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Surprising weight loss, imperfection, and rewards

Thursday, August 30, 2012

So after a not very healthy dinner last night (gouda, peppercorn salami, wheat crackers, wine, and cinnamon gummy bears) I weighed in this morning down 4 pounds from my last weigh in. So I don't know what's up, but I'll take it!

I do know that my waist looks better, less lumpy, my belly is less rotund, and my clothes are fitting better. The other thing that I'm really excited about is that I'm only 3 pounds away from my next reward. I WANT THAT REWARD! I am lqtm (laughing quietly to myself - as opposed to lol) because I really want that reward.

When I entered my new weight on spark, it prompted to me to re-assess my calorie needs. It revised me downward, which makes sense, but it's a little scary at the same time because it means there is less room for being less than perfect. But I will keep trying to do my best. I have to forgive myself for my imperfections or I get into a self-hatred spiral, and that never ends well...

Thinking about what I've been doing differently the last week and a half or so to compel the 4 pound weigh loss: the only real thing that I was doing differently was walking the dog every night. It's about a 15-20 minute walk around our nicely landscaped condo complex. He (the dog) loves it, I love it, we just march along at a clip, he acts like he's on parade or something. And it's really relaxing and I feel very proud of myself afterward, even though it's not hard or sweaty exercise. But I guess every little bit does count.

I'm hoping to be down another 8 pounds or so when my dad comes out from the east coast to visit in October. He probably won't even notice anything, but I'd just like to look healthy and strong, so that he doesn't worry about me. Anyway...

Here's to a wonderful day! Keep up the good work, sparkies! (Just being here, just participating, is good work itself!) emoticon

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GOIN4MINE2012 9/4/2012 6:05PM

    OUTSTANDING! Today may be Tuesday of a new week, but I'd STILL be doing my Happy Dance. Work it, Kacey. Way to Spark! emoticon

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JODROX 8/31/2012 8:52AM

    Good job!!!!!

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MICHSTATE 8/30/2012 1:12PM

    Awesome job!!!!!!!

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TRIKERBON 8/30/2012 12:41PM

    emoticon JOB! emoticon on the 4 pound loss!

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YOUNG2012 8/30/2012 12:38PM

    Congrats on dropping those 4 lbs! With only 3 lbs. to go, you can pretty much claim the next redward as yours now.
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Need a little more oompf...

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Over the weekend I weighed in at my first goal, 172. I had been hovering between 1.5 and 2 pounds just above this for about two weeks, so I was really excited. Then official weigh-in day comes and...174?!?!? Frustrating. I know that I have been half-a**ing it, but at the same time, I haven't completely been blowing it either. So, I'm making some resolutions for the coming week. I want to get serious and start moving that scale down again and getting back into my old clothes.

All week: stay strictly in my calorie range. Track all foods religiously.
Exercise: Today - Biggest Loser DVD, dog walk. Tomorrow - dog walk. Friday - pool exercise, dog walk. Saturday - hike, dog walk. Sunday - ballet class and beach (and dog walk)!

There. I've written it in "blog stone."

Here's hoping that next week we'll see some progress. Next week it will be just over a month since the boyfriend and I joined sparkpeople, and it will be time to update measurements.

Speaking of boyfriend, the start of the fall semester was on Monday, and while he's excited and happy, I see him winding up stress-wise because he wants to do well (he made the Dean's list last semester!). So I'm worrying a little - about him, about how school will impact the flow/routine around the house, what I will need to pick up duty-wise to help him minimize his stress and be successful... He takes care of a lot of stuff when he's not in school and I know I take at least some of it for granted, so I'm just wondering what I didn't think of that's going to pop up and take me by surprise. I think we'll be fine though. I just like to be prepared, it eases my anxiety! lol.

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ASWENTZ 8/29/2012 2:55PM

    Remember, the difference between "try" and "triumph" is just a little "umph"! Love each other and be there for each other and you'll be just fine. Best of luck!

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INCONTROL247 8/28/2012 9:42PM

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THEOTUS 8/24/2012 2:20PM

    baby, I love you. I truly appreciate everything you do for me everyday! I don't think things will need to change so dramatically, but I've also noticed your stress levels rising as well. Because I'm in school and stressing myself or because of other matters, I'm not sure. All I do know is that we feed off of each other, and as long as we work to lower our own stress and anxiety, I personally feel that we will do great. Stress is a part of life, and all we can do is try and make that stress affect us as little as possible. I love you, and though we have recently taken a light walk off of the wagon, at least we're still on the trail. We can do it baby, I know we can.

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MICHSTATE 8/22/2012 2:01PM

    Awesome goals!!!!!

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NKOUAMI26 8/22/2012 11:28AM

    Well, go you with your goals and I am sure your boyfriend will appreciate you taking up some of the things he does.

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FATBASTICH 8/22/2012 11:26AM

    good luck on your goals!

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back in the saddle

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

A recurring theme around these pages: dragging oneself (or for the more sprightly among us, hopping) back on the wagon. Boyfriend's birthday is over, time to get back on track. He's going back to school this week so getting back in to a routine with that will present enough of a challenge by itself. I am going to focus on being very accurate with my food tracking, no alcohol during the week, careful with snacks, and getting at least walking exercise in during the week. Good luck to me and to all of us sparkers!

