Saturday, November 18, 2006
Literally. My guys have taken an overnight trip with my in-laws. I didn't feel like going (I love my in=laws but I don't like to travel with them...lol!) So I have been alone since noon today, they'll be back tomorrow afternoon sometime. I decided to take the day off from counting calories but don't worry, I don't have anything too dangerous (i.e.: food) in the house and I don't feel like going out. Plus I did a full 30 minute workout today (first one I've done in a while). I'm just gonna chill, watch some TV and relax tonight.
Friday, November 17, 2006
I changed my long term goal date from 12/31/2007 to 5/15/2008, which would be my 2nd year anniversary of when I began my weight loss here at Spark. I figured this will help allow time for plateaus, etc., Besides, it doesn't really matter to me whether it takes a year and a half to lose it, or two years to lose it. The point is to lose it, no matter how long it takes.
I also have a new short term goal since I already met my Thanksgiving goal of 274 - yeah me! My next short term goal is to be 265 by New Year's Day. That'll mean I need to lose 9 pounds between now and then.
Tomorrow is another day.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Before I began this weight loss journey back in May, I used to absolutely love the chicken-fried-chicken alfredo with garlic toast from Mazzio's Pizza. My mouth would drool just thinking about this stuff and I ate it far too often. Several times in the last 6 months I have thought about that dish, thinking one day I'd 'splurge' and then I'd have it.
Well that day came today. Yes, I wanted it ... real bad. Thought about it all day. Tried not to think about it but there it was, lodged in my brain. So I gave in to the temptation, hubby went to Mazzio's and brought one home to me for my dinner tonight (they were going to eat at Grandma's and I didn't want to go).
I don't know if there was something wrong with the dish, or if it was me, but after a couple of bites I realized it didn't even taste good. I thought ''what did they do it?'', thinking that Mazzio's had somehow altered this pasta dish. I didn't even eat 1/4 of it, just pushed it aside and then soon after I started feeling so nauseated and my stomach felt so 'heavy' and I so regretted eating even the small amount that I did.
And then it occurred to me, maybe they didn't change their dish; maybe it was me who changed? Hmmmmmm, do you suppose that after eating right for a long time, that we lose our taste for foods that we used to love?
So I satisfied that craving and learned a lesson in the process, I don't like that stuff anymore. I wish I'd had a bowl of oatmeal instead.
In other news, the scale is holding at 274.
At least it's holding and not up.
I am slacking badly in the exercise department. I've grown so tired of walking on the treadmill and we had been going out a few nights a week to walk but we've had rain and haven't been able to go since, I guess, Sunday. My arm is still having flare-ups with tendonitis so I can't do strength training yet. Every time I try I end up regretting it for days from the achiness in my arm. Hopefully the weather will clear up and I can get back outside walking again.
Tomorrow is another day.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
To my Spark friends: If you read this, would you please say a prayer for my cousin Joe. He has had a massive heart attack and is only 40 or 41 years old. He's younger than me. His mother died around that age from a massive heart attack, and his brother has a heart attack last year at age 42. He is married with several young kids.
I had a good day. Went for a walk and enjoyed the fall day, it was cool here today but nice. At least the sun was shining.
Becky ran her first 5K today - go Becky!! I'm so proud of her. And Laurie is going to start running again - you go girl! My Sparksisters inspire me to keep putting one foot in front of the other. What could be better than this!
Friday, November 10, 2006
I don't know what it is, or how to explain it, but I feel good today. Kind of like, I made peace with myself and I'm ready to move forward, keep working at this, and roll with the punches. I won't beat myself up anymore if I get on the scale and it hasn't moved down, I'll just keep trying. My body has it's own mind and it does things in it's own time, that's something very important that I've learned over these last 6 months (wow, has it been that long already?). I'm not quitting, I'm not stopping, I'm not backing away. I'm going forward and if it takes a year or two years to get to where I want to be, that's okay. If I'm kinder to my body, perhaps it will be kinder to me.
And I feel the need to say something to YOU, whoever you may be. You may be a person that I 'talk' to often here at Spark or you may be someone new who happened by here and left me a kind message (or maybe you didn't leave a message). Whoever you are, I really have to say this:
I am so proud of you. I am proud of the decision you have made to make a change in your lifestyle. You may need to lose 20, 30 or 40 lbs; or you may be where I am which is needing to lose over 100 lbs. Trust me when I say this, it CAN happen. All over Sparkpeople there are people who have done it, and people who are doing it right now. This will not be easy, it will not happen overnight, don't expect to wake up tomorrow and be at your goal weight. But what you can expect is to better your health, to inspire other people by telling them about your journey (like on our sparkpages), to inspire your family to want to make some needed changes in their lives, and even if no one ever says so directly to you, I think we are all encouraging others who might come by our pages and go away with gained-knowledge, some new ideas, something they learned from YOU.
I believe in what goes around, comes around. What you put out will come back to you so please, stop and encourage someone along the way. You don't have to ''know'' them to inspire them. I didn't know anyone here when I started here back in May but I have met some of the most fabulous women and seen some truly inspirational stories from just visiting people's sparkpages. Visit some new sparkpages, leave a kind comment to someone and when people support you, give them support too. None of us are going to be able to go thru this alone, we need each other.
And when you are feeling weak and tired and thoroughly sick of the whole 'diet' thing, let someone know. Ask for support if you aren't getting it, it's okay to let people know that you're struggling. We are all here for the same reason, let's all support and encourage each other along the way. You may never know, but something you say to someone today may change their lives tomorrow.
And lastly, be kind to yourselves. You're the only You that your body is ever going to have. Love it, nurture it, treat it with kindness. Be good to you because you are worthy and you are important and I am very very glad you're here.
Tomorrow is another day, be
kind to yourself and to someone else.
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