Thursday, September 13, 2012
So, you know how sometimes life gets in the way? Anyone who has ever been a parent will understand this especially. Yesterday, life got in the way. In a good way but still.
My 3 year old was just super extra clingy yesterday, and I didn't make it to the gym. But you know what, that's ok. Today was supposed to be my rest day, but I decided to just flip the days around and I'll go tonight.
Why am I able to do this? Because I have to go with the flow of my life, and I know that I have extra time at other points in a week where I can squeeze some gym time in. So, if I don't make it for one of my scheduled workouts, for whatever reason (other than flat out laziness ), I can make it up at some other point during the week.
I'm learning that it's so important to be flexible with life. I will not always be able to control certain things. If I pigeon-hole myself into ONLY going to the gym on certain days and times, then I will never make it. Because as soon as things start to get frustrating and thrown off schedule, I will just give up.
So again today I am committing to myself. I am committing to being ok with schedule changes and upsets. I am committed to doing what feels the best for my life and family and myself. I am also committing to getting my 20 minutes in tonight, even if I half to wait until 8:30 to do it!
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Yesterday I committed to myself. I went to the gym and did my first day of the 5k rookie running program. Today, I'm making another commitment.
Today, I'm committing to go to the gym again. I have it on my calendar, and I'm not going to bail on my appointment with myself.
I'm a little sore from yesterday, but I need to get in my second day of training tonight since I didn't start earlier in the week. Tomorrow will be a cross-training day, to give my shins and hips a rest.
I can do anything for 20 minutes. Especially when only 5 of them involve actual jogging. I could have done more yesterday, but I decided that the best thing was not to over do it. I don't want to burn out. I want to maintain going to the gym and see it as a manageable task, not an unbearable chore.
I don't know what has changed in me over the past couple of weeks. I think that I'm just tired of giving up on myself. I'm also tired of being disgusted by myself. I want to be happy when I think about who I am and what I'm capable of.
Carving out 20-30 minutes a day for myself is not as hard as I like to pretend it is. Notice the way that I worded that? Because really, it's pretending. There are always 20-30 minutes in every day that I am just sitting around like a sack of potatoes. More often 2-3 hours in the evening. I can devote a small portion of that time to my health.
So, here is to another day of taking care of me. Here is to just a short amount of time that is devoted to only my own well-being.
Tomorrow will be a new day, and a new commitment. I hope that I make the same one again.
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Today I am not going to give up on myself. Yes, I am busy. Yes, there are a million things that I could be doing at any given moment. But, I am just as worthy of time and attention as are all the other things in my life.
Today, I will take the one step that seems to be the most elusive for me - exercise.
I have the time today, I know that I do. Instead of being a lump for a couple hours while waiting to get my little one from her father, I will go home, change, and go to the gym that is (literally) 2 seconds from where I pick her up.
If I am finished early, maybe I can do some window shopping for a present for my birthday, since Hubby wants to know what I want!
Today, just today, I will make this commitment to myself. Tomorrow will be a new day, and I will make a new decision about what I am going to do. I will conquer this one day at a time.
Monday, September 10, 2012
*First, I just want to say that I am no way a paid endorser for SparkPeople or SparkCoach. AT ALL! I just really love this new service, and I think that everyone should AT LEAST check out the two week free trial!*
SparkCoach, what can I say? It has all the daily motivation and accountability that you could ever need. I love it. A lot. I really enjoy the daily visualization task and the daily community action step. The visualization allows me to think about why I am on this journey to begin with. The community action step gets me involved here on Spark, gets me inspired, and helps me to (hopefully) inspire others.
We all know that there is no magic formula. But, I am certainly thinking more about my food choices. I don't want to look at my tracker and see that I blew my calorie range on something silly! I'll save it for something really worth it, like Thanksgiving :)
I struggle, but SparkCoach is giving me the courage to face my demons. Exercise is my demon. That $40/month gym membership that I pay? You guessed it, I haven't been in months. I want to change that. I'm getting to the point where I think that I CAN change that! I make excuses - I'm busy, I'm tired, I never just get to relax. I guess I'll be doing a lot of relaxing if I don't get this weight off and get my blood pressure down because I'll be stuck in a hospital bed!
I did the two week free trial of SparkCoach. Well, 13 days, and then I signed up for it. Today. I love it. It is giving me what I need.
We all approach this journey differently. If you're struggling, though, give this a try. It may be just what you need, too.
Saturday, September 01, 2012
I think this weekend has become the culmination of all my failed efforts over the summer. I don't know what I ate last night, but I ate pretty much everything that I saw, and a whole lot of it. I've been paying for it all day. After a week of bringing lunches and trying not to over eat, last night killed my system. I suppose that is reason enough not to do it again.
I reset my goals today. I need to focus. I need to fill up my life with things that do not include just sitting on the couch doing nothing. I do a lot of that these days. I have all this time right now while I'm not taking classes, and I'm just wasting it. No more. I will change this no matter what I do.
My goal for tomorrow is to drink plenty of water. I am taking my husband to BaconFest, which is sure to be a mecca for unhealthy eating, but I will do my best to find reasonable and healthy options. I am going to get up early and do something, even if it is just a video, before I leave the house. I am going to eat breakfast before I leave.
I started making better decisions this past week (bringing lunch being the biggest of these) and I need to keep that going. I cannot, no, I WILL NOT live in this body any longer. I'm sick of hating what I look like. I love the person that I am, but now it is time for the outside to match the inside.
So, binge weekend, I am kicking you to the curb. I may not be perfect for the rest of the weekend, but I'm sure going to try to be better.
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