Wednesday, July 01, 2009
There are two ways to look at turning 50.
One is the reality that "it's just one more step to the end". Acknowledging that the smile wrinkle that before disappeared after the smile is here to stay. The broken vessels on the legs are a bit more heavy. A wish to ignore the whole thing and pretend that you internally are still 28.
That other is one that I was blessed with this year. My work group surprised me early this year with a delightful bag of fun birthday gifts. My daughter and I are sharing an excellent day at Disneyland tomorrow. My wrinkle are not on the lines for frowns, but badges of the many smiles life has given me thus far. It is not stepping towards the end, but embracing each moment with the wisdom of wonderment, awe.
I often, tell my patients it is not what you get, but what you live past. It has always been my slogan "I'm living to 120!". The year of the aneurysm my faith in that statement got shaken, yet now I see it has gifted my with the ability to see not to waste any time, to be thankful for the people in my life and to allow myself to feel the joy within myself. In the past I would label this childish joy. When I got excited about going to Disneyland on my birthday, it was an excitement not limited by age -- rather a simple, sincere rejoicing that sometime just when you don't expect it life hands you a gift you didn't expect.
You can look at life with a 50/50 attitude. This year I'm avowing that I'm going to round up just a little and go for 125......... It is good to have made 50 and I can wait to see what the rest brings.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
I've hardly had coffee recently. Expense, health are some of the reason. Typical now is to get decaff, if at all.
Today, I was dragging. After having a headache yesterday, there were so many things I needed to do before Monday. I needed to renew my ARRT license, gas in the car, cash, laundry, water plants, help Dan get ready for some of his interviews.....
I could see nothing was going to happen. The answer COFFEE!
About 2pm, I ran over to the drive-thru. I forgot what this stuff is like. I instantly was racing and getting so much done. It made me feel all was possible. I also was laughing at myself for internally wanting to take on 100 other new projects.
No wonder people get hooked on this! I'll save it for when I really, really needed it in the future. Right now, I know it was the thing that saved the day.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Today my diet was simple, neat and clean. Just one thing at a time.
I started the day with a headache and thought I need water, but drinking water was upsetting my stomach, so I ate some fresh harvested melon. It tasted so clean that I just kept eating it and started to eat another. I ate 1 1/2 of these flavor filled tuscan ? cantaloupes and I felt refreshed.
Later I ate one cup of low fat cottage cheese. Then a cup of almonds. Then an apple. I strung this out through the day. I've felt full and I just kept washing off the same dish, so easy on the clean up.
The ice cream man came and his tune from the String rang out over the neighborhood, so Louis and I ranged out to share an ice cream bar and then took a relaxing walk. I've still not gotten over 1,200 calories and I'm not interested in a thing more.
I'm not sure if this is lazy eating, or just 'mindful', but I'm going to have to do this again...just easy grazing through the day. I never felt I had to cook, do dishes and I did very well on my nutrition count. I wish eating like this came easy in the winter.....I'll have to try this as my menu for Thanksgiving!
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Just when I think I'm a crazy woman for having tested the water at my local park (see June 16 Blog), I come home and read this:
Kirklandís Juanita Beach Swimming Area Closed Until Further Notice Due to High Bacteria Levels
Tagged with: Juanita Beach Park
Posted by Rob Butcher on Friday, June 26, 2009, 17:19
I was just a little ahead of myself on timing, but my nose was good.
You know what I love about my Spark friends? They never once threw it in my face. I may have doubted myself, but you were the best of support and encouragement to "be me".
Saturday, June 20, 2009
* As anticipated a busy week. I almost stepped forward to write the con statement for annexation. I still have not completely decided my stand, yet I see the pro side being completely organized and that people will not get a complete view of the problems (assuming prior debt of the city - amount still not disclosed in meetings), slower fire response times, split neighborhoods, a switched position on allowing a casino, and a huge on going city budget debt (5 - 8 Million).
* For the last two weeks, I've started to feel the edge of joint ache and pains and increased headache, rapid heart rate. I did a blood donation this morning. My old level five weeks ago was 33 and today 38 (hematocrit levels). I'd been hoping to wait until next week when I could coordinate with my new doctor that I see Wednesday, but last night I was feeling so bad I didn't think it wise. Of course, today because of the draw I feel tired. For my own record, symptoms that I felt: dull headache, sharp pains in my shoulders, elbows, hips and hands, feeling like something is in my eye - ?dry eye, drop in libido, drop in energy, drop in appetite, irritability, feeling of dread, increased dreaming and sense of smell.
* Father's day will take Dad out for sushi. He is doing so much better. I always love when he answers the phone because I know he is feeling well enough to get up.
* Dan and I had a date Friday night and saw the StarTrek movie. Finally. I thought it was very important in the middle of me rushing around on annexation and him on job search that we spend some time together. We were both so tired that we hardly talked, yet it did feel good to "be" with him.
* School just down the street is being taken down, probably on Monday. I so wanted to save plants, but they've now put up a fence so I can't -- I'm sorry green buddies. (I called to attempted to arrange this, but the big whigs wanted to charge dollars for them and the little guys just saw that I'd be blocking their progress). I'll hide this in here, I've also been playing detective on a local crime that occurred. I got up the guts to call the police on the number listed in the paper, as now I'm 75% sure, and they wanted name and location. I had more vague information (I now have the name and will follow up Monday), and they didn't want to hear what I had to say....what's with that? Ah, Katherine let go....
* Daughter Crystal is home for a month after finishing summer school. Most of her friends are graduating, so she is saying goodbye to many. She initially started a year later so she could work and earn money first. Now she has a new roommate moving in. It will be a very different year - I'm so use to her "gang" of friends.
* Dan is going to California for a job interview. Crystal and I will fly along to check out the area for a home, cost of living, but due to my daughter's resourcefulness we also get a bonus.
We both were born on the same day in July and she pointed out that Disneyland is having a promotion in 2009 for a free day at the park on your birthday. So while Dan is interviewing, Crystal and I will get to party like the kids we are with Goofy, Mickey, Cinderella and all the rest of Disney wonder -- I'm WAY EXCITED!!!
I think I'll end there........With a Tinkerbell touch of Sparkle!
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