Friday, June 25, 2010
So I should have avoided the scale today. I just felt heavier and my period is coming. But I was at the gym and it was staring at me and I couldn't resist. And it dared to tell me that I was back to 132! Obviously, it hates me.
So my shoulders slumped and I went home and ate some cake. :(
But now I'm done with the cake and feeling better and more open to the idea of working on my diet. It's so hard for me though. I get so moody about it all. But, then again, I get moody when I'm working out every day and I see no visible results. So there's that.
I just suck at the diet part of life. I don't cook much and I eat very simply. And I don't like most vegetables. I do like some, but they don't give me that wonderful heavy feeling of real food.
Anyway, I'll at least try. Really, just cutting back on my sorrowful cake eating would probably help a lot. Plus, I just added extra cardio this week, in addition to doing the Shred, so maybe that will start showing some results. The Shred hurts my muscles and makes me sweat, but it's not really a big cardio workout for me.
I'm trying to decide if I should do rules or not for my diet modifications. They have been working well for my exercise and water drinking. So maybe I should do some rules. I think my first one--for the next few days--will be no desserts. See how that works.
Friday, June 25, 2010
Does that seem terribly unfair to anyone else? Where does all the energy that I put into my mental/emotional activity come from? And why can't it come from cake?
Anyway--the day was so very stressful. And I ate a cookie, and some egg rolls. But I'm okay with that. Because I was stuck in crazy land. Still, I refrained from eating most of the party food. And I came home and did the Shred. Day 15! Halfway done! And Level 2 is feeling pretty OK right now. Yay! I was longing to go out running tonight and just release all the yuckiness from the day through sweat. But alas, I have a darling daughter who I had to go home and put to bed, so my living room had to suffice. Tomorrow, though, we'll both go to the gym and run, run, run!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
There's good and there's bad. Eating 8 frosted sugar cookies is not the good. :) But...I did bounce back and ran 2 miles and did the Shred today. Day 14! Almost halfway done! I ran 2 miles yesterday too. My tight thighs made the first minute veeerrrrryyyyyy painful, but then they loosened up a bit. I did some old running stretches afterwards and I think it helped a lot. So I did the same today and I feel better. :) I also ate better today--which is good.
Anyhow, I feel PMS upon me, which makes me feel heavier and bigger and less motivated to work out. But then, if I don't work out, I'll just *Be* heavier and bigger after the week passes. Plus, I feel good after working out, even if that doesn't involve a trim waistline.
So the good outweighs the bad. Just keep on keepin' on.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
When I started the 30 Day Shred, I was sore for days, but now I'm fine except for my thighs. I do yoga and stretch them out, but they're still sore/tight every day. It's all those lunges and squats that Jillian makes me do! I'm very excited for the day that my thighs loosen up a bit.
Anyway, today was good. My diet still sucks. I ate less calories today, because we were at the zoo and it was so gross and hot that I didn't even feel like eating. But then my dinner was ice cream. So that's probably not ideal. I started reading articles and blogs about eating healthier, which led to me getting really stressed out. I don't know what to do about that. :( Every time I try to set boundaries for my diet, I get really stressed about it all and end up eating a ton of sugar.
My only diet modifications so far have been more water and less Diet Coke. And it has gone surprisingly well. I feel like I'm eating better just by having less Diet Coke. Because bad foods go much better with pop than they do with water, especially salty foods. It's kind of like, what's the point of having chips if I can't have pop with it? So that's good. But I still have so far to go. Because I feel that even if I exercise every day, if I'm still eating like I do then not much will change, in the looks department at least.
Off to bed now~
Monday, June 21, 2010
I had a busy day today and was out of the house until 11pm. I really wanted to get the Shred in tonight, though, so I started at 11:45pm. I finished after midnight, but I feel the better for it. My dad made a heavy dinner on the grill tonight and my tummy felt bad, but after the workout I feel much better. :) I think all the twisting helped my GI system. :)
Anyway, another week is done. This one kind of flew by. Which means tomorrow starts another smidge upward on my baby step journey to fitness and health. :) I got a lovely new 32oz water bottle today, which I inappropriately adore. My goals for this week:
1) 7 glasses H2O/day (up from 6, but I have that lovely new bottle!)
2) Still no Diet Coke at home (On my 4th week straight!)
3) 13 pushups/day (up from 10--these will be separate from the Shred ones)
4) 2 Headstands every day (piece of cake, but good for the legs)
5) Stretch 10 min/day (up from 5)
6) 30 Day Shred (12 days down!)
I would like to get the pushups and a Headstand done in the morning at least, to get the blood flowing. I like to do a headstand at night, especially after work, because it really helps to prevent varicose veins.
And really, I'd love to start focusing on my diet more, but I'm afraid of all the stress that might cause. I've been doing so well with my goals and I feel so much better and have more energy, I just don't want to push it. The diet part is what usually frustrates me and pushes me over the edge. So I guess I'll just try to make better choices without putting any definite goals on it. Yes, I'm a wuss. But I'm a much happier wuss than I was a month ago. Who cares if I'm the same weight. :)
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