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Day 181: I feel good today

Friday, November 10, 2006

I don't know what it is, or how to explain it, but I feel good today. Kind of like, I made peace with myself and I'm ready to move forward, keep working at this, and roll with the punches. I won't beat myself up anymore if I get on the scale and it hasn't moved down, I'll just keep trying. My body has it's own mind and it does things in it's own time, that's something very important that I've learned over these last 6 months (wow, has it been that long already?). I'm not quitting, I'm not stopping, I'm not backing away. I'm going forward and if it takes a year or two years to get to where I want to be, that's okay. If I'm kinder to my body, perhaps it will be kinder to me.

And I feel the need to say something to YOU, whoever you may be. You may be a person that I 'talk' to often here at Spark or you may be someone new who happened by here and left me a kind message (or maybe you didn't leave a message). Whoever you are, I really have to say this:

I am so proud of you. I am proud of the decision you have made to make a change in your lifestyle. You may need to lose 20, 30 or 40 lbs; or you may be where I am which is needing to lose over 100 lbs. Trust me when I say this, it CAN happen. All over Sparkpeople there are people who have done it, and people who are doing it right now. This will not be easy, it will not happen overnight, don't expect to wake up tomorrow and be at your goal weight. But what you can expect is to better your health, to inspire other people by telling them about your journey (like on our sparkpages), to inspire your family to want to make some needed changes in their lives, and even if no one ever says so directly to you, I think we are all encouraging others who might come by our pages and go away with gained-knowledge, some new ideas, something they learned from YOU.

I believe in what goes around, comes around. What you put out will come back to you so please, stop and encourage someone along the way. You don't have to ''know'' them to inspire them. I didn't know anyone here when I started here back in May but I have met some of the most fabulous women and seen some truly inspirational stories from just visiting people's sparkpages. Visit some new sparkpages, leave a kind comment to someone and when people support you, give them support too. None of us are going to be able to go thru this alone, we need each other.

And when you are feeling weak and tired and thoroughly sick of the whole 'diet' thing, let someone know. Ask for support if you aren't getting it, it's okay to let people know that you're struggling. We are all here for the same reason, let's all support and encourage each other along the way. You may never know, but something you say to someone today may change their lives tomorrow.

And lastly, be kind to yourselves. You're the only You that your body is ever going to have. Love it, nurture it, treat it with kindness. Be good to you because you are worthy and you are important and I am very very glad you're here.


Tomorrow is another day, be
kind to yourself and to someone else.

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LAURIEBIZZ 11/11/2006 1:14PM

    Amen sister... coudln't have said it any better!

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LABYRINTH 11/11/2006 12:17PM

    I think this is my best blog of yours yet. Good decisions. A lot of wisdom. You are getting where you need to be mentally - and when that falls into place - your body will get to where it needs to be physically.

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Day 180: Ch-ch-ch-ch Changes

Thursday, November 09, 2006

I decided to change my goal from wanting to reach 150 by Dec 31, 2007 to losing 150 lbs by May 15, 2008. This will be the 2nd anniversary of my lifestyle change and it will allow time for plateaus and I think it will allow me to be a little kinder to myself.

I was also down to 274 this morning.

Here's to a new me and a new way of embracing life.

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LINDAMB 11/10/2006 7:07PM

  Thanks for visiting my page today! And congrats on your success! I just love your Spark Page!!

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LAURIEBIZZ 11/9/2006 8:24PM

    Awesome on the 274 BTW!! Have you heard anything more about Grayson? Love ya bunches!!

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LAURIEBIZZ 11/9/2006 8:23PM

    Hey, I think that is a great idea! You are so smart and working so hard. I'm glad to see that you are doing so well and are such and inspiration to many people. I see people leaving you comments all the time, you should be proud of yourself. Not only are you helping yourself, but other people along the way!

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Day 179: Weighed today

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

And the scale said 275.5, the last time I weighed it was 279 so at least it's down a little. Not a lot of progress but at least it's something. I just keep working at it and I think I've finally come to the realization that my body does what it does, when it does it, and there's not a whole lot I can do about that. As long as I keep working at it, whether I lose a pound or two at a time, or only a couple pounds per month, at least I'm still trying. I'm not a quitter until I completely stop trying, which I don't intend to do. I'm tired of the pressure I put on myself to lose it faster and trying to keep up with other people. I am who I am, my body has a mind of it's own, and I can only do what it allows me to do when it comes to weight loss.

I'm doing my best and that's good enough for me.

Tomorrow is another day.

