Tuesday, June 04, 2013
Okay, I planned to walk every morning this week and track all of my food no matter what I ate. Well,....I've done it for two days! This morning was brutal with the heat! Yesterday was hot, but there was a good breeze blowing off the water. Today, no breeze and the sun was beating down already at 7:00 am! Think by 8 AM it was 81 degrees with 83% humidity...talk about breathing water! But I did it and I even jogged a few times just so I could get it over with. My daughter was a trooper and enjoyed it!
Eating has been okay. Monday night I caved in and got fast food and went over my caloric intake about 100 calories. I was happy with most of the day. Today I stayed within my calorie intake!! Yeah!! I feel like I have to munch all the time so I just planned to eat "snacks" throughout the day. I had oatmeal, apple, carrots, rice cakes with turkey, yogurt, watermelon. I did break down and get some fast food, but I got smaller items.
I'm not happy with the fast food cravings, but I'm taking one step at a time.
I am really dreading the walk tomorrow morn. I am going to attempt to wake up 30 minutes earlier to get it done earlier. It is suppose to be 77 degrees with 84% humidity....yuck!!!!
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
To all the Sparkies out there, have a wonderful Thanksgiving whether its with a house full of family and friends or a quiet day to reflect.
I don't blog much, but still struggling to get into a routine and lose weight and pay attention to what I eat. Definitely making better choices and still walk/run at least twice a week for 4 miles each time.
I just need to be tougher with myself. You know that good angel and bad devil on the shoulder I keep talking about?.....Well they are still going at it, bad devil it ahead, but good angel is not giving up.
I'm not getting so upset with myself about my situation. I just accomplished a huge undertaking emotionally so I feel more free to focus on myself.
Just a side note: I would make a huge list of things I could get done in a day cleaning house, running errands, .... and I would never get it done, so I would beat myself up about it, get depressed, tell myself how pathetic I was and disappointed I was of myself. Last weekend I was about to do the same thing, then I stopped and just said.....just scrub the bathroom floor today, that's all I want to accomplish. In my head I was running down a huge list again, but I kept telling myself just scrub the bathroom floor, then see if you have time to accomplish something else. Well I scrubbed the bathroom floor and I was so proud of myself. I know it sound ridiculous but for me to accomplish a task without interruptions, delays, laziness it was a good step forward. I'm still proud of the that task (lol)! Now I just need to put that into play with my eating and exercise.
I want to thank all of you that give out support, that keep in touch. It means a lot to me. Thanks. I should be back on track with logging in daily once we get back from DISNEY!!!
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
It's been a while since I posted a blog. Been busy with work, daughter and dealing with my issue (divorce). The final hearing is next Wednesday. Not to spill my guts, but this has been tough and dealing with emotional abuse and mind games. (some people just don't grow up)
Anyway, I'm actually excited about it and looking forward to it. Some things have come up that will help me with this issue. I'm not sure how the other party is going to handle it, but I am definitely stronger now to deal with it.
I can not explain how I felt just less than a year ago, much less two years ago when all of this started. Looking back I can't believe I was that person. I feel like I have 110% back of my old self with a little extra due to all of the support from family, friends, counseling and my SP buddies.
I wish I could say I have the eating issues under control, but I don't. I know I definitely eat better than I use to and are making better choices. But I still make bad decisions (i.e. pop tarts yesterday morn :-( and trips through the drive thru).
I think once this HUGE weight is lifted off my shoulder next week, I will feel more focused on myself. I still do my walk/jog. I try to get in at least 3 days a week. Two of the days are 4 mile routes in the morn and the weather has been great! I do yoga once a week a totally love it. I can feel a difference in my body and mind when I can't make it.
So this journey so far hasn't shown success in the scale. I may lose a few pounds, but then gain it back again. I can visualize what I want, what goals I want and I have even lowered my expectations on myself for the moment. I know if I can kick myself in the rear and get started I can accomplish this.
I feel like I say the same thing, just a different blog. I really don't have anyone to talk about this since my family can control their eating and can be disciplined. They support me, but it's not the same. My friends don't seem to have the issues I have so I just keep loggin on to SP for my support.
I am not a writer and I don't have time to write so my blog entries are sparatic. Plus I don't want to seem like a whiner all the time.
I wanted my goal to be 20 lbs lighter by this time when I started in March 2012, but nothing has changed. It is disappointing, but I just have to keep moving forward. I have a 5K at Disney in January. I am too scared to make a goal weight because I just don't have the confidence I'll keep it up.
Enough of my whining. May not enter another blog until after next week.
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