Sunday, December 30, 2012
I had a great workout yesterday. Now if only I could turn my brain off at the gym, maybe I'd get a lot more done.
I'm a people watcher and wonderer. I wonder what they do, where they were and what they were doing before they came to the gym and what they will be doing later. You could plant me in the middle of a mall and I'd be entertained all day.
I started out with 10 minutes on the elliptical to warm up. The TVs mounted on the machines are in my way rather than entertain me. I need to look around!
I then hit the weight machine room. At first it was just me and a lookalike of the late great Michael Clarke Duncan (Green Mile). As I'm struggling with my third set of 10 lb bicep curls, the internal dialogue starts in my head as I watch him.... "wow, that's a lot of weight. No way, ANOTHER set???! those muscles are gonna pop, hey, focus, keep good form."
As I started doing standing wood choppers at 30 pounds, another guy comes in, stands in front of the mirror, stares for about 30 seconds and walks out. The internal dialogue starts in my head again.... I picture the SNL skit... Daily Affirmations with Stuart Smily pops in my head... "I'm good enough, I'm smart enough and doggon it people like me." I have to tell myself to focus again as I start to lose my balance remembering how funny it was when Michael Jordon did that skit!
I get done with the weight machines, upper body feeling sufficiently depleted and find a treadmill in the back for a 35-minute run. The gym is pretty crowded! I pick a treadmill only to find it's not working GRRR. The only other treadmill open is between two guys. I've lost some weight but still very self conscience. I have to be in the back, preferably not right next to anyone!
Not only am I getting waves of sweat smell from both of them but obviously one smokes as that smell was wafting over me as well. No offense to any smokers reading this but that smell nauseates me. I tell myself to suck it up and soldier on.
I clip my ipod to my new workout pants and start a slow jog. With every step, I felt my ipod flapping, then I felt my pants sliping down. Internal dialoge starts... "NO WAY, I just bought these! MY PANTS ARE SLIPPING DOWN, MY PANTS ARE SLIPPING DOWN, EVERYBODY CELEBRATE!"
Six years ago, I started trying to lose weight to get slender (I hate the word skinny), to lose the 40 pounds I put on after I moved in with my husband. In the past three years, I stopped thinking about slender and just wanted to get strong. I don't want to age like my mother.
After running (can't really call what I did running) the Warrior Dash in 2011, I became even more determined to work on strength and endurance. I still have a ways to go but I see slender has come with all the cardio and strength training I've been working on lately.
I set my goal on spark people back in August for 140 pounds. All the charts say I should be 128-135. I always figured that would be impossible to achieve. So I set 140 thinking I may not even get to that. But I did about a month ago. This morning I am 137. I can't remember the last time I saw anything in the 130s on the scale.
That feels really good but what feels even better is that I can run up 34 stairs in the parking garage at work to my car, which I do every day, and I no longer feel like I'm gonna die or that my thighs are gonna snap. While Christmas shopping a couple weeks ago, after every store, I ran to the car (I purposely parked far from the stores) and I wasn't panting like an overheated dog for a change.
It feels really good that I can now do three sets of 8 pushups ON MY TOES! Yesterday, I did full situps! FULL SITUPS! I don't think I have ever in my life did full situps. Even in high school gym class, My feet were all over the place trying to pull myself up.
I didn't get to this point overnight. It took me three months of doing those stairs every day before I could run all the way up. A year ago, I started doing pushups before bed at night, two every night for a couple weeks, then five for a couple weeks etc. They were't pretty but I forced myself into the habit. I also started doing planks a couple years ago. Those things still kill me but I keep doing them every other day.
If you are still reading this far (God love ya) whatever your goals are, take them in baby steps, every single day. Lifestyle changes are THE ONLY way to reach your goals. Stop watching instant weight-loss infomercials, go for a walk, climb stairs, lift soup cans, eat three cookies instead of half the bag, drink water. Then walk farther, then lift gallons of milk, eat one cookie and drink more water.
Subscribe to the KISS mentality.... Keep It Simple Stupid.
I hope you have a wonderful day!
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Well, needless to say, Christmas eve with my family was nowhere near a Norman Rockwell portrait. Even for my family, I thought everyone sunk to a new low. I was just floored and then I was extremely angry.
When no apologies came, I became even angrier. How do you treat family like that, on a holiday no less and just expect everyone to go on like nothing happened?!
I should know not to question this, of course, this is how I was raised. So anger and resentment have built up in me for many years but I have always pushed it away, or ate it away, or when I'm dedicated, I exercised it away and put a smile on my face for the next holiday.
I've been having a hard time letting go of it this time and the aggravation continued to stew and fester. I could feel the acid in my chest and stomach all day today.
I started taking a yoga class at my library the beginning of this year. It made a world of difference for me with work stress. But I got sick recently and then Christmas so no yoga the last two weeks.
Yesterday I did the Spark People 30 minuteTotal Body challenge workout from the 28-Day Bootcamp DVD so my thighs are barking big time. No way could I go run this anxiety off.
So I put a load of laundry in, logged on to spark people to look for a calming yoga workout. I found the 15 minute Qi Gong Routine.
When I started the Qi Gong video, I had my doubts. I was too wound up I thought, yoga helps with minor work stress. I am in serious stress. I turned off the light and turned up the volume on the computer to drown out the chatter in my head.
The narrator's calm voice, the mountains, the swish noise coming from my washing machine almost instantly calmed me.
Half way through I felt everything just release. My neck and chest unclenched. I closed my eyes, pictured doing this on my favorite spot in Key West near the ocean where I was married six years ago.
I have educated myself to know that holding on to anger and resentment only hurts me, not the person who hurt me but it was just so hard to let go of this time. I cannot change other people, just my reaction to them. I know this, but sometimes it is extremely difficult.
I HIGHLY recommend this video in times of stress. Even if you don't get into yoga. It's very easy, and SO relaxing.
Thank you to my spark friends who helped me try to let it go today! I hope everyone who reads this can find a way to let something go that they cannot change.
Monday, December 24, 2012
During this holiday season, I hope everyone is finding peace and happiness. Hugs all around!
The following is one of my many favorite movie lines, from the movie Love Actually.......
Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, I think about the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport. General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that.
It seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it's always there - fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends.
When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge - they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around.
Friday, December 21, 2012
Consult not your fears but your hopes and dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what is still possible for you to do.
Pope John XXIII
I hope everyone has a wonderful day/weekend/holiday!
Do something that makes you happy and proud of yourself, no matter how small!
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