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LABYRINTH 11/8/2006 11:17PM

    Two great things - you are DOWN on weight and you are getting more comfortable with accepting the journey and the time it takes. This will serve you very well friend as you continue to have success! Bravo!

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JUDYSPOSITIVE 11/8/2006 8:30PM

Way to go, I knew the scale would move for you. Great job. Sometimes we just have to listen to our bodies and let things happen the way it wants to. It's not just a little loss it's a big one and I am really proud of you.

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LAURIEBIZZ 11/8/2006 7:55PM

    I love your background!!! Yeah on the weight loss :)

Your best is all I expect :) You are doing great!!

Love ya-

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Day 176: not much to report on

Sunday, November 05, 2006

It's my TOM so I haven't done much the last couple of day. I haven't really exercised all week and have no scale in the house so I don't know where my weight is.

My TOM should be over by Tuesday and that's when I'm gonna get going again. To my surprise, I think I've discovered that my back really does feel better when I exercise.

Hubby is sick today and it's cold and rainy so I put some turkey tenderloins in the crockpot for supper tonight and we've stayed in all day, with the exception of one quick run to the store that I made.

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JOE_ANNE2 11/6/2006 5:27PM

    Hi KELLSS_43, that's a great idea, the crockpot. I bought one a couple months ago and only used it once. Best wishes on beginning again.
mom to Angel RILEY

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LAURIEBIZZ 11/5/2006 7:53PM

    I hear ya on the not exercising... I think I made it on the elliptical machine once :( Oh..... we love turkey here... I just bought 5lbs from Sam's today, mixed half with seasoning and made into burgers for the freezer and then put the last 2lbs into two seperate bags for big things like chili. I was really suprised at how much my kids love turkey. We also bought a bag of frozen Tilapia and Salmon - we are trying to eat fish more. I don't think I've had red meat for several weeks... and I LOVE steak and woudl normally have it 3-4 times a week :) Yeah me :)

Hope Dave feels better soon.
Love ya-

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Day 172: I have a sad mommy-heart

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Today was the visit with the pediatric orthopedist. The news was not very good. He says that Grayson's flat feet are the worst he's ever seen. He was utterly shocked to find out Gray doesn't have any real pain in his feet but he says it is just a matter of time.

He told us that he needs some time to do some more 'extensive' research and decide what kind of options we might need to consider but that major foot surgery is going to be a definite necessity. He says the condition of Gray's feet is already past the point where orthotics would make a difference, in his opinion. He wants to see us again in 3 months (January; he says the time won't make a difference). Dave and I both have a feeling that at some point we're going to be sent down to Arkansas Children's Hospital. The doctor said that this condition will only worsen and could even get to a point where he'd need to use a wheelchair, if left untreated. And that as he grows, he will encounter more and more problems with his feet.

We now know that this is the reason he does not run fast, can't pedal his bike, can't climb or go up and down stairs easily, his feet simply do not have the flexibility needed to do some of these simple things that we all take for granted.

Grayson heard him use the words 'cut into his bone' and immediately started crying and got very upset.


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LAURIEBIZZ 11/1/2006 11:57AM

    Kelly, I'm so sorry to hear about Grayson. Do get a second opinion and know that he will be in our prayers. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better.

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JUDYSPOSITIVE 10/31/2006 11:04PM

I am so sorry the report from the doctor wasn't what you were hoping for. Let's hope and pray that the doctors can come up with the best plan for him. It sounds like he has been very lucky so far not to be in pain. I hope they can get a start on getting things improved for him before the pain sets in. It must be a scary time for all of you. It's unfortunate that he had to hear those words from the doctor. Keep me posted on how things progress. I will be thinking of you and your family through all this.

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LABYRINTH 10/31/2006 4:59PM

    Kelly - I'm sorry that the news was not good. Remember though this is the initial appt. with the doctor. Kids also recover and heal so quickly so it's best to get it down at Grayson's young age. I remember when my daughter first had to hear about her surgery for her broken arm.. hearing about it is the scariest thing for these kids but once they wake up they inevitably forget how scared they were and sail through it. ((hugs))

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TABBYRUINZ 10/31/2006 4:12PM

    I am really sorry to hear y'all are having such a time. Dealing with our children's woes I think is probably harder than dealing with our own. I will be saying some prayers for you!

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FAVATACHICK 10/31/2006 3:22PM

  Sorry bout the sad heart today! How old is he?
I read your blog, cause I am a Kelly also and can relate to a sad heart...
I hope it goes well in January and will keep ya'll in my thoughts and prayers.

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