Friday, March 04, 2011
The past couple of days have been difficult. I wanted to just eat everything i see and i cant get full. Today was bad...i stayed within my calorie range but what i ate was bad. Im here to vent and get it off my chest so today my food consisted of... bowl of special k for breakfast not to bad... then lunch came and i was hungry, home alone and looking for anything. I ended up eating not 1 but 2 corn dogs... because i felt so bad for eating them i then ended up doing some Wii fit. I felt i had redeemed myself a bit. Then.. when dinner time came around...i wanted Chinese. My roomie who is dieting with me said we could ONLY if we split something and had soup first. I agreed and we both got egg drop soup which is very little calories but the sodium is HORRIBLE but it did knock the edge off of being "starving" then we had some white rice and orange chicken. The chicken ended up being really overcooked which was in my favor so i didn't eat much but i felt like i have failed for the day. How can i not have enough self control to just say no and eat something healthy? We weight in on Sundays and im really really worried about it now. I have so many events coming up and all i can think about is not being at my goal weight by then which you would think would be motivation enough but some days i just get in such a slump and well that's why i come on here and just ramble.. Sorry Ive been Debbie downer i just needed to get it off my chest. Tomorrows a new day right?... maybe i haven't fully screwed this week up and Sunday wont be as bad as im expecting..