Better

Sunday, May 31, 2009

I felt better today. I didn't do any exercise, though. I need to step it up on that. I did fight the urge to get fast food when working on my paper. It is a habit that I eat when stressed, and the paper definitely stresses me out. Instead, I thought really hard about what I wanted and then I looked in the mirror. And that worked. Heh. Still, it is only day 2. My body feels better not being weighed down by the fatty foods, but my head feels worse. It is hard to admit that I even have a problem because I am thin. But I'm what I think people refer to as skinny fat. I'm not toned at all--I have no muscle. So while eating healthy is good on many levels, and will reduce the fat stores I have in my hips and thighs. I do need to start working out a bit to make my body look (and feel) good.

On to day 3!

  

Grouchy

Saturday, May 30, 2009

So I had a pretty good day with the food. I even went grocery shopping and resisted the urge to buy anything horrible. And I also went to get ice cream with my daughter and we both got the 90cal sherbert. Still, I'm hungry and grouchy. I keep thinking that this is like any other addiction that people have to break. I might be grouchy for awhile, but it will get better and then I'll feel much better.

I didn't really exercise today, but I did go on a 45 minute walk. So that wasn't horrible either. Onward and upward!

  

I have a tire around my middle!

Friday, May 29, 2009

Oy! Stress eating is not my friend. So I'm back on the wagon yet again. I need to cleanse my palate a little, but I think it is going to hurt. :( I have no self-discipline. Today was a slight step in the right direction. Long walk with running was good. Not getting Cheetos or fast food for dinner was good . I won't look too closely at the rest. :) Baby steps, baby steps.

I need less pop, less fast food and more raw veggies and fruit. And more exercise. So easy to write, so annoying to do. It's not that I even like eating like crap, I am just too lazy to do anything else. The food doesn't even appeal to me anymore.

  

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KISSMEISPARKLE4 5/29/2009 10:47PM

I know what you mean. I have a tire around my middle too! And why is that the hardest part of your body to lose weight? That's so not fair!! Well, I'm glad you're getting back on track, that's what counts! You can do it! M Report Inappropriate Comment

Here we go again!

Monday, March 23, 2009

So, I kind of gave up there for a bit. After I gained weight, then got the flu, then had finals--I just stopped caring for a couple of weeks. But now I'm back! Yay! I'm scared to take any measurements right now, but I did weigh myself 2 days ago and I was the same weight as before--130.5. But I feel much heavier than that. I feel awful. So back to the program of eating healthy and exercising!

Since my body has been all wacky this year and then I get depressed, I'm going to not weigh myself or measure myself for a month and then see where I am. So that would be around April 22nd. Hopefully this is a better month than March ended up being! I just want to feel better.

  

Sick.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Ok, apparently I *can* relax for a month. :) The day right after I declared my commitment to the Shred/tracking/Cardio for March, I came down with a horrible cold/flu. It was just a head cold at first and I tried to work out through it, but it killed me and I spent the next few days recovering from that. And I'm still blah. I think I'm slightly better now, though still congested. But my quarter is almost over, so there's less stress. I just feel so hopeless now. I haven't been to the gym so I haven't weighed myself but I feel HUGE. Like, way bigger than when I started this 'journey'. Blah. It's very frustrating and I can't seem to find my way back even to my pre-SP weight. I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow for a light workout and weigh myself then just to see where I'm at. And then I'll probably be thrown into a depressive state for a few hours. :) Just kidding. I'm kind of just giving in. If my body wants to be fatter right now, so be it. I'm changing my focus to increasing my energy levels. So I'm adding new goals for the next 32 days. I figure I'm already on the Lent plan, I might as well ride that as much as I can. I have stuck 100% with my Lent commitments. Thought the only physical goal was no pop. Drinking no pop has made me really thirsty. What do people drink?!? Milk doesn't touch the thirst for some reason. The Crystal Light stuff is good but you can only drink so much of it. And besides that, there's water. Joy. Anyway, my new 'energy' goals are:
1) Multivitamin every day
2) Exercise 20 min a day
3) 4 glasses of pure H20 a day

While trying to eat less empty food and more nutrient-rich food. I have issues with that. Sugary food makes my mind happy.

So let's start again, shall we? I can't wait for the weigh-in tomorrow. It could be anywhere from 125-135 I think. Blah.