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Never Ever Give Up and Self Realization

Sunday, March 03, 2013

Happy Sunday to all

I had a great day yesterday with family and friends. I didn't get much exercise in and I had a big dinner with friends but I was still happy because it was a good day. So much could have gone wrong and it didn't .

So I'm not sure why I was in a funk this morning. I was one with the couch. I'm three months into maintenance and I was slipping so I got mad at myself and sat still even longer.

About 10:00, I finally got up to walk the dog. It was about 28 degrees but it was very sunny so it was a good walk. When I got home, I felt energized and thought about running outside, something I haven't done since November.

That 40-degree day in November, I couldn't run the two miles I had worked up to so I joined a gym to keep running inside during the winter and to get ready for the St. Patrick's Day 5K. I hate to say, it's been frustrating. My time has not improved. I signed up with a trainer for strength training and yet my running time has not improved! I keep blaming it on the humidity in the building. I barely get started and I'm a sweaty mess.

So today after walking the dog, without over-thinking it, I pulled out the cold-weather running clothes and got out there. The first five minutes, I was saying bad words in my head about this being a dumb idea. I kept complaining in my head that I was freezing and that I'm not going to make it.

To my surprise, I felt lighter on my feet and ran longer before needing a walking break. The 28-degree cold did not bother my chest as bad as it did on that 40-degree day in November. The songs on my running playlist helped spur me on when after two miles, I was starting to give up.

As I was getting closer to home, I kept telling myself I was going to have to pass my house up to reach three miles, just a few houses I kept telling myself, it will be okay, just a few houses and I'll be done, I'm almost there. As I got to my driveway, I heard the coach on Map My Run app announce I had reached three miles in 33 minutes, not sure how many seconds. I got tears in my eyes and the biggest smile on my face, did a little dance into the driveway. Back in November, it took me 34 to 38 minutes.

I realized today that I am stronger than I thought I was, that I am improving and getting stronger every day. All of those workouts and bad running times, were important. Any moving, any activity is better than sitting on the couch. Tomorrow is another chance to continue on the path I started!

To anyone still reading this blog, please do not ever give up! Never think your workouts are not accomplishing anything, even when they are hard to get through. Never stop eating healthy even if you have an off day and down a whole bag of chips and dip, followed by a pint of ice cream.

Everything is cumulative, each step builds on another. Never stop taking one more step in the right direction. If you have run way off course, take a small step to get back on the right track, then take another and then take another and tell yourself this is a good thing, it is not pointless.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful Sunday!

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HDMCG05 3/15/2013 4:52PM

    Good job!!! I'm very happy for you!!! I need to be more like you!

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KIM2260 3/9/2013 5:58PM

    You are my motivation.............. emoticon thank you emoticon for the great blog

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ANDY_54 3/9/2013 9:30AM

    This is a great motivating blog for me--thanks for posting!

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HAKAPES 3/8/2013 2:57AM

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Well done!

Very happy for you!

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AM_MORRIS87 3/7/2013 8:54PM

    Kellie this is so awesome!!!! I am so proud of you!!!! :)

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WATERMELLEN 3/7/2013 8:08AM

    So happy to see your anniversary blog in the spotlight and your motivator status: and this blog really tells the story about how hard it is to sustain the motivation for maintenance!! You can and will do it . . . . every day.

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INAFFIT319 3/7/2013 6:49AM

    Thank you for sharing this! I appreciate your honestly and your strength.
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TDEMAIO2 3/4/2013 6:26AM

    Thank you : )

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DARLY55 3/3/2013 7:18PM

    Thank you!
This is the message I needed to read today! I sense that I am getting stronger and I see evidence that effect, but sometimes when a workout doesn't feel right, I begin to feel like I am wasting my time. But, reading this shows me that I am not the only one who has less than stellar workouts sometimes. Pushing through them makes us faster and stronger. Never give up!
Thank you!!!

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TORTISE110 3/3/2013 4:31PM

    You are showing us how it's done. What a fine blog!

