Tuesday, August 16, 2011
I need a snooze button!! I knew it was inevitable, a serious discussion about having another kiddo. My hubby approached me about it and wants to start trying for a second. I feel conflicted on a number of levels. Of course I would be happy no matter what (well, maybe with the exception of multiples!), but I am worried about the timing. Which leads us to the ole' clock. I'm going to be 33 next week and I am very aware of the risks of 'advanced maternal age' starting at 35. So despite my concerns I can't help but think, "The time is now!".
I will spare you all the multitude of anxieties I'm having about the prospect of having another child, but I do want to write about my concern about my weight gain during pregnancy. I am TERRIFIED to get pregnant and gain a bunch of weight again. I hate to even say that out loud because it sounds so vain! However, I have worked SO HARD and I am still not where I want to be! I still want to lose 20 pounds more and ENJOY it some!! When I was pregnant before I had morning sickness my entire pregnancy which caused me to be so, so inactive and (ironically) to turn to comfort food to make me feel better, not a good combo. Hence, the 60+ pound weight gain.
Siiigh. I guess it will all work out like it is supposed to and there is no need to pre-worry, right? :)
Friday, July 15, 2011
I've been in a funk all day and have been fighting the urge to scarf down all the foods I've been missing in an effort to feel better. I did good though, I didn't give in. I also didn't want to go to the gym, but I forced myself to go anyway.
I am feeling really isolated and sad. I work from home and my days pretty much consist of working, going to the gym, and then coming home and taking care of my daughter. I've worked for the company I am with now since I moved here 4 years ago. The first two years I worked in the office. I was friendly with a couple of the girls there and used to hang out with one of them outside of work every now and again. Over the last year, there has been a lot of changes and I hardly know anyone that works for the company (it's small, there are about 15 of us). Today they had a baby shower for one of the girls. I will spare you all the details, but they basically forgot to tell me that they changed the location, they upped the time, and they started without me. I just happened to text one of my coworkers (that I used to be friendly with) to make sure I was going to the right place and that is when she told me they moved it and already got started! I got there and they had already ate and were more than half way through the shower!! This really, really hurt my feelings that no one thought to contact me to let me know (or even noticed I wasn't there). The one girl that I used to be friends with never calls me anymore and has basically ignored my invite to go to lunch sometime. I think maybe she is upset with me about something that happened with work a while back, but I don't have the nerve to ask her if she is still upset (I thought we talked it out). I don't know why, but I have been so emotional about this all day. I don't have extended family here and only have two people that I considered friends (and that's counting my coworker that I don't think likes me anymore!) and feel so lonely sometimes :( My poor husband has to be my EVERYTHING! I know it's probably exhausting for him. Siiigh. I'll get out of this funk soon. I just needed to blog it out...sorry, I know the bulk of this didn't have to do with weight loss... just don't want to bother my hubby with whining about it! :)
Sunday, July 10, 2011
"Purchase xy book and learn the secret to weight loss!", "Follow my program, and I will help break the fat loss code!", "What's the celebrity's secret to a svelte figure? Our weight loss cookies!", blah, blah, blah.
It's funny, when people start noticing you've lost weight you get the same two questions. Of course the first question is, "Have you lost weight?," and then the second is, "How did you do it?". I can understand why people ask how you did it, because all the advertisers want us to think that weight loss is elusive. In order to wrap your hands around the Holy Grail of weight loss you must first whip out your Visa or Mastercard. I am guilty of this too. I have half read weight loss books, have a number of fitness gadgets that quickly went to the yard sale pile, and injested magic pills that, in hindsight, I really shouldn't have.
I usually reply by saying something to the effect of, "I'm eating healthier and excersing". Hmm, imagine that! You know that commercial for those pills that says, "If you take our xy pill along with regular excercise and a healthy diet we guarantee you will lose weight", well you can subtract the pill from that equation and still get the same results!! I've been giving my response to the "How did you do it" question some thought and a light bulb came on. The real secret is this: will power. We all know what we are supposed to do to be healthy. We know that grabbing an apple is healthier than grabbing those Cheetos. We all know that going for a walk is better for us than plopping down on the couch for another Seinfeld rerun. The real secret is not something that requires a Visa or Mastercard, it is something within you, plain, ole', sticktoitedness.
Friday, July 08, 2011
I threw them away. I read on one of the motivational Spark member's pages that you should throw away those granny panties if they don't make you feel good and that is exactly what I did! They were pretty baggy on me and sure as HELL didn't make me feel good! I've been working hard and I don't need them around to remind me of how big my bootay once was! I replaced them with some nicer ones, not sexy ones yet (still workin'), but better :)
Tuesday, July 05, 2011
50 Questions (Everything you either did or did not want to know about MCKERI) and I hope, for my sake, many of you repeat this blog so I can get to know you better.
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Probably when I was upset about work.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I've been told my handwriting looks like hieroglifics (errr.. don't know how to spell that!) :)
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Ham (reduced sodium, of course).
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
I've got one crazy baby, Avery :) She just turned 2.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
OMG, I would be my bestie!
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT?
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
No. I have observed that many Southeners have their tonsils still. I think everyone up North gets them out when they are young!
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
No. I don't like the idea of bouncing and just dangling there. I would tandem skydive though!
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Now that Spark has reformed me, Multigrain Cheerios. Not so health consicious Keri used to enjoy a bowl of Coca Pebbles (okay, maybe two bowls).
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
No, never! I never thought about that!
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
I'm getting there!
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Ugh, Edy's cookie dough ice cream or Ben and Jerry's Phish food. Both contributed to my 60 pound weight gain during my pregnancy.
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
If they are friendly.
15. RED OR PINK?
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
I need to work on my patience...I'm Irish and can be kinda quick tempered sometimes!
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
My Mom. She's in Michigan and I've been down South for about ten years now. I especially miss her now that I have a little one.
18. WHAT IS THE PAUL MCKENNA TECHNIQUE THAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON THE MOST?
None, seeing as I don't have the froggiest idea who he is or what his techinques entail.
19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
N/A- My pigs are naked.
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
A delicious hamburger with swiss cheese and green chilis. My hubby cooked a new recipe from "Cook this, not that".
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
The baseball game my husband has on. Hence why I'm doing a goofy survey! :)
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
My daughter after her bath and lotion :)
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
27. HAIR COLOR?
Is growing out and lookin' kinda trashy...need to get my highlights redid.
28. EYE COLOR?
Blue, like my Dad.
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Not right now cuz I can't afford the stupid annual exam! Stupid, crappy, insurance!
30. FAVORITE FOOD?
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
The King's Speech. I finally turned it back into Netflix after, like, a month!
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Big, gray, comfy sweatshirt. It's like a hug :)
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
Depends who is on the other end.
36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Brownies and a cold glass of milk.
37. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?
I prefer cardio, but I am begining to understand and appreciate the importance of ST.
38. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?
Computer, since you can watch most TV on it too.
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
I'm not. I need to take my happy self to the library!
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
My finger. No mouse pad, gotta laptop.
42. FAVORITE SOUND?
Both Avery's and my hubby's laughter. My husband has a fantastic belly laugh!
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Beatles..."All you need is love..bababadada..."
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
CA, I guess.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
I like to draw, but I'm not sure I ever developed it enough to be considered a talent :)
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Hackley Hospital, in Muskegon, Michigan.
47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?
Greer, South Carolina.
48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE?
Beige with blue shutters and a blue door.
49. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?
Blue, with some yellow from where a gas pump pole jumped out at me :p
50. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 50 QUESTIONS?
Sure, it beats folding that basket of clothes that's waiting for me :) HAPPY SPARKING!!
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