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MICHSTATE 8/21/2012 3:55PM

    Thanks for commenting on my blog....it looks like we are about the same weight now, with the same goal!!!! Good luck to you!!!:-)

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tired = hungry? why?

Thursday, August 09, 2012

Why do I have the urge to eat/drink when I'm tired? Is it because the motion of chewing or sipping something keeps me awake? Does my body think the calories will give me the energy my lack of sleep has me missing?

I have some neck problems and last night was really bad and caused some serious interference with my sleep. The most comfortable position was on my right side, while I normally sleep on my back because sleeping on my side usually makes my shoulders and hips hurt and my bottom arm fall asleep. I have prescription muscle relaxers which do help, but they make me so groggy, and consequently I only take them at night when I don't have to drive or if the pain is so bad I'm desperate (like today). I should add I am seeing a chiropractor regularly, and my neck had been feeling better which is partly why this sudden bout of pain is so frustrating.

I think I am going to have to give in and get an iced coffee (black with sugar). I've already had my hot coffee (black, nothing in it at all!) and have been drinking water in hopes that would do it for me, but it's not. In addition my throat is scratchy because I've been off my allegra and I think that's catching up with me.

Sorry for complaining. I am really curious about why I want to consume something when I am tired, so any answers/thoughts would be appreciated. Knowledge is power!

Have a great, energetic day, fellow sparkers!

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TRIKERBON 8/30/2012 1:07PM

    I'm not totally sure why we eat when we are over tired. But when I went to my sleep apnea doctor he said that after being on the CPAP machine for about 6 months my daytime tiredness will go away and I shouldn't be hungry all the time anymore. According to him I wasn't getting enough sleep at night so I would wake up tired. When you are tired your body looks for energy to sustain it (thus hunger, food is your body's fuel, energy).

He was right now that I am finally getting a full nights sleep and not feeling tired all day long my hunger has leveled off and I am finally getting my cravings and nightly binge eating under control.

Now I have learned when I start to feel tired during the day it could truly be hunger and I grab a healthy snack and after a little while my energy level is back where it should be and it keeps me outta the cookie jar!

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ELLISH 8/9/2012 4:15PM

    Everyone here hit the nail on the head. This is the reason sleep is so important to your diet and your mood. I had no clue until I tried the Sleep Challenge how important it was. My evening CRAZY URGERS were out of control until I started sleeping better and drinking more water in the evenings.

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MANILUS 8/9/2012 1:02PM

    It could be just emotional because you haven't slept well. I get the same way and feel like just eating. Glad you are fighting the urge!

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    Hello! I was browsing blogs to comment on and came across yours.

I have read a few books on "mindful eating" and a common theme is that we don't often eat for real hunger. Identifying WHY you are eating is a first step in becoming mindful, which then can lead to weight loss and achieving health goals... it's pretty cool you identified fatigue as one of your reasons for eating.

If you know being tired will make you want to eat, then build a plan with some rules for what you might allow yourself to eat when you're eating for fatigue (would crunchy celery be stimulating? what about chewing gum instead?)

Good luck with your health goals, also I hope your pain settles down.

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SLUNDQUIS 8/9/2012 12:32PM

    I know sugar is a natural stimulant, this includes carbs in moderation as well. I believe we crave to get enough energy to keep our body's going when we are very depleted of internal sources. This is why doctors turn to sugar and coffee when working there long hours. Anyway, this is just my thoughts on it, other's may know stuff I don't.

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thoughts, reflections, and inspirations

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

A couple of thoughts for this morning:

I noticed myself running my hands on my waist today. It's because it feels different - less lumpy, or something. NSV? I think it might be!

I was reading the blog of fellow sparker ELLISH and found that we (and of course many others) have problems with weekends and staying on track. So I issued him a challenge to stay in-range for calories this weekend, and he accepted! I'm really excited, it's funny how motivated I feel! The boyfriend and I have a long hike planned for Saturday, so being out of the house and away from food/wine should help. I am going to brainstorm some other strategies for keeping myself in check so that I can rise to the challenge with ELLISH.

Another sparker whose blog I was reading was lamenting how the food choices of her significant other make it more challenging to keep herself on track, but she was resolute and succeeded in resisting the temptation. This made me reflect upon how my boyfriend's decisions to take control of his weight and health has really taken down some of the biggest hurdles for me to do the same. I am so impressed with his reading of labels and the role reversals (Him to me: "Do you know how much X is in that?" Me: "Whaaa?? Oh man!") while at first are disconcerting, then become hilarious and lovely. I'm proud and so grateful. And happy to be doing this together.

I read another blog about self-love. That's what I'm going to think about for today. Being kind and loving to my self by taking care of my body and helping it to be healthier.

There is so much inspiration here on SP. Thank you all!

Have a great day fellow sparkers!

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ANDREAG89 8/8/2012 2:17PM

    It's great that the challenge has inspired you to meet your goals this weekend. I'll have to look up some challenges for myself. Thanks! And good luck!

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