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SHERYLDS 3/3/2013 3:29PM

    "stronger than I thought I was"
love those words.....
GO FOR IT

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SUSUSUZZZIE 3/3/2013 2:22PM

    What a wonderful blog! I'm so happy for you.

I can so relate to the "humidity in the gym" and saying bad words in my head when it is tough!

I'm so proud of you for getting off the couch, which is often THE HARDEST part! And then you went out in the cold and had a wonderful run.

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A Spoonful of Sugar lyrics change

Thursday, February 28, 2013

Sparker Sherylds blogged recently that she was thinking about the song from Mary Poppins, A Spoonful of Sugar when she works out. I thought that was great considering that song knocks around my head often when I have to talk myself into a workout.

Many times I change up the lyrics in my head and keep meaning to jot it down for fun. So for kicks and giggles, here you go....

In every job that must be done
There is an element of fun
You find the fun and SPARK!
The jobís a game
And every streak you undertake
Becomes a piece of cake
A lark, a spree itís very clear to seeÖ.

That some time on sparkpeople makes the healthy easier
Stronger muscles build blood pressure will go down
Just some time on sparkpeople makes the workout easier
In a healthy body way

A sparker logging all the food has very little time to brood
While planning healthy snacks throughout the day
Though quite intent in the pursuit we need a merry tune to toot
We know a song will move the job along!

Don't worry, I won't quit my day job to become a song writer. Just needed a mental health break.

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TDEMAIO2 3/1/2013 6:16AM

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TORTISE110 3/1/2013 1:33AM

    Sweet!

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LISAREADS 2/28/2013 1:57PM

    Very funny and ALL TRUE!
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CHAQUITA73 2/28/2013 1:16PM

    LOL!!! :-) Keep on singing!!

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Six Month Sparkaversary & Three months maintaining

Saturday, February 23, 2013

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On August 24, 2012, I got back on SparkPeople for the second time. I hit my goal weight on November 24, 2012. Maybe my lucky number should be 24!

It's a small victory but I'll take it. I have lost weight several times over the last 20 years but the minute I was able to buy smaller sized clothes or someone complimented me, BAM! The scale inched up again. So keeping my weight down for three months is a bit of an achievement for me!

Thanks to my spark friend Sususuzzi, I joined the group At Goal And Maintaining + Transitioning to Maintanance. They are a great group of people that really keep me focused. I also belong to the 1 Day Challenge team. Mkate88 is great at leading a challenge each day. Today I joined the SparkPeople Four Week Stress Busting Challenge. I've come a long way but still need to get a handle on managing stress.

It seems that there are so many gizmos and plans on the market to help you lose weight but not so much in the area of maintainance. So many ads out there.... "look at me in my bikini or size four jeans after two months." so much focus on getting skinny, not so much on overall health and wellness.

On SparkPeople, there is so much education and support AND IT'S FREE. It's not just about a number on a scale. I am constantly inspired by the blogs I read. There are so many people out there facing more difficult challenges than I do and they are making themselves healthy and changing their mindsets.

It's nice being more slender than I used to be but what I love more....

I can run up the 40+ stairs to my car every day after work and feel ok emoticon

I can run 5Ks when I never used to be able to run half a block emoticon

I can do 20 push-ups on my toes when 10 used to be a struggle on my knees emoticon

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Making healthy food choices, eating smaller portions has become easier emoticon

This is the stuff that really makes me feel good about myself, more so than my size. I want to have strong muscles as I age and I want to live life as I age instead of living from one doctor's appointment or hospital visit to the next.

Here's to three more months of maintenance!

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BROWNCOFIDDLER 3/14/2013 10:05PM

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Totally agree. Health is much more important than clothing size.

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MANILUS 3/12/2013 4:15PM

    Congrats and happy to hear you are looking for health, not just a size!!

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PAM_COOPER 3/12/2013 1:22PM

    Congratulations!!!! I am at 3 months maintenance too---BUT probably can't do all the exercise feats you mention--still, I am happy with my accomplishment.

