends. I'm still not doing everything perfectly, but plan to keep trying. My life is still not easy, but I refuse to let the everyday challenges, like dealing with more vision loss, unemployment, and grief to push me into despair, where my choices are driven by emotion! I'm grateful for a loving God who will be there to walk beside me during these times and love me. Ok, done ranting! I choose joy today!!

  
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DETERMINEDJANET 1/9/2014 1:04PM

    Love this blog Kimberly! Will keep you in my prayers.

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Not giving up!!!!,

Friday, December 27, 2013

So, my intentions were to track, track, track this week. I was not successful. I gained weight too. :( The good news is that although I didn't meet my goals this week I did have some success. The holidays always involve a lot of food, treats, etc. Often it also means eating to a point of discomfort. I didn't do that . . . a success? Yes, I think so. I'm trying to look for those little victories. I am struggling but not giving up. I don't want to lose this battle. I want to be healthy, I need to do this for myself. I see myself getting discouraged and returning to some of those old, unhealthy ways of coping with life (most of which involve eating). I'm trying to use this as an opportunity to journal/track progress, success, and struggles. I've been in a better place and will write now, while struggling and continue to write when things improve. It is always good to see the progress. I can do this and I know I am not alone. Unfortunately, I feel terrible that I've let my team down 2 weeks in a row on our challenge. I'm not giving up . . . maybe if I say it enough it will keep me going. I can move forward!

  
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KIMBERLYS2012 12/27/2013 1:04AM

    Well said!

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JUSTME9898 12/27/2013 12:25AM

    You have made a major step in changing those old habits and that is realizing that this is a journey not a contest. It is not "I lost control so I lost the race" it is "I took the scenic route on my journey so it is going to take a little longer to get to my destination.
You are showing that you are changing. I know you will succeed in your journey to a healthy life.

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Baby Steps. . . are still steps forward!!

Monday, December 23, 2013

I'm trying to track food and fitness daily. Have I done that? Well, not totally, but I'm trying. I have tracked a few meals . . . baby steps. Today, is a new day and I can start again, and will this morning. Breakfast tracked! Shoveling snow, done (and tracked as fitness). Woo Hoo!

  
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DETERMINEDJANET 12/23/2013 11:27AM

    That's right...start again today! You can do it!

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Raising the Bar

Thursday, December 19, 2013

I've decided after a very rough week, that I need to do something to raise the bar and help me get back on track. This is such a rough time of year for me. In 2005, my younger brother was killed in a robbery where he worked. We had a funeral on Christmas Eve. This happened 3 weeks after my dad died (Thanksgiving weekend) of cancer. My sisters and I teased that we needed "pie therapy" as we were struggling to cope. This year the struggle has gained strength. One of the men responsible for my brother's death has a parole hearing in January. I realize that I really do use food to cope. So, I am big on being accountable and need to push myself. I changed my Sparkpeople settings and now friends will be able to see my tracking. I have been doing poorly when it comes to tracking lately. I know tracking has been key to success. I've seen the scale moving in the wrong directions and that just adds to my sadness, which leads to me eating, and the cycle continues. I have much to be thankful for and have to continue to focus on those things and focus on being healthy.

  
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KIMBERLYS2012 12/23/2013 10:55AM

    Thanks! I know that I can do this. I need to keep pushing forward. I think part of the struggles this year are due to us moving back to NE, where I'm from and that is where they lived and SHOULD still be. Thanks for the kind words. I'm also sure not being able to find a job plays a role. It will all come in time. In the meantime, focusing on being healthy is where I need to be. Go Emeralds!!

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FITGRL124 12/21/2013 9:33PM

    I'm sorry about your tragic losses.

I agree with Janet that you've taken a good step for accountability. emoticon

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DETERMINEDJANET 12/19/2013 11:19PM

    First off, I'm so sorry about the tragic loss in your life that followed so closely after your dad's passing. Hugs!

I think you've taken a good step for accountability with the tracker since you know that is a tool for success. You can do it!!

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