Frustration

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

This is just a frustrating day. I've had my rear end handed to me for something that was in no way my fault. I'm not hungry because it's so hot out. I just want to go home and sit in the ac and do domestic things. This is just a BS day.

  

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MARYANN2323 7/20/2011 6:12PM

Don't do it girl. You don't want to get the taste for things that are just not good for you right now. Just cause you have room in your meal planner today doesn't mean you have room in your pants for it. Eat healthy tonight, even if it means you stay below your total cals. for the day. Give yourself a pat on the back instead, for not letting them at work put you at risk of a back slide. You are better than that! Report Inappropriate Comment

KELLYDRESCHER 7/20/2011 4:28PM

The hard part is trying to decide if I should go ahead and eat comfort food. I have plenty of room in my meal planner (plus I need to eat a good sized meal), but I don't want to go back to my old habit of eating for comfort. Report Inappropriate Comment

MARYANN2323 7/20/2011 4:16PM

It won't be long and the day will be over. Don't let this sort of thing screw you around. You know it wasn't your fault and hopefully they'll realize it too. Don't take this kind of crap home with you. Report Inappropriate Comment

But this seat is open!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

My weight used to mean that I always got a seat to myself on public transportation. Taking the bus, subway or train is a part of my "city life," and getting a seat to yourself can be a real treat. It was a way that my weight actually protected me. My body would ever so slightly spill over into the next seat because someone in some government agency (who probably drives a car instead of taking public transit) thought that butts are no bigger than a Matchbox car.

I have been working hard, my clothes fit better... so why is the seat next to me still empty? Why are people still standing rather than sitting next to me. Okay, it might be because we value our personal space. Maybe they would rather stand than sit right next to anyone? Still... there's plenty of room next to me. You won't be squished into the arm rest - I promise.

Shortly before I got off, a woman did end up sitting next to me. I have to say it felt really good when I looked over and noticed that we both had plenty of room. I didn't have to cozy up to the window in an uncomfortable manner, and she didn't have to lean into the aisle. It was a redeeming part of the trip. Someday, people will elect to sit next to me first.

  

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LUCKYPRESENCE 7/20/2011 4:15PM

Personally, I would have been ok to have the space. I am very much into having my personal bubble. I hate nothing more than when I have to be in a confined space with someone else. But, I see your point too. Report Inappropriate Comment

LEYDHAWK 7/20/2011 11:05AM

Yay! That's a tangible change to notice. Remember, some of those people who are standing are also concerned about their own size and might not want to feel like they are squishing YOU. Report Inappropriate Comment

MARYANN2323 7/19/2011 3:07PM

It's amazing how the littlest thing can really make your day. It may seem insignificant but really it's a great esteem boost. Good for you! Report Inappropriate Comment

SAHEDGES01 7/19/2011 11:20AM

It's the little things that keep us going, isn't it?? Here's to hoping that you have to share your seat henceforth and that every couple of those sharings involve meeting someone with whom you can have a worthwhile conversation! Report Inappropriate Comment

JACOBY46 7/19/2011 11:09AM

Unfortunately, that is Society...ughhhh Report Inappropriate Comment

Dachshunds at the race

Monday, July 18, 2011

I work in the city, and my work day is book-ended with the rush-hour commute on the train. The second worst thing to that is the mad pack of people getting on or off the train at the same time. It's really the most ridiculous thing to watch, and yet I understand the necessity of making sure you get a seat for the 50-minute ride... or getting off early enough that you are on-time for work.

I like walking, but my hamstrings are usually so tight that I don't go fast. I'm always asking Mr. to slow up a bit so we can walk together. I've even felt my tendons screaming for me to take it a little easy. I also was gifted with a long torso, which means shorter than average legs. (I'll give you an idea - I'm technically tall, but average length is still a little too long. As a cruel joke, petite is just too short to wear.) Then I'll get someone whiz by me at a break neck (for walking) speed. In my head I'll think, "Whoa, there buddy. Slow down. I doubt you're training for the Olympic speed walking team in that skirt and blouse/suit." Secretly, I was a little jealous that that person could move quite that quickly. My short legs just don't seem to go that fast. It's like watching a dachshund trying to keep up with a greyhound.

Today, that all changed. For the first time, I was the person whizzing around the slow walkers. While I did seem to get every light in my favor, I managed to cut a full minute off my walk from the station to work! I couldn't believe that the dachshund could really outpace the other dogs, but there I was. I was taking nice, long, confident strides. I felt ready to take on the day at work. I look forward to taking on the big dogs again tomorrow.

  

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MARYANN2323 7/18/2011 4:40PM

You paint such a vivid picture. I can see you now. WooHoo. Way to go! Report Inappropriate Comment

heat & exhaustion

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Yesterday was Mr's company picnic. It was Hogwart's themed, and there was even a Quiddich match. Yes, I played a game with the kids. Mr. and I were the only adults out there.

Mr. has wanted me to do more active things with him, and I've never really felt like doing it before. My weight has always slowed me down. Yesterday, though, I thought I'd give it a whirl. I didn't move fast, but I enjoyed being a kid again for a little while.

Now, the problem was it was 90 degrees outside. I didn't realize how hot it was until I got in the shade and didn't want to move. Don't worry, I got plenty of cold water and rest after that. I also went straight to bed after we got home, and I got about 12 hours of sleep.

While I don't plan to push myself that hard again in that kind of heat, it was nice to sleep because my body was really tired. I feel totally refreshed and ready to take on this morning... not so sure about the afternoon though. :)

  

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SAHEDGES01 7/19/2011 11:27AM

I bet that was an awesome company picnic!! I had the same thoughts this weekend. A friend of mines bf left for AT (National Guard) for two weeks and she was super bummed, doing her laundry at the laundry mat on a beautiful Saturday. I brought Laser tag guns to cheer her up. Twenty minutes outside the laundromat 'shooting each other' and running around like little goons, and we were wiped out! It's been such a warm summer! Report Inappropriate Comment

MARYANN2323 7/17/2011 5:21PM

You go girl!! Glad to hear you didn't hold back. That's what it's all about. If you want to do it then DO IT! It's all about you. Report Inappropriate Comment

Wedding food

Friday, July 15, 2011

Mr. and I met with the caterer two nights ago, and it's all starting to feel very real to me now. The guy was just great, and we both feel very comfortable using him for our wedding.

I realized, as we were talking with him, that my approach to serving foods to others had changed. I asked about how we could make things as healthy as possible within a budget. We're using small portions of wedding cake, but there will also be fruit available for anyone who would like the lighter side of sweet. There will be plenty of water, lemonade and iced tea; the access to soda will be very limited. There will be some who just don't care as long as they are fed, but there are plenty of other people who will be grateful that we have options. (We are also asking people, in the RSVP, to let us know of any dietary concerns)

I also realized, I'm not worried about food that day. I will work my butt off for the next 11 months, but I will enjoy that day. I will not count calories or worry about how much exercise I got in that week. I'm also fairly sure that I am going to have to work at getting food in that day... oh my poor nerves! (giggle)

  

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MARYANN2323 7/17/2011 1:58AM

Oh to go back to the time when we were planning our own wedding. It was such a fun time. Frustrating at times, but fun. It's great to see you are incorporating healthy fare into your reception. So many people never even think of something like that. It's just stuff their faces and be done. Congrats to you. You're definately thinking like a fit & healthy person. All the best. M. Report Inappropriate Comment

SHANDIEGO 7/15/2011 12:39PM

Congrats! How exciting! Report Inappropriate Comment