I am very excited that you have done SO well----keep up the momentum and one day it will be a 'natural'. (That's what I am telling myself!)

Looking forward to reading more of your posts AND being motivated by your insights.

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    Congrats on reaching your goal and staying there! Keep up the great work! emoticon

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FIREFLY_MEDIC 3/8/2013 6:19PM

    :)

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ANDSHEEWAS 3/8/2013 10:02AM

    As it is my birthday, August 24 is a great milestone day! Keep up the good work!

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LOGOULD 3/8/2013 8:59AM

    Thanks for the rminder of how precious those gift of health are. Part of that slippery slope to regaining weight for me has always been taking for granted the wonderful advances I had made and then letting the behaviors that got me there fall to the wayside. With the support and encouragement of the At Goal & Maintaining or Transitioning to Maintenance Team, maybe I can minimize my time on the slope and continue the climb to the pinnacle of success.

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JOANNEHOLL1 3/8/2013 12:21AM

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This is an exciting time of your life. Live it with all gusto. Those of us who are part way "over the hill" are your greatest cheerleaders!

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SUSIEMT 3/7/2013 10:04PM

    You are awesome! Keep up the good work!

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-SHOREIDO- 3/7/2013 9:20PM

    To the "Bean"
Loved the blog! Well written! A "feel good" shared is what it is and I'm so glad you shared with all of us.
I lknow I related to it and I'm sure lots of othere Sparkers did too!!
Isn't Sparkpeople such a great place to motivate and learn. Show and tell etc etc.
Enjoy it all!!
ginny (GMondello) emoticon Keep sharing!!

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SCOUTMOM715 3/7/2013 9:00PM

    emoticon emoticon I love your Non-Scale victories!!! emoticon

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STORYCRAFTER 3/7/2013 7:38PM

    Way to go, Kellie! Thanks for the inspiring post!

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DESERTJULZ 3/7/2013 3:21PM

    And now, you can maintain forever, which is ever so much more impressive than losing in the first place emoticon

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DIANNEMT 3/7/2013 1:23PM

    WooHoo!!

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POPSY190 3/7/2013 1:11PM

    Congratulations on your anniversary! Health and well being are truly the bottom line! Well done!

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PRESBESS 3/7/2013 1:06PM

    I am so happy for you. Stay plugged in and keep up the good work!
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_LINDA 3/7/2013 12:23PM

    Happy, Happy Anniversary!! Way to focus on non scale victories!! That really is the key, to be able to enjoy doing physical things and not end up as a train wreck :)
Keep up the great work and enjoy many more maintenance anniversarys!
Welcome to the team!!

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MILLIE5522 3/7/2013 11:32AM

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MOONCHILD8 3/7/2013 11:22AM

    Congratulations! on the three months. This is the hardest thing to do. I also have reached a goal and then could not maintain. Best wishes for many more. Linda from bean town emoticon emoticon

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MKELLY72 3/7/2013 10:17AM

    Love those lists of non-scale victories! Those are the things that keep us going!
Michelle

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FITMOMINNJ 3/7/2013 10:07AM

    Congratulations:) You have every right to feel proud of yourself:) emoticon emoticon

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MEXGAL1 3/7/2013 10:06AM

    great job and happy anniversary!

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MIDROAD 3/7/2013 9:28AM

    Very well put, thank you!

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OOLALA53 3/7/2013 9:26AM

    This is your new life. There will likely be bumps along the way over the years. It takes a few years for it to become the real norm. Maintenance is about just getting back to the routine as soon as possible, same day, preferably, so that you get to those benchmark years that much faster! And that way the slips are blips. That's why whatever we're doing has to fit reasonably into real life.

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BIGPAWSUP 3/7/2013 9:11AM

    You are amazing!

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KANOE10 3/7/2013 8:57AM

    Great job of maintaining your loss. You exercise and are getting fit! very inspirational. emoticon

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MANDELOVICH 3/7/2013 8:45AM

    Congratulations on getting to goal, on maintaining, and on all the wonderful NSV's! Very inspiring indeed!!

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WATERMELLEN 3/7/2013 8:04AM

    Well done on losing and maintaining! You've got it figured out!!

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MOMMY445 3/7/2013 7:59AM

    that is fabulous news! woo hoo! way to go!

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NUOVAELLE 3/7/2013 7:51AM

    Congratulations on creating a better and healthier version of yourself!
Keep it up!
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NELLJONES 3/7/2013 7:33AM

    Congrats on finding the reasons to keep on keeping on!!

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CHERYL_ANNE 3/7/2013 7:10AM

    You are inspiration to those of of us who are approaching our goal weight and are looking for Sparkers who model maintenance in a positive and realistic manner. I wish you much continued success!
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SLENDERELLA61 3/7/2013 7:00AM

    Here's to one strong woman!! Congrats. See you on the At Goal and Maintaining message boards!

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MAREE1953 3/7/2013 5:04AM

    Great blog, my friend and fellow maintainer!

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DSJB9999 3/7/2013 4:46AM

    emoticon emoticon on three months achieving, you are looking fabulous
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VTRICIA 3/6/2013 7:31PM

    Thanks for sharing this! So true how little support there is for maintaining weight loss.

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CELIAMINER 3/6/2013 12:06PM

    Happy maintenance emoticon !

Keep celebrating milestones!

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PMRUNNER 3/6/2013 5:30AM

    Awesome! thanks for sharing

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HAKAPES 3/6/2013 5:25AM

    Congratulations for the 3 months on the go!
Please continue to share your insights of the journey! :-)
You achievements sound great - even bigger then the actual weight loss.

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SUSUSUZZZIE 2/24/2013 12:03PM

    HAPPY HAPPY Six Months on SP and HAPPY HAPPY Three Months of Maintenance!
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WOW! An unexpected shout out! LOL!

I'm loving the AGAMTM Team even though I'm only starting to think about the transistion. I'm feeling more prepared for the next steps.

I was just thinking today about all the marketing towards weight loss compared to nothing for maintenance. Maintenance just isn't as provoking as weight loss and before and after pictures. I'm so grateful for finding the AGAMTM Team to be my positive role models and I'm glad the team is helping you as well!

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DAYHIKER 2/24/2013 10:36AM

    Awesome job!! Maintaining is, in some ways, harder than losing because there are no feel good rewards of a dropping scale or looser clothes. I'm with you on not wanting to live from doctor visit to doctor visit! emoticon

Best wishes for continued success!! emoticon
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LORILEEPAGE 2/24/2013 8:45AM

    It is a good day for you to celebrate! I'll join in with you!
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I'm with you on not wanting to live from Drs appointment to Drs appointment or hospital visit to hospital visit!!!

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TORTISE110 2/24/2013 7:45AM

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A Night At The Gym

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

I met with my trainer last night at 8pm. That's my prime falling-asleep-on-the-couch-watching-tv time. Not to mention it was flipping freezing out but I made it there. I missed my last appointment last week so I couldn't say no.

After the severe abdominal torture he put me through, he brought me out to the main gym area and started hooking up this contraption that for a second reminded me of watching my daughter get hooked up for the bungee jump attraction at Great America years ago.

I felt my eyes shoot open as I asked what he thought he was going to do with that! It was TRX suspension training. You use your body weight to push and pull yourself through various exercises. Holy hades batman!!!! I was soaked in sweat and saying bad words but was really jazzed when I got done that I did that. It certainly wasn't pretty but I did it!

At one point I was trying not to laugh as I got in push-up position, then he helped put my feet in this thing which kept my feet and legs suspended in the air behind me. How incredibly not feminine that looked! I just kept thinking this 23 year old kid is helping me get in stirrups upside down! I dipped down into a push-up then pulled my knees into my chest as I came up. I felt EVERY muscle working!!!!

It occurred to me after a few minutes that I had stopped worrying about how ridiculous I looked. I found spots to focus on while I huffed, puffed and grunted my way through this.

I came home and looked up TRX suspension training on line. A little too steep for my budget to buy for home but boy that was cool. I can't wait to go back and do that again!!

I will leave you with a thought for the day from Dr. Seuss....

You have brains in your head
You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself any direction you choose
You're on your own and you know what you know
And you are the guy who'll decide where to go.

Happy hump day! Steer yourself in a great direction today!

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TORTISE110 2/20/2013 1:33PM

    Sounds like a breakthrough workout!

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Weekend workouts

Sunday, February 17, 2013

I've been lazy the last couple weeks. I've been slacking off logging my food. I've been getting workouts in but it's been a struggle, I've really had to drag myself to the gym or popping in a video. This is where I start to falter after I lose weight.

After an argument in my head, I started getting ready for the gym. I realized I hadn't done laundry in a few days.....no clean workout clothes. UGH! forget it, I thought, I'm too tired anyway. But I had just posted on SP that I was doing this so I had to figure it out.

I pulled on a pair of thin spandex/polyester pants I wear under my jeans when I ride my motorcycle in chili weather, an old ugly Tshirt and sorry to admit, a sports bra that was less than fresh. Seriously, I wasn't going to go there to hug anyone. I COULD NOT BELIEVE I was going out in public like this!

I got there later than I usually do and sure enough, all treadmills were full. AAACK! I almost went home. Instead I went into the weight machine room and killed time doing some upper body work. I tried some new machines I haven't used before which felt good.

Finally, a free treadmill! I caught a glimpse of myself in those pants I normally wouldn't be caught dead in and hey, not as bad as I thought. Not good mind you but not noticeably horrendous. Gave me a little more umph on the treadmill.

Today, I watched Safe House with my husband and felt a nap coming on. I pushed myself off the couch, bundled up and took the dog for a 15minute walk, then did the deck of cards workout I saw on Biggest Loser. You assign an exercise to each suit and then one by one, flip the cards over and perform that exercise however many times the number shows. It took me 15 sweaty minutes to get through the deck, then I jumped on my elliptical for 20 minutes.

I have to remember this post-workout feeling. This week will be TOM so I'm in for a challenging week.

I hope everyone had a positive day today!

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SUSUSUZZZIE 2/17/2013 10:17PM

    You may not feel it, but you rock! Going to the gym when we don't really feel it is so hard. Then you add clothes challenges, a busy gym (I really hate that), etc. That makes it an even bigger accomplishment!

And awesome NSV on looking pretty darn good in those pants. You know we are all our own worst critics so you probably looked even better than you thought. LOL!

Keep pushing this week! Make some little goals or keep telling us what you will do - you seem very goal oriented - to help hold yourself accountable. And if you have a tough day and it doesn't work, don't beat yourself up!

Have a wonderful week!


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KELLIEBEAN 2/17/2013 9:34PM

    Thanks guys. I appreciate your supportive comments!

I've never been able to maintain a weight loss in the past. I feel myself slipping back into old habits lately so it really helps me to blog and post, keeps me accountable.

Unfortunately I have to work tomorrow. I hope you all have a great star to the week!

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LORILEEPAGE 2/17/2013 8:03PM

    I like that deck of cards workout idea! I'd love to know more about it!

Have a great week!

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AM_MORRIS87 2/17/2013 7:17PM

    Kellie, that's awesome!!!!!!!!!!! Great job not only getting your exercise in, but fighting the blahs when you were just NOT feeling it!

Hahaha, the sports bra thing made me laugh. I'm the same way about my workout clothes needing to be fresh to death. If I feel like they smell weird, I am like super anxious the whole time. I also have to drench my HRM in Febreze because it... um stinks lol.

Are you off work tomorrow? Hopefully you are, but if not, I hope you have a great start to your week! :)

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BECCAR6 2/17/2013 6:59PM

    You should be so proud of yourself for the decisions you made. So many reasons NOT to do it and you did it anyway. Great job! emoticon

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